'I'm going to have to shut you in. It won't be for long. Don't want you looking for me, OK?'

Ethel looked unconvinced, licked red mud from a paw. She was technically a stray, or maybe dumped. He'd heard this piteous mewling two nights running in the middle of January and finally found this thing in the hedge, about five inches long and not much thicker than a piece of black hosepipe. At first, Alison had not been pleased, displaying that hard edge he used to think would eventually wear away in the country. But on the morning she left, she said she was glad Lol had Ethel. Something for him to feel responsible for.

Lol went into the kitchen and didn't put the toaster on; the smell of hot toast was one of the great scents of life. It would be hard to die with the smell of hot toast in the air. He didn't switch on the radio either. He didn't rake out the woodstove. He sat down at the table, facing the pot of Women's Institute plum jam. He pulled off the rubber band and the parchment top, smelling the sweetness.

'You should've told me,' he said to the jam.

Meaning he should have realized. This was the last of the three pots Alison had brought back from the Women's Institute. The day after she brought it, she'd told him herself and he'd just broken down into tears, here at this table, with the shock.

He'd always been naive. As a kid. As a songwriter. But naivety was something you were supposed to grow out of, like spots.

At the time, the idea of Alison joining all the farmers' wives at the WI had seemed, OK, a little bizarre. But also kind of quaint and homely. It showed that coming here had really worked. It made him want to become part of the community too, a bellringer or something. Keep chickens, grow tomatoes for the chutney Alison would learn to make ... at the WI.

Just off to the WI. It had been a while before he'd realized that all those times she'd said she was off to the WI and returned a few hours later with a pot of jam, she'd really been with James Bull-Davies in the big bed at the big farmhouse called Upper Hall.

How had it begun? He didn't know. Everyone else in the village seemed to know the new woman in the life of the Squire of Upper Hall, that was bound to be a talking point. But there was nobody who'd have told Lol. He was a stranger, even to all the village newcomers. Lucy Devenish might have broken it to him, but he hadn't known her then, in those long, hazy days of trying to get vegetables to grow and watching Alison's easy smile slowly stiffen in her beautiful face.

Lol's chin dropped into the crumbs on the kitchen table. All he wanted was to know why.

He closed his eyes and saw Alison riding, as she did almost every day, down the bridleway from Upper Hall, along the edge of the orchard and out into Blackberry Lane just before the cottage gate.

She was on her chestnut stallion. Alison knew a lot about horses and rode this one with something like contempt. It looked muscular and spectacularly masculine, a thoroughbred beast she could make a gesture out of being able to handle with no particular effort. Like Bull-Davies himself, who was the horse's owner but would never, Lol was sure, be Alison's.

He'd kept watching out for her, convinced she'd come back. For several weeks he'd really thought she would. Then he'd thought that one day she would at least dismount, lead the horse to the door, explain what had happened between them. But the morning ride always ended with an apparently casual glance towards the cottage, to see the smoke from the chimney, signs of life, signs of Lol's survival ... before Alison and the stallion turned, both heads high, back into the bridleway.

Today there would be no smoke.

'You all right, mate?'

Lol's eyes had shuddered open when the knock came at the front door.

'Oh.' He didn't know how long he must have been staring at the postman. 'Sorry. Do I have to sign for it?'

'No, I just couldn't get it through the letter box, could I?'

'Oh,' Lol said. 'Right. Sorry. Thanks very much.'

'Your milk's come.'

'Oh ... I'll come back for it. Thanks.'

'Cheers,' said the postman.

Lol carried the parcel into the kitchen, laid it down on the table. Ethel jumped on it, whiskers twitching.

The parcel was about fifteen inches square and an inch thick. It was postmarked Wiltshire. His name was on the front, typed on a label. Did he know anybody in Wiltshire? Lol lifted the cat to the floor and slit the brown paper with the butter knife.

Inside, under some stiff cardboard, was an LP record. Nick Drake. Time of No Reply.

Lol stared at it. He didn't understand. He was afraid to touch it.

