"There's a lot of all ."

"These are so pretty. So much prettier than that old gate." Angie touched one of the curved branches with its blossoms of soft, spring pink. "Everyone's talking about what's going on here.

I've only been home for a day, and already I've had my ears burned by all the talk."

"Good talk or bad talk?"

"Why wouldn't it be good?" Angie c.o.c.ked her head. "This place was an eyesore. So yeah, it's not so pretty right now, either, but you're doing something. n.o.body else has. Is it hard? I don't mean the work, because obviously ... I mean is it hard being here, living here?"

"No." But Angie would ask, Cilla knew. Angie would care. "In fact, it's easy. It feels right, more than anything or anywhere else. It's strange."

"I don't think so. I think everyone's supposed to be somewhere, and the lucky ones find out where it is. So you're lucky."

"I guess I am." The bright side of optimism, Cilla remembered, was where Angie lived. Her father's daughter. Their father's daughter, Cilla corrected. "Do you want to come in, take a look? It's in serious flux right now, but we're making progress."

"I would, and I will another time. I'm on my way to meet some friends, but I detoured, hoping to see you for a minute. Didn't expect to see you on the side of the road, so I guess I'm lucky, too. So if ... uh-oh."

Cilla followed the direction of Angie's glance, noted the white van that slowed and pulled to the shoulder across the road.

"Do you know who that is?" Cilla asked. "I've seen that van pull up out here before, several times before."

"Yeah, that's Mr. Hennessy's van. His son was-"

"I know. One of the boys with Janet's son, in the accident. Okay. Stay here."

"Oh G.o.d, Cilla, don't go over there." Angie grabbed at Cilla's arm. "He's just awful. Mean son of a b.i.t.c.h. I mean, sure, what happened was terrible, but he hates us."

"Us?"

"All of us. It's a by-a.s.sociation kind of thing, Dad says. You should stay out of his way."

"He's in mine, Angie."

Cilla crossed over, met the bitter eyes in the thin, pinched-mouth face through the windshield as she crossed to the driver's-side door. A lift van, she saw now. One designed to handle his son's wheelchair.

The slope of the shoulder put her at a disadvantage-slightly off-balance and several inches lower than the man who glared out at her.

"Mr. Hennessy, I'm Cilla McGowan."

"I know who you are. Look just like her, don't you?"

"I was sorry to hear you lost your son last year."

"Lost him in 1972 when your worthless kin crushed his spine. Drunk and high and not giving a d.a.m.n about anything but himself, because that's how he was raised. Not to give a d.a.m.n."

"That may be. I know those three boys paid a terrible price that night. I can't-"

"You're no better than she was, thinking you're better'n anybody else 'cause you've got money to spend, and expecting people to kowtow."

The well of Cilla's sympathy began to dry up. "You don't know me."

"h.e.l.l I don't. I know you, your kind, your blood. You think you can come here where that woman wh.o.r.ed around, let her kids run like wolves, where she cost my boy his arms and legs, his life?" His anger slapped out, bony fingers, in short, brittle blows. "You think you can buy some wood, some paint and use it to cover up the stink of that place? Shoulda burned it down years back. Burned it to the G.o.dforsaken ground."

"It's a house, Mr. Hennessy. It's wood and gla.s.s."And you, she thought with no sympathy at all, are a lunatic.

"It's as cursed as she was. As you are." He spat out the window, barely missed the toe of Cilla's boot. "Go back where you came from. We don't want you or your kind here."

He pulled out so fast, fishtailing, that Cilla had to scramble back. She slid on the slope, lost her balance and went down on her knees as Angie ran across the road.

"Are you okay? Jesus, Jesus, he didn't hit you, did he?"

"No. No." But her eyes were narrowed, iced blue, on the speeding van. "I'm fine."

"I'm calling the police." Quivering with indignation, Angie pulled a hot pink cell phone out of her pocket. "He spat at you! I saw him, and he nearly ran you over, and-"

"Don't." Cilla put a hand to the phone as Angie flipped it open. "Let it go." She sighed, rubbed at her knee. "Just let it go."

