"One does ... in time, I suppose."

"But you still think a great deal of the past?"

"It is there. One can't escape from it."

"I understand. Do you think . . ."He paused and I waited for him to go on. But he seemed to change his mind. "This is where our land ends," he said.

"It's quite an extensive estate."

"It needs a lot of managing. Fortunately I have a good man. It's a part time job with me."

"The main one being politics."

"Yes, but I don't have to worry. If I'm detained in London everything goes on smoothly here."

"You seem to have it all worked out beautifully."

''I have been so anxious for you to see it... and to realize what it is like here . . . and in London. I have to do a lot of entertaining in both places. My sister of course is a great help here . . . but she does have her own home."

"She is so fond of you."

"Yes. She has always been the little mother."

I felt I wanted to sing. He was going to ask me to marry him; and I was going to say Yes. Life was going to change. He would be a good father to Katie. Children needed a father-and some women-like myself-needed a husband.

We had come to a field. I said: "Let's gallop." And we did across the field, pulling up sharply before a hedge. It was most exhilarating.

I thought I understood. He was going to ask me to marry him but he was hesitating. He would ask me before I left. He wanted me to understand all that marriage with him would entail. He wanted to be absolutely sure that I could forget the past. That was why he had been so eager for me to come here for the Christmas holiday. He could not forget that I was Lenore and that my name was that of one of the most exclusive dress estab-lishments in London. He wanted so much to be sure ... for both of us to be sure. I had to convince him that although I was dedicated to a successful business, I should consider love and marriage more important.

It had been a most happy afternoon but there was an unpleasant surprise awaiting me.

We returned to the stables, a groom took our horses, and we went into the house. Isabel was there with a woman splendidly attired in sables. It was Julia.

She rushed forward to greet Drake.

"Here I am," she said. "It is so good to see you."

Drake looked bewildered.

"I shall stay only until after Christmas. Of course we had to spend that together. I understood perfectly what you meant when you said you had to be here.''

"Hello, Julia," I said. "I had no idea that you were coming here."

"Well, Drake and I understand each other. He was very insistent on my knowing that he was spending his Christmas here so I knew what he meant and that he was expecting me. Drake dear, I'm sorry I couldn't come before. There was the Harringtons' dinner party last night. I had to go. They insisted. Otherwise I could have come yesterday."

Isabel said: "We shall have to get a room ready."

''How sweet of you.''

"And you have your maid with you?"

"Annette . . . yes."

"She will have to sleep in one of the attics. There is one she could have."

"How kind! Drake you are very remiss, you know. Why didn't you tell Mrs. Denton that I was coming?"

"It is a surprise to me."

"Oh Drake . . . when you told me ... I thought it was understood. ..."

"Well, now you are here . . . Isabel will see to everything."

"Isn't that nice? I love this old place. It's so quaint. And Cassie is here?"

I nodded.

"I'm so pleased. Families ought to be together. . . especially at Christmas."

The visit had changed now. Julia had spoilt it.

Christmas! It should have been such a happy time. The carol singers came as soon as it was dark. They stood outside with their lanterns and rendered all the well-loved carols: "Once in Royal David's City"; "Come All Ye Faithful"; "Good King Wenceslas" . . . and many more.

Katie was delighted and sang with them and afterwards helped to hand round the mulled wine and mince pies. That night she went to bed at her usual time and was soon fast asleep. The house had become like home to her.

After we had dined that evening we went up to the long gallery where a fire had been lighted.

"We always come up here on Christmas Eve," Isabel explained. "We roast chestnuts and drink port wine. One always feels one has to cling to old traditions which have been passed down through the centuries."

"It's rather eerie," said Julia. "That old gentleman looks as though he is going to step out of his frame and give us a good talking to."

"He certainly looks rather severe," agreed Drake. "That's great great grandfather William. He was an admiral. There is a strong naval tradition in the family.''

''And some of these old gentlemen must be rather cross with you, Drake, for not carrying out the family tradition."

Cassie said: "Are you afraid they might show their displeasure in some way?"

"They have been in their graves . . . for a long time."

"Some say they live on afterwards," said Cassie, "and some come back."

''Even if they did I intend to do what I want to with my life as they did with theirs," Drake told her.

"Why do they always connect revenants with old houses?'' I ssked. "You rarely hear of haunted cottages. It is always big houses."

Grand'mere said: ''The dead are dead. . . and however much one wants to have them back one cannot." I knew she was thinking of my mother and Philip.

"This is actually the haunted gallery, isn't it?" asked Cassie who appeared to be fascinated by the subject.

"Supposed to be," said Drake.

"Is there some story . . . ?"

Drake looked at Isabel who said: "Well, there is."

"Do tell us," begged Cassie.

"Cassie," I warned, "you won't be able to sleep tonight."

"I don't care. I long to hear."

