"Is the Hanoi Hilton still open?"

"This is not a joke."

"I make jokes when I'm tense. Anyway, am I to understand from you that Vice President Blake is visiting Hanoi?"

"He's here to see his old friend, Amba.s.sador Patrick Quinn, and to partic.i.p.ate in a conference on MIAs, and I'm sure a few other less publicized meetings with the Vietnamese government."

I nodded. "He should also have an unscheduled meeting. With us."

Susan didn't reply for a while, then said, "That might be a good idea, or a very bad idea."

"If he knows about this problem, he wants to be in Hanoi where he can have some hands-on control of the situation where and when the mission ends. We can help him with that."

Susan replied, "I honestly don't know if he's aware that he has a problem. But other people do, and I think Mr. Blake will be made aware of it in Hanoi. The bad news, Mr. Vice President, is that we know you murdered three Viets and an American officer in Vietnam. The good news, sir, is that we have the situation under control."

"It's not under control," I pointed out.

"It was supposed to be."

The train continued east toward Hanoi. Susan and I discussed a few ideas and options and tried to come up with a game plan. I made believe I trusted her completely. She made believe, too.

I kept getting the feeling that I wasn't supposed to have gotten this far, and that Susan was making adjustments for my living presence. But that might be too paranoid. Maybe I was supposed to make it as far as Bangkok, then be evaluated as to how much I found out, and, as Mr. Conway said, how I would be dealt with. Maybe Susan was supposed to be a witness for or against me. And maybe my friend, Karl, who cared about me, was to be my judge. I asked Susan, "Are you supposed to go to Bangkok?"

She didn't reply.

"h.e.l.lo? Susan?"

"Yes."

"Good." I pointed out to her, "If there exists a possibility that I might need to be... let's say, given a full military funeral before I was ready for one, has it occurred to you that you, too, might be in a similar predicament?"

"It has occurred to me."

"Good." I left it at that.

We moved into the rising sun, toward Hanoi, toward the end of the mission, and toward the end of my third, and definitely last, tour of duty in Vietnam.

The train from Lao Cai moved slowly through the northern outskirts of Hanoi, and at 6:34 P.M. P.M., we pulled into Long Bien Station.

The journey from sultry, sinful Saigon had taken me to the battlefields of South Vietnam and into the heart of my own darkness, and up country on a journey of discovery and hopefully self-awareness.

I had finally come to terms with this place, as had a lot of men who'd been here, and as had a lot of my generation, men and women, who hadn't been to Vietnam, but who had lived through Vietnam so many years ago.

And yet, at unexpected moments, the war still had the power to haunt our dreams and intrude into our waking hours. And for Edward Blake, this was one of those times.

BOOK VII.

Hanoi

CHAPTER FORTY-SIX.

Hanoi. An evocative name to people of my generation, as Berlin and Tokyo were to my father's generation. Hardly a week went by during the war that didn't have a news report of a Hanoi bombing raid. An evocative name to people of my generation, as Berlin and Tokyo were to my father's generation. Hardly a week went by during the war that didn't have a news report of a Hanoi bombing raid. American bombers struck two miles from the center of Hanoi today, targeting a railway bridge over the Red River, a power plant, and suspected enemy surface-to-air missile sites. American bombers struck two miles from the center of Hanoi today, targeting a railway bridge over the Red River, a power plant, and suspected enemy surface-to-air missile sites. After about five or six years of these news stories, they ceased to be news, except for the pilots and the people on the ground. After about five or six years of these news stories, they ceased to be news, except for the pilots and the people on the ground.

The pa.s.sengers around us were gathering their luggage and began filing off the train.

Susan and I remained seated and watched the platform.

There were a large number of uniformed Border Police on the platform scanning the departing pa.s.sengers, plus some plainclothes guys, who were easy to spot. I said to Susan, "Some of those guys have what could be photos in their hands."

She kept staring out the window and said, "This is not an uncommon sight at transportation terminals... we shouldn't automatically a.s.sume they're looking for us... but they are are looking at Westerners." looking at Westerners."

