Karl and I lingered a moment longer, then h.e.l.lmann said, "All right, I understand. It could be a bit risky, and middle-aged men don't risk their lives for something that could be foolish or useless. To tell you the truth, this man Tran Van Vinh is most likely dead, or even if he were alive, he probably wouldn't be helpful. Come on, let me buy you a drink. There's that place you like on Twenty-third Street."

We walked in silence through the Mall, and h.e.l.lmann asked, "May I at least show you the letter?"

"Which one do I see? The love letter or the real one?"

"The translation of Tran Van Vinh's letter."

"A true and complete translation?"

Karl didn't reply.

I said to him, "Give me the original letter in Vietnamese, and I'll have it translated."

"That's not necessary."

I smiled. "So, there's something in the letter that is not for my eyes. But you want my help, and you're holding a lot back."

"It's for your own good. Whatever I'm not telling you is irrelevant to the mission of finding Tran Van Vinh."

"It's relevant to something something, or you wouldn't be so cloak-and-dagger about it."

Karl said nothing.

I asked, "How long ago did you get this letter from the VVA?"

"Two days ago."

"And I a.s.sume you've begun the search of army records?"

"Yes, but that's going to take a week or two. Also, there was that record storage fire-"

"Karl, that 1973 fire has been used to cover up more c.r.a.p than any fire in history."

"That may be, but there are are missing files. Yet, I think that in a few weeks, we'll be able to come up with a list of First Cavalry army captains who may have been in that place at that time. The list of army lieutenants who were actually killed in action in Quang Tri City on or around 7 February will be much shorter and more detailed. I can't imagine more than two or three names on that KIA list. There is a presumption that the captain and the lieutenant were in the same unit, so that could narrow down the names of the captains who could be suspects. That's why I think this is not such a long shot." missing files. Yet, I think that in a few weeks, we'll be able to come up with a list of First Cavalry army captains who may have been in that place at that time. The list of army lieutenants who were actually killed in action in Quang Tri City on or around 7 February will be much shorter and more detailed. I can't imagine more than two or three names on that KIA list. There is a presumption that the captain and the lieutenant were in the same unit, so that could narrow down the names of the captains who could be suspects. That's why I think this is not such a long shot."

I replied, "Well, you may come up with a prime suspect, but you'll never get a conviction."

Karl replied, "Let's find the witness and the suspect and worry about the consequences later."

I thought a minute, then said to Karl, "As you mentioned, I was there at the time. And, FYI, the city itself was garrisoned by the South Vietnamese army, not Americans. Our guys were at firebases around the city. Are you sure these two Cav officers were in in the city?" the city?"

"The letter strongly indicates that. Why?"

"Well, then maybe these two Americans were attached to the South Vietnamese army as advisors-Military a.s.sistance Command, Vietnam. MACV. Right?"

"That's a possibility."

"So, that narrows it down even more. Do some desk work here before you go sending somebody into 'Nam."

"We want parallel and concurrent investigations."

"It's your show." In fact, I strongly suspected that the CID had been working on this much longer than Karl was indicating. I also suspected that the CID had already narrowed down the list of possible suspects and the possible victim, and maybe they already had their prime suspect. But they were not telling Paul Brenner about that. What the CID wanted now was for me to find the only eyewitness to this crime. I said to Colonel h.e.l.lmann, "An interesting case, and my bloodhound instincts are aroused. But I don't need the frequent flier miles to Southeast Asia. I can think of a few other guys who'd love to go."

"No problem." h.e.l.lmann changed the subject and asked, "Are you still seeing Ms. Sunhill?"

I love it when people ask you questions about things they already know. I replied, "Why don't you ask her?"

"To be honest, I already have. She indicates that there seems to be some problem with the relationship, which is why I thought you might be open to an overseas a.s.signment."

"I am. Aruba. And stay out of my personal life, please."

"Ms. Sunhill is still CID, and as her commanding officer, I have a right to ask certain personal questions."

"That's what I miss about the army."

Karl ignored this and asked, "By the way, are you looking for a civilian job in law enforcement?"

"I might be."

"I can't imagine you doing nothing in retirement."

"I've got plenty to do."

"I might be able to help you with a government job. The FBI hires a lot of former CID. This overseas a.s.signment would look very good on your resume."

"Not to mention my obituary."

"It would look good there, too."

Karl doesn't make too many jokes, so to be polite, I chuckled.

This encouraged him, I think, to press on. He said, "Did I mention that the Department of the Army will retroactively promote you to Chief Warrant Officer Five and recompute your retirement pay?"

"Tell them thanks."

"In exchange for about two or three weeks of your time."

"There's always a catch."

h.e.l.lmann stopped and lit another cigarette. We faced each other under a lamplight. h.e.l.lmann exhaled a stream of smoke and said, "We can get someone else, but your name came up first, second, and third. I've never asked a favor of you-"

"Of course you have."

"And I've gotten you out of some very messy situations, Paul."

"That you put me in, Karl."

"You put yourself in most of them. Be honest with yourself."

"It's cold out here. I need a drink. You smoke too much." I turned and walked off.

End of meeting. End of Karl. I continued walking, picturing Karl standing under the lamplight, smoking his cigarette, watching me. Well, that was one bad thing resolved.

For some reason, I found that my pace was slowing. All sorts of thoughts suddenly filled my frozen brain. Cynthia was one of them, of course. Write a second act, Paul. Was I set up, or what?

