"I don't want to only have him.I want to give him my heart and love forever and I am not going to compete with a ghost.I am only going to make a place for myself in his heart.I want to know everything about him from him but I can sense that his past is painful to talk about.This is why I approached you for help."

"Hmm.. So are you saying that you are already in love with Neil? " Again a direct question demanding a direct answer.And though she waited for Mi Rae to answer,Alicia crossed her fingers surrept.i.tiously.It would be wonderful if Mi Rae was already in love with Neil.Her work would be reduced by half! Alicia liked what she had seen of Zheng Mi Rae.For any woman to win Neil's heart would be a challenge and not everyone was willing to fight for love.Mi Rae's biggest a.s.set would be her persistence and tenacity in winning Neil over.The more sure she was of her purpose,the more chances of her succeeding. 

A low but resounding,"Yes" was Mi Rae's answer.Alicia looked into Mi Rae's eyes carefully to gauge the truth f her statement.Satisfied with what she saw,she nodded and smilingly said,"Then ask away Mi Rae..Let me tell you I do not know much about his fiance,only what he has told me on and of throughout the years and what I have gleaned from his drunk talks.Listen carefully Mi Rae because the path you have chosen is going to be difficult.Neil's fiance was called Ning Ning and they were childhood sweethearts and I mean literally childhood since they were babies.It has been 10 years since she has gone and add another 15 years to since when he must loved her.This is why tell you that there is a high probability that you may hurt yourself in this.A man who has loved a woman for 25 years of his life won't fall easily for someone else."

Mi Rae's face showed no expression after what Alicia had revealed but her pallor had turned pale.She really ad done herself in this time!Was it really possible to win against such a love?Before she could tie herself in knots,Alicia interrupted her thoughts,"BUT,there was someone who fell out of love.."

Mi Rae's eyes jumped up to Alicia as she looked on shocked..and Alicia,satisfied that she was paying attention continued,"You know Neil's parents died when he was only 16 years and Ryu was 18 years.That was a difficult period for them.Many forces were trying to harm them in business as well as in family.And so Neil and Ryu had to fight the biggest fights of their life."

Alicia stopped for a moment and then said,"Teenagers are fickle and usually needy.Since Neil was always busy,Ning Ning was soon tired of waiting for him.She was a beautiful girl and had many admirers.Now here is where the past gets murky,though Ning Ning seemed to have fallen out of love,she apparently never cheated on him and told him the truth to break off and though Neil was still in love with her,he let her go.Anyways six months later she came back to Neil having realized her so called mistake and Neil being Neil accepted her.And this time they were together for a few years..But soon they faced another problem.."Neil's youngest brother was facing health problems while Lance Inc was being attacked once again and Ryu who had married Leona Knight was a few months back was already struggling..So Neil and Ryu decided to divide the forces and handle the things.It was again a trying time for them.I do not know what happened during this time but by the time they had solved the crisis,Ning Ning had come to hate Neil.

Neil tried his best to win her love back but it was no use.I think,she was suffering from depression because soon after she committed suicide.And in her letter wrote,"She would rather die than live without love.Which was ironic considering Neil loved her no end. "

Mi Rae was beyond shocked.She felt no sympathy for the woman who had died.But she could not imagine what Neil must have gone through!But just to be sure of what Alicia was trying to convey,she spelt out her conclusion,"So basically when Neil needed her the most, she was not there for him and instead attacked him at his weakest."

MI Rae and Alicia,both could hear the anger in MI Rae's tone.

But Alicia had more to add so she continued,"Yes,she was weak and unable to stand by his side but that is not what is the point.The point is that if she had lived,they may have drifted apart or whatever but her death laft a scar on Neil's heart.And Neil has not been able to let go.And this time it is not love but Hate.Neil has held on not because of love but because of hate.And his extends to not only her."

Mi Rae had another moment of understanding."'love yourself',that is why you had it tattooed onhis arm..He had come to hate himself as well.."

"Yes.Because on Ning Ning,Neil believed his love was not enough and soon that feeling turned to loathing towards her and towards himself.Do you know Neil had not so much as looked at another woman in all these years?It is because he believes he is not worthy of love.."

Mi Rae's eyes were over flowing with silent tears and so were Alicia's.The one person who looked as if he had no care in the world,the one with the biggest heart had been abandoned in the cruelest way possible.At that moment,Mi Rae once again promised herself that come h.e.l.l or high water,she was going to make him love!Himself and Her!

After composing herself,she sighed and laid her plan in front of Alicia.She understood that this fight could not be fought alone.And the best accomplice was right here.

Hearing Mi Rae's plan,Alicia was beyond excited and gave her full fledged support to her future sister in law!