Charlotte would have preferred not to have to ask 'He was what?'

'Buried there under some kind of mound.'

She wasn't sure if this or her confusion made her brain feel dark and cramped. 'Where, do you know?'

'Where his house was.'

Presumably almost a hundred years of erosion had flattened the mound. 'Was that all?' Charlotte asked or hoped.

'All I can think of right now, except you could tell her good luck from me.'

He meant with the book, Charlotte had to remember. 'Thanks, Glen,' she said to end the call, which seemed to have been no earthly use. She silenced the mobile and turned to the hospital. The prospect seemed more oppressive than ever, and she could think of at least one reason. While she waited for one of her cousins to call, she would have to think where to tell Annie they'd gone.

THIRTY.

'What did she say?'

Ellen kept the question in her eyes as she watched Hugh end the call. Beyond her the steps leading to the beach were unequal slabs of sand edged with stained yellowish strips of wood that put him in mind of exposed bones. 'She says go on,' he said.

'And what do you say, Hugh?'

'I say go as well,' he said and stowed the mobile in his pocket.

'Then let's,' Ellen said as if she wanted to believe they were playing a game, and set about descending to the beach.

She grimaced at her legs more than once, perhaps holding them responsible for the irregular strides she had to take. The spade clanked against the edges of the steps as Hugh followed her. By now the entire late-afternoon sky was as good as black with the possibility of a storm. It appeared to jerk lower, giving way beneath its burden, with every step Hugh took. It had already cleared the beach of any visible human audience to his and Ellen's behaviour. Across the river, which had retreated several hundred yards from the cliff, it was reducing the summits of the skyline of Welsh mountains to shadows of themselves. The only signs of life were dozens of thin-legged birds that scurried along the water's edge to peck at the glistening sand. They were too remote to bother about Ellen or Hugh as he joined her on the beach. When she didn't move or speak but only gazed towards the mountains as if she hoped for a glimpse of the sun, Hugh had to ask 'Anything wrong?'

'Rather than everything, you mean?' Without relinquishing the distant view Ellen said 'Maybe my imagination isn't up to this. I can't get it round what we're going to do.'

'We don't need to imagine, we just have to do it. We've got to go back to where you brought us for a walk, yes?'

'When you all got the exercise I needed.'

Hugh lifted the spade towards the blackened sea beyond the river. 'It's that way then, isn't it?'

'That's right,' Ellen said, looking at last.

'It's right and it's right,' Hugh declared, and then doubt overtook him. If he'd regained at least some of his sense of direction, why had it been restored? He could easily feel that the nightmare was biding its time before overwhelming him with worse. This prompted him to wonder 'What are you feeling like now?'

'No better for being asked.'

However clumsy the question had been, he couldn't improve on it. Leading the way would draw her attention to his improved state, and he loitered until she became impatient with his reluctance. He suspected that she was battling some of her own as she set off along the beach.

As he trudged to keep pace with her, their goal seemed to stir in its sleep, or its surroundings did. A quivering advanced from the horizon through the vast black slab of mud that was the sea. Several small boats at anchor near the river's mouth squashed their reflections flat and then were pushed up by them, a sight that put Hugh in mind of lids being raised from beneath. Clumps of gra.s.s began to twitch as if the buried heads of which they were the muddy greenish scalps were about to rise from hiding, a prospect at which the seabirds appeared to take fright, soaring in an elongated flock like a cautionary arrow along the sh.o.r.eline. The next wind brought swathes of sand whispering along the beach, hissing in the gra.s.s and constantly changing their outstretched shapes as if each unstable flattened ma.s.s were attempting to form a secret sign before dissipating among the furrows etched by the tide. The mats of shrubs that patched the cliff face rattled like restless skeletons, while the bushes at the edge of the common nodded together, only to straighten up as eagerly as any audience. Hugh tried not to let them make him feel watched and antic.i.p.ated, and of course the presence he heard stirring in the rusty hulk of an abandoned boat at the foot of the cliff was composed of wind and sand. He'd grown so concerned to separate the landscape from his uneasy perception of it that he didn't realise he had strayed ahead until Ellen called 'Where do you think you're going, Hugh?'

