He'd been within ten feet of an exit, and sure, maybe the smoke got heavier and obscured it, but if he stood still long enough, surely the smoke would lift and the door and the woman would reappear.

He saw something. He wasn't sure what. A movement. A sliver of light. He moved toward it.

He felt a hard shove from behind and dropped to keep from stumbling, striking the concrete hard with his knees. When he put his hands out to push himself back up, he realized he was on the lip of a deep shaft, a shaft somebody had tried to catapult him into. He rolled to the side and crawled along the edge of the shaft in the blackness.

Switching the Pa.s.s device on, he flung it across the floor. Twenty-five seconds later the device began emitting a high-pitched wail. He heard movement, scuffling boots heading in the direction of the Pa.s.s. A burning timber crashed nearby, and when sparks flew off, he saw two helmeted figures in full bunkers. He couldn't tell if they saw him or not.

After some time he realized he was staring at the ceiling light in a medic unit. The firefighter paramedic, an intense woman in a white shirt, was bending over him asking questions.

Naked except for a pair of wet boxer shorts and socks, Finney lay on his back under what felt like a giant sticky spiderweb. An electric fan somewhere blew air across his torso. He was thirsty, his teeth as dry as pebbles in the desert.

For some reason he knew he was still on scene. Put an address on it, he thought, straining to make his mind function, but he couldn't come up with the day of the week or even the name of the president when they asked him. He couldn't identify the unit he'd been riding or his partner. "Bill Cordifis," he finally muttered, when they asked, but even as he said the words he knew he'd flunked the quiz.

He was drifting in and out of his own life.

Although he realized even as he was speaking that he wasn't making sense, he felt he had a story to tell, one they needed to hear. He found himself jabbering about victims, female firefighters in raincoats, unknown a.s.sailants; even as he tried to get the tale out, he knew the odd-shaped lumber in his sentences was not building a structure that would stand. He knew his words conveyed nothing but his own befuddlement, and the worst part of it, now that he'd begun talking, was that he couldn't stop. And when he did stop, he couldn't start again.

Determined to compose a single sentence that would convey all of his desperation, he fell silent, straining to muster the right sequence of words. The faces over him were as somber as if they were peering into a casket.

When he moved his head from side to side ever so slightly, it seemed as if the entire medic unit tipped. The effect was so bewildering and wondrous he continued rolling his head back and forth for some minutes.

The medic who'd been working on him, a short-haired, broad-shouldered woman with a chest that, from Finney's angle, all but obscured her face, stood up straight and, with a certain amount of deference, addressed someone at the rear of the van.

"We're putting ringers into him, Chief. This is our second bag. When we got him, he had a rate of one fifty-eight and his blood pressure was eighty palp and falling. We cut everything off and put this damp sheet over him, but he's not cooling down. We didn't think to take his core temperature until maybe ten minutes into it. It was a hundred six. Hallucinations start at around a hundred five. You want to talk to him, fine, but he's not making any sense. Right now we need to get more fluids on board and stick him in a hyperbaric chamber."

"John? How are you, old pal?" The voice was directly over him, deliberate, cool-headed, and noticeably more affable than it had been with the medic. This was a man who knew what he wanted. "John?"

Finney stopped rocking his head and peered down between his feet through the open back doors of the medic van. Beyond his feet he saw a wall of rippling orange.

"John, we need to know what happened. We need to know. Where's your partner? We've got a man missing, and you're the only one who knows where he is. John, this is Chief Reese. Your old friend, Charlie. Stop and think and try to make sense. John, where is Gary?"

"I carried him out."

"You couldn't have. You could barely walk when they found you."

"Before they found me. Left him with a couple of firefighters in the doorway."

"John? Don't go to sleep. Where'd you leave Gary?"

Finney could hear voices, but he couldn't get his eyes open.

Reese barked out orders. "Get somebody to check all the doorways. Get moving. And don't let those newspaper people know what you're doing."

It was then that a bulky figure in a dirty yellow bunking suit parted the white-shirted workers, an older man with a fleshy face and ruddy cheeks. It wasn't unusual for Finney to see Bill Cordifis. He was dead, obviously, but Finney saw him once or twice a week. Sometimes in the visage of an old man collecting aluminum cans behind a supermarket. Sometimes he was a utility truck driver, or a face on a pa.s.sing bus, a man in the pa.s.senger seat of a motor home on the freeway.

