"He's an eminent man," Leonard said. "He worked on radio-beam navigation and radar."

"He makes mistakes. That's all that matters. We should have done this thing alone. Collaboration leads to errors, security problems, you name it. We got our own amps. What are we doing with yours? We let you in on this for politics, for some half-a.s.sed tradeoff we'll never know anything about."

Leonard felt hot. He pushed his hamburger away. "We're in on this because we have a right. No one fought Hitler for as long as we did. We saw the whole war through. We were Europe's last and best chance. We gave it everything, so we have the right to be in on everything, and that includes the security of Europe. If you don't understand that, you belong on the other side."

Gla.s.s had raised his hand. He was laughing through his apology. "Hey, nothing personal."

Indeed, there was something personal. Leonard was still preoccupied with Gla.s.s's time with Maria, and Gla.s.s's boast that he had sent Maria back. Maria herself insisted there had been no such exhortation. According to her, she had mentioned the separation in the most general terms and Gla.s.s had simply noted it down. Leonard was still unsure, and the uncertainty made him angry.

Gla.s.s was saying, "Leonard, don't get me wrong. When I say 'you,' I'm talking about your government. I'm glad you're you're here. And it's true, what you say. You guys were great in the war, you were formidable. It was your moment. And this is my point." He placed a hand on Leonard's arm. "That was your moment, now this is ours. Who else is going to face down the Russians?" here. And it's true, what you say. You guys were great in the war, you were formidable. It was your moment. And this is my point." He placed a hand on Leonard's arm. "That was your moment, now this is ours. Who else is going to face down the Russians?"

Leonard looked away.

The second event took place during the Oktoberfest. They went down to the Tiergarten on Sunday and for the following two evenings. They saw a Texan rodeo, visited all the sideshows and drank beer and watched a whole pig roasting on a spit. There was a choir of children with blue neckerchiefs singing traditional songs. Maria winced and said they put her in mind of the Hitler Youth. But the songs were wistful, quite beautiful, Leonard thought, and the children were so confident with the difficult harmonies. The next evening they agreed to stay at home. The crowds were tiring after a day's work, and they had already spent next week's going-out money.

As it happened, Leonard had to stay on at the warehouse that evening for an extra hour. A row of eight machines in the recording room had suddenly failed. It was clearly a fault in the power circuits, and it took him and one of the senior American staff half an hour to trace, and as long to put right. He arrived at Adalbertstra.s.se at seven-thirty. Even as he began to climb the last set of stairs but one, he sensed something different. It was quieter. It was the muted, cautious atmosphere one might expect after an eruption. There was a woman mopping the stairs and an unpleasant smell. On the landing below Maria's a small boy saw him coming up and ran indoors shouting, "Er kommt, er kommt!" "Er kommt, er kommt!"

Leonard took the last flight at a run. Maria's door was ajar. A small rug just inside the door was askew. In the living room there was broken china across the floor. Maria was in the bedroom, sitting on the mattress in the dark. She was facing away from him, holding her head in her hands. When he put on the light, she made a sound of protest and shook her head. He turned it off and sat by her and put his hand on her shoulder. He said her name and tried to turn her toward him. She resisted him. He eased himself along the mattress to face her. She put her hands across her face and turned away again. "Maria?" he said again and pulled at her wrist. There was snot on her hand, and blood. It was just visible by the light from the living room. She let him take her hands. She had been crying, but she wasn't now. Her left eye was swollen and closed. The left side of her face had a pulpy texture and was ballooning out. There was a tear, a quarter-inch gash, in the corner of her mouth. The sleeve of her blouse was ripped to the shoulder.

He had known he would have to face it one day. She had told him about the visits. Otto came once, perhaps twice in a year. So far it had been shouted threats, demands for money and, last time, a swipe to the head. Nothing had prepared Leonard for this. Otto had hit her in the face with a closed fist and with all his strength, once, twice, and then again. As he went to fetch cotton wool and a bowl of water, Leonard was thinking through the nausea of shock that he knew nothing about people, what they could do, how they could do it. He knelt in front of her and washed first the wound on her lip. She closed her good eye and whispered, "Bitte, schau mich nicht an." "Bitte, schau mich nicht an." Please don't look at me. She wanted him to say something to her. Please don't look at me. She wanted him to say something to her.

"Beruhige dich. Ich bin ja bei dir." I'm here with you. Then, remembering his own behavior months before, he could not speak at all. He pressed the cotton wool to her cheek. I'm here with you. Then, remembering his own behavior months before, he could not speak at all. He pressed the cotton wool to her cheek.

