"Will you go wake them up?"
Three minutes later, Grace came clattering back down, a fully dressed Barbra trailing behind her.
"Babs won't tell me where Dad is!"
Not even a full day had passed, and Grace had already tossed aside the beatific calm that she'd brought to Helios. Ah, well, she was only sixteen. There would be other epiphanies. "What's going on?"
"I only need to say the thing one time, not two," said Barbra.
"Okay," said Grace. "So what is it? Say it already, where is he?"
"Daddy went to return the car at the airport."
"What? Why'd he go by himself? He should've waited for us to wake up-I could have gone with him. How's he planning to get back? Should we go pick him up now?"
Her stepmother turned towards the window and looked out at the barn Saina was slowly converting into a studio. "He's not coming back. He's going to go to the airport."
"Right. To return the car." Why was Barbra being this obtuse? "And then he's coming back?"
"And to get on an airplane."
Instinctively, Grace and Saina grabbed for each other's arms. "We just got here! Where's he flying to?"
"Zhong guo."
"Are you serious? Why is he going to China? That doesn't make any sense! Why didn't he tell us?"
Saina's heart sank. Had the shock of losing everything made her father crazy? "Is it the land? Does he really think-"
Barbra looked at her, level. "He thinks yes."
"What? What are you guys talking about? What does Dad think?" Grace's whole body was canted towards them, quivering. "I hate it that no one tells me anything! I'm sixteen now. I'm not a baby. Just tell me already!"
Sigh. "Okay, so Dad thinks that he can roll up to China and they'll just give him back all of the land that his family had to turn over to the Communists."
"Well, he's right! I mean, it's not theirs, it's his. Why should they get to keep it?"
"They do not worry about fair," said Barbra. "You don't take over a country by fair."
"But, Grace, you know there's no way that it'll happen, right? As much as Dad might want it to?"
"It could," she insisted. "Why couldn't it? He could make it happen."
Saina turned to Barbra. "He didn't . . . he didn't have a message for us or anything?"
"No messages."
Why had she spent so much time worrying about whether he would be comfortable here? Whether he'd approve? All he did was deposit Barbra and Grace on her doorstep like chattel and then take off without even saying goodbye. Saina slammed her mug down on the marble counter. "Fine. If he wants to call, he'll call. Grace, let's go get you enrolled in school."
From: charlesxmwang@gmail.com To: Wang, Saina; Wang, Andrew; Wang, Grace September 19, 2008 Hi, darling children 1, 2, 3- How are you? I landed in Beijing today. I am sorry there was not a time to say goodbye before I leave. Tomorrow I will travel to our old home, . Do not be worried, be happy. Remember, if you go out in sunshine put on sunscreen, you do not want to be old and wrinkle like me. Ha!
-Daddy
Beijing, China.
10,310 Miles.
CHINA WAS his last chance, and Charles Wang was a man who used all of his chances.
What he didn't expect, what surprised him from the moment he got off the thirteen-and-a-half-hour flight and stepped into the enormous glass-and-steel marvel of the new Beijing airport, was the realization that China could have, should have, been his first chance.
China was his old country, so despite all he'd seen of the world, part of him had still expected it to be old. A larger, more glorious version of the Taiwan he'd left as a young man. Despite everything he knew about the roaring tiger economy, all the photos he'd seen of this whiz-bang new airport-the sixth-largest building in the world!-which was probably run by a cadre of hyperintelligent robots, part of him still thought that he'd land at a provincial airport, long linoleum hallways half in shadow thanks to rows of blown-out fluorescent bulbs, groups of surly porters impressed by the fact that he'd come from America.
How could he have been so wrong? From the moment he deplaned, it was clear that China had leapt past him and the America he'd so navely thought was the Wang family's future. Charles knew that the symbols at this airport were almost too easy to see-the red and gold of ancient China made modern, the skylights shaped like dragon scales-but they still worked on him, immediately recalibrating his impression of the China to come. The surprise continued in the cab, where a screen implanted in the seat in front of him blared advertisements for restaurants and beauty creams as the driver, so small that he sat on a pile of phone books, steered them through a glittering city to the nondescript tourist hotel he'd booked on Priceline, of all places. It was Saturday, and the only information that his lawyer had been able to retrieve about the man who presumed to take ownership of his birthright was his place of employment-a midsize travel agency-so for the moment, Charles would allow himself to play tourist in Beijing. Confronted with the drab cell of a room, twenty-five floors aboveground, Charles disregarded the fact that he had barely slept since New Orleans and dropped his satchel on the bed.
