"You're so tall! You're taller than me. Half of everybody is, but I- Naomi." She held tight, swayed back and forth, back and forth.

"You came. It's the most special birthday there is, and you came here."

"I'm having the most special birthday there is because of you. I wanted to spend it with you. I wanted to meet you here, even though it's awesome corny, because I wanted to say that everything I can see from here is because of you. And I wanted to give you this."

Ashley took a small wrapped box out of her purse.

"But it's your birthday. I have a present for you."

"Let's save mine for later-over lunch maybe. I really want you to have this now, and here, high in the sky. You brought me out of the ground, Naomi, and now we're standing high in the sky. Open it, okay?"

Overwhelmed, Naomi opened the box and stared at the pendant. Three thin silver chains held an oval with a purple iris suspended in its center.

"It's beautiful. It's just beautiful."

"I have to say it was my mom's idea. She said how flowers have meanings. This one, the iris, it has a couple of them. One of the meanings is valor, and another is friendship. You qualify for both. I hope you like it."

"I do. I love it. Ashley-"

"Let's not cry. I want to cry, too, but let's not cry today. Let's put the necklace on, and then you have to show me some of the city. I've never been to New York."

"Okay. Okay." It was as hard, she learned, to hold back happy tears as tears of misery. "Where do you want to go first? It's your special day."

"I'm a girl. I want to go shopping!" Ashley laughed as she helped Naomi fasten the necklace. "And I want to go someplace where I can have a glass of champagne at lunch. I'm legal!"

"I love you," Naomi blurted out, then flushed. "That sounds weird, I-"

"No, no, it doesn't. We've got something between us nobody else does. We're the only ones who really understand what it took for both of us to get right here, right now. I love you back. We're going to be friends forever."

The therapist-she had gone back for nearly a year after her mother hit one of those deep dips-asked Naomi how she felt when she saw Ashley; Naomi said it made her remember the light.

Her mother worked as a waitress in Harry's restaurant. She did all right-except when she didn't. Her mother sometimes went into the dark, and forgot to remember the light. But she had a job, and when she went into the dark, Harry held the job for her.

Her doctor called it depression, but Naomi knew that as bad as depression could be, the dark times were worse.

In the dark times her mother took too many pills. Once when she'd taken too many she'd had to go to the hospital. She'd taken the too many pills right after Simon Vance's book came out, and there were big ads for it all over the city.

He'd titled it Blood in the Ground: The Legacy of Thomas David Bowes, and all the bookstores had big displays. Vance, a serious man with a polished, academic style, hyped it all over the talk shows, did in-depth interviews in magazines and newspapers. In those interviews, on those talk shows, Naomi's name came up as often as her father's.

That tie, that blood and bloody tie, brought back the nightmares.

Whenever Naomi saw those ads, those displays, she knew a terrible part of her life beat inside them.

It made her afraid, and it made her ashamed.

So she understood her mother's fear, her mother's shame, and trod carefully.

But when her mother remembered the light, things were good, even simple. Her favorite picture was one she'd taken of her mother dancing with her uncle, at a party in the summer. The light had been good, inside and out, and her mother had looked so pretty laughing into her brother's face. She'd given it to Susan, along with one she'd taken with a timer of her mother, her brother, and herself sitting on the patio of the brownstone in the springtime.

When the dark came back, and her mother needed to stay in bed with the curtains shut tight, Naomi would take her food on a tray. She'd know how deep the dark was if she saw those pictures lying facedown, as if her mother couldn't bear the sight of her own happiness.

Still, weeks would go by-sometimes even months-when everything seemed as normal as normal could be. When it was all about studying or fretting over a test; bickering with Mason, who could be the bane of her existence; or wondering what she should wear to a movie date.

She was at the movies-not on a date, but with a big group of friends (and Mason with a group of his) getting ready to see Spider-Man. She had popcorn and an orange soda and settled down to enjoy the previews when the houselights dimmed.

Her friend Jamie immediately started making out with her boyfriend of the moment, but Naomi ignored them-and the smacking noises Mason's group made in the row behind her.

She loved movies, and truth be told she liked movies like Spider-Man and The Lord of the Rings more than the love stories her girlfriends sighed over.

She liked movies where people had to do something, overcome something. Even if it meant getting bitten by a radioactive spider to do and overcome.

The screen filled with the point of view of someone driving a truck. She knew about point of view from studying photography. A man's point of view, she noted-one wearing a wedding ring.

She liked noticing the details.

Then others began to catch her eye-catch her by the throat.

She knew those roads. She knew that truck. When he veered off into the woods, bumping over a rough trail, she felt that crushing weight in her chest.

Scenes flashed-the root cellar, the photographs, a woman bound on the mattress, eyes full of terror.

She couldn't breathe.

Flash to a house near the edge of the woods. And it was their house. God, God, their house. A long-legged girl, thin with long hair, looking out the window on a hot, storm-waiting night.

Quick splice to the family in church-father, mother, gangly girl, little boy. And the next of the girl reaching for the lock on a rough wood door.

She couldn't watch. The popcorn fell out of her hand, spilled everywhere; the soda landed with a wet slap as she jumped up. Her friends called out: Hey, watch it!

What the hell, Naomi!

But she was bolting for the doors.