Fourteen.

Leonard returned home for Christmas, having failed to persuade Maria to accompany him. She thought that a divorced older woman, a German, to whom Leonard was not even engaged would not be welcomed by Leonard's mother. He thought she was being too scrupulous. He could not honestly say that his parents lived by such precise and limiting codes. Once he had been home twenty-four hours, he realized she had been right. It was difficult. His bedroom with its single bed and the framed certificate proclaiming him winner of the sixth-form maths prize was a child's room. He was changed, he was transformed, but it was impossible to convey this to his parents. Twisted crepe paper crisscrossed the living room, the holly was in place, framing the mantelpiece mirror. They heard out his enthusiastic account on his first evening home. He told them about Maria and her work and what she was like, about her apartment and his, about the Resi, the Hotel am Zoo, the lakes, and the edginess and excitement of the half-ruined city.

There was a roast chicken in his honor, and more roast potatoes than he could eat these days. There were perfunctory questions, his mother asking how he did for laundry and his father referring to "this girl you're seeing." Maria's name evinced a barely conscious hostility, as though, a.s.suming they would never have to meet her, they could brush her aside. He avoided reference to her age or marital status. Otherwise, their remarks had the effect of grinding away at the difference between here and there. Nothing he said aroused curiosity or wonder or disgust, and soon Berlin was loosened from its strangeness and was nothing more than an outlying stretch of Tottenham, confined and known, interesting in itself, but not for long. His parents did not know he was in love.

And Tottenham, and all of London, was sunk in Sunday torpor. People were drowning in ordinariness. In his street the parallel walls of Victorian terraces were the end of all change. Nothing that mattered could ever happen here. There was no tension, no purpose. What interested the neighbors was the prospect of renting or owning a television. The H-shaped aerials were sprouting on the rooftops. On Friday evenings his parents popped into the house two doors down to watch, and they were saving hard, having sensibly set their hearts against hire-purchase. They had already seen the set they wanted, and his mother had shown him the corner of the living room where it would one day stand. The great struggle to keep Europe free was as remote as the ca.n.a.ls of Mars. Down at his father's pub, none of the regulars had even heard of the Warsaw Pact, the ratification of which had caused such a stir in Berlin. Leonard paid for a round and, prompted by one of his father's friends, gave a slightly boastful account of the bomb damage, the fabulous money made by smugglers, the kidnappings-men dragged shouting and kicking into saloon cars and driven off into the Russian sector, never to be seen again. These were all things, the company agreed, that everyone should do without, and the conversation reverted to football.

Leonard missed Maria, and he missed the tunnel almost as much. Daily for almost nine months he had been padding along its length, securing his lines against moisture penetration. He had come to love its earth-water-and-steel smell, and the deep, smothering silence, unlike any silence on the surface. Now he was away from it, he was aware of just how daring, how extravagantly playful, it was to steal secrets from under the feet of East German soldiers. He missed the perfection of the construction, the serious, up-to-the-minute equipment, the habits of secrecy and all the little rituals that went with it. He was nostalgic for the quiet brotherliness of the canteen, the unity of purpose and the competence of all the people there, the generous portions of food, which seemed at one with the whole enterprise.

He fiddled with the living room wireless, trying to find the music to which he was now addicted. "Rock Around the Clock" was here, but that was old hat. He had specialized tastes now. He wanted Chuck Berry and Fats Domino. He needed to hear Little Richard singing "Tutti Frutti," or Carl Perkins's "Blue Suede Shoes." This music played in his head whenever he was alone, tormenting him with everything he was away from. He took the back off the wireless and found a way of boosting the receptor circuits. Through a wail and warble of interference he found AFN and thought he heard Russell's voice. He could not explain his excitement to his mother, who was watching the partial dismantling of the family's Grandvox with despair.

On the street he listened for American voices and never heard any. He saw someone getting off a bus who looked like Gla.s.s, and felt disappointment when the man turned his way. Even at the height of his homesickness, Leonard could not delude himself that Gla.s.s was his closest friend, but he was a kind of ally, and Leonard missed the near rudeness of the American's speech, the hammer-blow intimacy, the absence of the modifiers and hesitancies that were supposed to mark out a reasonable Englishman. There was no one in the whole of London who would want to seize Leonard's elbow or squeeze his arm to make a point. There was no one, apart from Maria, who cared so much what Leonard did or said.