After waiting almost ten minutes for the elevator, which seemed only to go up, Charles found a glass-enclosed staircase that ran along the exterior of the hotel. He descended two dozen floors by foot until, nearly at ground level, he reached an elevated walkway connecting the building to one across the street. Eager to get out into the city, he pushed open the heavy glass door and walked into the smoggy heat of late afternoon.
On the street below, a dark brown ox hitched to a wooden cart stood calmly at a seven-way stoplight. The leather braces around its neck were broken and held together with a length of soiled rope; its horns swung up on either side of its head, an ineffectual crown. To the animal's left, there was a gold Lexus, one blacked-out window rolled down. From a floor above, Charles tracked a plume of smoke from the driver's cigarette as it floated up towards the beast and into its giant eye. The ox blinked but didn't move, just switched its muddy tail from side to side as scooters and bicycles-so many bicycles-pooled all around.
Plunging down the last flight of stairs, Charles finally stepped foot on a real Beijing street. He wanted to lose himself in the city. At random, he chose a direction-East. East was best-and began to walk as quickly as he could on leather soles and three airplane meals. A group of schoolchildren in uniform ran ahead of him-little girls in braids, little boys with their downy heads shaved-and crowded into a shop whose walls were lined with clear bins full of snacks. In the grassy median of Wang Fu Jing Street, men lounged around a metal trash can that they'd turned into a makeshift barbecue, flames licking the juicy, dripping skewers of meat. One man turned the kebabs as the others squatted on the ground playing a game of liar's dice. Next to them, a woman peered into the ear of a white-haired grandfather who sat splayed on a stool, his shirt open and belly hanging out. Charles hadn't seen a long-handled ear pick in decades, but now he remembered his aunt and uncle taking those same positions in the shaded courtyard of their Taipei home, digging out each other's ear wax.
Charles's right pants pocket sagged. After going through security, he had taken the jade seal out of his carry-on bag and put it in one pocket, then taken the small piece of bone and tucked it in the other. He curled his fingers around the bone, that last vestige of his father.
Charles had missed seeing his father alive one final time. When he finally made it back to Taiwan, it was only for the funeral and cremation, both of which took place on the day he arrived atop a burial mountain on the outskirts of Taipei. Jet-lagged and weeping, he had bid the other mourners farewell one by one until he was the only one left, waiting as his father's body was reduced to ash. As the dark crept into the empty hall, he sat in a plastic chair cursing himself for having been a neglectful son while the crematorium manager-a menacing joke of a man in a Hawaiian shirt with a perm and a pinky ring-ate a fried pork chop and watched a variety show on his boxy television.
When Charles startled awake, he had slid half off the seat, and the man was nudging him towards a still-warm metal box filled with ash and bone. Next to it lay a pair of silver chopsticks. Charles knew what he had to do. He picked up the chopsticks and reached into the pile, picking up the pieces of bone and placing them in an urn and then pouring the ash on top. When the man turned away, Charles had reached in and pulled out one of the pieces, light as driftwood, slipping it into his pocket. And now here it was again, back in his pocket, back in China.
He walked by the entrance of what looked like an old hutong neighborhood, its narrow alleyways and crumbling stone walls promising a glimpse of his father's dream of a lost China. It turned out to be a warren of small boutiques selling remarkably avant-garde clothing, each occupying a rammed-earth-and-sun-dried-brick building that would have been home to a branch of a family. Lesser relatives of the Wangs might have lived in a place like this three generations ago. Picking up a thin white shirt with one arm sewn across the front like a straitjacket and the other missing entirely, Charles boggled at the price. Was it really 2,150 yuan? He calculated quickly. Could this student art project of a shirt possibly be selling for $350? And here, in this nondescript area of town? Just outside, a makeshift noodle stand straddled a narrow alleyway, and the proprietor, a teenager in a dirty apron, stirred a steaming pot of stock as his minispeakers blared out Britney Spears.
