"You are terribly dull this morning." Grimalkin deliberately knocked over the gla.s.s of milk and watched it drip to the floor in satisfaction. "The same glamour that keeps mortals out of this place also keeps them in. Should the human go wandering around outside, he will not be able to leave the clearing. No matter the direction he takes, he will only find himself back where he started."

"What if I want to take him away? He can't stay here forever."

"Then you had better take that up with Leanansidhe, not I. In any case, it is no concern of mine." Grimalkin dropped from the table, landing on the wooden floor with a thump. "When you go to meet the prince, leave the dishes as they are," he said, arching his tail over his back. "If you wash them, the brownies will be insulted and might leave the cabin, and that would be terribly inconvenient."

"Is that why you made a mess?" I asked, eying the milk dripping to the floor. "So the brownies would have something to clean up?"

"Of course not, human." Grimalkin yawned. "That was purely for the fun of it." And he trotted from the room, leaving me to shake my head, grab a piece of toast, and hurry outside.

CHAPTER SIX.

LESSONS.

It was a foggy gray morning, with mist curling along the ground in wispy threads, m.u.f.fling my footsteps. I hopped over the brook and looked back once I reached the other side. The cabin had disappeared once more, showing only misty forest beyond the stream.

In the center of the clearing, a dark silhouette danced and spun in the mist, his long coat billowing out behind him, an icy sword cutting through the fog like paper. I leaned against a tree and watched, hypnotized by the graceful, whirling movements, the deadly speed and accuracy of the sword strikes, far too quick for a human to ever keep up with. Uneasiness gnawed at me as I suddenly remembered the dream, Machina's soft voice echoing in my head. Do you think you'll be able to keep him, once you discover who you really are? Do you think he will even want you anymore? Do you think you'll be able to keep him, once you discover who you really are? Do you think he will even want you anymore?

Angrily, I pushed those thoughts away. What did he know? Besides, that was just a dream, a nightmare conjured from stress and the worry over my dad. It didn't mean anything.

Ash finished the drill and with a final flourish, slammed the blade into its sheath. For a moment, he stood motionless, breathing deeply, the mist curling around him. "Is your father any better?" he asked without turning around. I jumped.

"Hasn't changed." I moved across the damp gra.s.s toward him, soaking the hems of my jeans. "How long have you been out here?"

He turned, raking a hand through his bangs, shoving them out of his eyes. "I went back to Leanansidhe's last night," he said, walking forward. "I wanted to get something for you, so I had one of her contacts track one down for me."

"Track...what down?"

Ash strode to a nearby rock, swooped down, and tossed me a long, slightly curved stick. When I caught it, I saw that it was actually a leather sheath with a gilded bra.s.s hilt poking from the top. A sword. Ash was giving me a sword...why?

Oh, yeah. Because I wanted to learn to fight. Because I'd asked him to teach me. Because I wanted to learn to fight. Because I'd asked him to teach me.

Ash, watching me with that weary, knowing look on his face, shook his head. "You forgot, did you?"

"Nooooo," I said quickly. "I just...didn't think it would be this soon."

"This is the perfect place." Ash turned slightly to gaze around the clearing. "Quiet, hidden. We can catch our breath here. It's a good place to learn while you're waiting for your father to come out of it. When we're done here, I have a feeling things will get much more chaotic." He gestured to the sword in my hand. "Your first lesson begins now. Draw your sword."

I did. Unsheathing it sent a raspy shiver across the glen, and I gazed at the weapon in fascination. The blade was thin and slightly curved, an elegant-looking weapon, razor sharp and deadly. A warning tickled the back of my mind. There was something about the blade that was...different. Blinking, I ran my fingers along the cool, gleaming edge, and a chill shot through my stomach.

The blade was made of steel. Not faery steel. Not a fey sword covered in glamour. Real, ordinary iron. The kind that would burn faery flesh and sear away glamour. The kind that left wounds impossible to heal.

I gaped at it, then at Ash, who looked remarkably calm to be facing his greatest weakness. "This is steel," I told him, sure that Leanansidhe had made a mistake.

He nodded. "An eighteenth-century Spanish saber. Leanansidhe nearly had a fit when I told her what I wanted, but she was able to track one down in exchange for a favor." He paused then, wincing slightly. "A very large favor."

Alarmed, I stared at him. "What did you promise her?"