Gla.s.s had even given Leonard a Christmas present. It was at the canteen party, which had centered on a colossal side of beef and dozens of bottles of sekt-a seasonal contribution, it was announced, from Herr Gehlen himself. Gla.s.s had pressed a small gift-wrapped box into Leonard's hands. Inside was a silver-plated ballpoint pen. Leonard had seen them around, but he had never used one before.

Gla.s.s said, "Developed for Air Force pilots. Fountain pens don't work at high alt.i.tudes. One of the lasting benefits of warfare."

Leonard was about to speak his thanks when Gla.s.s put his arms around him and squeezed. It was the first time Leonard had been embraced by a man. They were all well on the way to being drunk. Then Gla.s.s proposed a toast, "to forgiveness," and looked at Leonard, who took Gla.s.s to be referring to the screening of Maria and drank deeply.

Russell had said, "We're doing Herr Gehlen the kindness of drinking his wine. You can't get more forgiving than that."

Under a framed photograph of Tottenham Grammar School's upper sixth, 1948, Leonard sat on the edge of his bed and wrote to Maria with his pen. It flowed beautifully, as though a miniature bolt of bright blue cloth were being pressed into the page. It was a piece of tunnel equipment he held in his hands, a fruit of war. He was sending a letter each day. Writing was a pleasure, and so, for once, was composition. His dominant mode was a jokey tenderness-I long to suck your toes and play upon your clavicle. He made a point of not complaining about Tottenham. After all, he might want to entice her here one day. During the first forty-eight hours at home he had found the separation excruciating. In Berlin he had grown so fond, so dependent, and at the same time had felt so grown-up. Now the old, familiar life engulfed him. He was suddenly a son again, not a lover. He was a child. Here was his room again, and his mother worrying over the state of his socks. Early on his second day he woke from a nightmare in which his Berlin life seemed long in the past. There's no point going back to that town now There's no point going back to that town now, he heard someone say, it's all different there these days it's all different there these days. He sat on the edge of his bed, cooling his sweat, making plans to have a telegram sent that would urgently recall him to the warehouse.

By the fourth day he was calmer. He could contemplate Maria's qualities, and look forward to seeing her in just over a week. He had given up trying to make his parents see how she had changed his life. She was a secret he carried around with him. The prospect of seeing her at Tempelhof again made everything tolerable. It was during this period of comfortable longing and expectation that he decided he must ask her to marry him. Otto's attack had pushed them even closer together, and had made their lives even less adventurous and more companionable. Maria never stayed alone in her flat now. If they agreed to meet there after work, Leonard made a point of arriving first. While he was in England, she was to stay a few days in Platanenallee, and then move to Pankow for Christmas. They stood back to back, ready to face their common enemy. When they went out together they always walked close, arm in arm, and in bars and restaurants they sat in tight, with a good view of the door. Even when Maria's face had healed and they had stopped talking about him, Otto was always with them. There were times when Leonard was angry with Maria for marrying him.

"What are we going to do?" he asked her. "We can't go around like this forever."

Maria's fear was lightened by contempt. "He's a coward. He'll run when he sees you. And he drinks himself to death. The sooner the better. Why do you think I always give him money?"

In fact the precautions became a habit, part of their intimacy. It was cosy, this common cause of theirs. There were times when Leonard thought it was rather fine, having a beautiful woman rely on him for protection. He had vague plans to get himself in better shape. He found out from Gla.s.s that he had the right to U.S. Army gymnasium facilities. Weight-lifting might be of use, or judo, although there would be no room to throw Otto in Maria's flat. But he was not in the habit of taking physical exercise, and each evening it seemed more sensible to go home.

He had fantasies of confrontation that made his heart race. He saw himself in movie style, the peaceable tough guy, hard to provoke, but once unleashed, demonically violent. He delivered a blow to the solar plexus with a certain sorrowful grace. He disarmed Otto of his knife, and in the same movement broke his arm with fastidious regret and "I warned you not to get rough." Another fantasy evoked the irresistible power of language. He would take Otto aside, to a Kneipe Kneipe perhaps, and win him over with a kindly but unflinching reasonableness. They would be man to man, and Otto would depart at last in a mood of mellowed acceptance and dignified acknowledgment of Leonard's position. Perhaps Otto would become a friend, a G.o.dfather to one of their children, and Leonard would use some recently acquired influence to secure the ex-drunk a job at one of the military bases. In other wistful sequences Otto simply never appeared again, having fallen out of a train, or died from his habit, or met the right girl and married again. perhaps, and win him over with a kindly but unflinching reasonableness. They would be man to man, and Otto would depart at last in a mood of mellowed acceptance and dignified acknowledgment of Leonard's position. Perhaps Otto would become a friend, a G.o.dfather to one of their children, and Leonard would use some recently acquired influence to secure the ex-drunk a job at one of the military bases. In other wistful sequences Otto simply never appeared again, having fallen out of a train, or died from his habit, or met the right girl and married again.

