Chapter 51 - A Sweet Burden

Translated by Eve

Edited by Kara

16. A Sweet Burden

Once youve lost someones trust and let down their expectations, any warm words would only be regarded as lies.

Deng Jingwens expression was pained as he gently held the boy.

Xie He, however, began to struggle with all his might. He was extremely agitated, Dont touch me, dont touch me! Dont touch me!

His face was full of tears as he cried hysterically. There was helplessness and despair in his cries as if he had finally fallen apart, Dont touch mewhy do you have to like mewhy do you have to like meIm already ugly, really uglywuwu.

Xie He struggled too fiercely. Deng Jingwen was afraid that he would hurt himself, so he had no choice but to let go. His voice was choked with pain, I wont touch you. Dont be agitated. I wont force you again.

Xie He curled up, eyes red. He stared at him with a vigilant and fearful gaze, trembling.

The hand hanging by Deng Jingwens side clenched, and he said, Dont be afraid. Ill leave.

Deng Jingwen left the room and leaned against the wall. He raised his head so that he was staring at the ceiling. He felt that his eyes were somewhat wet, but he didnt cry any tears. Actually, he was in a lot of pain, but he couldnt cry, he couldnt scream, he couldnt fall apart, he couldnt show weaknessthis was probably Heavens punishment for himto have to remain calm and persevere on, so as to atone for his sins.

Who knew for how long.

From the room, a crash suddenly sounded.

Deng Jingwen quickly pushed the door open. He saw that the bowl on the table had been smashed apart. The boy was using a broken shard from the bowl to slash his wrists! Lots of blood was flowing out! The blood on the floor made Deng Jingwen furious. The scene of when he had found the boy replayed in his mind. Just a bit more and he would lose the boy forever!

He rushed over and grabbed the shard out of the boys hands! He clenched it tightly in his hand, and didnt care in the least as the shard cut into his own flesh. He saw the boy trying to grab another shard on the ground. Thus, he grabbed the boy by the waist and forcefully dragged him away.

Xie He struggled like his life depended on it, but he couldnt free himself this time. He cried, Sir, you dont need to care about a pet like me. My face wont get better, so theres no point in keeping me, really.

Deng Jingwens lips trembled, Dont say that.

Xie Hes body froze. The next moment, a fawning smile appeared on that face that was still wet with tear streaks, SorrySir, I was wrong. Dont punish me, OK? I wont say stuff like that anymore.

Deng Jingwen lowered his head and stared at the boy in his arms. The boy was crying but then would start laughing hysterically. He would first struggle and then lower his head suddenly, begging for forgiveness with a fearful and fawning manner.

He finally had no choice but to admit that to the boy, he was only an existence that would cause him pain. That same pain was driving the boy mad, driving him towards death.

How could he bear to let the boy continue being in such pain? The one who should bear this painwas himself.

How could he continue to possess the boy out of his own selfishness, out of his unwillingness to let go.How could he push the boy into desperate straits again, how could he make the same mistake once more? Deng Jingwen shut his eyes in pain.

Fresh blood dripped down from his fingers onto the floor. However, he was completely unaware of this. He parted his lips, voice full of sadness and grief.

I dont like you anymore. Ill let you go.

Ding. The target, Deng Jingwens Favourability Value +2. The current Favourability Value is 96.

When Deng Jingwen said this, his heart felt like it was leaking blood with each word. However, compared to watching helplessly as the boy suffered, everything else became insignificant, including his own pain. Therefore, he was willing to protect the boy silently instead, to never appear before him again.

Ill let you go. First, get your wound redressed, Deng Jingwen said.

When he heard his reply, the boy suddenly became calm. He no longer fussed. Only, he looked rather absent-minded as if he didnt dare believe that this pleasant surprise would have arrived so abruptly. He was dumbfounded.

Deng Jingwen let go and went to summon the doctor. He forced himself not to look back.

Because Xie He had yet to fully recovered, the doctor was staying in the Deng residence. Therefore, he came very quickly. Since Deng Jingwen was able to stop him in time, Xie Hes wounds on his wrist were not deep, so they stopped bleeding rather quickly. They were then wrapped in a layer of white gauze.

Deng Jingwen then carried the boy again. He was silent for a while before taking him into the guest room, expression indifferent, Before you recover, you stay here, ba.

The guest room was incomparable to Deng Jingwens master bedroom, but the boy seemed to finally relax. He nodded lovably and stared at Deng Jingwen cautiously.

Deng Jingwen turned around. He could not hide the pain in his eyeshis boy wanted to leave him so badly. He was afraid that if he looked at him any longer, he would back out of his decision.

Since Deng Jingwen had said I dont like you anymore, Ill let you leave, he really no longer appeared before Xie He.

Xie He shut himself in that little room everyday. He pa.s.sed his days in much satisfaction.

