After facing upwards for a while in silence, he looked back at her whose still unconscious . His heart ached and felt as if someone is squeezing it . He let out a few breaths as he calmed his emotions .

Advertis.e.m.e.nt"You know . . I was actually the idiot here . I didn't understand what it was that I felt whenever I saw you in the past . It took me a long time to figure it out . If I don't see you, i'll think of what you're doing and if you're taking care of yourself enough . When weather's changed, I wonder if you are wearing enough . I . . . I finally figured it out the last time I ever saw you, which was when you dodged the bullet for me . Till now, right here, it still hurts and felt like something is suffocating me whenever the flashbacks occur . " he put her hand onto his chest near his heart area .

"You . . this innocent silly girl, so tiny yet brave . You know how scared I was that day? when I looked next to me and saw blood spreading and dying the ground? It was raining and that scenery . . . I would never forget . I felt as if someone had carved my heart out and slammed it into pieces . I didn't know how much time had pa.s.sed, I only remember that the doctor came out saying surgery was a success . You looked so weak and fragile back then . I couldn't help but bring you back to my house and take care of you myself . After you woke up, the first thing you asked was about that boyfriend of yours . That moment my hand clenched into a fist thinking how great would it be if I were in his place . For once in my life, I wished to be someone else . But I knew it couldn't happen so I let you go . After that, I never saw you in any events and even thought that you were living happily . " he looked at her with misty eyes .

"I've thought of countless possibilities of meeting you again in different locations and timings, yet I never would've thought it'll be in the middle of nowhere . That night, I once again heard your voice . That sweet voice of the woman who took over my heart . I couldn't believe my ears and so I made sure it was you . I was so glad to have met you again, until I saw the amount of blood you were covered in . You didn't know how worried I was and helpless when I thought that I might lose you once I've found you . The day I rushed into your room and seeing that you've woken up, I felt the greatest joy I ever had . I really wanted to hug you and tell you how I felt towards you . . but you asked who I was . . . " *sigh* he took a deep breath . He smiled slightly as he continued . .

"But after I received the report of your recent years, my shattered heart felt as if the pieces came back in place and my heart was one again . I was so glad, even though you forgot about me, you also wiped out all your unhappy past . Your pain and stress were all gone . If forgetting what happened between us would trade for your smile and laugher, then I'm willing . As long as I get you to smile and laugh everyday, anything else wouldn't matter . It wouldn't . You don't know how many times in the past few weeks that I have controlled myself . I wanted to wait for you . I wanted to be selfish and keep you to myself . I wanted you to give me a chance for me to care for you and now that I achieved it halfway . . . I won't let go . I've done it once and that was my worst mistake I'll never make again . I'll pamper you however I wished to and tease you with endless sweet words to hear you laugh . I don't mind if I never receive your answer as long as you let me by your side . Just seeing you smile at me . . just this alone is enough . . . more than enough . . . " tears flowed down his face .

He bit his lips to prevent cries from coming out of his throat . He breathed heavily as he closed his eyes trying to prevent anymore tears from coming out .

He spoke in a very choked voice . . . "S . . . so please . . I didn't get the chance to treat you how I wished to . I . . I didn't tell you what I wanted you to hear . . . I just got to spend a bit of time with you and felt the most happiness I've ever had in my life . . . please . . don't take it away from me . . . "