All these daydreams were driven by the certainty that Otto would be back and that whatever happened would be unpredictable and unpleasant. Leonard had occasionally seen fights in pubs and bars in London and Berlin. The reality was that his arms and legs went watery at the sight of violence. He had always marveled at the recklessness of fighting men. The harder they struck out, the more vicious were the blows they provoked, but they did not seem to mind. One good kick seemed worth the risk of a life in a wheelchair or with one eye.

Otto had years of brawling experience. He had nothing against hitting a woman in the face with all his strength. What would he want to do with Leonard? Maria's account had made it clear that Leonard was now fixed in his mind. Otto had arrived at her flat fresh from an afternoon's Oktoberfest drinking. He had run out of money and had come by to collect a few marks and remind his ex-wife that she had ruined his life and stolen everything he had. The extortion and the ranting would have been the sum of the visit had Otto not lurched into the bathroom to relieve himself and seen Leonard's shaving brush and razor. He took his p.i.s.s and came out sobbing and talking of betrayal. He rushed past Maria into the bedroom and saw a shirt of Leonard's folded on the chest. He pulled the pillows off the bed and found Leonard's pyjamas. The sobs became shouts. First he pushed Maria around the flat, accusing her of whoring. Then he took hold of her hair in one hand and beat her face with the other. On his way out he swept some cups onto the floor. Two flights below he was sick on the stairs. As he staggered down he shouted more insults up the stairwell for all the neighbors to hear.

Otto Eckdorf was a Berliner. He had grown up in the Wedding district, the son of the owner of a local Eckkneipe Eckkneipe-one of the reasons Maria's parents had opposed the marriage so bitterly. Maria was vague about Otto's war. She guessed he had been called up in 1939, when he would have been eighteen. He was in the infantry for a while, she thought, and had been part of the victorious procession into Paris. Then he was injured, not in combat but in an accident involving an Army truck overturned by a drunken friend. After a couple of months in a hospital in northern France, he was transferred to a signals regiment. He was on the eastern front, but always well back from the front lines. Maria said, "When he wants you to know how brave he is, he tells you about all the fighting he's seen. Then when he is drunk and he wants to let you know how clever he is, he tells you how he kept out of the fighting by getting sent to the field headquarters as a telephonist."

He had returned to Berlin in 1946 and met Maria, who was working in a food distribution center in the British sector. The answer to Leonard's question was that she had married him because everything at that time had come apart and it did not really matter much what you did, because she had fallen out with her parents, and because Otto was good-looking and seemed kind. A young single woman was vulnerable in those days, and she had wanted protection.

In the gray days after Christmas Leonard took long walks alone and thought about marrying Maria. He walked to Fins-bury Park, through Holloway to Camden Town. It was important, he thought, to reach a decision rationally, and not be influenced by separation and longing. He needed to concentrate on whatever counted against her and decide how important it was. There was Otto, of course. There was his lingering suspicion of Gla.s.s, but that surely was a matter of his own jealousy. She had told Gla.s.s more than she had needed to, that was all. There was her foreignness; perhaps that was an obstacle. But he liked speaking German-he was even getting good, with her encouragement-and he preferred Berlin to any place he had ever been. His parents might object to her. His father, who had been wounded in the Normandy landings, used to say he still loathed the Germans. After a week at home, Leonard accepted that that would be his parents' problem, not his. While his father had been lying in the hollow of a sand dune with a bullet in his heel, Maria had been a terrified civilian, cowering from the nightly bombing.

In effect, there was nothing standing in his way, and when he reached the Regent's Park ca.n.a.l and stopped on the bridge, he abandoned his rigorous scientific procedure and permitted all that was lovely about her to invade his thoughts. He was in love, and he was about to be married. Nothing could be simpler, more logical or more satisfying. Until he had asked Maria, there was no one he could tell. There was no one to confide in. When it was time to break the news, the only friend he could imagine being truly pleased for him, and who would spare nothing to show it, would be Gla.s.s.