'Wherever you are,' he promised and saw that she'd halted by the path they'd all climbed to the common. 'Is he up there?' he said almost too low to be heard.

Ellen's mouth seemed reluctant to let out her voice, even though she was standing well away from the cliff. 'There,' she murmured and s.n.a.t.c.hed her hand back.

She'd pointed at a hole in the cliff, a few inches lower than her head. In the midst of his apprehension Hugh wondered whether it had been in the photograph he'd found on the Internet. Otherwise the stretch of cliff was unchanged, and he didn't like to think what else the power behind this might be able to do. Ellen ducked to glance in and immediately recoiled, pushing at the air with both hands and then gripping them behind her. 'There,' she said again, and more loudly 'Hugh a'

He lifted the spade like the weapon it could certainly become and tramped fast towards the cavity. It was big enough to stick his head in, not that he intended to, which meant it was equally capable of producing a head. As he came within arm's length a only his own arm, he hoped a the hole, which was too close to perfectly circular for his liking, emitted a wordless moan and a trickle of earth. Hugh faltered until he realised these must be caused by the wind. In any case, if the worst the hole could bring forth was the kind of noise an old-fashioned ghost might have emitted, how much courage did he need? He'd used hardly any yet, and it should be nowhere near running out. He dug the spade into the sand and leaned on the handle while he crouched to peer into the hole, and a face peered out at him.

Darkness seemed to close not just around his vision but over him, and to hold him as fast as earth. He couldn't lift the spade or use it to thrust himself backwards a and then his helpless immobility gave him time to see the truth. The face in the depths of the burrow bared its teeth as Hugh grinned before straightening up. 'It's all right,' he told Ellen. 'That's not him.'

'What isn't?'

Perhaps she hadn't glimpsed the item. 'It's gla.s.s,' Hugh said, letting go of the spade to reach in.

'Don't,' Ellen cried, but his fingertips had b.u.mped into a thin bare object a a bone? No, it was a handle, and he strained his arm further, pressing the side of his face against the clammy surface of the cliff. He must have snagged the handle, because it tilted into his grasp, so that he was able to ease his find out of the burrow. 'See,' he said, 'it was just a mirror.'

The oval gla.s.s was about the size of a baby's face, and set in black wood. Clay stained the gla.s.s and the handle, which was banded with marks that might have been left by thin fingers. As Hugh rubbed the mirror clean with the back of his hand it showed him the black sky. Indeed, the image was dark enough for midnight, and flaws in the gla.s.s made the sky appear to be sprinkled with unblinking stars. 'Ellen,' he said. 'Look.'

She did, but not at him, and still less at the mirror. She crouched to glare at the cliff and shrugged, unless it was a shudder. 'He isn't there,' she muttered.

'I told you he wasn't.' Though Hugh hadn't quite, he felt ent.i.tled to the claim. He would have moved his prize into her line of vision if he hadn't been engrossed. The s.p.a.ce between the points of light was infinitely black, but was one of them more than a point? As he squinted and lifted the mirror towards his eyes he could imagine that the spark in the depths was composed of flecks of light. He couldn't look away, but beckoned to Ellen, murmuring 'Come and a'

'Don't you understand what that means?'

'I don't understand what this does.' As he brought the mirror within inches of his face he saw that the distant ma.s.s of pale light was a nebula if not a galaxy. How much of this was an illusion? The blackness within the gla.s.s appeared to have begun an endless fall, and Hugh felt on the brink of one, as if the egg-shaped glow at the centre of the mirror were eager for his company. The impression made him blurt 'Maybe you a'

'He's got out, Hugh.'

