"Okay, let's talk about this rationally." Jules takes my hand in hers and looks me in the eye. "He loves you."

"He'll think I'm trying to trap him."

She laughs a laughs a and squeezes my hand. "Natalie, that won't even cross his mind."

"His family will think that."

"Who gives a fuck?"

"He just barely proposed."

"Now you're just babbling. Natalie, look at me."

"It's too soon." My eyes fill as they find hers. Thank God she's here with me. "We just met, we're still learning each other, Jules. We've been engaged for less than a week. It's too soon."

The tears come in earnest as my phone rings again. I send it straight to voice mail.

"Nat, you have to talk to him."

"I'm not telling him this over the phone."

"No, he'll worry if you don't answer the phone, silly." My phone rings again, but I'm crying too hard now to answer it.

"You answer. Tell him I'm in the bathroom or something."

"Natalie's phone," Jules answers. "No, sorry Luke, she's in the bathroom. Want me to have her call you back? Uh huh. Oh, okay, I'll tell her. Bye."

"Well?" I ask when she hangs up.

"He's going into another meeting but he'll call you later."

"Good." I let my head fall against the bed. "Oh, God, what am I going to do?"

"What are you talking about? You and Luke are going to be parents." Jules takes my hand again. "Nat, you'll be awesome parents."

"It's too soon," I whisper and put both hands over my face and weep.

Chapter Thirty-Two.

My crying jag subsides and I take a deep breath as Nurse Mo returns to change my I.V. bag.

How am I going to tell Luke that I'm pregnant? I know he wants kids, and so do I, but not yet. We're not even married yet. I couldn't bear it if he thought I was trying to trap him into something he doesn't want.

Jules turns on the TV and flips through channels, pausing when she finds a nightly entertainment gossip show.

"We spotted Luke Williams out today."

Holy shit!

"He was having a romantic lunch with Vanessa Horn, one of his former co-stars from the Nightwalker movies. Has Luke finally come out of hiding to rekindle his romance with the lovely Vanessa? They were engaged to be married for over a year before their split early last year. We smell love in the air! We will be sure to keep you updated on Luke and Vanessa as we get more details." There is a series of photos rolling across the screen, taken today. I recognize the black t-shirt and jeans he wore on the plane. He and the beautiful blond Vanessa are indeed leaving a restaurant, his arm is around her shoulders and he's smiling down at her, his nose pressed against her ear. Then there's a photo of him wrapping his arms around her shoulders and pulling her in for a kiss. The camera is angled badly, so I can't actually see the lip lock, but it's obvious that's what they're doing. In the next photo, she's getting into a car and he's holding the door for her. In the last photo, he's getting into the driver's side of that same car.

"Holy fuck, he's cheating on me."

"We don't know that."

"I just saw it with my own eyes!"

"Nat, it's the fucking paparazzi. They make everything up."

"Pictures don't lie. I know that better than anyone. You saw the way he was touching her and looking at her. He kissed her."

The jealousy running through me is primal. My heart is hammering, I'm breathing hard, and I feel my face heat. If I didn't have anti-nausea meds on board I'd be hurling again.

"Natalie," Jules murmurs and takes my hand. "I'm sure it's not what you think."

I shake my head and give in to the tears. "It's over."

"No, Natalie. No. Talk to him about it tomorrow."

"There's nothing to talk about." I shake my head again, unable to believe what I just saw. "I can't trust him. I can't live this celebrity life with him."

"You're being silly."

"Shut up! You're supposed to be on my side! You're my goddamn friend, not his. He's fucking around on me! I just saw proof, so show some fucking loyalty, Jules."

"I'm sorry." She starts to cry too, and I feel like a shit.

"Come here." I scoot over and she crawls up onto the bed with me, holding me to her as we weep. "What am I going to do?"

"Take some time. You've just found out you're pregnant after being violently ill. You're not thinking straight. Take some time." She's stroking my hair and I am so thankful for her.

"Okay."

My phone pings, and it's a text from Luke.

Almost done with today's meetings, baby. Will call you tonight. Love you.

"Fucker." I throw the phone down and don't bother to answer, but the floodgates open to more tears. About five minutes later there's another text.

I haven't heard from you all day. I miss you. You okay?

"Nat, you have to talk to him."