"It doesn't matter. Nothing that endangers us in any way." He hurried on before I could argue. "I wanted a light, slashing weapon for you, one with a good amount of reach, to keep opponents farther away." He gestured to the saber with his own weapon, a blindingly quick stab of blue. "You'll be moving around a lot, using speed instead of brute force against your enemies. That blade won't block heavier weapons, and you don't have the strength to swing a longsword effectively, so we're going to have to teach you how to dodge. This was the best choice."

"But this is steel," I repeated, listening to him in amazement. He could teach a cla.s.s with his knowledge of weapons and fighting. "Why a real sword? I could seriously hurt someone."

"Meghan." Ash gave me a patient look. "That's exactly why I chose it. You have an advantage with that weapon that none of us can touch. Even the most violent redcap will think twice about facing a real, mortal blade. It won't scare the Iron fey, of course, but that's where training will come in."

"But...but what if I hit you?"

A snort. "You're not going to hit me."

"How do you know?" I bristled at his amused tone. "I could hit you. Even master swordsmen make mistakes. I could get a lucky shot, or you might not see me coming. I don't want to hurt you."

He favored me with another patient look. "And how much experience do you have with swords and weapons in general?"

"Um." I glanced down at the saber in my hand. "Thirty seconds?"

He smiled, that calm, irritatingly confident smirk. "You're not going to hit me."

I scowled. Ash chuckled, then raised his weapon and stalked forward, all amus.e.m.e.nt gone. "Although," he continued, sliding into predator mode with no effort at all, "I do want you to try."

I gulped and backed away. "Now? Don't I get a warm-up or something? I don't even know how to hold the thing properly."

"Holding it is easy." Ash slid closer, circling me like a wolf. One finger pointed to the tip of his blade. "The sharp end goes in first."

"That's so not helpful, Ash."

He smiled grimly and continued to stalk. "Meghan, I would love to teach you properly, from the beginning, but that takes years, centuries, even. And since we don't have that kind of time, I'm giving you the condensed version. Besides, the best way to learn is by doing." He jabbed at me with his sword, nowhere near coming close, but I jumped anyway. "Now, try to hit me. And don't hold back."

I didn't want to, but I had asked him to teach me, after all. Bunching my muscles, I gave a feeble yell and lunged, stabbing at him with the tip.

Ash slid aside. In the s.p.a.ce of a blink, his sword licked out, slapping my ribs with the flat of the blade. I shrieked as I felt the bite of absolute cold through my shirt, and glared at him.

"Dammit, Ash, that hurt!"

He gave me a humorless smile. "Then don't get hit."

My ribs throbbed. There'd probably be a welt there this evening. For a moment, I was tempted to throw down the blade and stalk back to the house. But I swallowed my pride and faced him again, resolved. I needed this. I needed to learn to defend myself, and the ones I cared about. I could take a few bruised ribs, if it meant saving a life one day.

Ash brandished his sword in an expert manner and c.o.c.ked two fingers at me. "Again."

For the rest of the morning, we practiced. Or, more accurately, I tried to hit Ash and received more swats that stung and burned their way through my clothes. He didn't do it every time, and he never once cut me, but I became paranoid about getting hit. After several more thwaps that stung my pride as well as my skin, I tried switching to full defense mode, and Ash started attacking me.

I got hit a lot more.

Anger burned, flaring up after each swat, each effortless smack that left my skin tingling with failure. He wasn't being fair. He had years, decades even, of swordplay, and he wasn't even giving me a chance. He was toying with me instead of teaching me how to fend off his attacks. This wasn't a lesson, this was just him showing off.

Finally, my temper snapped. After desperately fending off a series of blindingly quick thrusts, I received a swat to my backside that ignited a rage. Screaming, I flew at Ash, intending to hit him this time, to at least smack that calm efficiency off his face.

This time, Ash didn't dodge or block, but spun and caught me around the waist as I charged past. Dropping his sword, he s.n.a.t.c.hed my wrist in one hand and pulled me to his chest, holding me and the blade still as I cursed and struggled.

"There," he murmured in a voice of weary satisfaction. "That's what I was looking for."

Though still angry, I stopped fighting him. My senses buzzed and I held myself rigid in his arms. "What?" I snarled. "Me to get so p.i.s.sed I wanted to stab you in the eye?"

