They'd left Cheyenne early that morning and were now in the lower end of the Black Hills. The scenery was grand, but Cath snorted when Rowan remarked wistfully that she'd always wanted to see Mount Rushmore. Delgado pushed down the urge to strangle the girl, who had slid most of her metal jewelry back on-nose ring, tongue stud, the earrings marching up each ear, the hoop in her eyebrow-and correspondingly started acting the disdainful teenager instead of the seasoned Society operative. Warm summer wind poured in through the open windows, and the windshield was peppered with murdered insects.

I've never liked South Dakota. Delgado went back to studying the curve of Rowan's neck, the slope of her shoulder, everything he could see about her. Looking at her made the persistent burning need for Zed fade a little bit.

Thinking about touching her made a different kind of pain worse. The kind of pain he hadn't realized he was feeling for months, a gnawing emptiness inside the middle of his chest. He wanted to reach over, cup his hand over her nape, and whisper something in her ear-anything to erase that solemn frown as she stared unseeing at the map. Were those tears in her eyes? Big, fat, shining tears?

Oh, Christ. He leaned forward, unable to help himself. "Rowan? You okay?"

She actually flinched, as if he'd tried to touch her. "Fine." Then she turned to look out her window, so he could see nothing but the back of her head. He'd chosen the driver's side seat in the back so he could look at her profile, and now he found himself denied even that. "It's just dusty, that's all."

"Is your leg hurting?" Cath, now sounding concerned. For all her brash impoliteness, she seemed to sometimes care how Rowan was feeling.

"No, it's fine. Almost healed up. The worst is over." Was there a telltale hitch in her voice? Did she sound a little choked? "Are we stopping in Pierre?"

"Maybe just outside, for a snack. You hungry?" Cath sounded hopeful. Of course, she'd been stuffing herself with junk food the entire trip, if Del guessed right. Nutrition did not seem to be a word in her vocabulary. It was a wonder how she stayed rail-thin with all the calories and preservatives she swallowed.

"A little. Jus-ah, Delgado? Are you hungry?" Rowan had to half-shout to be heard over the rush of wind.

Delgado. The name hit him like a sucker punch to the gut. She called me Delgado.Not Justin. Delgado. The name the rest of them used.

She's changed her mind. Doesn't want anything to do with me. What am I anyway, but a junked-out Sigma? She's probably already dating someone else, if she has time. G.o.d knows there were enough men at Headquarters that would have jumped at the chance.

His heart burned, cracking in his chest. It felt like a G.o.dd.a.m.n cardiac arrest. The road slipped smoothly under the Subaru's tires, pavement singing and engine purring. Sunlight fell thick and liquid across the dash, tingled in Rowan's hair, picked out the crisp whiteness of her b.u.t.ton-down shirt, worn open over a tank top. They were supposed to be tourists, just another car with Georgia plates, a man traveling with two pretty women, maybe a wife and a niece.

Stop it. G.o.ddammit, stop it. If there was one thing he couldn't afford right now, it was fantasy. She didn't want anything to do with him.

"Not hungry," he said. It was only half true-the withdrawal was killing any hunger pangs he might be feeling, and he wouldn't want food anyway. The only thing he needed was to be near her. "Better stop anyway, to take a look at that wound."

"I'm fine," Rowan protested.

"It'll slow us down," he answered harshly, almost hating himself. "Another fifty miles or so, Cath. We'll stop for a late lunch, early dinner."

"You got it." Cath apparently had no problem with taking direction from him. Old habits die hard, he thought, and didn't miss the flash of irritation, like a bright dart of sunshine, that jetted out of Rowan.

Too bad, angel. The stubborn endurance that had carried him through the last few months of h.e.l.l rose up now, bright and hot. Sigma hadn't broken him. They'd just hooked him on Zed and beaten him up a little.

He could take that. He'd broken a Zed habit once and could do it again-especially if this pale-haired angel let him stay near her. He didn't ask for much, just to watch over her while the Society rebuilt itself.