The surface of the ca.n.a.l showed tiny disturbances, the first signs of rain. The thought of walking northward all the way home, back along the line of his meditation, tired him. He would take a bus from Camden High Street instead. He turned and walked quickly in that direction.

Fifteen.

American songs were what marked out the weeks and months for Leonard and Maria now. In January and February of 1956 they favored Screamin' Jay Hawkins's "I Put a Spell on You," and "Tutti Frutti." It was the latter, sung by Little Richard at the outer limit of effort and joy, that started them jiving. Then it was "Long Tall Sally." They were familiar with the moves. The younger American servicemen and their girls had been dancing that way at the Resi for a long time. Until now, Leonard and Maria had disapproved. The jivers took up too much s.p.a.ce and b.u.mped into the backs of the other dancers. Maria said she was too old for that sort of thing, and Leonard thought it was showy and childish, typically American. So they had clung to each other through the quicksteps and walzes. But this would not do for Little Richard. Once they had succ.u.mbed to the music, there was nothing for it but to turn up the volume of Leonard's wireless set and try the steps, the pa.s.ses and crossovers and turns, having first made sure that the Blakes downstairs were out.

It was an exhilarating exercise in reading the other's mind, in guessing your partner's intentions. There were many collisions in their first attempts. Then a pattern emerged, devised consciously by neither of them, the product not so much of what they did but of who they were. There was tacit agreement that Leonard should lead and that Maria, by her own movements, should indicate just how he should do so.

Soon they were ready for the dance floor. There was nothing like "Long Tall Sally" to be heard at the Resi or the other dance halls. The bands played "In the Mood" and "Take the ' 'A' Train," but by now the movements were enough in themselves. Beyond the excitement Leonard took satisfaction in dancing in a way his parents and their friends did not, and could not, and in liking music they would hate, and in feeling at home in a city where they would never come. He was free.

In April came a song that overwhelmed everybody, and that marked the beginning of the end of Leonard's Berlin days. It was no use at all for jiving. It spoke only of loneliness and irresolvable despair. Its melody was all stealth, its gloom comically overstated. He loved it all, the forlorn, sidewalk tread of the ba.s.s, the harsh guitar, the spa.r.s.e tinkle of a barroom piano, and most of all the tough, manly advice with which it concluded: "Now if your baby leaves you, and you've got a tale to tell, just take a walk down Lonely Street ..." For a time AFN was playing "Heartbreak Hotel" every hour. The song's self-pity should have been hilarious. Instead, it made Leonard feel worldly, tragic, bigger somehow.

It formed the background to the arrangements for the engagement party Leonard and Maria were giving at Platanenallee. It was playing in Leonard's mind when he was buying drinks and peanuts in the Naafi. In the gift section he came across a young officer languidly stooped over a gla.s.s counter display of watches. It took several seconds to recognize him as Lofting, the lieutanant who had given him Gla.s.s's number on his first day. Lofting too had difficulty in placing Leonard. When he did, he became talkative and a lot friendlier than before. Without preamble, he told how he had finally located a wide open site, persuaded a civilian contractor to clear and level it, and, through someone in the mayor of Berlin's office, had it seeded, ready for use as a cricket pitch. "The speed this gra.s.s grows! I've arranged a twenty-four-hour sentry to keep kids off. You must come and look." He was lonely, Leonard decided, and before he had thought the matter through, he was telling Lofting about his engagement to a German girl and inviting him to the party. They were, after all, rather short of guests.

In the late afternoon before the party (Drinks 6-8 (Drinks 6-8 P.M P.M.), Leonard was half humming, half singing "Heartbreak Hotel" as he carried a sackful of kitchen rubbish down to the dustbins out the back. The lift was out of order that day. On his way up, Leonard b.u.mped into Mr. Blake. They had not spoken since the scene on Leonard's landing the previous year. Enough time had pa.s.sed to neutralize that, for when Leonard nodded, Mr. Blake smiled and said h.e.l.lo. Again without reflection, and because he was feeling expansive, Leonard said, "Would you and your wife like to drop ih for a drink this evening? Anytime after six."

Blake was searching in his overcoat pocket for his key. He took it out and stared at it. Then he said, "That would be pleasant. Thank you."