"Right." I also a.s.sumed they had the photographs from Pyramide Island, so maybe they wouldn't recognize us with our clothes on. In fact, a few of the cops seemed more interested in the photos than the departing pa.s.sengers.

I said, "Let's hook up with that American group you were talking to."

We stood, got our backpacks, and made our way to Car 6 where the American group was filing out with their Vietnamese tour guide.

There was a Viet lady standing in front of Susan as we shuffled out, and Susan spoke to the woman in Vietnamese, then spoke to me. Susan discovered that Long Bien Station was located in a remote district on the east side of the Red River, and the pa.s.sengers from our train needed to board a standard-gauge train to the central station if they were going to downtown Hanoi. There were also buses and taxis available. And police cars.

One of Susan's most striking features is her straight shoulder-length hair, and she asked me to tuck it under her quilted jacket.

I have many striking features, but I couldn't wrap them all in scarves without attracting attention or running out of scarves, so I just wrapped a dark blue Montagnard scarf around my neck and chin. Susan did the same.

"Separate when we get out."

We got out on the platform, separated, and placed ourselves in the center of the group of about twenty Americans with their guide.

Susan was chatting with the people around her, and I struck up a conversation with two guys while my eyes followed the cops. A few of them were looking at our group, but not showing any signs of recognition.

The tour group was a.s.sembled, and we began moving off the platform. We might just make it, but I held my breath anyway.

The railway station was a combination of old and new, and I could see where bomb damage had been repaired with newer concrete. A country that has seen war never looks quite the same again, at least not to the people who remembered how it used to look.

The weather was overcast, and a lot warmer than it had been in the mountains. This country needed a sunny day. I needed a sunny day.

I noticed a taxi stand to my left, where two Border Police and a plainclothes guy stood, looking at Westerners who were getting in the cabs.

Our American tour group was moving toward a waiting bus whose sign said Love Planet Tours Love Planet Tours. I wasn't feeling any particular love at the moment, but fugitives can't be choosy.

Our group began boarding the Love Planet bus. Susan was ahead of me, and she spoke to the Viet tour guide for a moment, handed him some money, which made him smile, and she boarded. I reached the guide and handed him five bucks. He smiled and nodded.

I boarded the bus. The driver, who had never met this group, didn't pay any attention to me, but if he had, he'd have gotten a few bucks, too.

The bus could hold about forty people, and there were lots of empty seats, but Susan had placed herself in an aisle seat beside a middle-aged woman wearing Montagnard hoop earrings. I took the seat across the aisle from Susan and threw my backpack on the empty window seat. I could hear the luggage being thrown into the compartment below my feet.

It took forever for the poky Americans to board, and I watched the Border Police outside moving around, still staring at pictures and still looking for someone.

The bus was finally loaded, and the Viet guide came aboard. He said, "Okay, every person here?"

The tour group replied in unison, "Yes."

I hate tour groups, but the alternative in this case-a police car-might actually be worse, but not by much.

I saw a border cop walking toward the bus, and he got on.

I needed to tie my shoelaces, which I did, and so did Susan. Meanwhile, the woman next to her was keeping up a non-stop rap and to the cop it must have looked like she was talking to herself.

I could hear the tour guide and the cop exchanging words, and I figured it was only a matter of seconds before the cop would be tapping me on the shoulder. I glanced at Susan, who was looking at me, and we kept eye contact.

After what seemed like eternity plus a few minutes, I heard the hydraulic sound of the door closing. A second later, the bus was in gear and moving. Nevertheless, Susan and I kept tying our shoes until the bus was out of the station area and on the road.

I sat up, and so did Susan. I said to her, "Hi, I'm Paul. Is this your first time in Vietnam?"

She closed her eyes, put her head back on the headrest, and took a long, deep breath. The lady next to her never missed a beat and kept jabbering.

The bus headed south, and the setting sun came in through the right-side windows. We both took off our blue Montagnard scarves and put them in our backpacks. I said to Susan, "Where you from?"

She replied, "Please shut up."

The woman beside her took offense, shut up, and turned toward the window.

Susan said to her, "Sorry. I was talking to this pest."