Del, you're a f.u.c.king fool. She's beautiful. Just look at her. And you can't get rid of a Zed habit by yourself again. It nearly killed you last time.

Remembering that time almost made him shudder-beating his head against a wall until the skin broke and bled, hours spent at the heavy bag just pounding away the furious frustrating weakness and torturing pain, prowling the halls of Headquarters because he couldn't sleep with his skin feeling like red-hot ants were swarming over it-but she could cure him. He remembered the first time she'd done it, cured a woman they had rescued from a Sig installation already moaning and eye-rolling when they brought her in. It had taken Rowan awhile, but she'd somehow treated a Zed addiction without a system flush plus detox and the implied risk of cardiac arrest for the victim.

The thought of how close it had been intensified the cold sweat standing out on his skin. If Jilssen had found out, if Del hadn't pushed himself to forget, Sigma might have gone to even greater lengths to acquire her. She was a high-priority target anyway, but if they found out what she could do, it was likely to become capture-or-kill, no price too high and no mandate too broad to bring her in or neutralize her.

If that happened, she would need him. They would need an operative who knew every dirty trick Sigma could pull because he'd been one of them.

Del touched the small bag nestled against his hip. Inside, the last hypo was cupped in its antishock foam, clipped in and just waiting to detonate inside his head, wipe out the burning he felt in all his nervechannels. It was only going to get worse. Withdrawal was no picnic.

I've got to ditch this, he realized, with a sinking sensation. He settled himself to wait for the next stop, his heart hammering and his sweat smelling sour even to himself. The voice of self-preservation shrilled inside his head, but he paid no attention.

One way or another, he was going to keep Rowan Price alive and free. If she didn't like him, that might actually be better. The kind of man she'd feel proud of wouldn't do half of what Del was prepared to do if Sigma didn't leave her alone.

The rendezvous with Henderson's Brigade was in, of all places, Fargo.

The landscape was entirely flat-flat enough that Del thought privately it was a wonder anyone who lived here didn't die of sheer boredom. But by the time they reached the small suburban house, he didn't have time to think about the landscape, or the fact that Rowan had brightened perceptibly the closer they got.

He was too busy fighting off the need for Zed and cursing himself for tossing the last hypo in a rest stop garbage can twenty miles out of Pierre. Not to mention wishing he could wrap his hands around Cath's skinny neck and squeeze. The girl's abrasiveness didn't matter so much as the way she treated Rowan, like a not-too-bright den mother.

It was dark, and soft early-summer air came in through Rowan's slightly rolled down window. The heat was muggy and oppressive, and he saw lightning flashes in the distance. An early-summer plains storm.

The neighborhood was the best kind for rendezvous and clean houses-middle to upper middle cla.s.s with fenced yards and neighbors who were too busy climbing the food chain to be curious about new folks. Cath idled in the driveway in front of the three-car garage for a moment, waiting, and the garage door began to lift, slices of warm electric light knifing out through the cracks.

Rowan drummed her fingers on her right knee. She was only limping slightly now, refusing to eat very much, and looking more thin and tired with each pa.s.sing hour. Her hair, pulled up in a messy chignon and secured with a ponytail elastic, glowed in the sudden light. The familiar dead-air feeling of dampers closed over Del like water over a drowned man's head, oddly peaceful.

Cath pulled the car neatly into the empty slot on the left and cut the ignition. The garage door went down.

Rowan grinned as the door between the house and the garage opened and Yoshi, his slim dark form in a white T-shirt and jeans, stood silhouetted. He folded his arms and grinned back through the windshield.

Delgado was not at all prepared for this. She looked genuinely happy and relieved, her eyes suddenly sparkling. He caught a flash of concentrated thought-a communication.

"Welcome home," Rowan murmured, then looked back over her shoulder. The full force of her smile hit him like a baseball bat, drove every shred of good sense from his head. "Glad to be back?"

"Pretty much," he mumbled, opening his door.

Yoshi barely waited before he was at Rowan's door, opening it for her. She accepted his hand, and the slim j.a.panese man nodded as his eyes flicked over Delgado. Rowan's lips moved slightly. They were communicating again.