Charles was hungry now. Something deep in his belly growled and rolled, and he felt empty enough to consume the entire country.
He'd been following the tourist signs to Tiananmen, but as he crossed a wide plaza, he spotted a giant topiary display three times the size of a Rose Parade float, a leftover from the recent Olympics. A rose-studded banner spelled out LANE CRAWFORD: FASHION IN MOTION. Lane Crawford. The logo made him feel light-headed. It stoked the anger that had not dissipated since the day he and Barbra had left their beautiful home.
Six months ago, in the last flat-footed attempt to bring some money into his coffers, Charles had contacted the luxury retailer, sure that they would be interested in investing in an American brand formulated for Asian faces. He'd been to the Hong Kong branch as a teenager and still remembered marveling over the glamour of the foreign brands as he tried out every settee and love seat in the tea shop and munched on cream cakes. But that was then. The Lane Crawford of 2008, in all their shortsighted ignorance, didn't even consider his proposal for a full twenty-four hours before issuing a categorical no, claiming that they were developing their own makeup line.
Light-headed now from hunger, he crossed the plaza, shoving past a pretty girl in a brown uniform passing out packs of tissues with something advertised on them and pulled on the heavy door, wincing as a blast of cold air smacked him in the face.
Where was it? Where was their own line? Charles stalked into the makeup area, enraged by its prettiness, breathing in the perfumed department store scent that was the same in Beijing as it was in Cairo or Beverly Hills. There was nothing with the department store's old-fashioned logo on it, not a pot of blush or a stick of eyeliner. No house brand, but everywhere there were women with carefully styled hair and expensive clothes that hung just so on their shoulders. Even the chubby ones were well dressed, everything tailored so that no rice-pot binges were betrayed by a lumpy sheath.
Hunger and disappointment, rage and a furious sort of envy for the things that were once his and now were not pulsed through Charles. At the end of the cosmetics section, the glowing glass cases of jewelry began. A woman his age stood at one of the counters with an older man who could be her father but was probably her husband. In front of them sat a velvet-lined box with three massive watches that dwarfed even his beloved Audemars Piguet, surrendered along with the rest of his timepieces.
Who were these people who had stayed in China? That gray-haired man strapping on an ostentatious F. P. Journe and asking whether it was waterproof, was he one of the university students who had fallen under the sway of Mao and overrun the Wang family land?
Nearby, an elderly woman watched her friend exclaim as a salesgirl fastened a strand of fat, lustrous pearls around her neck. Those tai-tais tittering over baubles, were they the same vicious Little Red Guard schoolgirls who had pulled his elderly aunts out of bed and paraded them through the streets, stringing their arms through a wooden yoke and forcing dunce caps on their snowy heads?
Across the floor, a kid with the tips of his hair bleached an ugly blond rang up a tower of shoeboxes as his manager fussed right and left, fawning over a girl tapping on her cell phone, who barely noticed his ministrations. That slavish manager who now spent his days fitting six-hundred-dollar high heels on privileged young feet might have been one of the toughs in tattered uniforms who had taken his left-behind family heirlooms-the centuries-old book of Wang family genealogy, the scrolls written by Zheng Xie that his father had still missed, quietly and desperately, a decade later-and burned them all to ash.
How had all these peasants transformed themselves?
And why hadn't his family stayed and done the same?
A man in a suit and a silver name tag touched his arm and asked, in a provincial Chinese that sounded slurring and soft, "Is there a problem?" Charles realized that he'd been hunched over, gripping the edge of a glass case full of Smythson notebooks bound in leather, their covers printed with simple slogans: JUMP FOR JOY, GAME ON, TOP SECRET. He had one of his own that said CHAMPION, a just-because gift from Barbra. Objects that mere months ago had seemed casual and, if not necessary, at least deserved, now felt outlandish to Charles. Had she really spent 460 yuan-What was that? Seventy-five dollars!-on a notebook that he had used twice?