Hugh supposed he ought to feel as disturbed as Ellen sounded, but not yet a not until he identified the appearance in the mirror. Perhaps it was shaped less like an egg than like an eye. 'He left this, didn't he?'

'We don't want it. We don't want anything to do with it. Drop it, Hugh. Get rid of it. It's just an old mirror.'

Hugh tilted it towards his face. To his surprise, however nervous, he couldn't see himself. He seemed unable to see anything except the ill-defined shape of an eye a more like a simile or a subst.i.tute for one, all that his mind was able to encompa.s.s a in the midst of infinite darkness. It must be an eye, since it was widening as if to help him comprehend its essence. 'It's more than that,' he insisted, because it seemed crucial that Ellen should see a so important that he managed to relinquish the sight in order to hold the mirror out to her. 'Really, look.'

She turned her eyes away, but not fast enough. Her face convulsed so violently that he might have imagined it was desperate to take a different form, any form. When she grabbed the mirror he thought she meant to risk another glance, and then he saw her plan. 'Ell a' was as much as he had time to protest before she flung the mirror past him to smash on a rock.

'What have you done?' he cried and stumbled to retrieve the mirror, which was lying face down on the rock. When he picked it up no gla.s.s was left behind, and he thought it might not be broken after all. As he turned it towards him, however, the mirror gave way, though it seemed less to shatter than to ripple like dark water into which an object had just sunk. He even thought he saw glittering blackness spill out of the frame to glisten for an instant on the sand. 'Look at it now,' he complained and swung around, brandishing the empty frame. Then it dropped from his hand, although he didn't hear it fall. There was no sign of Ellen anywhere on the beach.

THIRTY-ONE.

It wasn't a rubber mask, grotesque enough to give children nightmares and sufficiently rotten to disgust anyone. The eyes were part of its discoloured substance, which quivered like a misshapen lump of jelly as if to prove it was alive, however little it deserved to be. It was Ellen's face, one glimpse of which was enough to make her hurl the mirror away. 'What have you done?' Hugh cried.

He cared more about his find than he did about her. She couldn't blame him, even for turning his back as if he'd been waiting for an excuse to finish enduring the sight of her. How might he look when he had to face her again? Which would be worse a unconcealed revulsion or another instalment of his pretence that she wasn't as hideous as he'd just betrayed she was? She didn't think she could bear either. She floundered away as fast as her swollen legs would work and stumbled behind a vertical ridge of the cliff.

It was prominent enough to hide her bulk, but how long would Hugh be fooled? She felt pathetically childish, like both an inept compet.i.tor at hide and seek and an outcast sent to stand in a corner. She could see nothing but brownish clay, a section of which was faintly stained by an almost formless blotch, her shadow. Her nostrils were growing clogged with the smell of moist clay or of herself. If only the night of which the sky was a promise would fall and render her invisible! She heard Hugh utter some remark, so m.u.f.fled that he seemed not to care if she heard, and then he called her name.

While she didn't press her face into the clay, she hunched her shoulders as if this might somehow make her less apparent, a kind of magic only a child would believe. Hugh's next shout was more worried and more distant, and she was afraid he might lose his way without her, except how could he on a beach? He didn't, because in a few seconds she heard him behind her. 'There you are,' he said.

She inched into her dark corner and felt as if she were speaking to the clay. 'Can't you just let me be?'

'What are you being?'

'You tell me, Hugh. Go on, the truth.'

'A worm.'

Perhaps after all she hadn't wanted so much truth. 'Well, thank you,' she complained.

'You're welcome.' After quite a pause Hugh added 'In a manner of speaking, I mean. That's what you look like, what I said.'

It seemed that his refusal to see how she'd changed had been her last defence. 'Well then,' she said bitterly, 'take a good look.'

'I am.'

'Can't you stop?' Ellen pleaded, not just about looking. 'Don't you understand anything?'

'I'll stop if you stop being a worm.'

This was too much, and she twisted around to confront him. 'How do you suggest I do that?'

