Jenny had the gift of knowing that something had occurred-either nice or nasty, but usually nasty-straight after it had happened. If she trod on a dog's foot and it yelped, if the milk boiled over on to the oven, if she dropped a gla.s.s and it smashed. Well, then she would know. This was the gift that G.o.d had given her and she thanked G.o.d for it.

Jenny lived in a small complex of sheltered housing close to the big Safeways in Stamford Hill. She lived independently, but if anything bad happened she had a cord she could pull in her hallway, next to the door, so that someone else-the warden, Peter-would come along and sort everything out.

The only problem with this set-up was that Jenny refused to pull the cord. She would not. She referred to it as 'that f.u.c.king cord' and she would not pull it. It was a matter of principle. Instead, her neighbour, Naomi, would pull her cord on Jenny's behalf to call Peter over if she felt Jenny was in some kind of difficulty and Peter was needed.

Naomi was seventy-six years old and had a bad hip and could, occasionally, be clumsy and hurt herself. Sometimes she had to be taken to hospital when she scorched her hand or slipped over when climbing out of the bath.

At these times, when Naomi was absent, Jenny knew that if she got into trouble then she would simply have to sit down and think very hard about all the terrible things that had happened to her and how G.o.d had given her a gift so that she should know about them.

Naomi called this type of behaviour 'self-indulgence' but Jenny was content to feel that she knew better. To see things clearly, to register, to comprehend, well, that was surely a great blessing.

Jenny had a temper. Of course she did. And when she saw things clearly, they had to be seen properly, and everything had to happen in a certain way. She had her routines. A break from a routine was always a bad thing. Any kind of hindrance or interruption was considered by Jenny to be unacceptable. Any kind of intrusion, unpalatable.

Chad, 38, of no fixed abode, had a problem with rejection. But like Jenny, G.o.d had given Chad a gift too. His gift was that he would see things of no value, things that other people did not want, things that others misguidedly considered 'rubbish' and he would immediately love them.

G.o.d had chosen to give Chad his special gift because Chad had had everything-a home, a family, a good education-but he had rejected them. G.o.d understood difficult equations. G.o.d understood that Chad had been offered everything on a plate but that Chad had tipped the plate over. That made him special.

Peter, the warden, 23, was very familiar with Chad, his comings and goings, his shopping trolley, his stink, his pilfering, his cold sores.

Naomi knew Chad too. She liked to watch him picking through the rubbish, early on a Wednesday morning. The bins and the bags were put out the night before-a shiny black cl.u.s.ter, buzzing and rancid, ready for collection.

Jenny knew nothing of Chad. This was probably for the best.

Unfortunately, in October, when the leaves on the trees were starting to crisp and golden, Jenny's doctor decided to change her medication. He cut it down. He expected her to try to get through the night without her extra tablet.

So now, in the dark, she'd hear the clock ticking. So now, before dawn, she'd hear the birds singing. So now, after sunrise, she'd hear the cars on the main road close to her flat and the vans pulling into the unloading bay at the back of Safeways.

She even thought she could hear the drivers having a morning smoke, taking their f.a.gs out, the click of the lighter, the deep inhalation and the tinkle of the embers as they took their first drag. She convinced herself.

Wednesday morning, six forty-three precisely, Jenny heard something else. Much closer.

Outside, beyond the hawthorn hedge, Chad was carefully undoing the plastic knot on the top of a refuse bag. At first Jenny thought he might be a local stray, a cat, but when she listened more intently she decided that his technique was too deliberate, too careful for a creature with claws, too guided and thorough. So she threw off her blankets, clambered from her bed, walked to the window and gazed out. Beyond the hawthorn she saw Chad. Chad had gained access to the bag's contents. He'd found a broken saucepan which Jenny had snapped the handle off the day before. He was staring into it and he was thinking: is it big enough to use as a planter? For a small tomato plant? Shall I store it in my trolley? Shall I?

Jenny rapped on her window with the back of her knuckles.

'Oi!'

Chad looked up. Jenny stood at her window wearing a well-worn winceyette nightdress. The top two b.u.t.tons were undone. Her navel was visible through a gap between the third and fourth. She had blue rings under her eyes. She hadn't slept properly for almost a week.

Chad stared at Jenny for several seconds, grimaced, returned to the bag, as though its contents held infinitely more interest for him than she did. Inside he found a wafer-thin slither of soap. In his trolley he had a self-a.s.sembled soap-cl.u.s.ter-ball which he'd created from just such soap remnants. It was almost as big as a cabbage.