Certainly I needed to do something to get my juices flowing again. But I couldn't believe that Cynthia would want me to risk my life to perk up our relationship. Probably, she didn't know exactly what Karl had in mind.

As I walked, I thought about my favorite subject-me. What was best for Paul Brenner? Suddenly, I had this image of me going to Vietnam and returning a hero; that hadn't happened the last two times, but maybe it would this time. Then, I had this other image of me coming home in a box.

I found myself in a circle of light under a lamp pole, and I wasn't walking. I turned back toward Karl h.e.l.lmann. We stared at each other across the darkness, each of us visible in a pool of light. I called out to him, "Would I have any contacts in 'Nam?"

"Of course," he called out. "You'll have a contact in Saigon, and one in Hanoi. Plus, there may be someone in Hue who can help. The mission is in place. It lacks only a person to fulfill it."

"How long would this person need to fulfill it?"

"You have a twenty-one-day tourist visa. Any longer would arouse suspicion. With luck, you'll be home sooner."

"With bad luck, I'll be home even sooner."

"Think positive. You must visualize success."

In fact, I visualized a lot of people gathered in my honor, everyone drinking whiskey; a homecoming party, or an Irish wake.

I don't mind dangerous a.s.signments. I thrived on them once. But it was the 'Nam thing... the idea that I escaped my destiny and that destiny was stalking me. It was creepy.

I asked Karl, "If I don't make it this time, do I get my name on the Wall?"

"I'll look into that. But think positive."

"Are you sure you don't want to come with me?"

"I'm positive."

We both laughed.

"When do I leave?"

"Tomorrow morning. Be at Dulles at eight hundred hours. I will e-mail you instructions for a rendezvous at the airport."

"My own pa.s.sport?"

"Yes. We want light cover. Your friend at the airport will have your visa, tickets, and hotel reservations, money, and a few things to memorize. You need to go in clean."

"That's it?"

"That's it. Can I buy you a drink?"

"When I get home. See you later."

Karl said, "Oh, one more thing. I a.s.sume you will let Cynthia know you're away. Don't be too specific. Would you like me to speak with her after you're gone?"

"Do you mean gone, dead, or gone to Asia?"

"I'll speak with her after you take off."

I didn't reply.

Karl said, "Well, then, good luck and thank you."

If we were closer, we'd have shaken hands, but we both just gave half-a.s.sed salutes by touching our caps. We turned away from each other and walked off.

CHAPTER THREE.

After my meeting with Karl, I had a few drinks by myself at home, then sent an e-mail to Cynthia. You should never drink when you have access to any form of communication-e-mail, cell phone, telephone, or fax machine. I printed out my message to her and put it in my overnight bag, intending to re-read it in the morning to see how drunk I'd been. I erased the message on my computer, in case CID Internal Security were the next people to go into my computer.

There was an e-mail from Karl with my airport rendezvous instructions, as he'd promised. His short message ended with "Thanks again. Good luck. See you later."

I noticed he didn't invite either a phone call or a reply to his e-mail. In fact, there was nothing left to say. I deleted his message.

I left a note for my housekeeper, informing her I'd be away for about three weeks and to look after things. In fact, I tidied up a bit, in case the CID arrived before the housekeeper to look for sensitive materials that may have been left behind by the deceased. I always tidy up; I want to be remembered as a man who didn't leave his dirty underwear on the floor.

At 7 A.M. A.M. the next morning, I checked my e-mail, but there was no reply from Cynthia to last night's message. Maybe she hadn't accessed her mail yet. the next morning, I checked my e-mail, but there was no reply from Cynthia to last night's message. Maybe she hadn't accessed her mail yet.

A horn honked outside, and I gathered my small suitcase and overnight bag and went out into the cold, dark morning, sans overcoat, as instructed by Karl. In Saigon, it was eighty-one degrees and sunny, according to the efficient Herr h.e.l.lmann.

I got into the waiting taxi, exchanged greetings with the driver, and off we went to Dulles Airport, a half-hour drive at this time of the morning. Normally, I would drive myself to Dulles, but long-term airport parking might not be long enough for this trip.

It was a gloomy morning, which may have accounted for my morbid thoughts.

I recalled a similar dawn trip to the airport, many years ago. The airport was Boston's Logan, and the driver was my father in his '56 Chevy, which has since become a cla.s.sic, but which was then a jalopy.

My thirty-day pre-Vietnam leave had come to an end, and it was time to fly to San Francisco, and points west.

We'd left Mom at home, crying, too upset to even scramble eggs. My brothers were sleeping.

Pop was pretty quiet during the trip, and it was only years later that I thought about what he must have been thinking. I wondered how his own father had seen him off to war.

We had arrived at the airport, parked, and went into the terminal together. There were a lot of guys in uniforms with duffel bags and overnight bags, a lot of mothers and fathers, wives or maybe girlfriends, and even kids, probably siblings.

Sharply dressed military police strode in pairs through the terminal, an unusual sight just a year before. The homefront during wartime is a study of extreme contrasts: sorrow and joy, partings and reunions, patriotism and cynicism, parades and funerals.

I was flying American Airlines to San Francisco, and I got in the appropriate line, which was comprised of mostly soldiers, sailors, marines, and airmen, and some civilians, who looked uncomfortable being in the same line.