"Are you hurt? You went down hard. We need to look at your knee."

"It's okay, Mom."

"Seriously. I'll drive you down to the house, and we'll see if you need to have it checked out. That old b.a.s.t.a.r.d."

"The knee's fine. I'm not hurt, I'm p.i.s.sed off."

As if to stabilize, Angie took a couple of whooshing breaths while she studied Cilla. "You don't look p.i.s.sed off."

"Believe me. Whoring around, wolves, cursed, your kin . a.s.shole."

Angie laughed. "That's more like it. I'm driving you down to the house, now don't argue."

"Fine. Thanks. Does he act that way to you?" Cilla asked as they crossed to Angie's Honda.

"He snarls and sends what you could call burning stares, mutters. No spitting. I know he's gone off on Dad. And I mean, G.o.d , do you know anybody with more compa.s.sion than Dad? Just because he was friends with Mr. Hennessy's son, and the rest of them, doesn't make him responsible for what happened. He wasn't even there that night. And clue in, you weren't even born."

"He's got the sins-of-the-father thing going, I'd say. If he wants to drive by, stop and glower and think bad thoughts, let him."

At the end of the drive, Cilla opened the car door. She took a breath herself now, and realized she felt better, more level , she supposed, with Angie there. "Thanks, Angie."

"I want to look at your knee before I go."

"The knee's fine." To prove it, and to change the mood, Cilla swung into a quick tap routine on the patchy lawn, and ended with a flourish while Angie giggled.

"Wow. I guess it is fine."

"Nice stems, doll." Steve stepped onto the veranda, tattoos and tool belt. "And who's your friend?"

"We're not friends," Angie said, "we're sisters."

"Angela McGowan, Steve Chensky. Steve's a friend from L.A. He's giving me a hand for a few days."

"Maybe longer." Steve smiled, big and bold.

"Angie's just home from college, and heading out to meet some friends."

"I am. I'm late. You tell him about Mr. Hennessy," Angie ordered, climbing back into her car.

"Mr. who?"

"I will. Have fun."

"That's the plan. I'll be back. Nice meeting you, Steve." With a wave out the window, she did a neat three-quarter turn and drove out.

"Your sister's hot."

"And barely legal, so hands off."

"'Barely' would be the key word. You gotta love that McGowan DNA."

"No. No, you don't. How's it coming in the attic?"

"It's f.u.c.king hot. They need to finish getting the AC up and running. But it's coming along. Get your tools, doll. Daylight's wasting."

"I'm right behind you."

HE'D BEEN RIGHT about the heat. Cilla calculated she'd dropped a couple of pounds in sweat alone by the time she unhooked her tool belt for the day. She treated herself to a long, cool shower in her one nearly completed bathroom. Paint and light fixtures yet to go. And thought about fixing herself an enormous sandwich.

She ate it in solitary, pig-out splendor on her back veranda, and imagined the blooming shrubs, ornamental trees, the colorful plants in place of the hacked overgrowth. She imagined a rugged stone bench under the spread of the big sycamore and pictured the new slates and bricks on the patios and paths. The drip of willows at the pond, the shade of red maples, the glossy beauty of magnolias.

Not cursed, she thought, rubbing lightly at the knee that was a little stiff and sore. Ignored, neglected for too long, but not cursed, despite the accusations of a bitter old man.

She'd put up a martin house, and hummingbird feeders. And the birds would come. She'd plant a cutting garden with her own hands-after she researched what should be planted-and draw more birds and b.u.t.terflies that would wing about as she harvested blooms for vases.

She'd buy a dog, one who'd chase sticks and squirrels and rabbits, and she'd have to chase him when he dug in the gardens. Maybe she'd even see if she could hunt up an appealingly ugly one, like Spock.