Jenny opened her window and leaned out of it.

'Oi! Leave off!'

Chad looked up again, focused on Jenny, drew his lips back away from his gums and showed Jenny his teeth. They were brown and slightly peggy. It was an ugly expression, like the kind of face an ill-natured cur might pull. A snarl but nothing special.

Jenny gasped, slammed her hands on to her hips, marched into the hallway, appraised her emergency cord. Her fingers twitched but she didn't touch it. Instead she walked back into her bedroom, pulled on her dressing gown and returned to the window.

Chad had completed his dalliance with the bins and was now beating a slow retreat, disappearing from view, pushing his trolley with a combination of dignity and finesse, his back straight, his matted head held at an a.s.sured, an almost saintly angle.

Jenny slammed her window shut, piqued and disgruntled. Chad, she just knew, was a thief and a parasite.

'He's a magpie,' Naomi said, hours later, somewhat bemused by Jenny's fury. 'Don't get so worked up over it.'

'That's my stuff he's picking over,' Jenny retorted. 'My stuff.'

'Don't get so angry,' Naomi whispered, hoping to calm Jenny by speaking quieter. 'He doesn't mean any harm. He's only a tramp.'

'It's mine!'

'Shall I call Peter?' Naomi wondered out loud.

'My stuff. Private stuff. You know ...' Jenny thought of something and stopped scowling for a moment. '... You know, sometimes people go through your bins when they want to find things out about you. And then sometimes the people whose bin it is calls the police.'

Naomi smiled patiently at Jenny who was still wearing her dressing gown and pink mules.

'Michael Barrymore!' Jenny yelled triumphantly. 'They did it to him! Going through his bins to find out stuff! All his leftovers and everything covered in tea-grains and bits of potato peelings.'

'You mean newspaper people, Jenny,' Naomi said. 'That boy's only a tramp. He's been going through our bins for as long as I can remember. You couldn't call the police. They'd laugh at you. He's not breaking any law.'

'He's like dirty vermin,' Jenny said, 'a rat or something.'

Naomi went into her kitchenette for a gla.s.s of water. She returned and handed it over to Jenny. 'Taken your pills yet today, Jenny?'

Jenny took the gla.s.s but didn't drink the water, only stared off into the distance.

'Coming for how long?' she asked tremulously. 'How long?'

'As long as I can remember,' Naomi reiterated, then added, 'I'll tell you what he's got in that trolley of his. He's got a ball of soap almost as big as your head.'

'What?' Jenny's eyes refocused. 'Huh?'

Naomi made the shape of a ball in the air with her hands. 'He gets all the soap, see? All the last bits of soap from the bins and he presses them together to make a big, round ball.'

Jenny was confused, Naomi could tell, so Naomi went into her own bathroom and brought out her soap. 'See? When soap gets wet for a while the bottom goes soggy, then if you push it on to another piece they get stuck together when they dry, and that way he's made a big soap ball from all the last, little bits. I've seen him take it out of his trolley. Big as a football.'

Naomi looked up from the bar of soap she was demonstrating with. Jenny's expression was stiff and cold, frosted with disgust.

'Not my soap,' she said, shuddering involuntarily.

Naomi rapidly backtracked. 'No,' she said, 'of course not.'

Jenny's eyes widened as the full implications of the big soap ball had their impact in that special Soap-Ball part of her brain. She imagined how intimate a thing a bar of soap was and also, this dirty man, and then the rubbing of the soap into one ball. It triggered something in her. 'Never!'

She sprang up from her chair, spilling water on to Naomi's carpet.

'Never!'

Naomi went and pulled her cord.

She'd been thinking about it, at night, when she couldn't sleep. The Soap Ball. Her privacy. That saucepan he'd taken.

She kept remembering all the things that had happened with the saucepan. How she'd bought it from Argos. A set of three. How she'd liked to boil eggs in it and cook spaghetti hoops. She kept going over the pan's history in her head; it was bought, it was used, it was broken. All in that order. And now he had it. What had he done with it? Her pan.

Wednesday morning she was up at five. Sitting on a chair next to the window, overseeing her rubbish bags in the pile next to the hawthorn. During the week she'd packed them so carefully. She'd kept thinking about what was rubbish and what was not, what she could throw out and what she could not. Only food and packaging and broken gla.s.s. Old newspaper.

Anything potentially useful, anything personal, she kept back. A threadbare face-cloth, a used toothpaste tube, an old hairbrush, an empty moisturizing cream bottle. Anything personal. These things she stacked on her kitchen table in a sad, useless little pile.