Leaning close, Cordifis said, "Bet you thought you were rid of me, huh, Sport?"

"I tried to get you out," Finney whispered. "I tried my best."

Unb.u.t.toning his bunking coat, Cordifis said, "See what you did?"

From deep down in his stomach, from somewhere near the base of his spine, Finney could feel the scream coming even as he tried to staunch it. Although he'd lost most of his voice from the smoke, the sound he made was hideous. Hands struggled to hold him down, and as he screamed he knew he sounded like a gut-shot dog. The knowledge did not arrest the howl coming out of him. He screamed and screamed again.

51. JERKED OFF BY A MORON.

Tuesday morning Oscar was forced to park nearly a half mile away from the site. Besides the gawkers who mobbed the intersection near the smoldering ruins, there were hundreds of firefighters who'd come to mingle in the smoke and early-morning fog. With one man missing and another possibly dying in the hospital, the mood was distinctly gloomy. Intermixed in the crowd were a few female fire groupies, but mostly male wanna-bes with bulging muscles and military haircuts, or fire-buff types, pocket protectors swollen with pens, medical flashlights, EMT cheat cards, and chief's badges they'd bought mail-order from the back of Firehouse Firehouse magazine. What a circus, Oscar thought. magazine. What a circus, Oscar thought.

Nearly every civilian vehicle pa.s.sing through the intersection slowed as the occupants stared at the ruins. Some of the pa.s.sersby rolled down their windows and shouted questions at the traffic babe under the light. Others turned on their headlights or pushed flowers out their windows onto the roadway-which by noon was carpeted with crushed roses and carnations, the sweetness blending with the bottom-of-the-shoe odor of last night's fire.

Oscar wished he had a nickel for every time Finney's name was invoked.

It was a bad time for the fire department. The medics said they'd be surprised if Finney survived, and even though he was officially listed as missing, everybody knew Gary Sadler was dead.

It was all so needless, Oscar thought. For Christ's sake, a fellow who five months ago had been as badly injured as Finney, you'd think he would do anything to avoid Operations Division. Yet the dumb b.a.s.t.a.r.d couldn't get back into combat fast enough, clearly a man who couldn't stay out of trouble. Look at that mess on Riverside Drive.

Everybody knew barking dogs got shot, and it surprised Oscar that a man as intelligent as Finney could get himself into this kind of bind.

The newspapers were bound to regurgitate the Leary Way story. Last summer both Seattle papers had run multiple features on Leary Way, the Seattle Fire Department, and firefighting in general. Oscar remembered some of the press clippings: FIRE CHIEF FIRE CHIEF'S SON NARROWLY ESCAPES BLAZE. CAPTAIN DIES, CHIEF'S SON LIVES. FIREFIGHTER'S BEST EFFORTS UNREWARDED. Nor would the media pa.s.s up a chance to rerun last summer's photos of Reese and Kub emerging from that flame-shrouded doorway. n.o.body was going to overlook the fact that John Finney had been a key player in both debacles. Oscar hated to see a firefighter go to the grave with that sort of stain on his reputation, especially a firefighter as likable as Finney.

It would be better if he died. They would give him a hero's funeral, shed a few tears when the bagpipes played, start a college fund in his name.

Media mavens had flown in from as far away as L.A. and San Francisco, and Oscar knew that as long as the story remained ongoing, as long as Gary Sadler was missing and the outcome of Finney's hospital stay remained in question, there would be hourly updates. Breaking news, they called it. Chief Reese milked his minutes in the limelight, joking with the large-jawed news lady from KSTW-TV in Tacoma as if she were an old girlfriend, or as if he wished she were. Reese knew that once Sadler's body was recovered, the media would stop focusing on the minute-by-minute events and begin digging into why it happened. When it came to that business about not promoting Finney, Reese was going to look d.a.m.ned near prescient.

At noon Oscar tucked his shirt in and wandered over to the traffic enforcement babe under the light at West Marginal and Michigan, a dishwater blond with a thick waist and an officious air about her that amused Oscar. They chatted for five minutes, and when he asked for her phone number, she pulled her lips into a thin smile and informed him that she had had a boyfriend. Oscar said her having a boyfriend didn't bother him in the least. Unlike a lot of Seattle males, Oscar Stillman wasn't afraid of women. He told her so, said he'd grown up with six sisters and four aunts, had three daughters, and had been married and divorced three times. He liked women and they liked him, too. a boyfriend. Oscar said her having a boyfriend didn't bother him in the least. Unlike a lot of Seattle males, Oscar Stillman wasn't afraid of women. He told her so, said he'd grown up with six sisters and four aunts, had three daughters, and had been married and divorced three times. He liked women and they liked him, too.