She'd have parties with colored lights and music with people wandering through the house, over the lawn, filling it, filling it with sound and movement. Pulses and heartbeats and voices.

And she'd wake up every morning inside a home. Her home.

She looked down at the paper plate in her lap, watched the tear plop. "Oh G.o.d, what's this?" She rubbed her hands over her wet cheeks, pressed them to the tightness in her chest. "What's this, what's this?"

On the sagging veranda facing the ruined gardens, she sat alone while the sun slid toward the mountains. And gave in to the sobs. Meltdown, part of her brain thought. Had to happen.

Dogs, people, colored lights? Failure was a lot more likely. No, the house wasn't cursed. It had good bones, good muscle. But wasn't she cursed? What had she ever done that mattered? What had she ever finished? She'd fail here, too. Failure was what she did best.

"Stop it. Stop this c.r.a.p ."

She choked back the next sob as she pushed to her feet. Grabbing the plate and the half-eaten sandwich, she marched inside, tossed them away. Breathing slowly, she splashed cold water on her face until it was drown or suck it up. Steadier, she went upstairs, deliberately applied makeup to conceal her pity bout, then picked up the copy of Gatsby .

She carried it across the road and knocked on Ford's door.

"This is handy," he said when he came to the door. Spock stopped his aliens-at-the-door trembling and raced forward to press his body to Cilla's legs. "I was just going over a short list of excuses, deciding which one to pick that covered going over to your place. I was sitting out back so I wouldn't appear to be obviously casing your house."

She stepped in, handed him the book. "You said I could keep this here."

"Sure. The letters?"

"Yeah." Because the dog looked up at her with love shining in his protruding eyes, she crouched for a moment to scratch and rub him into ecstasy. "I'm in a mood. I don't want them in the house right now."

"Okay."

"Would you read them sometime, when you get a chance? I think I'd like someone else's take."

"That's a relief. Now I don't have to fight a daily war between curiosity and integrity. I'll put them in my office. Do you want to come up a minute? I've got some sketches I think you'll like."

"Yeah." Restless, she thought. She felt restless, itchy, a little headachy. Better to keep moving, keep doing. "Yeah, why not?"

"Want a beer, some wine?"

"No, no. Nothing." Alcohol wasn't the best idea after a meltdown.

"Where's Steve? I thought I heard his bike a while back."

"He went out. He said he wanted some action, maybe he'd play a little pool with some of the guys on the crew. I think he's hoping to get lucky with one of the landscapers. Her name's Shanna."

"Shanna and I go back. Not that way," he said quickly. "Been friends since we were kids. Me, her, Bri, Matt."

"Nice. Nice to have friends you go back with. Oh. Wow."

He had two boards loaded with sketches. Action poses, she thought. Mid-leap, mid-stride, mid-spin. In all she looked-there was no mistaking her face-she looked strong, fierce, bold and brilliant.

Everything, she realized, everything she didn't feel at that moment.

"I'm thinking tattoo. I got hung up on that. Now I'm figuring out what and where." He tucked his hands in his back pockets as he gave the sketches a critical study. "Small of the back, shoulder blade, biceps. I'm thinking small and symbolic, and somewhere people wouldn't notice it on Ca.s.s. Or better, it's not on Ca.s.s, but forms when she changes to Brid. That way, it's not just a symbol but part of the power source."

He narrowed his eyes as he scanned the sketches. "I need to figure it out before I start on the panels. The story's outlined, and I like it. It holds up, but ..."

Because Spock had begun to whine, Ford glanced over. And his trend of thought snapped into tiny pieces. Tears streamed down Cilla's face.

"Oh man. c.r.a.p. What? Why?"

"Sorry. Sorry. I thought it was finished. I thought I was done." Backing up, she swiped at her cheeks. "I have to go."

"No. Uh-uh." There might have been a hole spreading in the pit of his stomach, but he took her arm, and his grip was firm. "What's the matter? What did I do?"

"Everything. Nothing."

"Which?"