Six-forty on the dot, Chad trundled with his trolley into the crescent, pulled up next to the pile of bags, paused, chewed his lower lip, inspecting them. Jenny pushed her face so close to the window that she steamed it up with her breath and had to pull back to wipe it clear. Chad kicked one of Jenny's bags gently with the toe of his boot.

Chad knew about bags. He was an expert. He knew that the best kind of bag for his purposes was the kind of bag that jutted and stretched, that fought to contain something within that fought just as hard not to be contained. Jenny's bag felt soft and soggy, like it was full of bits of food and slush.

Naomi's bag, however, seemed distinctly more interesting. He untied it. Naomi's hands were frail and so Chad found her knots less difficult to negotiate.

Inside, on top, Chad found a mug tree. Natural pine, one of its branches missing, the base stained with something that looked like cod liver oil. He held it aloft. He smiled to himself.

Jenny had been intending to bang on her window as soon as Chad touched one of the bags, but when he didn't touch hers-only kicked it-she felt a loosening of her resolve.

Instead, she watched him inspecting the mug tree and enjoying a snout through Naomi's bag. Chad reknotted Naomi's bag, after placing the mug tree in his trolley. Might use it at Christmas, he was thinking. Paint it green or something.

He left Jenny's bags alone. As if he knew! she thought, furious. Almost as if he knew! She stood up and tossed the chair she was sitting on against the opposite wall.

Chad heard the commotion emerging from Jenny's first-floor flat, glanced up for a moment, raised his eyebrows, sniffed, muttered 'Slag!' under his breath and then moved off.

Naomi, next door, eating her breakfast, chewing on a piece of bacon rind, heard the chair smash, jumped up and bolted towards her front door.

Peter looked at the growing pile of 'useful' rubbish on Jenny's table: 'So what's going on, Jenny?' he asked softly. Jenny had made him a cup of tea but she was too angry to speak, almost. 'I can see that you're very uptight over something,' Peter added sympathetically, sipping his tea and wishing she hadn't added Hermesetas instead of sugar.

'Naomi's worried,' he said, pushing aside an eggbox and an empty cornflake packet so that he could rest his cup on the table.

'What's his name?' Jenny asked, her throat so taut she nearly growled.

Peter stared at her blankly.

'His name! Him!' Jenny yelled, picking up the eggbox, tearing it in half and then smashing it on to the kitchen lino.

'You know what I think, Jenny?' Peter said brightly. 'I think you and I should take a trip over to see Dr Eric this afternoon. Maybe cutting down on your pills wasn't such a good idea after all.'

'His name,' Jenny repeated, softly.

Peter took another sip of his tea. 'I don't know,' he said gently, after swallowing.

Later, Naomi told Jenny-in pa.s.sing, not connecting anything with anything-that Chad's name was Chad. Jenny digested this information silently. I knew it! She told herself, victoriously, I just knew his name would be Chad.

Jenny was quiet for the rest of the day. In her mind she was thinking, Chad, Chad, Chad, Chad, Chad.

When she went to see Dr Eric, she purred and she simpered like a friendly kitten.

That whole week Jenny a.s.sembled all the best things she could find. Her favourite Catherine Cookson novels, her best lace tablemats, a st.u.r.dy teapot she'd not yet had occasion to use, a packet of felt-tips which she kept in a drawer for when her nephew called, a full bag of rice, a tin of Heinz baked beans. She lay out her array of goodies on her living room carpet. Then she placed them, one by one, into a black refuse bag.

Chad was late that Wednesday. He'd drunk a bottle of Tia Maria the night before which had left him feeling drugged and sweet and dumb. He was slower than normal as a consequence. And sticky.

It was almost seven when he turned into Jenny's crescent. From a distance he stared up at Jenny's window. He was fully aware of Jenny. He was sensitive like that. He had to be. He knew that for years he'd been looking in her bin and for years she hadn't cared but that now she did care. He knew that people were very p.r.o.ne to chucking things out and then feeling like the things that they'd abandoned still belonged to them in some sense. Stupid.

He saw Jenny's outline etched in charcoal against the window-pane. He didn't like being watched. Even so, he drew close to the bags, let go of his trolley, appraised the bags. One bag had been piled up on top. It had an interesting shape. He knocked the bag with his foot, kicked it aside and inspected some of the other bags below.