He was still talking with her at 1300 hours when John Finney turned up. He was supposed to be dead, or close enough you couldn't tell the difference, so Oscar was as surprised as anyone. Finney wore combat boots, hospital greens, and a pale blue woman's cardigan sweater that was too small, most of the b.u.t.tons in the wrong holes. The getup made him look like a mental patient on furlough. It was obvious he shouldn't have been released from the hospital. He had bloodshot eyes, and his posture, which had always been erect and proud, was slouched and hunchbacked. He moved with the left-slanting gait and wobble of a dying goldfish swimming across the bowl, at times leaning on Diana Moore's shoulder.

No matter what delusions he was harboring, no matter what crimes he might be guilty of, here was a fellow firefighter in obvious physical and emotional distress, and Oscar knew, no matter how many others kept their distance, the Christian ethic was to be friendly. It was Oscar's practice not to abandon the Christian ethic unless there was some profit in it.

"John. John, how the h.e.l.l are you?" Oscar said, approaching the duo as they made their way through the mute cl.u.s.ters of firefighters. Stillman had to step in front of Finney to get his attention. "Hey. Hey, how are you doing, guy? Aren't you going to talk to your old buddy?"

"They find him?" Finney asked, his voice thick.

"You took a h.e.l.l of a beating in there. We're proud of you, boy."

Finney, who had been staring into s.p.a.ce as the crane removed a huge slab of concrete from the rubble, turned to Oscar, his eyes moist from the wind. "You're what?"

"We're proud of you."

"You don't even know what happened," Finney said, brushing past him in a clear dismissal.

Oscar molded his lips into a smile as Diana Moore came abreast and gave him an apologetic look. Nothing like getting jerked off by a moron, Oscar thought. G.o.d, she was pretty for a firefighter. Up close her skin was flawless. And the gray in those eyes was something you could look into forever, like a lake you'd discovered up in the mountains that no one else knew about. She was a work of nature, all right.

As did many of the others during the afternoon, Oscar kept an eye on Finney. Diana Moore remained at his side, as silent and loyal as a guide dog. Oscar wondered if standing around in paper clothing for hours in the November chill bothered Finney; if so, he showed no sign of it.

It was that type of focus that worried Monahan. In fact, it was Jerry who'd paid some drunk he'd found at a bar out on Pacific Highway South to make the phone call about Riverside Drive. G. A. had done his part, too, although by rights he should have arrested Finney a week ago. Had he been in the slammer, last night wouldn't have been necessary.

Finney's discovery of the engine had made all this inevitable. And of course, he never would have looked for the engine if that idiot Paul hadn't tried to run him down in it. n.o.body had okayed that. He'd done it on his own. It didn't matter now. Dead or alive Finney would no longer be the loose cannon. Jailing him would erode his credibility.

By now everybody knew Finney thought he'd spoken to two firefighters inside the Bowman Pork building, even though n.o.body else had been in that part of the building. They'd heard about his screaming, too. Everybody'd heard about his screaming.

Just after four o'clock word percolated through the ranks that the search teams had located a body. Blind luck, Oscar thought, having privately figured it would take three or four days to ferret out the corpse from under those ma.s.sive chunks of concrete and ceiling beams.

The state investigators, along with a federal team from Alcohol, Tobacco, and Firearms, spent almost an hour excavating the area and snapping pictures of the corpse. During the wait small bits of trivia were pa.s.sed down the line like buckets of water along a fire brigade: his body was unrecognizable; both hands were burned off; he'd been found under a piece of machinery; the gold in his teeth had melted out of his head and had wrapped around his skull like strands of a spiderweb. A second Pa.s.s device had been found several feet from Sadler. ATF quickly identified this as the missing Pa.s.s from Finney's backpack. It was easy for those with no imagination to guess what had happened. Sadler had gotten into trouble and Finney had left his Pa.s.s with him and gone for help, just as he had with Cordifis. Of course, that didn't match anything Finney said. Oscar knew it didn't match what happened either.

Oscar smiled. It almost didn't matter that Paul and Michael Lazenby hadn't been able to kill him last night. Anything Finney said now would be discredited before it was out of his mouth.