This was the posthumous album. The one with 'Black-eyed Dog', the bleak and eerie little song of depression and impending death. The one where Nick said he was feeling old and he wanted to go home. He was twenty-five years old. At barely twenty-six, he'd taken one anti-depressant too many and his mother had found him lying dead across his single bed.

Lol began to shake. Out of the speakers, from slightly happier days, Nick sang 'Way to Blue'.

What kind of omen was this? He looked up at the curtained window facing the orchard. Suddenly had the overpowering feeling that posh, languid Nick was standing out there among the trees, waiting for him. A bass player he'd once met said he'd been to this party at someone's flat and Nick Drake, six months before he died, had been there and had stood leaning in a corner next to a candle for two and a half hours, spoken to nobody and then slipped silently away, like a ghost.

There was a letter with the album. Neat and official and word-processed and signed ...

... Dennis Clarke.

Oh. Lol sat down. Oh, yeah. It was, in fact, his own album, the one he'd left with Dennis when he went into the hospital.

Dear Lol, I found this record when Gill and I were sorting everything out for the move. Sorry, I've been meaning to send it for months. To be honest, Gill kept putting me off, saying it might make you depressed again. But now we know you're over it and settled with a nice lady, well, here it is.

As you can see, we're in Chippenham now, where I am a partner in a new accountancy firm. A couple of us decided to break away from the old outfit and set up on our own, and I think it's paying off.

Gill and I have got three kids now, and we live in a four-bedroomed, neo-Georgian villa, extremely suburban. I do think about the old days quite a lot, how things might have been. Disastrous, probably. On reflection I'm always glad it ended when it did. We still get our royalties, don't we?

Anyway, the real reason I'm writing is that I had a visit yesterday evening. From Karl.

Lol let the letter fall to the table. He didn't want to read any more, and he didn't need to, did he? Karl was over. Karl was gone. Karl was in ...

If you remember, he was in Seattle, managing a band and doing very well. However, it seems they split quite suddenly (musical differences, of course!!) and Karl was left with quite a few pieces to pick up. Anyway, he's back in this country now because this is now Where the Future Is. He says.

I was a bit thrown when he went on to say he was convinced WE were part of that future. I never read the music papers these days, don't have the time or, to be quite honest, the interest. However, according to Karl, the first two albums are now considered Seminal. That is, they have been discovered by a couple of the major bands one of them might have been The Verve, no less who list them among their influences, and sales are picking up again (expect to see this reflected in the next royalties, or I'll want to know why!!).

Needless to say, I'd be happy to see those albums get the recognition they never really had in their day (with whatever resulting remuneration might be forthcoming!!) but I've been out of the business for a considerable time now and that's what I told Karl when he said we should be thinking seriously about re-forming the band. Look, I said, I shall be forty-five next year, I have lost most of my hair, I have got three kids to support and I am very happy to be a chartered accountant in a nice part of the country. Also I have had a periodic problem with my elbow and have not lifted a drumstick in about three years.

Well, he didn't push too hard, because, let's face it, he can manage without me. I never wrote a song. I wasn't even a very good drummer. It's you he needs not only the major talent in the band but nearly ten years younger than the rest of us and so less likely to seem like an old fart.

I don't know how you feel about this. I did wonder, with you being in a stable relationship now and perhaps better able to hold your own with Karl, whether you might not be ready for something like this. However, when he asked me where you were living now, I decided on caution. I said, Look, Lol's had his problems, you had better go easy. I think he got the message. Naturally, I said I didn't know where you were living now, and I rang that guy Chris in A and R at TMM and warned them not to give your address to him either, but somebody's bound to leak it, and that's why I'm writing. I would have phoned, but I find you are ex-directory.

Anyway, I thought I had better let you know. Karl has changed ... well, a little. All the same, Gill didn't take to him and was not at all happy when he took out what I would swear is the SAME TIN and rolled himself a joint, which, as you can imagine, is not exactly the drug of choice in our part of Chippenham.

Let me know if you hear anything. Give my best wishes to Alison, is it? We were both so delighted to hear things are working out for you at last on a personal level and once again, sorry for keeping the album so long.

