Merciful God! What was this? Oh no, it could not be! My eyes were deceiving me. It was some illusion. Feverishly I read again. Yes, they were the same words. What could they mean? Surely, surely--Oh, horror on horrors! They could not mean THAT. Again I read them. Yes, there they were:
"If you are fool enough to believe that Berna is faithful to you visit your brother's room to-night.
"A wellwisher."
Berna! Garry!--the two I loved. Oh, it could not be! It was monstrous!
It was too horrible! I would not believe it; I would not. Curse the vile wretch that wrote such words! I would kill him. Berna! my Berna! she was as good as gold, as true as steel. Garry! I would lay my life on his honour. Oh, vile calumny! what devil had put so foul a thing in words?
God! it hurt me so, it hurt me so!
Dazedly I sat down. A sudden rush of heat was followed by a sweat that pricked out of me and left me cold. I trembled. I saw a ghastly vision of myself in a mirror. I felt sick, sick. Going to the decanter on the bureau, I poured myself a stiff jolt of whisky.
Again I sat down. The paper lay on the hearthrug, and I stared at it hatefully. It was unspeakably loathsome, yet I was fascinated by it. I longed to take it up, to read it again. Somehow I did not dare. I was becoming a coward.
Well, it was a lie, a black devil's lie. She was with one of the neighbours. I trusted her. I would trust her with my life. I would go to bed. In the morning she would return, and then I would unearth the wretch who had dared to write such things. I began to undress.
Slowly I unfastened my collar--that cursed paper; there it lay. Again it fascinated me. I stood glaring at it. Oh, fool! fool! go to bed.
Wearily I took off my clothes--Oh, that devilish note! It was burning into my brain--it would drive me mad. In a frenzy of rage, I took it up as if it were some leprous thing, and dropped it in the fire.
There I lay in bed with the darkness enfolding me, and I closed my eyes to make a double darkness. Ha! right in the centre of my eyes, burned the fatal paper with its atrocious suggestion. I sprang up. It was of no use. I must settle this thing once and for all. I turned on the light and deliberately dressed again.
I was going to the hotel where Garry had his room. I would tell him I had come back unexpectedly and ask to share his room. I was not acting on the note! I did not suspect her. Heaven forbid! But the thing had unnerved me. I could not stay in this place.
The hotel was quiet. A sleepy night-clerk stared at me, and I pushed past him. Garry's rooms were on the third floor. As I climbed the long stairway, my heart was beating painfully, and when I reached his door I was sadly out of breath. Through the transom I could see his light was burning.
I knocked faintly.
There was a sudden stir.
Again I knocked.
Did my ears deceive me or did I hear a woman's startled cry? There was something familiar about it--Oh, my God!
I reeled. I almost fell. I clutched at the doorframe. I leaned sickly against the door for support. Heaven help me!
"I'm coming," I heard him say.
The door was unlocked, and there he stood. He was fully dressed. He looked at me with an expression on his face I could not define, but he was very calm.
"Come in," he said.
I went into his sitting-room. Everything was in order. I would have sworn I heard a woman scream, and yet no one was in sight. The bedroom door was slightly ajar. I eyed it in a fascinated way.
"I'm sorry to disturb you, Garry," I said, and I was conscious how strained and queer my voice sounded. "I got back suddenly, and there's no one at home. I want to stay here with you, if you don't mind."
"Certainly, old man; only too glad to have you."
His voice was steady. I sat down on the edge of a chair. My eyes were riveted on that bedroom door.
"Had a good drive?" he went on genially. "You must be cold. Let me give you some whisky."
My teeth were chattering. I clutched the chair. Oh, that door! My eyes were fastened on it. I was convinced I heard some one in there. He rose to get the whisky.
"Say when?"
I held the glass with a shaking hand:
"When."
"What's the matter, old man? You're ill."
I clutched him by the arm.
"Garry, there's some one in that room."
"Nonsense! there's no one there."
"There is, I tell you. Listen! Don't you hear them breathing?"
He was quiet. Distinctly I could hear the panting of human breath. I was going mad, mad. I could stand it no longer.
"Garry," I gasped, "I'm going to see, I'm going to see."
"Don't----"
"Yes, I must, I say. Let me go. I'll drag them out."
"Hold on----"
"Leave go, man! I'm going, I say. You won't hold me. Let go, I tell you, let go--Now come out, come out, whoever you are--Ah!"
It was a woman.
"Ha!" I cried, "I told you so, brother; a woman. I think I know her, too. Here, let me see--I thought so."
I had clutched her, pulled her to the light. It was Berna.
Her face was white as chalk, her eyes dilated with terror. She trembled.
She seemed near fainting.
"I thought so."
Now that it seemed the worst was betrayed to me, I was strangely calm.
"Berna, you're faint. Let me lead you to a chair."
I made her sit down. She said no word, but looked at me with a wild pleading in her eyes. No one spoke.