"In order to hurt myself I did not realize that I was going to inflict the biggest hurt on my brother...Do you know why my brother became friends with elder sister in law?It was because he saw a despair similar to Ning Ning's eyes in Alicia.But that is just because he has a kind heart.Though they were both feeling despair,their reasons were awfully different. Anyways after a few months of me being addicted,Ning Ning discovered everything.Like the pathetic excuse for a human I had turned,I begged her to not tell anything to anyone.And like the 'true' friend that she was she kept it a secret.But then she started to blackmail me.She wanted to know everything about Ryu.All the details whether personal or professional.She'd even ask me to go to his office to get information.But by then I was in a haze and unable to differentiate between right and wrong but the same haze made me make mistakes since I was trying to hide from my brothers and this is why she was not satisfied..During this time she even helped me get the drugs and on the other hand pretended as if Neil had been ignoring her.Whenever I had any lucid moments,she would cry to me how my brother did not love her anymore.

However one day Neil discovered by accident that I was addicted.I didn't know how but he wanted to drag me to the rehabilitation center.I fought him tooth and nail.I hated myself and I hated him.I only loved the drugs.There was nothing else I wanted.The decision was taken out of his hands when someone had leaked the news to the media that the youngest Long brother was an addict.Neil had strong connections even then so he suppressed the news and adding in the fact that I had been ultra careful in my dealings, there was no proof so it they gave up the chase.But Neil had to bear the brunt.He made arrangements in his home and called the doctors and an entire medical team to help me leave the habit.They had made me giveup cold turkey so I was suffering from strokes and hallucinations,etc and Neil was trying his best.Neil cut himself off from the world for my sake and that was maybe his biggest mistake and biggest savior.

Once Neil went missing in action and me being under house arrest,they knew for sure that something was wrong.It was a clear indication that they needed to be careful.Ryu finally found the truth and Matt was the one who went abroad to cofront Ning Ning's parents.They were our parent's friends and Ryu did not wish to harm them but they turned around and put the blame on us.

"Next what I am about to tell you is something Neil may or may not know.Ryu was the one who discovered and made the connections when I was in rehabilitation later and explained them to me.I am too ashamed to ask Neil if he knew or not.Neil believed that Ning Ning had fallen out of love with him and in love with Ryu.He still accepted that because he loved Ryu just as unconditionally so understood her falling in love with him.But the truth was something more henious.

Ning Ning was one of our closest friends since childhood but not once did we realize that she wasn't trustworthy.Maybe because when it comes to our close ones we are blind.Anyways,to sow a dicord between us brothers,Ning Ning skillfully leaked the news about my drugs addiction,but before she could succeed,one of my brother's friend informed him and he was able to avert the crisis.To instigate Neil against Ryu she pretended to fall in love with him.And her final blow was going to be me..When I was under the influence..she seduced me."

Mi Rae felt numb and speechless with shock.But Ah Hai continued in a monotone,"Yes..I did not think that she was my brother's woman or anything..I was a teenager with raging harmones and when she made the overtures I had no morals.In fact I had no idea that I had done anything with her until I saw the pictures that she sent to Ryu claiming that I had forced myself on her and she could not go to Neil because his whereabouts had become unknown.She planned to force Ryu to marrry her and then make Neil hate him for backstabbing him.But once again she failed.Ryu had already found out about my addiction and my brother trusted me enough that even under the influence I would not do something so despicable.After some time,when I had become more stable,Ryu showed the pictures to me but I remembered nothing..But even then he trusted my word against her."

"Everything Ning Ning did wasin fact a well thought out plan.The only pieces of truth in this were that she indeed fell out of love from Neil originally and she did get together with him for love.But she was not in love with Neil or Ryu or me.In fact she was in love with someone else.Someone she could not be with openly and someone who just happened to be our biggest enemy.She was in love with w.a.n.g Wei-our biological grandfather and the murderer of my parents.She did everything for him and on his orders.She was getting into depression because he wouldn't openly acknowledge her and to make him accept her,she forgot everything and only wanted to destroy us.She had even lied to her parents and Matt was thrown out unceremoniously from there.To make matters worse,once her use was over that old man discarded her.But she was loyal to him to the end.Finally in the end she committed suicide and blamed Neil for her decision.And her letter had enough resentment to make him believe that because he had kept her away from her love 'Ryu' that she had chosen her route..