I didn't have to look to know it was glowing. Heat fired through my body, pumped madly in my temples and veins.

Joaquin, however, did look. Then leered. And touched himself. "Pretty."

I let my right hand drop to my side, a distraction as my left hovered over the pocket where Hunter's whip was hidden. I was certain they couldn't smell it-its master, after all, possessed the aureole-and both believed I was no longer armed. When Ajax took a step forward, I noted it, but made no move for the whip. I was biding my time. Drawing the tiger in closer. I inhaled deeply, but only smelled the two of them in the room. And the two dead guards.

And Warren's agony.

"Wondering where everyone else is?" Ajax said, circling me to start the game of cat-and-mouse.

I shifted, keeping him in my sights. "It had crossed my mind."

"Joaquin and I have thoughtfully planned this intimate little party just for you. Cozy, isn't it?" He took another step forward. Joaquin tightened Warren's body restraints, settling him at the top of the stairs like a king fastened to his throne. "We decided we want to get to know you a little better, Joanna. And Warren here gets to watch."

"In other words," Joaquin said, turning to me with a wink, "we want you for ourselves."

He tossed one of Warren's arms into the air in celebration. It fell limply back to his side. Warren, it seemed, wasn't going to be watching anything.

I shook my head slowly, astounded at the magnitude of evil in the room. Of course, I'd destroy them both if I could-I'd discovered that I too could do my fair share of killing-but a part of me thought, What for? There would always be more sick f.u.c.ks to follow in these two's footsteps, and more after them. It was like treading water in the middle of the ocean, with no land, no ship, no help in sight. Eventually you'd have to stop, and let yourself sink.

"You didn't think we were just going to kill you without having a bit of fun, did you?" Joaquin asked, his fingers drumming carelessly atop Warren's slumped head. "You first, Ajax."

"Oh, I couldn't."

"Really, I insist." Joaquin waved the protest aside like he was swatting a fly. "I've had her before."

"You are too kind."

I had gone as cold and still as the marble blanketing the room. My mouth suddenly felt like I'd swallowed a quart of sand. "I'll kill myself before I ever allow you inside me again."

Joaquin shrugged. "Whatever. Suicide is of the Shadow too. Isn't that right, Warren?" He took a knife from behind his back and placed its hilt in Warren's open palm. Holding the lax fingers around it, he made a cutting motion across Warren's throat, miming suicide. Blood bloomed, and Warren's eyes fluttered open long enough to roll back into his head, but he fell limp on a faint groan.

I had jumped, expecting to feel a sympathetic score of the blade across my own neck, but didn't. Our connection was severed, probably because he was too far gone to be saved. And, I thought, for any of this to matter now.

An eye popped open from beneath the matting of Warren's hair. And blinked.

No, I thought, inhaling sharply. It winked.

I glanced over at Ajax, but he was watching me with an almost rapturous expression. Joaquin wore a similar one as he continued to thrum Warren's skull. I saw the bright red ribbons of newly healed scars winding across every inch of his bared skin, and had to clench my jaw against the anger rising inside me again.

"There's something I've been wondering forever now. Something I just have to ask." Joaquin stopped drumming. "Did you think of me often? I mean, of that night? Of the moment I penetrated you?"

I managed a mean smile. "Every time I sharpened a pencil."

Ajax laughed. Joaquin's eyes knifed into slits.

"Well, I thought of you," he said, licking his lips. "The way you screamed for mercy. Did you know the taste of your skin altered on my tongue as I pumped and pumped and pumped away? It was like innocence...gone sour and ruined."

My jaw clenched, but I didn't blink. "Well, I'm all grown up now. Not a shred of innocence to be found."

He shrugged. "That's all right. I prefer the powerful ones even more. Like your mother. She was tasty."

My heart jumped in my chest despite myself. "You lie."

Ajax laughed again. "Joaquin's toying with you. After all, your mother went into the arms of the Shadows willingly. She wasn't like you. She didn't distinguish between good and evil. And you know why? Because she knew. There is no light and shadow. There's only a gray rainbow, and a choice as to where you pin yourself on the spectrum."

"You mean like your mother?" I said, and smiled when he froze. Both pair of eyes were fixed on me. I was the only one who saw Warren's grip curl around the knife still in his hand.

"Don't you talk about my mother."