Oh, Christ, Del thought. Please. Not Yoshi.

It was unfair. Yosh was clinically cool and calm, preternaturally skilled with hardware, a master on the computer decks, and good enough in the practice room to earn grudging approval even from Hendersonand Del himself. He was also a nice guy. A friend, if Del could be said to have any friends.

Rowan laughed. She reached up, her slender fingers working, and pulled the ponytail holder free, letting her pale hair cascade around her shoulders.

"I'm on my way," she said, and touched Yoshi's shoulder. No hug, no kiss-that was good. That was very good.

But then again, Del had never tried to be affectionate with her in public, either. He had hung in the background, watching over her, not daring to touch her when anyone else could see for fear of betraying what she meant to him.

That thought wasn't comforting at all.

"Henderson wants us both," she said. "Yoshi, you think you can take care of the gear? At least, until Zeke can manage?"

"What's wrong with Zeke?" Cath stretched, pulling herself out of the driver's seat. "G.o.ddammit, my a.s.s feels numb. I hurt. You better have some vodka lying around, Yosh."

As usual, Yosh was unperturbed. "No vodka, but I believe Zeke has beer. And Henderson has been saving a bottle of most excellent whiskey for Del's return. h.e.l.lo, Del. Took your time, didn't you?"

Del's fingers tightened. It was a good thing the car was between them, because he could see Yoshi's brown hand on Rowan's shoulder, squeezing a little. As if offering support. G.o.dd.a.m.n it, he's my friend.

And she doesn't belong to me.

"I got trussed up, beaten, and shot full of Zed. Not to mention dragged to the high-security part of Sig Zero-Fifteen." He forced himself to shrug. "It took a while before I could ask them nicely to let me play patty-cake with my real friends again."

Cath snorted. "There's our old Del. Come on, I'm bushed. Let's get this c.r.a.p out of the car, Yosh. Don't want to miss the celebration."

Yoshi murmured something to Rowan, who shook her head, her lips pursing. She slid past Yoshi without further ado.

Also very good. He couldn't help it. Hope was an even better drug than Zed. What if she'd been lonely, or had needed a shoulder to cry on? Besides, he'd made the biggest mistake of his life in the practice room, pushed her too hard. If Sigma hadn't attacked, he might have been able to explain, to repair the damage, to use the subtle psychological pressure he was so famous for in nonlethal interrogation to get her to at least give him another chance.

As it was ... it was too late. Or was it?

She looked back over her shoulder. "Del? Are you coming?"

Yoshi's dark, liquid eyes widened. He glanced at Cath. Delgado didn't miss Cath's slight shrug. Loosely translated: I don't know, so don't ask me.

"Right behind you," he said, wishing his hands would stop shaking. It took all his concentration to walk in a straight line.

It helped that he could look up and see her. She reached out, using the doorframe for steadiness, andhauled herself wearily up the two steps into the house. Her limp wasn't very noticeable now, but her shoulders were tight as bridge cables. It hurt him, suddenly, to see that small betraying hitch in each step.

Her left boot dragged a little each time.

Inside the door was a small utility room with a washer and dryer, both busily running. Cheerful yellow linoleum glared up, and Del reached, automatically identifying the people in the house. Familiar presences, all of them-Boomer, Henderson, Zeke, Brew. He heaved a mental sigh of relief. He'd worried about how many of them had gotten away.

Beyond the utility room was a kitchen with pale wood cupboards, also drenched with electric light. Two laptops were on the counter, both closed and silent, the smell of Brewster's beef stew bubbling in a Crock-Pot-set with prissy exact.i.tude on the counter-made his mouth water. There were two packages of soft dinner rolls set on the counter too. It was as different from a Sig installation as day from night. The small things-two pieces of gear left on the counter, the smell of homemade food, and the poster of Jim Belushi tacked to the pantry door-probably Boomer's-brought home the magnitude of what he'd done with walloping force.