With very best wishes, Dennis Clark.

Dear old Dennis Clarke.

Methodical, play-it-safe Dennis. If you work it out for yourselves, lads, you'll see that if we do these two gigs in Banbury, we'll be twenty-seven pounds better off than if we go up to Sheffield, taking into consideration at least three Little Chef meals, eleven gallons of petrol and tyre-wear ...

Dear old stupid, bloody Dennis. Put it behind you, Lol, it's not the end of the world. Make a new start. In a couple of years you'll be laughing about it.

Lol slumped into the old blue armchair.

Nick Drake sang 'Cello Song'. Calm, upper-class English accent. And yet the black-eyed dog had been at Nick Drake's door, as sure as the Hellhound had pursued Robert Johnson, the poor bluesman, over half a century ago. Both of them dead before the age of twenty-seven.

The thought of the hellhound who was Karl Windling back on his trail made Lol's mouth go dry.

He thought, Where will I go?

The days were growing longer. Living in the country, you could really feel the earth turning, and it made you dizzy.

He would do it. He'd go. Now. In the springtime, when the sun was beginning to linger over the village with its ancient black and white cottages and inns, its old and mellowed church, its narrow, brown river.

In a similar village, not two hours' drive from here, sometime in the night, Nick Drake had opened his door to the black-eyed dog.

Now, out there in the orchard, Nick was waiting for Lol.

3.

Local History.

ACTUALLY, JANE THOUGHT, it was excellent living at the pub.

Even though they had to share a bedroom: her at one end knocking off her homework, Mum at the other agonizing over a sermon. Even though you had to be up and into the bathroom pretty early to avoid having to watch Mum saying oh my God her morning prayers.

You tried not to be embarrassed, you really did try. But a grown woman, who actually wasn't bad-looking for her age, down on her knees under the window, whispering sweet nothings to some invisible old bloke in the sky ...

What a psychologist would have said, how a counsellor would have put it, was that Jane was actually jealous of God. This single-parent only child, OK, a semi-orphan, and here's her widowed mother taking up with Another Guy and this time it's much more intense, this time it's the Big Guy, the Real Thing.

This was what a psychologist would say. And was, in fact, more or less what a counsellor had said. The counsellor forced on her by Mum's bloody theological college the time she ran away, as they insisted on putting it. Or took a night off, as she tried to explain it to them.

Anyway, the night off had involved putting on some serious make-up and going to a pub and getting chatted up by a computer salesman from Edgbaston before being spotted by one of the prissy bloody trainee vicars who fancied Mum and took great pleasure in grassing up the delinquent daughter. Jesus, how ironic.

'All right, what's on your mind, flower?'

Mum plonked two Diet Cokes on the pub table, the one near the toilets that was always the last to be taken except, of course, when good old humble Mum was around.

'Oh,' Jane said. 'You know. I mean, nothing really. As such.'

'As such.' Mum nodded solemnly.

'Just wondering if I can put up with that bloody school for another two years before I wind up doing drugs and self-mutilation.'

Third new school in as many years. Though, frankly, when you'd done it once, it got easier. The kids were always more curious about you than you were about them, everybody wanted to hang out with the new girl, and the teachers would give you the benefit of the doubt for months before proclaiming you Public Enemy Number One.

'Mmm,' Mum said. 'Is it that particular school or just any school desperate enough to take you?'

Jane wrinkled her nose. 'I just sometimes think I'm too old for it.'

'Too old for school?'

'Older than everybody else my age, anyway. Do you really have to wear that thing in here?'

Saturday lunchtime. With the post-Easter tourist season starting up, the bar was pretty full. Being seen lunching with your mother was one thing, sharing a table with the Vicar was something else.

'Yes, I really think I do.' Mum patted her ridiculous collar with something Jane was horribly afraid could be pride.

