He gets a serious head injury and starts seeing the Merchant every time he turns around.

As the leader of a SEAL team, he needed to know without a doubt that everything he saw was real. There was no room for trying to figure out what was real and what was a hallucination.

No room for him, not in this condition.

Tom went outside, but the night air was neither cool nor fresh. The beautiful summer day had become more and more humid until this heavy mass of heat now sat solidly on top of them.

Needless to say, the change in weather didn't help his persistent headaches at all.

He was restless and dizzy and far too keyed up to try to go to bed.

From out in the yard, he could see that the light in Kelly's room was off. She was asleep.

He went farther into the yard, all the way to the fence. That was the shortest route into town-provided you could make it over the fence. Dizzy or not, it took Tom about a half second to climb, and another half second to drop down into the neighbor's yard.

In the distance, he could hear strains of music from the carnival that was in town, set up in the Catholic church parking lot. He headed toward it, hoping that a brisk walk there and back would at least make him tired enough to sleep.

Despite her exhaustion, Kelly couldn't sleep.

She heard the water running downstairs after the baseball game ended and her father got ready for bed.

Slipping on her robe, she went out into the dark hallway and down the stairs. He'd left his bedroom door ajar, and she knocked on it as she pushed it open even farther.

Charles had managed to get himself into bed, but it wouldn't be long before he could no longer do that. Every day he seemed a little bit skinnier, a little more frail. He was disappearing before her very eyes.

"Can I get you anything?" Kelly asked through the lump in her throat.

He shook his head, and she knew he was uncomfortable.

"It's okay if you take one of the pills Dr. Grant prescribed."

He looked at her, only briefly meeting her eyes before he looked away again. "I took one an hour ago."

It was too soon to take another. "I can call the doctor," she told him, "see if-"

"It's not that bad." He nodded at her, dismissing her. "Good night."

Frustration bloomed, choking her from inside out, and she couldn't stand it anymore. She couldn't pretend to be the perfect Ashton daughter another minute longer-quiet and polite and careful not to be emotionally untidy for fear she'd upset her father. The man was dying. How bad could a little upset be compared to that?

"Aren't you at all curious about what I did today?" she asked him, her voice a little too loud, a little too angry. She didn't give him time to answer before she continued, pulling up a chair to the side of his bed and sitting down. "Today I had a meeting with the parents of a little girl who's probably going to die of leukemia. Even though these days the odds of survival are high, this little girl is pretty frail. If the cancer doesn't kill her, the chemotherapy might be too much for her-she could die of an infection. She could catch a cold and her suppressed immune system might not be able to fight it off. I had to sit there and explain this to her parents, trying to give them hope while cautioning them about the potential outcome." Her voice shook. "I've done this before, but this time it was different. I know there's always a fighting chance, but this time . . . I honestly don't think this little girl is going to make it, and I knew her parents could tell. Daddy, it was one of the worst days of my life."

Her father didn't say a word. He just sat there, leaning back against his pillows, staring down at the lump his feet made underneath the sheet and blanket as if he wished he were anywhere but there.

"I probably should never have become a doctor," Kelly told him. She'd never admitted anything like this to him before. She'd never dared. "I'm not cut out for this. On the surface, I look fine. But inside, I feel like I'm going to die."

Kelly knew he wanted her to leave. He wanted her to take her whining and get the hell out of his room, leave him in peace. But she couldn't do that. She was running out of time. And if she wanted him to talk to her, then dammit, she was going to have to start by talking to him. Tough shit if he thought it was wrong. Tough shit if he found it offensive. He was the one who was wrong all these years-all those too-stoic Ashtons were. Hold it inside, don't let it show, try not to feel.

But you couldn't not feel. And keeping it trapped didn't make it go away. It would build and build, a terrible ball of pain and anger and joy-yes, even joy, because God forbid an Ashton should laugh too loudly in public. And nothing, not even the alcohol her father had soused himself with for years, could make those feelings disappear.