She heard the announcer blare behind her.

A story of depravity. A story of courage. Daughter of Evil. Coming November.

Her knees buckled as she stumbled into the lobby. She fell on all fours while the room spun and her chest burned.

She heard Mason's voice, miles away, as he shook her.

"Get up. Come on, Naomi, you have to get up."

He pulled her up and half dragged, half carried her out into the hot, heavy air of September, the too-bright lights of Times Square.

"Look at me. Look at me."

He was nearly as tall as she was, and he had their father's eyes. A deep golden brown. They held both worry and shock.

"Can't breathe."

"Yes, you can. You are. Just take it slow."

"It was-"

"Don't say it. Don't say it here. Anybody asks, you got sick. You felt sick, and we went home. Let's walk. Come on."

She managed two shaky steps, then had to stop, brace her hands on her knees and lean over, afraid she would be sick. But the queasiness passed, the dizziness eased.

"Did you know? Did you?"

He took her hand in a firm grip, pulled her down Broadway. "I knew they were making it. I didn't know they'd finished everything or that they'd show the damn preview during Spider-Man."

"That was our house."

"They filmed a lot of it on location."

"How do you know?"

"I look stuff up sometimes. I just thought it would take longer to get out, but it's already getting, you know, buzz from the critics and online."

"Why didn't you tell me?"

He stopped, shot her a cool look of disdain only a sibling can manage. "Because you don't want to hear it. Nobody talks about it, nobody tells me anything. So I look shit up for myself. I read Simon Vance's book."

Now she felt hot and sick all over again. "We have to put it behind us. It's been four years."

"Have you? Have you put it behind you?"

"Yes. Most of the time. A lot of the time."

"Mama hasn't. Remember when she said she was going for a weekend with that friend of hers? To some spa deal? She didn't. She took the bus and went to see him, in prison."

"How do you know that?"

He shrugged, then pulled her inside a coffee shop, wound through to a table. "She's done it before. When the rest of us went to Hilton Head for a week, and she said she had a stomach virus? She went to see him then, too. I found the bus tickets in her purse, both those times, and one other."

"You went through her purse?"

"That's right." He didn't miss a beat. "Two Cokes, please," he said with remarkable ease to the waitress. "And I go through her room, so that's how I know she's been writing to him. She has letters from him that come to a P.O. box."

"You can't disrespect her privacy," Naomi began, then covered her face with her hands. "Why is she doing this?"

"She's submissive and dependent-he's dominated her the whole time. It's like emotional abuse and battering."

"Where do you get that?"

"I look shit up, like I said. He's a psychopath, for Christ's sake, Nome. You should know. And he's a narcissist. That's why he gives the cops another name and location every couple years. Another victim, and where he buried her. It keeps him in the news, keeps getting him attention. He's a liar and he manipulates Mama. He twists her up because he can. Remember when she OD'd?"

"Don't say it like that, Mason."

"It's what happened. Thanks." He sent the waitress a quick smile when she set their drinks down. "He'd talked her into giving more interviews to Vance-the writer. I don't know how he got in touch with her right off, but he talked her into that, and when the book came out, she couldn't handle it."

"He knows where we are."

"I don't know, but he sure as hell knows we're in New York." Then Mason shrugged. "He doesn't care about us, and never did. Mama's his target."

"He cared about you."

"I don't think so. Do you think I wanted a buzz cut every freaking month? If he made it to one of my Little League games I could feel his eyes on my back when I came up to bat. I knew if I struck out, fouled out, he'd give me that sneer-that I'm raising a pussy sneer."

"But . . ."

"He watched me for signs of 'Carson blood.' That's how he put it. When I was eight he told me if I ever showed any fag tendencies, he'd beat the fag out of me."

Shocked, she grabbed Mason's hand. "You never told me."

"Some shit you don't tell your sister. At least when you're eight. He scared the crap out of me-you, too. We just got used to being scared of him, like that was normal."

"Yes." She let it out on a shaky breath. "Yes, what kind of mood will he be in? Will he be in a good mood? Everything circled around him. I've gotten some of that out of therapy. I just didn't know you felt that, too."

"Same house, same father."

"I thought . . . I thought it was different for you because he wanted a son. It was so clear he wanted a son more than a daughter. More than me."

"He wanted himself, and I wasn't."

"I'm sorry," Naomi murmured.

"For what?"

"I was jealous because I thought he loved you more. And it's horrible to think that, feel that, because he's . . ."

"A psychopath, a sexual sadist, a serial killer."

Each almost-flippant term made Naomi wince.

"He's all that, Nome. But he's still our father. That's just fact. So forget it. I guess I was jealous some, because he let you be more. You were Mama's deal; I was his. Anyway. Mama talked to the movie people, too. He pushed her into it, just kept asking and making it like it was the best thing for us-you and me."

They kept their hands linked, leaned toward each other over the table now. "Why would he want it?"

"The attention, the fame. He's right up there with Bundy, Dahmer, Ramirez. Serial killers, Naomi. Pay attention."

"I don't want to pay attention. Why do they want to make a movie about him? Why do people want to see it?"

"It's as much about you as him. Maybe more." He turned his hand over, gripped hers harder. "The title's you, not him. How many eleven-year-old kids stop a serial killer?"

"I don't want-"