'You have now. You looked as if you wanted to crawl inside the cliff.'

Was he secretly amused by her reaction or by his own wit? If she'd persuaded him at last to be less wary of her feelings, she wished she hadn't tried so hard. 'Maybe I did,' she said.

'Don't crawl in yet. You're meant to be helping.'

'Remind me how.'

'You can make sure n.o.body comes along while I'm digging.'

'Have you forgotten what I told you?' Ellen said as that fear came flooding back. 'He's got out.'

'Unless he's gone further in.'

At once she was aware of the cliff at her back. She imagined hands sprouting from the clay to drag her close to whatever face might burst forth. As she lurched away from it, Hugh recoiled an extravagant step. 'What's wrong?' she was shocked into asking.

'Nothing really. Come to think, that's exactly what we need.'

'I don't understand you.'

'You can do that if anyone wanders along. Chase them away. Scare them off.'

'You think I'm that bad.'

'I just want you to feel you're some use.'

He could have been offering her an illusion to distract her from her state, though she wasn't far from feeling he no longer cared whether he convinced her. If he'd had enough of her at last, she could only blame herself. All these thoughts gave way to panic as he took hold of the spade, which was standing to attention in the sand. 'If he can move about,' she whispered, 'how do we know what he'll do?'

'That's what we're here to find out, isn't it?' When she met this with silence Hugh said 'Or do you want to leave Rory how he is?'

'There's no need to be so aggressive. It isn't like you.'

'Maybe it is. Maybe I've got to change as well.' Before Ellen could decide how this referred to her, Hugh stalked away to brandish the spade at the hole in the cliff. 'Are you in there, Pendy?' he shouted. 'Going to show yourself?'

The hole and the clay around it seemed to shiver, and Ellen prayed that only her vision had. 'Hugh,' she cried, 'you shouldn't a'

'Then we'll have to come and find you,' he declared and rammed the spade into the cliff.

The burrow gaped in protest or an equally silent warning. It grew more than twice as wide when he dug out a spadeful of clay in which a thin object was writhing a not a crumbling finger, a worm scaly with earth. Hugh turned as if the loaded spade were the needle of a compa.s.s. 'Don't come any closer,' he told Ellen.

'Why not?'

'You don't want to end up looking like a pile of mud.'

He flung the contents of the spade away, spattering the beach. He must have had this sort of careless action in mind, but how insensitive was his task going to make him? As he drove the spade into the cliff again she didn't know whether she was more afraid of seeing deeper into the hole or of having no chance to from where she stood. Hugh swung around with the spade heaped high, and she saw a dark ma.s.s drop out of the cliff behind him. It was only a lump of the roof of the burrow, and she managed to keep her cry behind a grimace. Nevertheless once he'd slung the spadeful in the general direction of the aloof river and frowned at the collapsed section of earth he said 'Go a bit further.'

'What are you asking me to do?'

'I'm saying go away. You're putting me off.'

'How am I, Hugh?'

'I don't want to have to keep looking at you.'

Ellen forced her puffy lips to work. 'I can't blame you, but tell me why not at least.'

'Because it's wasting time,' Hugh said with the remains of patience. 'But if I don't I might throw something at you.'

Why couldn't he aim the spadefuls away from her? His sense of direction must have deserted him again, unless he was afraid it would. Ellen did her best not to feel rejected as she trudged backwards several yards, apparently not far enough to erode Hugh's frown. The next pile of earth he threw across the beach fell short of her and to her left, apart from a clod that exploded sufficiently close to scatter particles over her feet. 'You're no use there,' he said.

'Can't I do anything right?'

'Feeling sorry for yourself isn't going to help either. You might just as well be a pile of mud.'

'All right, let's have your advice how I can improve myself.'

'Don't be sarcy or I won't. Just because I'm not as good as you doesn't mean I'm never worth listening to.' He stared at her as though it demanded an effort and said 'You can't see from where you are.'