Sugar rubbed at the knot in her neck and the one forming in the pit of her back just as the AME's congregation started on the first hymn of the evening. She needed to get out and walk, get some fresh air and maybe stop to have a cup of coffee at the diner down the street, but she couldn't stand the thought of getting one of those ARE YOU SAVED? pamphlets stuffed in her face. And then there was Mercy to worry about now. She was getting stronger every day and Sugar was sure she would try to make her escape while she was gone.

No, she couldn't risk it, so she stayed inside and closed the windows, locking in the heat of the day and locking out the Christian songs of hope.

Sugar sat herself down on the floor, resting her back against the wall as she fanned herself with a worn flap of a forgotten magazine. She could hear people entering the house below; they were laughing as they made their way up the creaky wooden steps. The laughter came again as they reached the landing and moved past her door.

Sugar wanted to laugh too; she wanted to swing the door open and step out and smile at them, call them over and ask what was so funny, ask them to let her in on the joke. Sugar wanted to laugh too.

A laugh might not make it better, but it certainly couldn't make things any worse.

Mercy stirred.

"I need changing," Mercy said as she stared up at the ceiling.

Sugar said nothing.

"I said, I need changing," Mercy ventured again, raising her tone some and moving her eyes so that she could take Sugar in.

Mercy let out a heavy breath and tried to twist away from the wetness that had begun to nip at her behind and the tender skin of her inner thighs. She twisted herself until the makeshift diaper fell away at the sides.

"Please, please, I need changing," Mercy pleaded.

"We leaving here tonight," Sugar said as she walked over and began undoing the straps that had bound Mercy to the bed for ten days.

"We going together, you and me, back down to Arkansas. Maybe you got some people left there, maybe not, don't matter, we going anyway."

Mercy lay very still.

"We going to take the bus. It'll take *bout three days to get down there, but I got money and we'll be fine. You still weak, but that is to be expected. You gonna have to take in some solid food now; it might not stay down but you gotta start somewhere."

Sugar stood back and folded her arms across her b.r.e.a.s.t.s and waited for Mercy to get up or say something. But Mercy just lay there staring up at the ceiling.

"C*mon now, try and pull yourself up."

Mercy still did not move.

"All right then." Sugar reached down and touched Mercy's shoulders. Mercy's body jerked and shrank away from Sugar's touch.

"I ain't here to hurt you," Sugar said, grasping hold of Mercy's shoulders, and Sugar gently pulled her up and into a sitting position. "I'm not here to hurt you," Sugar cooed as she stroked Mercy's arms.

She wanted to embrace her, hold her close to her and tell her that everything was going to be all right, but she couldn't because she didn't know if everything was going to be all right.

Sugar managed to get Mercy up, dressed and out onto the street.

Mercy hadn't said a word the whole time Sugar dressed her, not a peep when Sugar wiped away the dry spittle from around her mouth or the crust from the corners of her eyes.

After she was dressed, Sugar stood her up in front of the mirror so that she could get a good look at herself. Mercy's eyes widened. "Mya"my hair?" she said as her hands ran over the soft thin curls that covered her head.

"Had to cut it off. Couldn't comb it, it was so matted and dirty. Had lice too."

Mercy pinched her lips together and balled her small hands into fists.

She hated this woman.

She was still weak and the first steps she took were as unsure and off-balance as a newborn doe's. But Sugar held her by the crook of her arm and kept telling her that she could do it.

Sugar dressed her in one of her own dresses, one that she'd acquired during her stay in Bigelow. It was sleeveless, beige and covered in daffodils.

The dress all but swallowed Mercy and Sugar's first thought was of a child lost in a field of flowers. Her second thought was of Jude and how her life had been taken in one.

Sugar guided Mercy down the flight of stairs that led to the front door. They were greeted by the dry steady sound of straw brushing against wood.

It was an insistent sound that may have lulled Sugar on a day when her mind was at ease and she didn't have so many decisions to make, but now it plucked at her nerves and pulled at her scalp.

