Chapter 113 : Confidential Matters (Part II)

Trigger Warning: brief mention of suicide.

Originally Xia Yan planned to ignore Jiang Ruan but she was just too calm, sitting there not saying a word. Meanwhile, Xia Yan was kneeling and her knees were really too uncomfortable, thus, she could only open her eyes and ask flatly, Why are you here?

Jiang Ruan looked at her with a smile. Three days makes a big difference. Mother has only been in seclusion for a few days, yet you already show hints of the Buddhas benevolent aura, with a mind as pure as the spring breeze.

Xia Yans anger flared. She wanted so hard to be the same unparalleled woman she once was, but looking down, her filthy clothes were stained with oil and dirt. And because she couldnt take a bath every day as before, her whole body emanated a foul stench. The long hair she was so proud of was now a chaotic mess, and was even full of knots. As for her appearance Xia Yan didnt need to open her eyes to know how hideous she looked.

In front of Jiang Ruans cold smile, Xia Yan felt as if she was stripped naked and thrown into the market for people to gawk at. How could she accept this?

She looked up at Jiang Ruan. Jiang Ruan wore an elegant pink dress embroidered in gold, with skin white as snow, lips red as blood, and hair black as ebony. Even in such a dark room, her body seemed to emit a brilliant glow. Though she was sitting on a simple wooden stool, it seemed as if she sat upon the most honourable seat in the world. And with her smiling gaze upon her, it felt as though she was looking at a mere ant struggling in the dust, her glance full of mockery.

Xia Yan trembled all over. The more captivating Jiang Ruan was, the more shameful she became. This moment reminded her of the scene when she first met Zhao Mei a long time ago.

Many years ago, Xia Yan was the most talented woman in the capital no one could beat her in poetry or painting. She was without equal in both chess and zither. Men were enamoured with her and women were jealous.

But she still couldnt marry into a good family just because her father was a shu son, so her status was too low. Those noblemen could marry her as a concubine, but never a wife.

What a beautiful woman feared was not her twilight, when her hair turned grey, but rather to never realize her full potential. The young Xia Yan had her nose in the sky and set her heart on raising her status through marriage. At this time, she met Jiang Quan. He was a new official at court, elegant and handsome. She loved him, but the one who married him in the end was not her.

Xia Yan once saw Zhao Mei from a distance, just after Jiang Quan mentioned the matter of his marriage to the Zhao familys beloved treasure. Xia Yan secretly went to the doors of the General fu and saw a girl with a carefree grin. Clad in a set of red hunting clothes, she carried a pure and untainted smile in her eyes. It was obvious from the doting way her father and brothers looked at her that she grew up coddled as the jewel of the family. An extremely complicated feeling arose in Xia Yan.

She thought, why can others get all they want without effort, while I can only dream of it?

She was jealous, so jealous that she went crazy. She thought, if only I could let this beloved little Miss experience the feeling of struggling in the dust as I do. To drag her into the quagmire, never to see the light. To see her slowly lose that carefree smile and wither away, witness all the most wretched and vicious things in the world, then let her crawl under my feet and weep.

That was the day Xia Yan changed her mind. She would enter the Jiang fu to be a concubine, if only to stain that bright and pure soul with mud.

In the end, she did succeed. Zhao Mei entered the fu, fell out of favour, was bullied by servants, and her children were never loved by Jiang Quan. When Zhao Mei died, Xia Yan thought shed finished her forever. Who knew that now, when she looked at Jiang Ruan in red sitting in the dark, what she saw wasnt the clean smile of that year but mockery, as if laughing at a jumping clown who had overestimated her capabilities.

Xia Yan screamed and leapt at Jiang Ruan, hands outstretched to claw at her face. But Tian Zhu, one step faster, simply kicked her knee in. Xia Yan abruptly fell onto her knees in front of Jiang Ruan.

Jiang Ruan looked at her and asked lightly, Jiang Furen, how does it feel to fall into hell?

After a pause, Xia Yan began laughing madly. She pointed at Jiang Ruans nose. Bi*ch! Youre just like your shameless mother!

Tian Zhu slapped her across the face with a sharp pa! Jiang Ruan gently wiped her hands then looked at the dumbfounded Xia Yan with a smile. Be careful of your words*, Mother.

* (hu cng ku ch) Troubles issue from the mouth (idiom). A loose tongue may cause a lot of trouble.

Xia Yan, gritting her teeth, chuckled under her breath. Going for broke, she said, Youre already angry? It seems like youre very protective of your short-lived mother, little whore. But what a pity, you didnt see the way she cried and begged me to let you and your brother off, tsk, so ugly.

Jiang Ruans eyes moved slightly but she didnt speak, so Xia Yan continued: Humph, you dont know how your mother died, right? Back then her body wasnt well, I even persuaded Master to take care of her a bit more so he ordered the kitchen to make medicinal tonics for her. That bi*ch gulped it down as soon as she heard it was from Master, but didnt know she was actually drinking poison. A strange smile warped Xia Yans face. But it could never be traced to me because I wasnt the one to poison it. Guess who did it?