"The moment you'd take this seriously enough to really really try to hit me." Ash's voice, dark and grim, made me freeze. He sighed, resting his forehead on the back on my skull. "This isn't a hobby, Meghan," he breathed, sending a tingle down my spine. "It isn't a game or a sport or a simple pastime. This is life and death. Any one of those hits could've killed you had I been serious. Putting a weapon in your hands means that, at some point, you're going to have to use it. In a fight like this, you're going to be hurt. Make a single mistake, and you'll be dead. And I'll lose...you." try to hit me." Ash's voice, dark and grim, made me freeze. He sighed, resting his forehead on the back on my skull. "This isn't a hobby, Meghan," he breathed, sending a tingle down my spine. "It isn't a game or a sport or a simple pastime. This is life and death. Any one of those hits could've killed you had I been serious. Putting a weapon in your hands means that, at some point, you're going to have to use it. In a fight like this, you're going to be hurt. Make a single mistake, and you'll be dead. And I'll lose...you."

His voice trailed off at the end, as if that last part just slipped out. My throat closed, and all my anger drained away.

Ash pressed his lips to the welt across my shoulder, and my heartbeat stuttered. "I'm sorry," he murmured, genuine regret in his voice. "I didn't mean to hurt you. But I do want you to understand. Teaching you to fight means you're going to be in even more danger, and I may be hard on you sometimes because I don't want you to lose." He released my wrist and ran his hand up to my shoulder, smoothing the hair from my neck. "Do you still want to continue?"

I couldn't speak. I just nodded, and Ash kissed the back of my neck. "Tomorrow, then," he said, drawing back even as I wished he would stay there forever. "Same time. Now, let's go put something on those welts."

I HEARD THE PIANO MUSIC HEARD THE PIANO MUSIC as soon as we crossed the stream. My dad was sitting at the piano bench when we walked in, and didn't look up from the keys. But the music today wasn't as dark and frantic as it had been the night before; it was more calm and peaceful. Grimalkin lay atop the piano, feet tucked under him and eyes closed, purring in appreciation. as soon as we crossed the stream. My dad was sitting at the piano bench when we walked in, and didn't look up from the keys. But the music today wasn't as dark and frantic as it had been the night before; it was more calm and peaceful. Grimalkin lay atop the piano, feet tucked under him and eyes closed, purring in appreciation.

"Hi, Dad," I ventured, wondering if he would actually look at me today.

The music faltered, and for a split second, I thought he was going to look up. But then his shoulders hunched and he went back to his playing, a little faster than before. Grimalkin didn't bother to open his eyes.

"I guess that's a start," I sighed, as Ash disappeared into the kitchen for a moment. I heard him talking to a few unknown, high-pitched voices-Leanansidhe's brownies?-before he reappeared holding a small tan jar. My dad continued to play. I tried to look calm and hopeful, but disappointment settled heavy on my chest, and Ash saw it, too.

He didn't say anything as he led me upstairs to the loft, sitting me down on the neatly made bed after pulling off the bear rug. Opening the jar released a sharp, herbal scent that was oddly familiar, reminding me of a similar scene in a cold, icy bedroom, with Ash shirtless and bleeding and me binding up his wounds.

Below, the piano music continued, a low, mournful song that pulled at my insides. Ash knelt behind me on the bed and gently tugged the sleeve off my shoulder, just enough to expose the thin line of red slashed across my skin. I caught a flicker of remorse from him, a flash of dull regret, as a cold, tingling salve was spread over the wound.

"I'm still mad at you, you know," I said without turning around. The dark piano chords made me moody and pensive, and I tried to ignore the cool fingers sliding over my ribs, leaving blessed numbness as they pa.s.sed. "A little warning would've been nice. You couldn't have said, 'Hey, as part of your training today, I'm going to beat you senseless'?"

Ash reached around with both arms and put the jar into my hands, using that motion to pull me back to his chest. "Your father will be fine," he murmured, as my chest ached with bottled-up grief. "It just takes a while for the mind to catch up on everything it has forgotten. Right now, he's confused and frightened, and taking solace in the one thing that's familiar. Just keep talking to him, and eventually he'll start to remember."

He smelled so good, a mix of frost and something sharp, like peppermint. Lifting my head, I placed a kiss at the hollow of his neck, right beneath his jawbone, and he drew in a quiet breath, his hands curling into fists. I suddenly realized we were on a bed, alone in an isolated cabin, with no grown-ups-lucid ones anyway-to point fingers or condemn. My heart sped up, thudding in my ears, and I felt his heartbeat quicken, too.

Shifting slightly, I went to trace another kiss along his jaw, but he ducked his head and our lips met, and suddenly I was kissing him as if I were going to meld him into my body. His fingers tangled in my hair, and my hands slid beneath his shirt, tracing the hard muscles of his chest and stomach. He groaned, pulled me into his lap, and lowered us back onto the bed, being careful not to crush me.