The woman turned toward me and gave me a hard look.

I glanced at the tour guide, who was standing near the driver, facing the rear. I saw that he was looking at me, and our eyes met for half a second, then he looked away.

I had no idea what motivated him to keep his mouth shut, but it probably had a lot to do with fear; not of Susan and me, but of the cop. Taking a few bucks from unauthorized pa.s.sengers was a small offense; harboring fugitives, even unintentionally, could get him fined, fired, and arrested. This was a country that was running scared, and I've been in countries like that, and that could work for or against the authorities. This time, it worked against them. Next time, we might not be so lucky.

The bus continued on a wide street, and the guide said, "So, we now come to Chuong Duong Bridge, who go over Song Hong-Red River. Beautiful river. You take picture."

Everyone dutifully took photos of the bridge and the Red River. The guide said, "We go now Hanoi. Hoan Kiem District-Old Quarter. Very beautiful. You take picture."

We crossed the bridge into the Old Quarter of Hanoi, and the streets and sidewalks were crowded, but not nearly as bad as Saigon. In fact, instead of the frenzied, horn-honking suicidal motorists and pedestrians of Saigon, there was a quiet determination on everyone's faces here, a slower and more purposeful movement of people and vehicles. I was reminded of army ants in a terrarium.

The buildings were mostly French colonial, very quaint, very run-down, but still charming. There were lots of leafy trees on the streets, and if it weren't for the signs in Vietnamese, I could imagine I was in a French provincial town, which is where I'd rather be.

On the horizon, I could see the lights of towering new skysc.r.a.pers. I said to Susan, "It's not as grim as I imagined."

Susan excused herself from the one-way conversation with the woman and said to me, "Looks are deceiving."

"Don't be negative. Visualize success."

She was in no mood for me and turned her attention back to Blabbermouth.

I looked out the window again. I recalled that we'd never actually bombed the center of Hanoi; just the military targets on the outskirts of the city, which is why it still looked French and not East German. I didn't recall, however, the U.S. getting any favorable press for sparing the central city. It's hard to put a good spin on bombing attacks, even sensitively planned ones.

The bus made its way through the narrow, winding streets. The guide was giving a running commentary, and he, too, didn't congratulate the Americans for leaving the Old Quarter intact. People don't appreciate Americans.

The guide said, "Tomorrow, we see Ho Chi Minh tomb, Ho Chi Minh house, Lenin monument, Army Museum, Air Defense Museum, and lake in city where American B-52 bomber crash and still in lake."

I said to Susan, "We're going to miss all of that."

She didn't reply.

I glanced out the window, then asked Susan, "Do you know where we are?"

She replied, "I have a general idea where we are. Do you have any idea where we're going?"

I hadn't actually thought much beyond the immediate problems as they had evolved. In truth, I never thought we'd get this far, but we had, so now I needed to figure out where we were going to spend the night. I said to her, "Well, we can't go to the emba.s.sy or the Metropole if they're looking for us. How about your Hanoi office?"

She replied, "My office is closed, I don't have a key, and it may be watched."

"Can you call one of your employees at home?"

She said, "I don't want to get them involved."

"You mean none of them are working for the CIA?"

She didn't reply.

I said, "Well, I have a contact in the emba.s.sy. His name is John Eagan, FBI guy here on a.s.signment. I'll call him tomorrow from a pay phone and arrange a rendezvous somewhere."

She said, "You know the emba.s.sy phones are tapped. Don't you have a pre-arranged rendezvous?"

"No. But I can work it out." I asked her, "Do you know what a big ugly f.u.c.ker is?"

"I'm sitting across from one."

I smiled. "It's a B-52 bomber. Military slang. Someone in the emba.s.sy should know that. The military attache, Colonel Marc Goodman, will know."

The lady next to Susan was eavesdropping on our conversation, and her hoop earrings were sticking straight up.

I asked Susan, "Do you know the lake where the big ugly f.u.c.ker is?"

The lady's eyes widened. Susan smiled and nodded.

"Good. That's our rendezvous. Eagan is the guy. Just in case we're separated. Okay?"