She just had to do it. She had to open her mouth and talk to him. It was exactly like asking Tom to dinner, the way she'd done this afternoon. She just had to grit her teeth and make an attempt. Because she knew for damn sure she'd never get what she wanted-a chance to truly know her father-if she simply and meekly continued to act the way she had in the past.

"I came home today completely wrung out," she told him. "All I wanted to do was curl up somewhere and cry. You know, I cry a lot."

His gaze flicked up to hers, but then he quickly looked away again. Cry. It was one of the most obscene words in the Ashton dictionary.

"Don't worry-I usually don't let anyone see," she added. "But I completely lost it tonight, when I was talking to Tom."

Nothing. No response. She didn't even know if he was listening, or if he was running mathematical equations in his head, trying to shut her out. She felt a deeper flare of anger and hurt.

"You know, I still have a crush on him. Ever since he's been back, I've been trying to figure out the best way to get him into bed."

Her father started to cough. Yes, he was listening.

Kelly helped him with his oxygen, and when he was finally breathing more easily again, he glared up at her. Eye contact. Jackpot. "Why on earth would you say something like that to me?"

Honesty. Brutal honesty. She could do this. If she could ask Tom to dinner, if she could look Brenda and Bob McKenna in the eye and tell them little Betsy was probably going to die, she could do this. "I want you to know who I am."

"I know who you are!"

"You don't know even a tiny fraction of-"

"I know all that I want to know, thanks."

"Really?" Kelly asked quietly, her heart tearing in half. How could he say that? "You honestly don't want to know any of my secrets? You don't want to know things like . . . like . . ." She searched for something important, something she'd never told him or anybody. "Like up until today I've had two absolute best, golden days with memories that I'll cherish until the day I die? You don't want to know that one of those was a day I spent with you? You took me out in your sailboat-I think I was twelve-and we got caught in a squall. Do you remember that?"

"No." He did. She knew he did. She could see the memory of the wind and waves in his eyes.

"Instead of sending me below, you trusted me to help you get us safely back to shore," she continued. "And after the storm was over, that night when we finally got home, you gave me the Purple Heart you won in the war. I know you remember that."

He didn't do more than stubbornly shake his head no.

"I still have it, you know. You told me I was a good sailor," she said to him. "I was so proud that you thought so. But then Mom never let you take me out on the boat again."

God, Kelly had wanted to be part of her father's life so badly. She'd had this crazy dream that together they'd race his sailboat. She'd help him win first prize again and again, and he'd tell her how much he loved her.

"You didn't fight very hard to get her to change her mind. You didn't even argue at all. You just lay down and let her win. I was so angry with you-I thought you were such a loser." Kelly couldn't believe those words had just come out of her proper Ashton mouth.

Neither could Charles. He opened his own mouth, then shut it.

"What?" Kelly said. Please talk to me, Dad. . . .

"You never knew the seriousness of the situation that day on the boat," he finally said stiffly, stiltedly. "The truth was, I couldn't have made it back in without your help. It was sheer luck we didn't capsize. You weren't a strong swimmer and I was sure you'd drown, even with the life vest on. After that day, I didn't want to take you out on the boat again."

Her father had been afraid that she would drown. Her father, afraid. It was hard to imagine. He'd been so calm, practically blase, even during the worst of the storm.

But suddenly other things made sense. "That was when you signed me up for those awful early-morning swimming lessons with the pool Nazis." She'd thought-despite his momentary lapse when he gave her that medal-that he simply didn't care for her and wanted her out of the house as often as possible.

Charles actually looked at her now. "Pool Nazis?"

" 'Excuse me, Herr Commandant,' " Kelly said, making her voice that of a young child's. " 'But it's only sixty degrees this morning, and the water temperature is fifty-two. I've heard of this thing called hypothermia-' 'You vill get into ze pool, unt you vill stay varm by doing zwei hunnert laps of ze breaststroke, ja?' "

Charles coughed. It might have been a laugh, but Kelly wasn't certain. "I had no idea."

"By the time I got my swimming certificate, the summer was over. And the next year, you sold the sailboat."

He shook his head. "I wasn't using it. And when someone made me an offer . . ."

"You weren't using it because you were drinking."