My whole body tingled, senses buzzing, my stomach twisting with so many emotions I couldn't place them all. Ash was above me, his lips on mine, my hands sliding over his cool, tight skin. I couldn't speak. I couldn't think. All I could do was feel. feel.

Ash pulled back slightly, his silver eyes bright as he stared at me, his cool breath washing over my heated face.

"You are beautiful, you know that, right?" he murmured, all seriousness, one hand gently framing my cheek. "I know I don't say...things like that...as often as I should. I wanted to let you know."

"You don't have to say anything," I whispered, though hearing him admit it made my pulse flutter wildly. I could feel the emotion swirling around us, auras of color and light, and closed my eyes. "I can feel you," I murmured, as his heartbeat picked up under my fingers. "I can almost feel your thoughts. Is that very strange?"

"No," Ash said in a strangled voice, and a tremor went through him. I opened my eyes, staring into his perfect face.

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing. Just..." He shook his head. "I never thought...I could feel like this again. I didn't know if it was possible." He sighed, giving me a pleading look. "I'm sorry, I'm not explaining it very well."

"It's all right." I laced my hands behind his head, smiling. "Right now, talking isn't what I was hoping for."

Ash smiled faintly, lowering his head again.

And froze.

Frowning, I arched my neck, looking behind us upside down, and let out a squeak.

Paul stood at the top of the stairs, staring at us with wide, blank eyes. Even though he didn't say a word and probably didn't understand what was happening, my cheeks flamed and I was instantly mortified. Ash rolled off me and stood, his face shutting into that blank, expressionless mask as I tried gathering the frayed strands of my composure long enough to speak.

Rolling upright, smoothing down my tangled hair and clothes, I glared at my father, who stared back in a daze. "Dad, what are you doing here?" I asked. "Why aren't you downstairs with the piano?" Where you're supposed to be, Where you're supposed to be, I added sourly. Not that I wasn't happy to see my dad actually looking at me for the first time since we got here, but his timing absolutely sucked. I added sourly. Not that I wasn't happy to see my dad actually looking at me for the first time since we got here, but his timing absolutely sucked.

Paul blinked, still staring at me in a fog, and didn't say anything. I sighed, shot an apologetic look at Ash, and started to lead him back down the stairs. "Come on, Dad. Let's go look for a certain cat I'm going to kill for not warning us."

"Why?" Paul whispered, and my heart jumped to my throat. He looked straight at me with wide, teary eyes. "Why am I...here? Who...who are you?"

The lump in my throat grew bigger. "I'm your daughter." He stared at me blankly, and I gazed back, willing him to recognize me. "You were married to my mom, Melissa Chase. I'm Meghan. The last time you saw me, I was six years old, remember?"

"Daughter?"

I nodded breathlessly. Ash watched silently from the corner; I could feel his gaze on my back.

Paul shook his head, a sad, hopeless gesture. "I don't...remember," he said, and drew away from me, backing down the stairs, eyes clouding over once more.

"Dad-"

"Don't remember!" His voice took on a pensive note, and I stopped as all sanity fled from his face. "Don't remember! The rats scream, but I don't remember! Go away, go away." He ran to the piano and started pounding the keys, loud and frantic. I sighed and peered over the railing, watching him sadly.

Ash's arms wrapped around me seconds later, drawing me back to his chest. "It's a start," he said, and I nodded, turning my face into his arm. "At least he's talking now. He'll remember eventually."

Cool lips pressed against my neck, a brief, light touch, and I shivered. "Sorry about that," I whispered, wishing, selfishly, that we hadn't been interrupted. "I'm sure that's never happened to you before." Ash snorted, and I wondered if we could somehow reclaim that lost moment. I reached back and buried my fingers in his silky hair, pulling him closer. "What are you thinking about?"

"That this has put things in perspective," he said, as the rumbling piano chords vibrated around us, dark and crazy. "That there are more important things to think about. We should be concentrating on your training, and what we're going to do about the false king once it's time. He's still out there, looking for you."

I pouted, not liking that statement. But Ash chuckled and ran his fingers up my arm. "We have time, Meghan," he murmured. "After this is over, after your father regains his memories, after we deal with the false king, we'll have the rest of our lives. I'm not going anywhere, I promise." He held me tighter and brushed a kiss across my ear. "I'll wait. Just tell me when you're ready."

He released me then and walked downstairs. But I stood on the balcony for several minutes, listening to the piano music and letting it take my thoughts to forbidden places.

CHAPTER SEVEN.