Xie HeIm finally out of Dads sight. See, when a parent cares too much about their child, its also a kind of sweet burden, ah. He lamented. Xie He was eating good food while watching a movie. He even poured himself a gla.s.s of red wine.

444(o) Oh, is that right?

Xie HeBaby, it couldnt be that youve never had someone care for you? Smile.JPG

444Im just a system.

Xie HeCall me Dad. Ill come and love you. :)

444(^)Although he was just a system, he knew that Host

dada

was trying to take advantage of him! He wont be fooled, ne!

Xie HeWhen I think about how I have to leave Dads embrace for a short period of time, I really feel a bit regretful. Smile.JPG

444Saywhy arent you willing to have your face treated?Host

dada

loves this face so much that even when hes in a life-or-death situation, he doesnt forget to take a selfieand yet, he unexpectedly is able to bear with having this scar on his face every day. _(:)_

Xie HeBaby, men are forgetful creatures. Even if he makes many more mistakes, there will always be a day where the memory fades or becomes forgotten. As time pa.s.ses, his regret and guilt will lessen. This is inevitable. With that said, I can slow that process.

Xie HeThis scar will always remind him of what he did to me. It will make him unable to let go of the remorse he feels towards me. He will forever blame himself and suffer, thereby constantly solidifying his love for me. It was so difficult for me to get this scar, how could I let it go? :)

444

A week later, after the doctor helped Xie He change his dressing again, Deng Jingwen came to see him.

Deng Jingwen swept his gaze over Xie He, pain flas.h.i.+ng through his eyes. He handed a folder to him and said, You can leave.

Xie He looked at him inquiringly. He grabbed the folder and opened it up to take a look. There was a deed, car keys, and a checkhis expression instantly turned fearful as if he was holding a hot potato.

Deng Jingwen noticed this. He tried his best to keep his voice cold and calm, I never treat people who have been with me unfairly. You have spent quite a long time with me. This is compensation for the break up. Take it. Dont think too much. Even if it was someone else, Id give them the same. Youre not special.

These words made Xie He instantly calm. He did not get agitated. He lowered his head, eyelashes fluttering. When he thought that he was going to leave his home, finally free himself of here, he suddenly felt sad.

This was the home that he had grown up in. Now, he had to leavebut not as Deng Jingwens son but as a spurned toy.

Xie He fell silent for a moment, Sircan I not take these things and take something else instead?

Deng Jingwens fingers slightly curled. He really wanted to ask,

What will you do if you leave without these things, where will you live, what will you eat, do you even have money to use

but he didnt dare express any concern. He could only suppress his emotions and ask, Are you sure?

Xie He nodded without any hesitation.

Deng Jingwen stared at him and then said, OK. What do you want to take?

Xie He went to the storehouse in the backyard. The storehouse in that corner had already been unused for a long time. The lock was spotted with rustthe last time it had been opened was when they had cleaned out Xie Hes bedroom. All the things that had originally been in his room had been thrown in there. They were all haphazardly thrown in, so it resembled a garbage heap.

He was very glad that this heap of garbage hadnt been thrown away though. Xie He was not afraid of getting dirty. He directly burrowed in and began to search. Very soon, he found a model that had been crushed on one corner.

The model was a little house. It had three bedrooms and a flower garden in front. On top, there was a big person and a little person. This was not a very rare thing. However, it was very special to him.When he was young, he was really stupid. He didnt even build this toy house correctly. That time, when Deng Jingwen returned, he casually helped him fix it. At that time, Xie He was ecstatic. He said that,

This is Dad, this is me, we are a family

.

In his memories, aside from the cold money, cars, and luxury goodsthis was the only time Deng Jingwen had personally helped him.

He had switched cars many times, but this little toy house had always been carefully treasured by him.

Now that he had to leave homethis was the only thing he wanted to take with him.

A nostalgic expression appeared in Xie Hes eyes. He looked serene like he was gazing far in the distance. He said to Deng Jingwen, Sir, I only want to take this with me.

Deng Jingwen looked at the toy house that the boy held in his arms like it was a treasure. That toy house was already crushed in one area. It looked filthy and wasnt worth anything. However, the boy treated it so carefully. In his eyes, cars, houses, and cheques were nowhere near as precious as this thing. They could not give him as much joy as this toy. Since it was like this, why bother insisting?

Deng Jingwen didnt remember at all why the boy cared about this toy house model. He thought that it was a bit familiar, but he could not recall it. Therefore, it must have not been that important. In any case, as long as the boy liked it, all was fine. Therefore, he said, Alright. You take it with you, ba.

The boy left after that. After walking quite a distance, the boy suddenly turned around and glanced at Deng Jingwen. After such a long time, the boy finally smiled. Although his face was no longer beautiful, this smile still caused ripples within Deng Jingwens heart.