Oh, the man was still there, waiting for his response. Charles's sweaty fingertips squeaked on the glass as he shook his head. "No, no. Just looking at these books, so beautiful!" The store official frowned down at his flashing cell phone and moved past Charles, barely pausing to nod.
For a second, he let himself close his eyes. Charles felt faint and a little numb. Concentrate, he commanded himself. Concentrate on the smoothness of the countertop, on the soft music that snuck in through the hidden speakers. Stay present. Breathe. He couldn't have a stroke, here, now. He was too close to the land. He had to push through. Charles breathed in deeply, but the guff of perfumes came at him in a nauseating rush and he struggled towards the exit, wondering if he had remembered to take an aspirin that morning.
Instead of stumbling out into the polluted Beijing air, Charles found himself deeper in the shopping center, crowded by people on all sides. A quick, blank blackness, just longer than a blink, fizzed dangerously behind his eyes and he could feel his blood sugar plummet. In the middle of the mall, there was another topiary, this one of baby pandas frolicking on a dragon-when had the Chinese become so obsessed with these tortured lumps of greenery? On the other side of it lay something that looked like a restaurant, its trendy white gloss of a facade reflecting the dragon's unnatural smile. Breathing heavily now, Charles walked, one unsteady foot in front of another, towards the restaurant and peered at the menu perched on a titanium stand. His stomach poked at him, displeased. The restaurant offered a mishmash of international cuisines, food to make foreigners feel at home and local Chinese feel like citizens of the world: spag bol, wasabi french fries, pizzettas topped with sweet corn and octopus.
As much as he'd left Taiwan because it was not China, would never be China, he'd come to China expecting to find the Taiwan of his youth. Home was home, and what he wanted from home was sausages. Charles remembered when he was a skinny boy, the shortest one in his gang of friends. He and Little Fats and Nutsy and Wen-Wen would tear out of school and hit the streets of Taipei running just for the pleasure of propelling their bodies forward, their schoolbags bouncing along behind them. They ran, and they ate. Sometimes it was a crinkled wax-paper packet of chili-pickled radishes, all of them snatching the bright yellow strips out of a single bag. Other times, they bought a quartet of little batter cakes filled with red bean paste, one for each of them.
The best, though, were the sausages, because these were won, not bought. Yes, you could buy them skewered on thin wooden sticks, but you could also gamble for them. There was never a question what Charles and his friends would do. Someone would dig out a fen and they would all crowd around, breathless, as Charles stood on his tiptoes to spin the wheel-and he was always the one who spun, no matter whose pockets funded the venture, because he was the lucky one. Even then, he was the lucky one. He always spun, and he always won, a brace of six thin, crackling sausages, each bite full of a fragrant funk that he'd never tasted anywhere else, all for a single spin. That's what he wanted. The sausages, and the victory.
He turned to the closest person, and said urgently, "Yie shi." It was a young man in thick black glasses, who furrowed his brow at Charles.
Desperate now, he repeated himself. "Qing wen je fu jing you mei you yie shi?"
The young man took a step back and waved his hands apologetically. "Oh, I don't really speak Chinese, sorry. Um, bu shuo zhong wen. No speak."
"Yie shi! Night market! Street food!" shouted Charles at the person who was not a Beijinger after all, but some sort of interloper, dressed like all of Andrew's absurd friends in a pair of jeans far too tight for a man.
"Ah! Okay, you speak English! Tang Hua market is actually right nearby." Whipping out his phone, he pulled up a map as Charles began to sway on his feet. "Here, look. Just out the east entrance and a few blocks down Taipingqiao Road."
The map blurred behind the cracked screen as Charles struggled to remember the red-lined route. "Okay," he nodded. "Okay. Thank you. Xie-xie."
"Are you sure you're okay, Uncle? Maybe you should sit down."
He waved off the concern and headed away from this globalized bustle. Charles Wang didn't need a man-child in girlish pants telling him what he should do!