"You tell them," said Drake to his sister.

"Well, the gallery is supposed to be haunted by a young girl . . . one of our family, of course. She was sixteen years old and it happened about two hundred years ago. She was in love with a young man and her father would not allow her to marry him. Instead he had found another husband for her-a rich ageing man. In those days girls had to obey their parents."

"As they do not always do now," added Grand'mere.

"I daresay there were some who did not then," I suggested.

"Well, Anne Aldringham did. She said goodbye to her lover and married the man of her father's choice. After the wedding all the guests came back here for the celebrations." She closed her eyes. "Sometimes when I come up here I fancy I can hear the minstrels' music. They were dancing downstairs in the great hall and suddenly they found that the bride was missing."

"It's like the mistletoe bough," murmured Cassie.

"Not quite. They were not playing hide and seek and she was not locked in a chest where she stayed for a hundred years. She came up here and jumped out of a window. It is said to be that one." Isabel pointed. "She jumped to her death."

"Oh, poor poor Anne," murmured Cassie.

"She should have run away with her lover," said Julia. "I should." She looked tenderly at Drake who did not meet her eyes.

"Well, she did not," went on Isabel. "Instead she jumped out of that window."

"And now," suggested Cassie, "she haunts the place."

"On certain occasions, it is said. When any of the family is about to marry someone who would bring him or her unhappi-ness, she is supposed to come through that window and walk along the gallery wringing her hands and crying, 'Beware! Beware!' "

"Have you ever seen her?" I asked Isabel.

She shook her head.

"So presumably all the marriages have been happy," said Cassie.

"If you believe the story, yes. I don't think the ghost is going to appear for us."

Julia was looking steadily at me. "What a cheerful subject for a Christmas Eve. I hope my room is well away from the wailing lady."

"You wouldn't hear her down in your room," consoled Isabel.

''Thank Heaven for that.''

"Let me give you some more port," said Drake.

"Oh, isn't this cosy!" Julia smiled round the company. "Christmas in this wonderful house . . . with wonderful people ..." She lifted her glass. "Happy Christmas . . . to all."

Her eyes had come to rest on Drake and they stayed there.

On Christmas morning we went to church. Julia came with us rather to my surprise, but she did seem as though she were determined not to let Drake out of her sight more than was possible.

I felt vaguely uneasy. I would never forget her fury when we were children and she had realized that Drake had left The Silk House because of me. She had looked quite murderous then.

I was now convinved that she wanted to marry Drake. I was sure he had not invited her although she had suggested that he had, or that she had misunderstood something he had said and had interpreted it as an invitation. It was too far-fetchecd. If he had wanted her to come why should he not have asked her outright in the normal way. The truth would be that Mia had discovered that I was at Swaddingham and had determined to come too.

I knew that she was drinking a great deal. It was becoming obvious in her high colour and her occasional aggressiveness and in the rather unguarded remarks she would make when she was a little less than sober.

I wondered if Drake was aware of this. He was always extremely courteous and, after the initial shock of finding her here, had played the perfect host.

There was the traditional Christmas dinner eaten at midday; turkey followed by Christmas pudding brought ablaze to the table and served with brandy butter-and then of course mince pies. Several of the neighbours, friends who supported Drake as their member of Parliament, were present; and there was a great deal of conversation about political affairs, and an election which seemed imminent.

After lunch we rested awhile.

I was very grateful to Drake for taking a little time to lead Katie round the paddock in the afternoon-a source of great delight to her; and I liked to see how happy she and Drake were together.

There were more guests in the evening when we had a cold buffet supper and minstrels came in and played. There was dancing in the long gallery which lost its eeriness with so many people present.

Drake had to dance with all the female guests and I had only one with him. He asked me if I was enjoying my stay and I assured him that I was. He said he was glad. He had so much wanted me to come down and see everything. He wanted me to tell him frankly what I thought about the life a politician was expected to lead.

"You know what I think of that," I told him. "It must be one of the most interesting professions possible."

''Even better than running an exclusive dress salon? "

"That has its points," I replied.

"I'm sure it has."

"Isabel is wonderful in the way she copes with everything."

"She has done it all her life. First at home, then with Harry and now with me. Isabel is a wonderful person."

"I know. Nothing ruffles her. She was quite unprepared for Julia and did not show it."

"Yes. She certainly did not."

I was waiting for him to assure me that he had not invited her. It was important to me that he should not have done so.

But he said nothing and I could not ask.

Later I saw him with Julia. She was very flushed and laughing all the time; and he was smiling as though he were enjoying the dance. One would never really know what he was feeling.

When I went to my room that evening Katie was fast asleep. I bent over and kissed her lovely innocent face. I prepared slowly for bed. I knew I should find sleep difficult. A sense of disappointment was still with me. It had come with Julia's arrival.