Well, there was an ugly little truth that came plopping out and now just lay there between them.

Kelly spoke to fill the sudden, tense silence. "My other perfect, golden day was when I wiped out on my bike at the bottom of High Meadow Road and completely bent the front wheel's rim."

He harrumphed. "I'm noticing an alarming correlation between your idea of a perfect day and near catastrophes." His tone was less than pleasant, but God, at least he was still talking. After that drinking comment, Kelly had been certain he wasn't going to say another word.

"I had my first beer at a party that day," she admitted, "and I thought I was going to throw up. When I left, I took the hill too fast, skidded into the corner, and skinned my elbow."

He sniffed. "So naturally you remember it fondly."

"I was sitting by the side of the road when Tom came along on his motorcycle," Kelly told him. "That's what I remember fondly. I spent the entire rest of the day and most of the evening with him, just driving around." She smiled. "We drove past this antiques fair, and we went in on the pretense of getting a soda, but I knew he really wanted to look at all the old stuff. He was so into the history of it, and so nice to me, all day long. I'll never forget a single minute of that day. It was perfect-even the scraped elbow, because that's what made him stop to help me."

She could still remember the way it had felt to ride on Tom's motorcycle, with her arms wrapped tightly around him, her cheek against his back, her legs pressed against his thighs. She remembered later that same night, sitting next to him in Joe's station wagon, with her bike in the back. . . .

"I'm going to add today to my list of special days," Kelly told him. "Because even though it started out really dreadfully, it ended wonderfully. Daddy, when I came home and heard that you and Joe spent the day together without fighting . . . When I saw you in the living room . . ." She started to blink back her tears, but stopped, letting her eyes fill. Let him see how moved she'd been, how moved she still was. Let him see. "I was so glad you've realized how precious this time is-this time you've got left-especially for the people who love you."

Charles closed his eyes. But he didn't order her to get out.

So she pushed even harder. "I know you don't want Joe to talk to that writer, I know you're angry with him, but I don't understand why. I'm still so afraid you're going to argue more, that you're going to say something in anger and then die before you can get a chance to take it back. I'm afraid you're going to die wishing you could erase your angry words, without ever having found peace." Her voice shook. "Daddy, I wish you would talk to me. I wish you would tell me what you and Joe have been fighting about. How can I help if I don't know what the problem is? I don't understand what could possibly come between two people who've been friends for as long as you've been."

Charles was silent for so long, Kelly knew he wasn't going to answer. In fact, as she sat there, she was certain he'd shut her out so completely that he'd fallen asleep.

"I love you," she whispered, daring to say the words aloud. "I want to feel as if I'm a part of your life. Even just a small part . . ."

But then he spoke, his eyes still shut. "It was a woman," he whispered. "Her name was Cybele Desjardins." The French name sounded musical on his lips, his French pronunciation flawless. "She was with the Resistance. She saved my life-she saved dozens of Allied fliers, scores of Jews. Everything she did was dedicated to defeating the Nazis. She thought nothing of risking her life to sabotage German railroad shipments and ammunition sites. She was incredibly brave and remarkably beautiful. Such eyes . . . Such conviction . . ."

He looked up at Kelly, and she realized with a jolt of shock that his eyes were swimming in unshed tears. And his lip, that stiff Ashton lip, actually trembled. "I was married," he told her, "and I knew Joe was in love with her, and . . ."

Kelly took his hand, and for the first time in what seemed like forever, her father actually held on to her. A woman. This fight between Joe and Charles was over a woman. She never would have believed it possible, never in a million years.

"I still can't talk about her," he said, closing his eyes again. "I can barely stand to think about her. What Joe wants to do will rip my heart out all over again-he wants to tell the whole story to the entire world."

Kelly pushed her father's hair back from his face, aching for him, wishing he'd tell her more, knowing he'd already told her far more than she'd ever believed he would. A woman.

"Do you want me to talk to Joe?" she asked gently. "Do you want me to see if I can make him change his mind?"