The boy smiled, Thank you.

Deng Jingwen did not move. He only stood there, watching as the boy slowly disappeared from his line of sight. He was afraid that if he took even one step forward, he would be unable to bear it and would sprint over to hug the boy, kiss him, tell himthat he loved him, that he wished that he would stay.

But if he did that, he would only build his happiness atop of the boys suffering once more.

Deng Jingwen stood there for a very long time. Only after much time had pa.s.sed did he make a call to arrange for what would come next. The boy didnt want his money, but he didnt have any survival skills. It would definitely be difficult for him to go out on his own. Although he had let him go, he also could not bear to watch the boy be too dejected. He could only think of another way to take care of the boy, a way that would not give him away.

And so, Xie He carried his toy house and left the Deng Residence.

444Host

dada

, what are we going to do now~He was already no longer as fretful as he was in the past. Although theyd left the estate, Host

dada

certainly must have a way to make Deng Jingwen chase after him. He felt completely at ease following this kind of Host

dada

! ()/

Xie He

Mix it with sauce, and serve it cold.

444Yiyiyi ( o ) Ah!It couldnt be that Host

dada

doesnt have a plan this time?!

Xie HeEven if Im an idiot, Deng Jingwen can ensure that I live very well. First, lets let him calm down. I will teach him how to be an appropriate, good father. :)

Xie He aimlessly walked around.

After leaving the Deng Family without his ident.i.ty as Deng Zhuo, he was like a person who had never existed.

He probably had no future too.

Because of the scar on his face, it was inevitable that pa.s.serbys would point at him. Xie He tried to evade their gazes. He felt inferior. All along the way, he lowered his head as he walked. As a result, he b.u.mped into a middle-aged woman in his haste. The coffee in her hand spilled onto herself.

Xie He looked at her, panicked, S-sorry.

The woman was about to get angry, but when she saw how Xie He looked like a frightened little animal, she suddenly gave him a sympathetic look, Forget it. Im fine.

Oh, thank you, Xie He said gratefully.

However, the woman continued to look at Xie He. When he was about to leave, she suddenly shouted, Hey, child, where are you going?

Xie He stared at her, stunned. He didnt speak but began to shake.

The womans expression softened, and she sighed, Do you have nowhere to go?

Xie He pursed his lips, eyes red.

Thus, Xie He was taken in by the woman. She had been divorced for many years. She ran a cafe on her own. Her only child was no longer by her side. She said to Xie He, My name is Yu Yu. Business here is all right. Usually, its not very busy. Help me out around here, and Ill give you a place to live and three meals a day, OK?

Xie He looked at her gratefully, Yes.

Yu Yu nodded and did not say anything more. She directly took Xie He to his living quarters. It was just a simple room. Even the washroom was outside in the corridor. There was not much in the room: just a desk and bed. She gave him a bit of an explanation, telling Xie He that he began work at 9 am, and then left.

As soon as she left, Yu Yu answered a phone call. From her phone came Liu Yans voice, Is it done? Did he agree to stay?

He agreed. Hes quite the good child, Yu Yu paused, voice a bit hesitant, Youwhat do you want me to do? Hes already so pitiful.

Although she had been arranged to get close to Xie He, when she saw the boys quiet and timid appearanceif that face didnt have that scar, he would probably be beautifulshe already couldnt bear to see him get hurt again.

Liu Yan said, Relax, we wont hurt him. You just have to take good care of him. Dont let him find out that something is amiss, and thats it.

Xie He sat on the bed, expression slightly distressed. He was really a bit distressed, because he couldnt hide away and secretly eat good food while watching films. To not be given any privacy was so inhumane.

Xie HeBaby, how many surveillance cameras are there here?

444Two surveillance cameras. One is mounted on the ceiling lamp and the other at the door. There are also five tapping devicesoh, this is such a small room that using one and using five wouldnt make much of a difference though. _(:)_

Xie HeI understand. Dad is truly a control freak. ?

Xie He placed the toy house onto the small desk and fixed his eyes on it. Slowly, a reminiscent and warm smile appeared on his face as if he was immersed in some beautiful dream. His smile was even happy and sweet.

His voice was soft, Dad.

He arranged the two figurines that had been a bit squished so that they were facing each other.

Dad, you said that this was you and me, remember?

This is our house. This room is yours, and this one is mine. We also have a garden, and youd play with me in the garden. This is ours, ne.

Xie He spoke and spoke, tears eventually falling down.

Dadfortunately, I still have you with me. I know that youll always be by my side.

Eve: .*sobs*. If Xie He! Deng Zhuo was my son I would shower him with maternal affection, this poor baby.

Kara: WHO IS CUTTING ONIONS HERE!!?? ( ) Yu Yu, please treat my baby well!! Hes been through too much already!!