"Afternoon," Sugar greeted Ms. Countess, the owner of the four-story walk-up.

Ms. Countess was a tall woman with a large belly and beefy arms. She had a thick crooked scar across her forehead and a similar one down the side of her cheek. She barked her words and always smelled of liquor and cigarettes.

" *Noon," she replied and stopped her sweeping to look down at Sugar and Mercy. She rested the broom in a small s.p.a.ce between the wall and the radiator and positioned her hands on her hips. "She the one you bring in here the other night?" she asked, as she looked Mercy over from head to toe.

"Yes," Sugar said, starting to step around her, but Ms. Countess sidestepped as well and they ended up facing each other again.

"Dress too big for her," Ms. Countess said, pointing at Mercy.

"Yes, it is." Sugar stepped a bit to the left, blocking Ms. Countess' view of Mercy.

"Uh-huh," Ms. Countess said, tilting her head. "I told you that room was for one person. One person only, and you got two," she said and put up two long dark fingers in Sugar's face. "Now, two people means more monies."

Sugar looked at the fingers and swallowed hard. "I know, I don't have a problem with that and I told you so the night I brought her here," Sugar said, trying hard to keep her tone low and respectful.

"Uh-huh."

"We leaving on Sunday, but I'll pay you through next week for your kindness."

"Uh-huh," Ms. Countess sounded again before moving her eyes from Mercy to Sugar. "She family to you?"

Sugar nodded her head yes.

"She yella and you so dark, seem unlikely you two would be kin."

Sugar bit down hard on the inside of her mouth, but said nothing.

"She been sick?"

Sugar nodded again.

"I ain't seen no doctor. I ain't seen you come in with no bags of medicine from Krutnick's. What you giving her?"

Sugar twisted her mouth. She didn't like this inquisition.

"We fine," Sugar said.

Mrs. Countess gave her one last steady look before turning and grabbing the handle of the broom. "No, I ain't seen none of much, but I done heard plenty."

Sugar grabbed Mercy's hand and started toward the door.

"Sweet Jesus!" Ms. Countess gasped. "It look like somebody been driving nails through your arms, chile!"

Mercy moved to the other side of Sugar and let out a small whimper.

That sound did something to Sugar and she turned on Ms. Countess and bared her teeth.

"Look here, you don't worry *bout her arms, or the color of her skin or anything else that don't have nothing to do with you. You don't worry 'bout what you ain't seen or heard when it comes to her and me. You just worry *bout getting paid through next week even though I'm leaving on Sunday."

Sugar resisted the urge to s.n.a.t.c.h the broom from Ms. Countess' hand and bring it down over her head. "You worry *bout that, okay?" Sugar leaned in so close that their noses touched.

Miss Countess' cheek twitched and her eyes wavered and then dropped.

"You just make sure y*all are gone by Sunday," Ms. Countess mumbled under her breath as Sugar and Mercy stepped through the doorway.

Mercy looked at Sugar only when her attention was taken away by the sound of a bird or the rolling black of the truck tires that traveled up and down the main street. Sugar always seemed to be talking to herself, mumbling things beneath her breath in between the puffs she took on her cigarette.

She looked at people funny, stared at them long after they'd pa.s.sed her as if she knew the face but had forgotten the name and was trying hard to recall it.

Mercy decided that Sugar was crazy.

"How you like these?" Sugar asked Mercy as they sat in the shoe store. Mercy glanced down at the shoes and then turned her head back toward the large gla.s.s window that looked out into the street.

The saleswoman, a slight woman with freckles, stood patiently aside and waited for Mercy to respond. She tried hard not to stare at the marks on the girl's arm or the short curls that lay lopsided on her head, and forced a smile when Sugar looked back up at her. "She'll take those," Sugar said with a sigh and reached down into her purse.