"Your mother, who was so bad she was good," I continued, watching his already pale face drain of color.

"You think you're better than me? Morally superior, because you're a so-called agent of Light?" And I suddenly knew that's what he thought.

"Half Light," I corrected, careful to keep my eyes off the sawing motion behind Joaquin's back.

"I told you before. There's no such thing as better or worse in this world, or any world. You think you're less evil than I, but all you really are is weaker. It's only a matter of degree, you see? And of knowing at what point you're going to break."

I jerked my head once. "I told you before. I don't believe that."

A slim grin snaked up his cheeks. "And I told you I'd make you a believer."

"You really want to know what I believe?" I said, taking a step forward, and I wasn't just buying Warren time to do whatever it was he was trying to do. I really wanted to tell him. I wanted Ajax to know there was at least one solid core difference between him and me. "I think it kills you to see what you'll never be. What your mother tried to be and couldn't. You destroy things because you think it'll erase her betrayal, fill you up, make you whole. Instead, with each death you grow emptier and emptier. The darkness inside of Ajax Sand casts its longest shadow over himself."

"Spare me your false righteousness," he bellowed, spittle flying from the side of his mouth. "You're no better than I am!" He motioned back to the foyer. "You killed those guards like they were junkyard dogs. Don't try and tell me you didn't enjoy the power that gave you!"

"Those guards," I said, through clenched teeth, "were initiates, not innocents, and killing them before they metamorphosed just saved me the ch.o.r.e of having to do it later."

"How does she know that?" Joaquin asked, but Ajax didn't answer. He was watching me. "We masked them. She couldn't have known."

"Because they stank," I said to them both. "Like you. And especially like you." I stared Ajax down, and found his blue eyes so empty they were like gla.s.s. But he was breathing hard.

I took another step toward him. "You do stink," I said, lowering my voice like I was confiding in him. I inhaled deeply, and wrinkled my nose. "When I'm near you, it's like being buried neck-deep in a Dumpster. And that G.o.dd.a.m.ned cologne you're wearing isn't any better."

Joaquin was silent now, straining to hear us, watching Ajax's face, Warren all but forgotten behind him. Power had begun to swirl like a riptide in the air; I felt it. I was taking it from Ajax, and I began to smile. Even though I could see the outline of his conduit tucked inside his jacket, just one short thrust from my chest, I had the confidence he'd rather use his hands on me. Or, at least, he would by the time I was finished.

I dipped my own hands in my pockets, casually and c.o.c.ky, and felt the hilt of the whip against my palm. I closed my fist around it. Meanwhile, I used words.

"I know why you like to kill star signs." I lowered my voice to a whisper. "And I know why you kill innocents. It's for their Light. You want it for yourself. You want to be Light."

"Shut up."

"You think their blood will cleanse you and you won't have to live in the stink and squalor of your own putrid flesh-"

"I said shut up!" Ajax thundered. It was amazing how a man could shake and remain so rigidly still. I could tell he was afraid to let it break, that he thought his control might shatter into a thousand pieces...and he'd never be able to piece it together again.

"But you're the one who's got it all wrong. It's not your flesh that reeks. No, no." I leaned forward and pressed on the hairline fracture that had snaked across his restraint. "It's your soul. It's f.u.c.king maggot-ridden. And nothing can mask that stench."

He hit me so fast I never saw him move. And so hard I flew across the room, my torso slamming into a marble pillar six feet above its base. He was bolting toward me even as I fell, and there was no time to reach for Hunter's whip. I gained my feet just as another cry sounded and there was a flurry of motion behind Ajax. He paused, hearing it, and I leapt.

My shoulder caught him in the diaphragm and the scent of fungus and rot spilled out over me as he grunted, losing his breath. Ajax was a seasoned fighter, though. He didn't need breath to perform; the madness of the martial dance was ingrained in him, and he kneed me as he backpedaled, pulling me tight so I couldn't draw away. He struck breast, ribs, and belly. My turn to gasp for air, and then he did release me...enough to send a fourth knee plowing into my face. My head snapped back, my mouth instantly filling with blood, and I glimpsed a silvery sheen pa.s.sing over his head as he slipped his conduit from behind his back.

I tried to dodge, but his other hand darted out, lifting me from the ground by my neck, and he puckered up, blowing me a kiss before sending me rocketing back across the room and into one of the marble pillars.