"Heartbreak Hotel" was playing on the wireless while Leonard and Maria waited for the first guest. There were peanuts in saucers and, on a table pushed against a wall, bottles of beer and wine, lemonade, Pimms, tonic and a liter of gin, all duty free. There were ashtrays for everyone. Leonard had wanted pineapple chunks and cheddar cheese on toothpicks, but Maria had laughed so hard at this mad concoction that the matter was dropped. They held hands while they surveyed their preparations, conscious that their love was about to begin its public existence. Maria wore a layered white dress that rustled when she moved, and pale blue dancing pumps. Leonard had his best suit on, and-the daring touch-a white tie.

"... he's been so long on Lonely Street ..." The doorbell rang, and Leonard went. It was Russell from AFN. Leonard did not know why he should feel foolish that his wireless was tuned to that station. Russell did not seem to notice. He had taken Maria's hand and was holding on to it far too long. But her friends from work, Jenny and Charlotte, were suddenly there too, giggling and holding out presents. Russell stood back as the German girls swept the bride-to-be away in embraces and slangy Berlin exclamations and camped down with her on the sofa. Leonard made a gin and tonic for Russell, and Pimms and lemonade for the girls.

Russell said, "She's the one who sent the message down the tube?"

"That's right."

"She really knows her mind. You want to introduce me to her friends?"

Gla.s.s arrived, followed immediately by Lofting, whose attention was drawn by a burst of feminine laughter from the sofa. So Leonard fixed the drinks and took the radio announcer and the lieutenant across. When the introductions had been made, Russell began a breezy flirtation with Jenny, telling her he just knew he had seen her someplace before and that she had the sweetest face. Lofting, more in Leonard's style, engaged Charlotte in tortured small talk. When he said, "That's fascinating. And just how long does it take you to get out to Spandau in the morning?" she and her friends had a fit of the giggles.

Gla.s.s had agreed to give a speech. Leonard was touched that his friend had taken the trouble to type it out on cards. He tinkled a bottle opener against the gin for silence. Gla.s.s started with an amusing account of Leonard with a rose behind his ear and the message coming down the pneumatic tube. He hoped that one day he too would be delivered from bachelorhood with a similarly dramatic approach, and by a girl as gorgeous and as wonderful in every way as Maria. Russell called out "Hear, hear." Maria shushed him.

Then Gla.s.s paused to indicate a change in tone. He was drawing breath to begin again when the doorbell rang. It was the Blakes. While everyone waited, Leonard poured their drinks. Mrs. Blake took an armchair. Her husband remained standing by the door, staring expressionlessly at Gla.s.s, who tilted his beard in acknowledgment that the interruption was over.

He spoke quietly. "We all of us in this room, German, British, American, in our different kinds of work, have committed ourselves to building a new Berlin. A new Germany. A new Europe. I know that's the grand way politicians talk, even if it is true. I know that at seven o'clock on a winter's morning, when I'm getting dressed for work, I don't think too hard about building a new Europe." There was a murmur of laughter. "We all know the kinds of freedom we want and like, and we all know what threatens them. We all know that the place, the only place, to start making a Europe free and safe from war is right here, with ourselves, in our hearts. Leonard and Maria belong to countries that ten years ago were at war. By engaging to be married, they are bringing their own peace, in their own way, to their nations. Their marriage, and all others like it, bind countries tighter than any treaty can. Marriages across borders increase understanding between nations and make it slightly harder each time for them to go to war ever again."

Gla.s.s looked up from his postcards and grinned, suddenly disowning his seriousness. "That's why I'm always watching out for a nice Russian girl to take back home to Cedar Rapids. To Leonard and Maria!"

They raised their gla.s.ses, and Russell, who had his arm around Jenny's waist, called out, "Come on, Leonard. Speech!"

The only time Leonard had spoken in public was at school, where as a sixth-form monitor in his final year he was obliged once every two weeks to take his turn at reading out the announcements at morning a.s.sembly. As he started now, he found that his breathing was too rapid and shallow. He had to speak in cl.u.s.ters of three or four words.

"Thank you, Bob. Speaking for myself, I can't guarantee to rebuild Europe. It's as much as I can do to put up a shelf in the bathroom." His joke went down well. Even Blake smiled. Across the room Maria was beaming at him, or was she half crying too? Leonard blushed. His success made him light. He wished he had another ten jokes to tell. He said, "Speaking for us both, all we can promise, to you and to each other, is to be happy. Thank you very much for coming."

There was applause, and again encouraged by Russell, Leonard crossed the room and kissed Maria. Russell kissed Jenny, then they all settled down to drink.