It had been the same in every store they'd gone into. Sugar would point out a dress, a sweater or a pair of pants all of the young people seemed to be wearing and Mercy would just drop her eyes or turn her head away from her. By the time they returned to the rooming house, Sugar's arms were aching from carrying the bags of clothes and shoes she'd purchased for Mercy.

Sugar's head was hurting from being out in the sun and having to deal with so many different people in such a short s.p.a.ce of time. Her body yearned for the soft comfort of the bed, but she would have to do without that small luxury and settle for stretching out on the small pallet she'd fashioned for herself on the floor.

Mercy sat down on the bed and stared at her hands as Sugar moved the clothes from the bags to the suitcase. It was nearly seven by the time they returned and the house was buzzing with tenants coming in from work.

Doors opened and closed and radios were turned up loud enough to drown out the sounds of the AME congregation preaching out on the sidewalk below. They'd gotten hold of a microphone this week and even the closed windows and loud radios couldn't keep their message of faith out.

Sugar could hear Ms. Countess yelling obscenities at them from her window and then the laughter of the neighborhood kids as they pa.s.sed by.

"You should eat something," Sugar said as she sat down on the floor and leaned her back up against the wall. There wasn't a chair in the room, just the single bed and the small bureau. "You need your strength. You don't have to talk to me, but you gotta eat," she said and began picking at her own plate of greens, ham hocks and macaroni salad. "There's cornbread in the bag there," Sugar said between bites.

Mercy's stomach growled and her mouth watered at the sight of the food.

The beads of sweat that moved down the side of the Coca-Cola bottle that Sugar had rested next to the food all but drove Mercy mad with temptation and she was reminded for a moment of the feeling she got when the heroin went thin in her blood and she needed to get money to get it thick again.

She licked her lips and told herself she would starve before she gave the crazy woman any satisfaction.

She twisted her body around and lay down in the bed, pulling her knees up and into her belly, trying to push the hunger away.

Sugar just shook her head. "You ain't hurting n.o.body but yourself," she said before taking a long swig from her bottle of c.o.ke.

Sugar was dozing, swinging in and out of sleep, grappling with her dreams of Jude.

Mercy lay watching Sugar, closing her own eyes whenever Sugar's rolled open. Sugar had stretched herself out on the floor, blocking the doorway. There was no way Mercy could get out without moving her first.

b.i.t.c.h, Mercy thought to herself.

The food was still on the dresser, cold now, but the smell of it hung heavy in the room, taunting her empty, growling stomach.

Mercy sighed and pushed her head into the thin pillow. She wanted to get away from this place and back to Prophet, Mary and home.

The thought of her grandmother made her flinch and then ache. Mercy realized that she hadn't thought about Mary at all and now the thought of her made Mercy feel sad and lonely.

She squeezed her eyes shut and concentrated real hard, but all she could remember was waking up and being here in this place with the woman that called herself Sugar.

Everything before that was black. Something was definitely wrong.

"Where's my grandmother!" Mercy's scream s.n.a.t.c.hed Sugar from her sleep.

"Huh?" Sugar's reply was groggy.

"Where's my grandmother! Where is she!" Mercy was hysterical.

Sugar pulled herself up. "Ia"" she started but nothing else followed.

"Grandma! Grandma!"

Mercy was on her feet, jumping up and down and screaming like a small lost, scared child.

"Shut that girl up!" Ms. Countess screamed from below.

"Mercy, Mercy." Sugar stood and moved slowly toward her.

"Grandma!"

"Your grandmother is ... is gone." Sugar couldn't allow herself to say "dead." "Gone" seemed better, less final.

"She's gone?" Mercy asked the question as if Sugar meant she'd just missed Mercy's visit.

Sugar saw that Mercy didn't understand or didn't want to understand.

"She's gone. Dead," Sugar went on ahead and said it.

"Dead?" Mercy repeated.

"Uh-huh."

Mercy eased herself down to the bed and allowed Sugar's words to run through her. When it hit her stomach, she buckled and began to moan.