"I want what I can't have." Charles didn't open his eyes. And when he spoke again it was so quiet, Kelly wasn't certain he'd actually said the words aloud. "Fifty-six years, and still, all I want is to have her back."

The baby oil was wicked disgusting.

Mallory had come out of the bathroom after changing into one of the bathing suits from David's costume box, to find Brandon smearing himself with baby oil.

It was amazing. He was even better looking in person, with golden brown hair that shimmered and a Ben Affleckperfect nose. He was tall-at least five inches taller than she was, with broad shoulders and anatomy-textbook-model muscles.

His smile was a flash of quicksilver, his eyes a wondrous shade of blue.

He was one of those people who was always in motion, filled with a kinetic energy that could knock you on your ass if you accidentally stepped into his path.

She could picture him sitting in his lifeguard chair at the Baldwin's Bridge Hotel pool. Even slouched, he would be in motion, constantly swinging his whistle on its chain, wrapping and unwrapping it around his hand.

"The oil helps provide muscle definition for the camera." Brandon handed her the bottle. "I hate to be forward, but if you slime some on my back, I'll slime some on yours."

It was weird to touch him in a way that seemed so intimate. Especially considering they were both wearing next to nothing.

The top of the bathing suit David chose for her was a little too small-two triangles of thin fabric that tied around her neck and around her back, barely containing her megaboobs. The bottoms were cut high in the back, not quite a thong, but not the kind of suit her grandmother would've worn, either.

"So, David tells me you live in Baldwin's Bridge year-round." Brandon took the bottle from her and spread oil across her shoulder blades. "That must be so great."

It was the first time she'd ever heard her status as a Townie described as great, but she stayed silent. His hands felt too good against her skin for her even to open her mouth to speak.

But he was done far too soon and Mallory took the bottle back from him. She covered her legs and then the tops of her breasts and her stomach with the oil, aware that Brandon was watching her. David was glancing at her, too, but he was less obvious about it than his friend.

"I'm going to need to take a shower after this," she said, suddenly terribly self-conscious. It was cold in here. She was freezing-a fact that neither of them could possibly have missed. God, she wanted a cigarette.

"That's no problem," David said quickly. "I have a shower you can use in the bathroom."

He blushed as if he realized how stupid he sounded.

"I hope you've got a shower in the bathroom," Mallory said. "I mean, like, instead of in the bedroom closet."

Brandon laughed as if she were Jerry Seinfeld. It wasn't that funny, still, his laughter was so infectious she couldn't help smiling back at him.

He took her hand-his was still slimy, but otherwise very nice-and pulled her onto a sheet that was spread out on the floor. They stood on it, in front of a bare white wall, looking like a thoroughly slimed-up version of Frankie and Annette from one of those campy beach movies. Except Frankie and Annette never wore bathing suits like these.

Brandon kept up a constant chatter as David looked through his camera and did things with his light meter.

"This is the boring part," he told her. "Once Sul actually gets behind the camera and starts shooting, it's a lot more fun. And tonight it's going to be even more fun than usual." He winked at her. He was the first guy she'd ever met who could actually pull that off. Winking made most guys just look stupid. "He's making sure he's got the right amount of light for every little last detail. . . ."

David held the meter up to her face, then lowered it so his hand was nearly touching the tops of her breasts. He was completely focused on whatever that little box was showing him. He looked from the light meter to her breasts-completely dispassionately, though-then to the meter and to her breasts again.

"Every detail," Mallory echoed. "As in, every nipple? Excuse me, David, are you having fun down there?"

Brandon shouted with laughter, and David looked up at her in surprise, directly into her eyes. As she gazed back at him, she saw her words finally penetrate his intense concentration, saw as he realized what she'd said. His gaze dropped back to her breasts as for a fraction of a second he really looked at her before he forced his eyes up, guiltily, to her face. And he blushed. Again.

"I'm sorry. Honestly, I don't mean to be disrespectful."

She believed him. He was painfully sincere. No one was that good an actor. "Any chance we can turn down the instafreeze setting on the air conditioner?" she asked him.

"I'm sorry," he said again, blinking at her from behind his windshield. "Are you cold? I didn't realize."