They stopped before the table and Render stared down into the darkened glasses that had tilted upward- as they approached. Doctor Shallot was a woman, somewhere in the vicinity of her early thirties. Her low bronze bangs did not fully conceal the spot of silver which she wore on her forehead like a caste-mark. Render inhaled, and her head jerked slightly as the tip of his cigarette flared. She appeared to be staring straight up into his eyes. It was an uncomfortable feeling, even knowing that all she could distinguish of him was that which her minute photo- electric cell transmitted to her visual cortex over the hair- fine wire implants attached to that oscillator converter:

in short, the glow of his cigarette.

"Doctor Shallot, this is Doctor Render," the waiter was saying.

"Good evening," said Render.

"Good evening," she said. "My name is Eileen and I've wanted very badly to meet you." He thought he detected a slight quaver in her voice. "Will you join me for dinner?"

"My pleasure," he acknowledged, and the waiter drew out the chair.

Render sat down, noting that the woman across from him already had a drink. He reminded the waiter of his second Manhattan.

"Have you ordered yet?" he inquired.

"No."

". . . And two menus-" he started to say, then bit

his tongue.

"Only one," she smiled.

"Make it none," he amended, and recited the menu.

They ordered. Then:

"Do you always do that?"

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"What?"

"Carry menus in your head."

**0nly a few," he said, "for awkward occasions. What was it you wanted to see-talk to me about?"

"You're a neuroparticipant therapist," she stated, "a Shaper."

"And you are-?"

**-a resident in psychiatry at State Psych. I have a year remaining."

"You knew Sam Riscomb then."

"Yes, he helped me get my appointment. He was my adviser."

"He was a very good friend of mine. We studied to- gether at Menninger."

She nodded.

"I'd often heard him speak of you-that's one of the reasons I wanted to meet you. He's responsible for en- couraging me to go ahead with my plans, despite my handicap."

Render stared at her. She was wearing a dark green dress which appeared to be made of velvet About three inches to the left of the bodice was a pin which might have been gold. It displayed a red stone which could have been a ruby, around which the outline of a goblet was cast. Or was it really two profiles that were outlined, staring through the stone at one another? It seemed vaguely familiar to him, but he could not place it at the moment. It glittered expensively in the dim light.

Render accepted his drink from the waiter.

"I want to become a neuroparticipant therapist," she told him.

And if she had possessed vision Render would have thought she was staring at him, hoping for some response in his expression. He could not quite calculate what she wanted him to say.

"I commend your choice," he said, "and I respect your ambition." He tried to put his smile into his voice. "It is not an easy thing, of course, not all of the requirements being academic ones."

"I know," she said, "But then, I have been blind since birth and it was not an easy thing to come this far."

"Since birth?" he repeated. "I thought you might have lost your sight recently. You did your undergrad work

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then, and went on through med school without eyes. . ..

That's-rather impressive."

"Thank you," she said, "but it isn't. Not really. I heard about the first neuroparticipants-Bartelmetz and the rest -when I was a child, and I decided then that I wanted to be one. My life ever since has been governed by that desire."

"What did you do in the labs?" be inquired. "-Not being able to see a specimen, look through a micro- scope ... ? Or all that reading?"

"I hired people to read my assignments to me. I taped everything. The school understood that I wanted to go into psychiatry and they permitted a special arrangement for labs. I've been guided through the dissection of ca- davers by lab assistants, and I've had everything de- scribed to me. I can tell things by touch . . . and I have a memory like yours with the menu," she smiled. " 'The quality of psychoparticipation phenomena can only be gauged by the therapist himself, at that moment outside of time and space as we normally know it, when he stands in the midst of a world erected from the stuff of another man's dreams, recognizes there the non- Euclidian architecture of aberrance, and then takes his patient by the hand and tours the landscape. ... If he can lead him back to the common earth, then his judg- ments were sound, his actions valid.' "

"From Why No Psychometrics in This Place," reflected Render.

"-by Charles Render, M.D."

"Our dinner is already moving in this direction,'* he noted, picking up his drink as the speed-cooked meal was pushed toward them in the kitchen-buoy.

"That's one of the reasons I wanted to meet you," she continued, raising her glass as the dishes rattled before her. "I want you to help me become a Shaper."

Her shaded eyes, as vacant as a statue's, sought him

again.

"Yours is a completely unique situation," he com- mented. "There has never been a congenitally blind neu- roparticipant-for obvious reasons. I'd have to consider all the aspects of the situation before I could advise you.

Let's eat now, though. I'm starved."

"All right. But my blindness does not mean that I have never seen."

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He did not ask her what she meant by that, because prime ribs were standing in front of him now and there was a bottle of Chambertm at bis elbow- He did pause long enough to notice though, as she raised her left hand from beneath the table, that she wore no rings.