52. PARANOIA IN BED.

At seven-thirty that evening Diana put John into bed, then took a shower and changed into fresh clothing she'd brought in her gym bag. All day she'd been posing as nurse and nanny. The doctors had told her to call if he showed signs of irrational behavior, ischemic attacks, a loss of consciousness, or anything else that wasn't normal. They were clearly scared to death that he was going to collapse outside their care.

When someone was exposed to smoke, the carbon monoxide in the smoke bonded with the hemoglobin at a rate two hundred times faster than oxygen did, displacing oxygen in the heart, lungs, vital organs, and brain. To make matters worse, the half-life for CO in the blood was five to six hours, which meant concentrations took a long time to dissipate.

The carbon monoxide in Finney's blood had been measured at a level that could easily have proven fatal. Several hours in the hyperbaric chamber on one hundred percent oxygen had brought it down, but the doctors were still worried.

Against medical advice, John had found some scrubs to wear, signed the release form, and walked out of the hospital into the cool morning air as if he actually knew where he was headed. Outside the hospital, where Diana caught up with him, he looked disoriented and helpless.

"You know where you are?" Diana asked.

"I guess I don't."

"Let me drive you home."

"They find Gary?"

"I don't think so."

"Let's go there."

"Come on. I'll show you where my Jeep is."

Diana knew smoke inhalation produced various side effects, including short- and long-term memory loss; the doctors had warned Finney of the potential complications, stressing his need for continued treatment, constant monitoring, and lots of fluids. In the hours since driving him from the fire site to 26's to pick up his things, and then to his houseboat on Lake Union, Diana had forced copious amounts of juice and water down him. Short of hog-tying him and dragging him back to the hospital, she'd done all she could.

Diana turned the lights out and went into the living room where she climbed into his recliner and pulled a quilt over herself. She watched the running lights from a cruiser easing quietly past the window.

She listened to his answering machine take another call, this from a local country-western radio station brazenly asking Finney to drive to their studio tomorrow morning for a chatty interview during the commute hour, as if he was in any condition to talk, or to drive. Or to be chatty.

Sadler's body had been recovered under a stainless-steel tub. Hiding under a tub of pig guts didn't seem like a good way to die, but then there was no good way to die in a fire.

Diana was washing dishes in the kitchen sink, up to her elbows in the hot, sudsy water when Finney called from the other room. Although his bedroom was not particularly warm, he was sitting up in bed, sweating heavily. Avoiding the postage-stamp burn on his neck, she touched his bare shoulder rea.s.suringly. "Something to drink?"

"I've been lying here trying to think it through. I'm confused."

Diana sat on the edge of the bed. "You went to a fire on Engine Twenty-six, down off West Marginal Way. You and Gary went inside searching for victims. Gary never came out."

"No, that's Leary Way. I'm talking about last night."

"That was last night, John."

"But I brought Gary out."

Last night n.o.body believed him, and now she didn't know if she believed him either. She didn't think he would lie, at least not deliberately, but even after coming out of the hyperbaric chamber he'd been about as confused as a man who wasn't drunk or on drugs could get.

"Where did you take him when you brought him out?" she asked.

"I don't know. Two firefighters came over, so I went back in."

"Earlier you said a doorway. Which doorway?"

"I don't know."

"John, why didn't you talk to somebody when you came out? They would have told you the search had been called off."

"I'd just spoken to two firefighters who said they'd seen victims."

"Okay, what if he went back in himself? Isn't that possible? Could he have been looking for you?"

"I saw somebody inside later. It might have been Gary. Did you know he saved my life? That's the second time this month somebody's saved my life."

"John . . ."

"I was hiding from them. I thought they were trying to kill me. I guess I was hiding from Gary."

"They found your Pa.s.s device near Gary's body. Do you know how it got there?"

"I'm sorry. I really can't remember."

"John, n.o.body's going to blame you for not recalling details the day after a fire."

"You gonna be here in the morning?"

"I was planning on it. If that's all right." She handed Finney a drinking gla.s.s half-filled with water, then leaned over and kissed his forehead. "Go to sleep."

"I need to tell you something."

"Not now."

"No, I need to say this. It's about Leary Way. I have to get it off my chest. Bill called me over to look at the wall. When I saw it was coming down, I ran like a scared kitten. I can still feel the panic when I talk about it."

"You did your best. You-"