Despite how this caught her attention, Jiang Ruans expression remained calm. Xia Yan burst into laughter, as if thinking of something especially funny. It was Jiang Dan! Hahaha, I only had people threaten her with a few words, and she was scared into poisoning Zhao Meis bowl every day. Wasnt Zhao Mei very kind throughout her life, but she didnt know she raised a white-eyed wolf! But later I found something very interesting. Jiang Dan also gave you poison! She laughed again. All because I told her that Zhao Meis care for her was only superficial. Youre Zhao Meis biological daughter, therefore she could never treat her the same as you. Then, if you died, Jiang Xin Zhi would only have her as a sister, and Zhao Mei would truly take her as her own daughter. After she heard this, Jiang Dan would find opportunities to poison your drinks every day. Hahaha! Jiang Dan is the most cruel one in this whole fu. You guys treated her so well, yet she repaid you with death. Arent you disappointed, arent you sad?

Tian Zhu glanced at Jiang Ruan in surprise, but Jiang Ruan acted as if she hadnt heard a word. She only mildly replied, Thank you, Jiang Furen. It turns out there was such a story.

Xia Yan laughed in defeat. Now that Im like this, I might as well admit my loss, its not like I can escape from here. But you? That bi*ch Zhao Mei has already gone to hell, Master hates you, and sooner or later you and your damned brother wont end well! Theres plenty in the fu who want you dead. Be careful that when you go to hell, you wont even know who did it!

Jiang Ruan looked amused. What does it matter to Jiang Furen if I go to hell? But I know very well when Jiang Furen will go to hell.

Xia Yan was startled and stared warily at Jiang Ruan.

Jiang Ruan sighed. Jiang Furen thought that there was a little hope after you entered this small Buddhist hall. However, Im afraid that all your wishes and hopes have been misplaced on Second Sister and Second Brother. Think clearly, if Mothers matters were spread to outsiders, how would Second Sister and Second Brother raise their heads in the capital? Could they have a good future?

Xia Yans body trembled. Yes, if everyone knew she tried to harm the di daughter, how would Jiang Chaos peers see him? Who would be willing to marry Jiang Su Su? Xia Yan couldnt be more clear on how important a mothers reputation was for the child. She suddenly raised her head. How would outsiders know, Master wont allow it! she shouted. With how much Jiang Quan loved this daughter and son pair, there was no way hed air his dirty laundry outside. There would be nowhere to hide if it spread out.

Jiang Ruans smile became gentler. There are so many mouths, its impossible to have an impenetrable wall. How can Jiang Furen be so sure that nothing will escape?

Its you its you Xia Yan looked at Jiang Ruan as if she were a ghost. You want to hurt them

The one who hurt them was you, not me, Jiang Ruan said, one word at a time.

Xia Yan rushed to Jiang Ruans feet and began to kowtow unceasingly. Im begging you; dont hurt them; please; save them; theyre still your brother and sister; its all my fault; I deserve all your resentment; they have nothing to do with it!

Xia Yan bowed dozens of times but Jiang Ruan was unmoved. Finally, she raised her head with a trace of determination in her eyes, sneering, If you really want to tell everyone, then go tell them.

Is Jiang Furen thinking of taking her own life? Jiang Ruan asked softly.

Xia Yan looked at her in horror. Yes, she wanted to. If Jiang Ruan really spread the news, she could use her death to block those peoples mouths from talking about Jiang Su Su and Jiang Chao. She was already ruined, and only wished for Jiang Su Su and Jiang Chao to live comfortably for the rest of their days. But who knew that Jiang Ruan, like a roundworm in her belly, saw through her with only a few words.

Jiang Ruan laughed. Jiang Furen loves her children very much, its really touching. However, do they think the same way? She leaned down and stared into Xia Yans eyes. I think Second Sister and Second Brother would be ashamed and angry to have a mother like this. If Jiang Furen fails to end it on your own, theyll definitely try to erase Jiang Furens existence, because you are an unneeded stain upon their lives. She grinned at Xia Yans horrified expression. Jiang Furen should feel very sad when your two children come to get rid of you. I just dont know who will move first- will it be Second Sister or Second Brother?

She straightened, then glanced at Xia Yan lightly and said with a cold tone, Dont worry, Jiang Furen, I wont let you die so easily. Your life isnt mine to take. Your own flesh and blood will do the deed. Her words carried a peculiar air, like an enchantment beckoning people to the doors of hell. She continued faintly, This junzhu has a vicious heart, how can I miss out on watching such a play?

The red skirt fluttered across the ground, the halls doors once again closed with a pa, and the room was filled with the sounds of someone breaking down.

Jiang Ruan looked up and coldly ordered the two female servants outside the door, Guard closely, dont let her die.