I've escaped them. Again. Stole her out from underneath Sigma again. They won't try to capture me again-no, it'll be pure neutralization this time. No decency, no tranquilizers, just a straight-out choice: me or them.

He caught up to her, moving silently, and offered his arm. "Looks like your leg still hurts," he said noncommittally.

Amazingly, Rowan accepted his arm, leaning on it. Tented together like a pair of absurdly unsteady drunks, they walked through the kitchen and into a short hall leading to the living room. That was probably the nerve center. He would have to debrief with Henderson to find out what the critical gaps and safety shorts were, and get a full layout on how bad the damage to the infrastructure was. If he worked hard enough, he might be able to forget the uncertainty gnawing at his chest.

They rounded the corner into dimness and the sense of movement. Del was a hairsbreadth away from pushing Rowan behind him and pulling a knife when the lights flicked on, and the shout of "Welcome back!" shook the air.

Del glanced down at Rowan, who was smiling again, a beautiful open smile that made his gut clench and his mouth go dry. Then all four of them-Zeke the Tank, his ma.s.sive hairy chest only barely covered by a white tank top; Brewster in a red polo shirt, his white teeth gleaming against his ebony skin; Boomer, his muttonchops brushed to bushy perfection; and Henderson, broad-shouldered and looking older but still moving with the same dry precision that bespoke readiness-descended on Rowan and Del, and the babble only increased when Cath whooped and leapt past them to jump into Zeke's arms. Yoshi pressed a cold beer into Del's free hand, and Boomer picked up Rowan, swung her around in a circle, and did it again.

The living room was decorated with a banner that said, Welcome Home Del! There was a cooler jammed full of ice and beer and a platter of c.o.c.ktail weenies, probably Zeke's contribution. Rowan accepted a gla.s.s of wine while Cath and Zeke unabashedly liplocked in the corner, Cath's white fingers tangling in Zeke's dark curly hair. The only furniture in the room was two mattresses and a purple-velvet loveseat holding three liquor-store boxes and a pile of kitbags. The fireplace was brick, and the hearth in front of it held a large bouquet of flowers as well as plates of cold cuts, cheese, and crackers.

Jesus Christ, he thought, how are we supposed to get any work done with this going on?

But then Rowan looked over her shoulder at him and grinned. It was the same open sunshine smile she'dbestowed on Yoshi.

"I told you he was still alive!" she announced, and the statement provoked fresh hilarity. Brew clapped Del on the shoulder, Boomer gave him a gruff hug, and Delgado was surprised to find out that it did, indeed, feel like coming home.

Chapter Seventeen.

Rowan rubbed at her eyes, yawning. She tried to roll over, dislodging something soft over her, and b.u.mped against something a little less soft, something her leg was thrown over. It felt comforting and cuddly, even though she'd slept in her clothes again. Her left leg wasn't throbbing nearly as much as it had been, and the sense of peace that enfolded her was so novel it shook her out of warm, fuzzy sleep entirely.

Did I sleep next to the wall? The theory was immediately proven as she tried to roll back and found her shoulder hitting something cold and hard that was definitely the wall. Wherever she was, she was sandwiched very effectively.

She heard low, soft breathing, and the crackling electricity sliding over her skin felt familiar.

As she did every morning, she kept her eyes closed, counting to ten and imagining Justin was right next to her. Then, reluctantly, she opened them to find that she'd pa.s.sed out in the living room, on one of the mattresses. Her left leg was thrown over both of Justin's. He lay on his back, apparently deeply asleep.

Rowan blinked, propping herself up on her elbow. The room looked like any room after an enthusiastic party. Cath and Zeke had disappeared-probably to a back bedroom to celebrate in their own way.

Henderson slept propped up by the fireplace, his hand curled protectively around a bottle of Scotch.