Jenny was dumbfounded. She was incredulous. All those good things in her bag, all her best things, and he had kicked it aside. If she squinted, she could see that he had opened another bag and was now cradling an old telephone directory in his arms. It was doused in something that looked like beetroot juice. Something cerise. Ugh!

Chad put the directory into his trolley, returned to the bag, pulled out an empty chocolate box, inspected it, put it back, tied up the bag.

He opened another bag, close to the bottom. From within this bag he withdrew an old mop head and a plastic packet of carrots which hadn't been opened. He turned the packet of carrots over in his hand to double-check that they hadn't been touched, grimaced, noticed some mould on one of the carrots. He tossed the mop head into his trolley, tore open the plastic wrapping on the carrots and took one out. He bit off the mouldy end, spat it out, into the hawthorn, then proceeded to crunch his way through the remainder.

Jenny's eyes were wide, her mouth gaped. Those were her carrots. That was her mop head. This bag, her second bag, her rubbish bag, had been put at the bottom of the pile, specifically, so that Chad wouldn't get at it. How did he know? How?

Jenny raised her fist as if to knock on the window but stopped herself, froze, just in time, as Chad, at last, turned to the special bag, the kicked-aside bag.

As he untied it he was muttering to himself. He was saying, 'Something funny here. There's a reason. Something funny. That slag. Something up. Doesn't smell like rubbish. Bag's clean.'

He opened the bag. He pulled out a couple of lace tablemats. He folded them carefully and put them on the pavement to his right. He took out a Catherine Cookson novel and did the same. He took out the bag of rice, the felt-tips-these he held for a moment, he liked them, clearly-he took out the beans and the teapot. He liked the teapot, too.

Jenny sat at her window, watching him. She was very pleased indeed. This was right. This was good. She just knew this would happen. Absolutely.

What was her motivation? What was her plan of action? She didn't know yet. Hadn't decided. But it would be big when it came, and decisive, and when it happened she would know it had happened. Just so.

Jenny waited impatiently for Chad to put the stuff into his trolley. Everything was piled neatly on the pavement now, all correct and complete.

Chad appraised the pile of stuff. He then peered up at Jenny in her window through his lashes. He made a quick decision. He unzipped his fly, pulled out his p.e.n.i.s, urinated strongly and freely on to the little pile of objects. He shook himself, put himself away, did up his zip. He walked over to his trolley. He departed.

Oh, Jenny was angry now. Oh, she was angry. 'I knew it!' she shouted out, through the window, through the wall, through the front door, at the emergency cord. 'I just knew he'd do that. I knew he would. I did! I did! 'Course I did!'

But a voice in her head said, 'Did you know? Huh? Did you?' So she ripped off a wide strip of wallpaper with her bare nails to prove to herself that she did know. She then discovered that she was having difficulty breathing. She felt dirty. Almost like he'd urinated on to her directly. Into her mouth. Her mouth! It was too much. She screamed and kicked her slippered foot against the wall again and again until she heard her toes snapping.

Problem was, Naomi-in her rush to get to her emergency cord-slipped on a plash of egg fat which had spat, seconds before, out of her frying pan and on to her kitchen lino.

At ten o'clock, when Peter called around to find out if she wanted any shopping, he discovered Naomi, crashed, incapacitated, bruises already flowering on her head and arms like bright kisses of cranberry. She'd fractured her fibia and sprained her wrist. She had slight concussion.

Jenny watched the ambulance departing from her bedroom window. Naomi's hurt, she thought. I just knew that would happen. Chad did it. Chad, Chad, Chad, Chad, Chad.

She made splints for her toes out of toilet rolls, Sellotape and toothpicks. She's nursed a bird once with a broken wing in just this way so she guessed that this process would be adequate. Her toes swelled. It hurt when she walked.

That night, while she slept-her foot propped up on a special pillow like a crown on a velvet cushion-Jenny dreamed of Chad's cold sores. She dreamed she was licking them with the tip of her tongue. They felt b.u.mpy, like the head of a broccoli spear. They tasted like cough candy. She awoke, sweating, got up and drank four gla.s.ses of water in succession.

Thursday morning, Peter came to see her. Jenny did not make him tea. She was sitting on her sofa with a blanket over her legs. She said plaintively, 'I think I've got a chest infection. Bad catarrh.'

Peter came back later with some herbal lozenges, two lemons and a packet of Anadins. Jenny thanked him cordially.

It was a long week. Her toes hurt. The big toe especially. It remained swollen. The nail was cracked, but gradually Jenny found she could negotiate the hurdles and obstacles in her flat without too much duress.