She lowered her eyes. Hell, even a real dog collar would look better, one of those with coloured-glass jewels or brass spikes. People of Mum's generation apparently used to wear them quite a lot during the punk era. She remembered Dad telling her once that Mum, as a teenager, had been a sort of punk. Not exactly the full safety-pin-through-the-nose bit, but certainly cropped hair and black lipstick. Dad talking in a way that suggested he'd been quite turned on by it. Pretty revolting, really. And the music was embarrassingly awful.

'Going undercover was never a good idea,' Mum said. 'Not in the parish. It only leads to embarrassment later.'

Possibly meaning the guy who'd tried to pick her up in this very bar and had turned out to be head of English at Jane's new school, the smarmball who could be teaching her A-level next year. Which him being married to the girls' PE teacher Jane would not hesitate to use to stitch him up if the oily git should give her any hassle.

It was OK staying at the pub, because you learned things about people. Things you might not find out for ages if you were banged up in the vicarage. Like that TV-playwright guy, Richard Coffey, moving this youngish actor into his house on a fairly permanent basis. The actor was called Stefan Alder and was really succulent totty. Apart from being gay, of course. Or maybe he just hadn't met the right woman.

So, yeah, it was good at the Black Swan. Swinging off the school bus and strolling coolly into the bar. On the other hand, there was the question of her apartment. Mustn't let that one slide.

'So, how long before they finish de-Alfing the rectory?'

'That's what I was about to tell you.'

Mum was taking delivery of a couple of ploughmans-wifh-cheddar from the waitress. Don't do it, Jane pleaded silently. Please don't say fucking grace ...

'I meant to say last night.' Mum speared a piece of celery. (Thank Christ for that.) 'The rewiring's complete, they've nearly finished work on the kitchen. And yesterday, apparently, they took out that huge electric fire which is so old it breaks every known regulation. According to Uncle Ted, Alf Hayden must have been getting divine protection to have avoided being fried. Anyway the bottom line is, we could be in by next weekend. Good?'

'Yeah. Could be OK.'

Give her the whole of the summer holidays to get things together, apartment-wise. She had in mind this kind of Mondrian effect for the main room; you could paint the squares inside the timbers in different colours. Ingenious, huh?

It was Uncle Ted, of course, who'd fixed it for them to stay on at the Black Swan, persuading the diocese to fork out for the Woolhope Suite, a bedroom, bathroom and small sitting room with a decent-sized TV. It was still off-season, so Roland, the proprietor, had been amenable to the kind of deal that people like Uncle Ted prided themselves on making.

Uncle Ted was widowed and seemed to have an arrangement with a widowed lady in Church Street. Ledwardine was really quite liberal and sophisticated. Perhaps the country had always been like that.

To Jane's horror, the local paper had been along, to get a picture of her and Mum outside the pub. Mum had insisted on wearing the clerical clobber, and the photographer had made them both sit on the pub steps, smiling like idiots. B and B Vicar Holds the Fort, it said. Yuk!

Mum's only objection was to the word vicar. Priest-in-charge was the correct term. It was a temporary thing; apparently there was going to be this big reorganization and Mum could wind up with about four extra churches, making her a kind of flying minister. That was when they'd give her the official title; meantime it was just the one church, which should have been a piece of cake. Would have been to anyone but Mum, who seemed determined to become some kind of spiritual doormat: people cornering her in the pub all the time, emergency meetings of the Church Council, articles to write for the parish magazine (Dear Friends ... yuk!), four trips to Hereford to see parishioners in hospital.

And three funerals inside a fortnight: mega-depressing, or what?

Well, obviously you'd get used to that be like planting bulbs after a while. Except, if you were Mum, you felt obliged to spend most of a day and a night quizzing relatives and neighbours about what kind of person the prospective interee was prior to being dead. It's a life, Jane. You can't just dismiss a life with a handful of cliches and a couple of jam scones in the village hall. She wasn't even getting bloody overtime. And she was starting to look seriously knackered.

'Ah. Merrily. Might one perhaps have a word?'

Jane looked up from her lunch. Yeah, she thought. The word is tosser.

'Sure,' Mum said. 'Take a pew.'

'Thank you.'