Twenty minutes later he was seated on a plastic stool, a sagging string of naked lightbulbs dipped dangerously close to his head. In front of him, a split metal bowl with chicken stewed in medicinal herbs on one side and a fiery red fish stew on the other, along with a tin cup of tea. Craning his neck over the bowl so that none of the liquid would splash onto his shirt, he tipped hot spoonfuls of it down his throat.
Moths and mosquitoes fluttered around the bug zapper, too smart to get caught. Two women in flowered dresses sat on stools to his right, their wrists piled with gold bracelets. He'd never liked the platinum trend in America-what was the point of an expensive material that looked exactly like a cheap one? Much better the deep, unmistakable yellow of twenty-four-karat gold. The Chinese and the Indians had it figured out when it came to jewelry.
The Tang Hua night market was sandwiched between two high-rise office buildings, the sizzling from the grills and the hum of the generators competing with the constant chug of the air-conditioning units that lined one wall. Charles motioned to the proprietor, who turned towards him, wiping sweat from his buzz cut with his shirtsleeve as Charles addressed him in Mandarin.
"Boss, anyone around here bet on sausages?"
"Eh? Bet on sausages?"
"Bet! Bet on sausages! When I was a little punk, we used to do it on the streets. There was a stand with a wheel. A spin for a fen. Most of the punters lost, but you could win half a dozen for the price of one!"
"No, nothing like that around here. Bet on lotto, bet on Olympics, bet on who else is betting, but no betting on sausages."
The man turned abruptly, not interested in conversation, and went back to mincing the chilies that were making Charles sweat. He slurped another fiery mouthful and chewed. It was amazing. Food could make a person feel like all was right in the world even if he was sitting in his abandoned country with the last of his dwindling fortune strapped to his chest and a sinking feeling that he would never solve the mystery of his family's lost land.
Last chance, best chance.
The truth was, Charles didn't know-at least not exactly-where the land was. He knew the name of the village, he had photographs of the old family house, and he had pieces of the 1947 surveyor's measurements and a receipt from a tax assessment, but he didn't have an address. That was why he'd needed the lawyer. Someone who could make his pile of stories and documents into something tangible. His piss-poor excuse for a lawyer had at least done that, but he'd also dropped an unbelievable story on top of it, which Charles was here to investigate. But before he could do that, he wanted to see his land.
It had been years since Charles had ridden any kind of public transportation. Growing up in Taiwan, he had hung off the sides of buses with his friends, but the train system in China was a different matter altogether. A mass of Beijing residents poured out of the station, engulfing him, though when he turned in the other direction, there seemed to be just as many rushing in. The two opposing tides lapped up against each other, unceasing, merging without incident.
When had the children of China gotten so tall? They towered over him, these little treasures, six feet high and rising. Except for the tiny ones, so skinny that their skin stretched translucent over their toothpick bones; and the broad ones, with their farmboy shoulders and wide, flat faces. Charles felt comforted in this swirl of humanity, in this sea of black hair. If the billion people of China ever chose to march en masse, they would be overwhelming in their similarity and horrific in their differences. There would be so many variations on the theme of human that all typologies would be completely bulldozed. This was why he had never worried himself about how America viewed his children, never bothered himself over unflattering stereotypes and prejudices. What did it matter how a country full of white people saw them when the whole world was theirs?
Out the window, the horror of the postindustrial landscape was obscured by its own waste, a thick brown mist that hung heavy in the sky. The train windows were filmed over with it. Charles peered at the grimy windowsill. Putrid neon gum had hardened in one corner and a fluff of gray down, the vestige of some long-ago disease-ridden bird, mixed with curls of dust. Charles lifted his sleeve from the armrest and moved away from the window. Would it all be like this? Would the longitude and latitude on his deed point towards rows of tenements and factories where children worked for slave wages? A settled town of cheap shops and pasteboard houses that would collapse like they had just months ago in Sichuan after that unimaginable earthquake?
Disappointment crowded in. What would Barbra say if he had come all this way for nothing, for a place that didn't even exist anymore? Charles closed his eyes and sank into his seat, wishing that he had something to place between his head and the dingy white cover that was meant to protect the top of the train seat from the passengers' greasy scalps.
