Seeing the sorrow and despair in Qin Yang, He Jin felt that his heart was twisting.

Qin Yang hurriedly asked, is it because Ive signed the contract with the entertainment company, and it has given you pressure? Did anyone come to you and look for troubles? If you dont like it, Ill cancel the contract now!

No, Qin Yang, it has nothing to do with it, you dont have to change anything for me. He Jin tried not to cry and he shook his head, its because of me, this is a very difficult path for me. Even without that kind of pressure, we wont be together forever. And we will certainly not be able to walk under suns.h.i.+neQin Yang, lets return now. Lets break up.

I dont accept it! Qin Yang hurriedly started begging through the bracelet, He Jin, I cannot, I am going to the train station now, and I will buy the next train to Q city. You wait for me, I want to see you, I want to see you

He Jin immediately stopped, Qin Yang, Ive made up my mind. Be mature, and dont do anything stupid. And dont come look for meyouve become so excellent now, you dont have to limit yourself for me, Im sure youll find someone much better, and that person wont be meI dont deserve it.

He Jin tried his utmost best not to tremble. After this sentence, he hung up and switched off his bracelet.

It seemed that theres still warmth and breath of Qin Yang from the previous night. His shoulders were shaking, he couldnt stand still anymore. He slowly squatted and held his body. His heart was going to be torn apart.

He was convincing himself over and over again. He Jin, youve let yourself go, youve chased your dream. Youve drunk, stayed up, played the tennis, skipped cla.s.ses, went skiing, and had the most memorable relations.h.i.+pthose things that youve wanted to do, youve tried them all, and you have no regrets now. Its time to return to the right path and bear your responsibilities.

Qin Yang couldnt get through the phone of He Jin, he kicked the coffee table, threw the cus.h.i.+on on the floor and hit on the wall furiously. Then, he sat on the floor and began to think hard what he had done wrong. Why did He Jin leave him? Hes already done everything he could, and he tried so hard to be the best. Everything seemed to be going well, and he still seemed to see He Jin was.h.i.+ng dishes in front of him at this moment. But now, hes left alone again, and hes the only one in this apartment

He tried his very best to calm down, and slowly picked up the small pieces of the letter that he had thrown on the floor. His hands were shaking, and he was trying to make them in order again. Some got under the sofa, and some got stuck in the crack of the corners of the tablehe couldnt find all of them. In the end, it was an incomplete letter.

Qin Yang, sorry

Two months ago, my father found me and told me that my mothers fallen sick. She has serious depression. I saw her once and shes not in a good condition. She also doesnt know what shes doing. I thought that Id fight for the freedom to be with you, yet she even refused to let me work in A City. After I mentioned it, she immediately reacted vigorously. Let alone mentioning to be with you

My dad knows that I am with you and he slapped me. This is the first time he has ever slapped me, since hes really disappointed in me. I am not trying to complain to you, I am just telling you how difficult it is for us to be together

She only gave birth to me at the age of 39. When she was 44, my brother was gone, and Im now their only son, their only mental supporttheyre over 60 now, and if I just let myself be the way I am, Ill only make my mom suffer more, and my dad will also bear heavier pressure. Please, forgive me, I cant be so selfish to only think of my happiness.

Qin Yang tightened his fist and read further with teary eyes

I might be listening to them, find a stable job at home, andmaybe get married, but Im not sure if I can still like a woman, as youve left such a deep mark in my heart

I dont agree. He Jin, I dont agree! Youre mine, and I wont allow you to get married!

Qin Yang, your father once told me to never hurt you. I couldnt keep that promise. I am so sorry, I cant hurt my parents, and I could choose to hurt yousometimes, I really envy you. Youre so brave and confident, and youre so positive, I feel really happy to be with youIm so jealous of you, and thats why I left, as I wanted to let you know that the world doesnt turn around just for you aloneam I too evil? Right, I think so, Im too bad, Im weak and I look down on myself. So, please stop loving me.

I curse myself, so that I can bear this pain for my whole life for hurting you. And I wish you could find someone a hundred, a thousand times better than me. I hope that person wont leave you again and again like I did. And I hope he can stay with you forever, love, protect and cherish you forever.

Ah Jin, who doesnt deserve your love.

Stupidstupid Ah Jin While Qin Yang was holding those torn papers, tears wouldnt stop dropping from his eyes. Hes like a lost kid and he could no longer control his fear. He started crying loudly

He didnt know for how long hed cried, but Qin Yang felt like some part of his body was broken. He stood up and looked around all of He Jins stuff was still there. His notebook, tennis racket, the book on his desk, the game helmet, even his clothes were still all in the closetthese stuffs gave an illusion to Qin Yang, as if He Jin had never left. Its like that person just went out for a while and hed return soon. The voice that once called him lazy would the most beautiful sound on earth now.

Qin Yang wanted to get away from the reality. He went back to bed and used the blanket to wrap himself up. He slept for the whole afternoon, and only woke up in the evening, feeling more exhausted. He really wanted to tell himself that its just a nightmare after all. But once he opened his eyes again, his brain reminded him about the breakup. The apartment was filled with quietness, and Qin Yang held his head sorrowfully, ah ah ah