It didn't jar or hurt as much as it would've if I were mortal, but I still crumpled to the floor and had to figure out if anything was broken before I rose to hands and knees. Of course, Ajax knew this, and was already heading my way with poker in hand, but confidence was fueling his ego, and it didn't allow his pace to quicken to more than a swift saunter. I remained where I was, head bowed in defeat while I reached into my pocket. Ajax laughed, grasping his poker in front of him with both hands. I still waited. The poker lifted. And three seconds later the whip lashed out like an unraveling tongue, barbed tip coiling tightly around his neck.

The pain contorting his face would've been satisfying enough. The underlying surprise, however, was icing. Not that I was into petty gratification. His mouth moved soundlessly and his free hand went to his throat where his Adam's apple had been punctured, seeking relief. There was no slack in the leather, though, and the more he fought, the more the barbed tip twisted, tearing him up inside.

He made a gurgling sound, and I jerked him forward, the steel points digging in deep. Over his shoulder I saw Warren kick at Joaquin. He was still half tied to the chair, and I had a brief moment to wonder where, and what, Joaquin's conduit was...until it dawned on me that his body was his weapon. This was his job. To use his body to steal innocence.

I yanked on the whip, infuriated. Ajax stumbled and fell.

"How are you doing that?" he choked from beneath me. "You look like him! You look like him!"

I glanced up and saw my face reflected in the mirrored ceiling. Then back down again, offering Ajax a wide skeletal smile. "Well, I am the Archer."

"No, no! My master is the Shadow Archer!" His feet found purchase and he began backing away, one hand pulling to slacken the whip.

"Call me mistress, if you like," I said, reeling him back in. I placed one hand on his chest, wrapped another coil around his throat, then secured it around my wrist and pulled. He clawed at his throat. "Now, look into my eyes, Ajax. Because I want you to know who I am, deep down, when I kill you."

A voice finally penetrated through the haze of my fury-I realized it'd been crying out all along-and I had to blink several times to focus.

"Olivia! d.a.m.n it! Give me the f.u.c.king keys!" Hunter was across the room, supporting Warren within the circle of his strong arms, while holding his cuffed wrists out to me in supplication. His glyph was fiery and white-hot, but it had to be in reaction to Ajax. Joaquin was nowhere to be seen.

Ajax's eyes widened. Bulged even more upon hearing who I really was behind the mask. "Olivia...?"

"Nice to meet you," I said, "but I have to make this quick." I yanked, and there was a bone-splitting crack. Ajax's neck broke with my sister's name still caught in his throat. Before the last of life could drain from his body, I ripped his conduit from the sheath at his back and slammed the poker through the core of his chest. Rancid decay hit me immediately, just as it had when I'd killed Butch, but this time I recognized it as a good sign, a death scent. The scent of Shadows. But stronger still was the power that flowed over me like buckets of rain, slamming into me, drenching my insides, coating my organs, and making my blood hum like a live wire. Ajax had been right about one thing. It felt f.u.c.king great.

Yanking the handcuff keys from my back pocket, I tossed them to Hunter, and unwound his whip. I dropped it at his feet as I lunged for my conduit, and without stopping, ran for the door that had been left half open.

"Olivia! Stop! I need you to help me get him out of here."

"But-" But Joaquin. But revenge was so close. The air was still infused with the scent of charred candy, so thick and cloying it was almost visible as it trailed after him. I could still run him down like he'd once done to me...but I had to act now.

Hunter saw my struggle and shook his head. "He's too weak."

I growled in frustration, looking from the door, then back at him, and finally said, "I have an idea."

We bent to Warren's mouth, alternately pumping life into him with our breath-the aureoles leaving our bodies through our mouths in bright beams-one of us watching his chest rise and fall, his breath steadying, while the other exhaled power and images and pieces of ourselves into his body and mind. It seemed to take forever, but after a few minutes Warren's eyes flickered open, focused, and he smiled. "Told you...one of the good guys. Like me."

Gently, I put a finger to his bruised lips, shushing him. "That's right, Warren. Just like you."

Standing, I cut my eyes to Hunter. "He's strong enough now. Get him out of here."

I didn't wait to hear his protest. I wasn't going to choose between saving Warren and having my vengeance. I wanted them both. I wanted it all.

29.