Before he even realized that he was asleep, the train screeched to a stop. What is that strange skill that allows us to doze through an unknown route and wake up at the correct station? He rushed to pick up his jacket and bag, glad to leave the train behind.
At the station, Charles waited for nearly an hour before a suspiciously new taxi finally deigned to pull up. It bumped him over a series of rural roads, the driver speaking at first in some sort of dialect that Charles could barely understand before he switched to a flawless Mandarin. On the outskirts of town, they saw a benighted huddle of mud-and-straw huts, shocking in their crudity. Next to them, children rolled an oil drum in a field, but they paused and looked up as the taxi passed. One small girl on the end waved, and Charles waved back, wishing that he could take her with him and put some new, clean clothes on her. A little girl should have a pretty dress. As they got closer to town, the road smoothed out and the houses began to look less haphazard. Charles looked down at the map. The mountains rose in the distance, just as they did on the map, and the road began to curve in a recognizable way towards a body of water in the distance. This was it. Charles felt sick. He couldn't wait to see it and he didn't want to look at it at all.
Desire, as always, outweighed fear.
An open ditch ran along the side of the road. Charles directed the driver to park next to it. "This is my family's old estate," he explained, proud. "I'm going to have a look at it. Wait here, please, until I return."
Tapping a cigarette out of a packet marked with a warning label and a photo of a shriveled fetus, the driver spit into the ditch. "How do I know you'll come back?"
"I'll leave my bag here with you."
The driver flicked his plastic green lighter and leaned into the flame. "What do I want with your old clothes? I don't even know if you can afford to pay me for waiting."
Charles was offended. His ability to pay for something like a taxi ride had never been called into question. "I can pay. There's no reason to doubt me."
Their eyes met in the rearview mirror, and Charles saw himself the way the other man saw him. Not as the prosperous businessman he so recently was, or as the scion of a landed family that he always would be, but as a foreigner wearing the same clothes he'd worn yesterday and the day before. He wanted to flash what remained of the bills, which he'd changed into yuan at the airport-that, at least, had made them multiply in a satisfying way-but Charles was now keenly aware of being in a deserted stretch of country where the driver might have compatriots without such law-abiding jobs. He left his money pouch strapped securely to his chest and instead opened his wallet to show the smaller stash of money that he'd placed there for incidentals.
The driver nodded, satisfied. "Leave your bag, and give me half now," he said.
The land in China. The landinChina. ThelandinChina.
Charles got out of the cab, hopped over the ditch, and walked straight into the field. He had drawn a painstaking outline of the land on Xeroxed pages of a topographical map and now he held them up, trying to get his bearings. In Los Angeles, real estate had never interested Charles. He had made sure to own his factories and his home-useless ambitions, in the end-but he had never been like some of his friends who snapped up sixteenplex apartments in Koreatown and minimalls in Studio City as quickly as they became available. As a result, he'd neglected to develop a talent for estimating acres or square footage at a glance, but if he had translated the old surveyor measurements on the land correctly, his family's holdings stretched out all the way to the mountains up ahead, acres and acres of it. More than hundreds, for sure. Thousands? Tens of thousands? The thought of it dizzied him. To the left and right, at the far edges of his vision, the horizon shimmered and the land seemed infinite. It was like owning all of Bel-Air and most of Westwood, too.
He peered out at the mountain. Was the family house still extant? It was hard to tell. Clusters of crumbling buildings dotted the mountainside and from a distance it was impossible to tell whether they were newer or older. The outline of the mountain ridge, though, felt familiar to Charles. I know this place, he thought. It was a comforting thought.
I know this place. This place is mine.
The soft curve of these mountains, interrupted by a tall jagged peak, was a part of his blood and his birthright. His father may not have managed to pass on the land itself, but this knowing was nearly as powerful an inheritance.
Only the land bordering the road appeared to be tilled. Charles kept walking until he reached a verdant open field dotted with tiny white flowers and climbed up a small rise. From there, he could see another rise in front of him, taller and a good bit farther away. Although each minute was costing him as much as that cheating cabbie wanted to charge, now that Charles was here, he had to see every inch that might have once belonged to the Wang family.
He plunged ahead.