Brew had cleared off the loveseat and was curled up with his back presented to the rest of the world, the polo shirt riding up to expose a slice of his well-muscled ebony back. Yoshi sat by the front window, meditating. She could almost feel the concentration spreading out from him. He had an a.s.sault rifle in his lap, his slim fingers resting on the stock and the barrel as the gun balanced on his knees. Boomer was sprawled on the other mattress, breathing heavily and regularly but not quite snoring. She had a vague memory of him refilling her wine gla.s.s a few times, then persuading her to try something called "Yeager"

with him-something that burned foully on the way down, but only the first few times.

Justin was completely still, his chest rising and falling so shallowly she wondered if he'd drank himself to sleep to avoid Zed withdrawal. The dark patches under his eyes had shrunk a little, but the harsh lines of his cheekbones still stood out. He'd lost more weight than she'd thought, not an ounce of spare flesh on him anymore. The vulnerable notch between his collarbones was exposed since his T-shirt had been pulled down. He had a sheathed knife in his left hand, which was lying on his chest. As she watched, his eyelids fluttered in dreaming sleep.

The yellowing bruise over his left eye was almost gone. He was still as warm as he had ever been. His right arm was squeezed between them, his hand resting on her hip. She could feel his forearm against her bare midriff where her tank top had been pulled up, a patch of feverish skin pressed against hers. The fans of his eyelashes, perfect charcoal, lay against his cheekbones and made him look strangely young.

She let out a soft, wondering sigh, watching as his eyelids stopped fluttering and he sank into non-REM sleep. It was true.

He was here.

He was so deeply asleep she didn't want to wake him. It was rare for anyone suffering withdrawal to get even a little rest. So she stayed as still as she could, ignoring the persistent throbbing in her head and the equally loud insistence from her bladder. Justin's chin was tipped back, and she watched the pulse beat in his throat.

Stop it, she told herself. You're just making it worse.The aching in her chest wouldn't go away. She'd done it-brought him home. So what if he'd changed his mind? She'd still done what she promised.

She'd saved him, like she had been unable to save her father or Hilary.

Well, not precisely. It's more like he saved himself and I just happened to be there. If you want to get technical, that's what really happened.

She told that nasty little voice inside her head to take a hike just as her bladder declared fresh mutiny.

Don't compound an already impossible situation by doing a c.o.c.ker-spaniel on the mattress, she told herself, and pushed up slowly. It was going to take a bit of work to shimmy free of this one, especially since the soft warm thing draped over her was Justin's coat.

Tears p.r.i.c.ked at her eyes. She smelled leather and a healthy male, and the indefinable mix of pheromones that shouted Justin. Her heart began to pound. She had to stop calling him that. From now on it was Delgado, Del if she felt particularly chummy, and she had to stop hoping. She would only embarra.s.s herself, and after the last few months she didn't need any more embarra.s.sment.

Besides, she had another problem, a bigger problem, now that he was out of Sigma's clutches. She had promised herself she would make Sigma pay for her father's death-and for Hilary's. It was high time she made good on that promise.

Rowan made it to the end of the mattress and gave a sigh of relief as she picked her way cautiously out of the living room and to the bathroom. I hope this house has two bathrooms and a good water heater. I want a decent shower for once. Traveling with Cath was like having a younger sister you couldn't blackmail.

Rowan found her duffel stowed with the others. Some thoughtful soul-probably Brew-had cleared out the dirty clothes and done a load of laundry. She found a T-shirt and jeans, fresh underwear, and her last pair of clean socks, then carried it and her rig into the bathroom and locked the door. If anyone else wants in, too bad.

Her head throbbed a little less once she'd used the toilet, as if some poison had been leached out of her system. Given what she'd done to her liver and kidneys last night, it probably wasn't far from the truth.

Twenty luxurious minutes later, scrubbed and fresh, she stepped out of the bathroom and into the hall, carrying her dirty clothes. The smell of coffee trickled through the air, and she took a deep breath, smiling.

She came around the corner into the kitchen to find Yoshi standing in front of two coffeemakers. That brightened her mood considerably as she neatly stowed her dirty clothes in the duffel and approached the kitchen again. Wordlessly, he handed her a cup of thick black coffee with two sugars, then set a plastic water gla.s.s and three ibuprofen on the counter.