I hurtled through the door where Joaquin had fled, following a rapidly disappearing trail of blood, only to find myself back in the Gauntlet. "What...?" I swiveled back around, confused, but the door was gone. I slammed my palm against a solid length of wall, smooth at the seams, an impenetrable barrier to all that lay behind me.

A snicker echoed down the hall.

I whirled, bow and arrow braced in front of me, but saw no one. There was just the Gauntlet, smooth and narrow, stretching before me in silent challenge.

The sound raced up the other side of the wall, slipped along the floor behind me before wheedling up the back of my legs and spine. There was a probing at the base of my skull, like a centipede trying to burrow beneath my skin, into my brain, but I shook my head and the feeling receded, though whatever had caused it was still there. This sterile hallway, I knew, contained something that could reach out and touch me at any moment, and it wasn't Joaquin.

"Finally. Another Archer."

The voice was curious, friendly even, and each word possessed the deep thrumming echo of a cello string, low, musical, and filled with vitality. I glanced up at the ceiling, looking for vents, shafts, cameras...anything I could be viewed easily with or through, but saw nothing. The walls and ceiling were unusually smooth, and if I didn't know any better I'd have said it was less of a hallway than a living organ, like an intestine unraveled from within a large beast, and me devoured, lost inside. I quickly pushed the thought aside.

"I was wondering who was punching holes in my energy field. I knew Warren was no longer capable, though he certainly served his purpose. Welcome." His chuckle came from nowhere and everywhere at once, and I didn't need to see a face to recognize the cool arrogance haloing his words. I was on his turf, and even though I didn't know what game we were playing-never mind the rules-I kind of doubted he was going to clue me in.

"You're the Tulpa." I said, and tentatively began to back up. I searched again for a door to escape by, but when my palm hit the wall, needles sprung up to stab at my flesh and I jolted away. Glancing down, I found dozens of b.l.o.o.d.y tears studding my hand, though they dried up and disappeared as I watched. Surface wounds. Not that that wasn't worrying too. Because now I was sure I had to run the Gauntlet, and I had a feeling there were more sharp little surprises awaiting me.

"Expecting someone else? An ally, perhaps?"

"Not really," I answered, taking a testing step forward, then another. "You just don't look anything like I pictured you."

Okay, so the false bravado probably wasn't going to get me very far, but my allies were busy escaping Valhalla, and if the Tulpa was here with me, he couldn't stop Hunter and Warren. He couldn't, as far as I knew, be two places at once. So that was the upside. The downside? The Tulpa was here with me.

"Then you haven't pictured me fully. You have to use your imagination, you see. What's the worst thing you could face in an enemy? What's the most horrifying thing I could possibly be?"

Me, I thought, before I could stop the idea from forming. The worst thing I could face was someone who looked or felt or acted anything like me. Because that would mean he'd gotten inside, delivered more than just chromosomes at my conception...and that I was somehow like him as well.

"Elvis," I said, picking up my pace a bit, careful to stay centered in the narrow hallway. Was it me, or was it getting narrower? "If I see one more aging Elvis impersonator I'm totally going to scream."

"Sweetie. You're going to scream anyway."

The walls shook again, but with increased intensity, quaking so the floor swayed beneath my feet. I braced like I was riding a wave, struggling for balance even with my center of gravity low over the ground. He was f.u.c.king with me now, I thought, as the shaking slowly died down. I'd seen Luna bat around insects with the same patient and deadly fascination.

"I guess I don't have to tell you this town isn't big enough for the two of us."

"I'll just be moving on, then." And I continued the long walk down the Gauntlet, one foot in front of the other. The Tulpa, wherever he was, seemed inclined to let me. For now.

"Joaquin's long gone," he said after a bit. "You put a devil of a fright into him. What did you do, I wonder?"

"Revealed myself," I answered truthfully. A conversation was good. Conversations generally didn't include bloodshed.

"How about doing the same for me?" he said softly, and a breeze entered the room, like a fan had been switched on and directed at my face. Invisible fingers toyed with my mask, and I clamped a hand down over my head.

"You first," I said, though I wasn't sure I wanted to see this being, this ent.i.ty-certainly not a man-who was my father.

"Forgive me if I decline," the overly polite voice said. "I'm not accustomed to someone issuing me orders. But you go ahead." And that was an order. I ignored it, and kept walking.