"No." I turn the phone off and throw it in my handbag.

A few minutes later Dr. Anderson returns with my prescriptions and discharge instructions. "You're free to go, Natalie. Good luck."

I'm going to need it.

Jules drives us to the pharmacy and then home. I'm loaded down with medication and vitamins.

When we get home I go up to my room and crawl onto the bed, curl into a ball and weep like I haven't since my parents died. I feel like my world is literally falling apart, and essentially, it is. I can't be with Luke. He'll make up excuses for what I saw today, but he can't change it. He had his hands on that woman, in an intimate way. He used to be engaged to her, and he lied to me when he told me he never spoke to his former fiance.

I press my hand to my belly. Oh, God, and what am I supposed to do about the baby? Be a single parent? I guess I can do that, I don't see a choice. But the thought of it tears my heart out.

I fall asleep in the middle of my bed, sobbing and mourning the best relationship I've ever had, the loss of the one person I saw myself spending the rest of my life with.

"Wake up, Nat." I startle awake at Luke's voice.

"What are you doing here?" His eyes are worried and he's leaning over me, his face pale.

"I couldn't reach you all day and I was worried so I came home. Why didn't you tell me you were sick?"

"Who told you I'm sick?" I sit up and scoot back out of his grasp and he frowns, confused.

"Jules said you'd been sick today and she took you to the E.R. Baby, you don't look very good."

"Yeah, I'm probably contagious. You should go home." I wrap my arms around myself and I just can't look him in the face.

"Natalie, what's wrong?"

"I just don't feel good."

"Bullshit, look at me. Where's your ring?" His eyes are on my left hand.

"In my jewelry box."

"Why isn't it on your finger?" His voice is rising and he's starting to look desperate, and I'm still sad and pissed and hormonal and I know this is not going to go well.

"Luke, I think you should go home."

"No. Tell me what's wrong."

I can't stop the tears as they fall down my face. Luke reaches for me, but I pull back.

"Let me touch you."

"No." I shake my head. "I just want you to go home."

Luke pushes his hands through his hair in frustration. "Nat, let me help. Talk to me."

"You've done enough."

"What does that mean?"

"Just go home!" I shout.

"No!" he shouts back.

I hang my head in my hands and hate myself for crying in front of him. "Just go," I whisper.

"You're scaring the shit out of me. What is wrong?"

"I saw you." I raise my face and look him square in the eye. "I saw you with Vanessa outside of a restaurant in L.A. I saw you with your arm around her and your nose against her fucking ear, your mouth was on hers and you got into a car with her."

He frowns and swallows.

"Now get the fuck out."

"Natalie, that was a lunch meeting for a movie I'm asking her to do. There were three other people there. Did you see them in the photos too?"

"I don't care."

"I'm not lying to you."

"I know what I saw."

"You saw exactly what the motherfucking paparazzi wanted you to see! I told you from the beginning, you need to talk to me, Natalie."

I'm shaking my head adamantly. "You lied to me when you told me that you don't speak to your ex-fiance. You wig out on me about Brad, ask me to respect your feelings when it comes to working with men, but you don't give me a heads up that you're going to be meeting with a woman you not only used to fuck, but were supposed to marry? According to those photos, you more than talk to her. Did you fuck her in that car?"

"Jesus Christ, no! Is that what you think?"

"Just go. I can't trust you and I don't want you here."

"You're making this more than what it is. I'm telling you, it was a business meeting."

"Okay. I still don't want you here."

"Fuck, Nat." He stands up and paces around my room, looking everywhere, running his hands through his hair. "Why won't you believe me?"

"You lied to me, and that's a line I can't deal with you crossing."

"I didn't lie!" he shouts. "I haven't spoken to her until this week when I asked her to do the fucking movie!"

Oh, why won't he just go? My tears are coming again.

"Baby, don't cry. I promise, I'm not lying to you about this." He steps toward me but I hold my hand up, stopping him.

"You need to know what seeing that did to me. You didn't look like colleagues, Luke. You had your hands on her and the look on your face was the one you give me when you smile at me." He swallows and I continue. "You effectively ripped my heart out and stomped it to dust with just one look. Now, I'm upset and hurt and hormonal, and I can't deal with you tonight. I need you to give me some space, and I need it now because I just can't look at you anymore."