Blake came across to shake Leonard's hand and offer his congratulations. He said, "The American with the beard. How is it you know him?"

Leonard hesitated. "He's at my work."

"I didn't know you were working for the Americans."

"Ah yes. It's an intersector thing. Telephone lines."

Blake gave Leonard a long stare. He walked with him into a quiet corner of the room. "I want to give you some advice. That fellow there-Gla.s.s, isn't it?-works for Bill Harvey. If you're telling me you work with Gla.s.s, you're telling me what it is you do. Altglienicke. Operation Gold. I don't need to know that. You're making a security error there."

Leonard would have liked to say that Blake too had breached security by indicating that he too was part of the intelligence community.

Blake said, "I don't know who these other people here are. I do know that in these matters this is a very small town. It's a village. You shouldn't be seen in public with Gla.s.s. It's a giveaway. My advice is that you keep your professional and social lives well separated. Now, I'm going to give my best wishes to your intended, then we'll take our leave."

The Blakes left. Leonard stayed apart for a while with his drink. A part of him-a nasty part, he thought-wanted to see if anything pa.s.sed between Maria and Gla.s.s. They were ignoring each other completely. Gla.s.s was the next to leave. Lofting had had several drinks and was making better progress with Charlotte. Jenny was sitting on Russell's lap. The four of them had decided to go to a restaurant, and then to a dance hall. They tried hard to persuade Leonard and Maria to go with them. When they were convinced that they could not succeed, they left with kisses, embraces and goodbyes shouted up the stairwell.

There were abandoned gla.s.ses on every surface, and cigarette smoke hung in the air. The apartment was peaceful.

Maria put her bare arms around Leonard's neck. "You made a beautiful speech. You didn't tell me you were good at that." They kissed.

Leonard said, "It's going to take you a long time to find out all the things I'm good at." He had addressed a crowd of eight. He felt different, capable of anything.

They put their coats on and went out. The plan was to eat in Kreuzberg and spend the night at Adalbertstra.s.se, thereby including both homes in the celebrations. The bedroom there had been prepared by Maria with fresh sheets, new candles in bottles and a potpourri emptied into two soup bowls.

They dined on Rippchen mit Erbsenpuree Rippchen mit Erbsenpuree, spare ribs and pease pudding, in a pub on Oranienstra.s.se that had become their local. The owner knew about the engagement and brought them gla.s.ses of sekt on the house. It was like a bedroom where they were, almost like a bed. They were deep in the recesses of the place, at a table of dark stained wood two inches thick, boxed in by high-backed pews worn smooth by backsides. A tablecloth of thick brocade hung heavily on their laps. Over this a waiter spread a cloth of starched white linen. There was dim light from a red gla.s.s lantern that hung from the low ceiling by a heavy chain. A warm, moist air enclosed them further in a fug of Brazilian cigars, strong coffee and roasted meat. Half a dozen old men sat around the Stammtisch Stammtisch, the regulars' table, drinking beer and Korn Korn, and nearer there was a game of skat.

One of the old fellows paused in his stagger past Leonard's and Maria's table. He looked theatrically at his watch and said, "Auf zur Ollen!" "Auf zur Ollen!"

When he had gone, Maria explained. It was a Berlin phrase: "Back to the old woman. Is this you in fifty years?"

He raised his gla.s.s. "To my Olle." Olle."

There was another celebration coming up, one he could not talk to her about. In three weeks the tunnel would be one year old, calculating, as had been agreed, from the date of the first interception. It had also been agreed that something must happen to mark the event, something that would not violate security, but flamboyant all the same, and symbolic. An ad hoc committee was formed. Gla.s.s made himself chairman. There were also a U.S. Army sergeant, a German liaison officer and Leonard. To emphasize the collaboration of three nations, the contributions would reflect something of each national culture. It had seemed to Leonard a little unfair the way Gla.s.s had divided the responsibilities, but he said nothing. The Americans would take care of the food, the Germans would provide the drink, and the British would offer a surprise entertainment, a party turn.

With a budget of thirty pounds, Leonard had visited the noticeboards in the YMCA and the Naafi and Toc H clubs, searching for the act that would do his country honor. There was the wife of a corporal in the RAOC who read tea leaves. There was a singing dog, for sale rather than rent, property of an AKC manager, and there was an incomplete morris-dancing team, an offshoot of the RAF rugby club. There was a Universal Aunt who met children and senile relatives off airplanes and trains, and there was a "top-notch" conjuror, for under-fives only.

It was the very morning of his engagement party that Leonard had followed up a lead and made contact with a sergeant in the Scots Greys who promised to supply, in return for a thirty-pound contribution to the sergeant's mess fund, a piper in full regimental dress-tartan, feathers, sporran, the lot. This, and his short speech and its successful joke, and the sekt, and the gin that had preceded it, and the new language he was beginning to master, and the Gaststatte Gaststatte where he felt so at home, and above all his beautiful fiancee, who was clinking her gla.s.s against his-all this made Leonard reflect that he had never really known himself at all, he was far more interesting and, well, civilized than he had ever dared suspect. where he felt so at home, and above all his beautiful fiancee, who was clinking her gla.s.s against his-all this made Leonard reflect that he had never really known himself at all, he was far more interesting and, well, civilized than he had ever dared suspect.

Maria had curled her hair for the event. Artfully disordered wisps lay across the high Shakespearean forehead, and just below the crown was a new white clip; the childish touch she was reluctant to abandon. She was looking at him now with patient amus.e.m.e.nt, that same regard, both proprietorial and abandoned, that had forced him in their early days to divert himself with circuitry and mental arithmetic. She was wearing the silver ring they had bought from an Arab on the Ku'damm. Its very cheapness was a celebration of their freedom. Outside the big jewelry stores, young couples were eyeing engagement rings that cost more than three months' wages. After Maria's hard bargaining, with Leonard, too embarra.s.sed to listen, standing several paces off, they got theirs for less than five marks.

The meal was all that stood between them and Maria's flat, the prepared bedroom and the consummation of their engagement. They wanted to talk about s.e.x, so they were talking about Russell. Leonard was trying out a tone of responsible caution. It did not quite suit his mood now, but the force of habit was strong. He had a warning for Maria to pa.s.s on to her friend Jenny. Russell was a fast mover-an operator, as Gla.s.s would say-who had once claimed that in his four years in Berlin he had chalked up more than 150 girls. Leonard said in German, "Apart from the fact that he's bound to have the clap"-den Tripper; he had recently learned the word from a poster in a public lavatory-"he is not going to take Jenny seriously at all. She ought to know that." he had recently learned the word from a poster in a public lavatory-"he is not going to take Jenny seriously at all. She ought to know that."

Maria had put her hand over her mouth and laughed at Tripper. "Sei nicht doof! Tripper. "Sei nicht doof! You're ... You're ... schuchtern schuchtern. How do you say it in English?"

"A prude, I think," Leonard was forced to say.

"Jenny looks after herself. Do you know what she was saying when the Russell came in the room? She said, 'That's the one I want. I don't get paid till the end of next week and I want to go to a restaurant. Then I want to go dancing. And,' she said, 'he has a beautiful jaw, like Superman.' So, she goes to work, and the Russell thinks he did it all by himself."

Leonard put down his knife and fork and wrung his hands in mock anguish. "My G.o.d! Why am I so ignorant?"

"Not ignorant. Innocent. And now you marry the first and only woman you ever knew. Perfect! It's women who should marry the virgins, not men. We want you fresh-"

Leonard pushed his plate aside. It was not possible to eat while you were being seduced.

"-we want you fresh so we can show you how to please us."

"Us?" said Leonard. "You mean there's more than one of you?

"There's just me. That's all you have to think about."

"I need you," Leonard said. He waved at the waiter. It was not the conventional exaggeration. If he did not lie down with her soon he thought he might be sick, for there was a cold upward pressure on his stomach and on the pease pudding in there.

Maria raised her gla.s.s. He had never seen her so beautiful. "To innocence."

"To innocence. And Anglo-German cooperation."

"It was a terrible speech," Maria said, although from her look he thought she did not really mean it. "Does he think I'm the Third Reich? Is that what he thinks you are marrying? Does he really think that people represent countries? Even the major makes a better speech at the Christmas dinner."

But when they had paid and put on their coats and were walking toward Adalbertstra.s.se, she resumed more seriously. "I don't trust this one. I didn't like him when he was asking me questions. His mind is too simple and too busy. These are the dangerous ones. He thinks you must love America or you must be a spy for the Russians. These are the ones who want to start another war."

Leonard was pleased to hear her say she did not like Gla.s.s, and he was reluctant to start an argument now. All the same he said, "He takes himself very seriously, but he's not so bad, really. He's been a good friend to me in Berlin."