"Are you sure he seemed legitimate?" asked the MetalBox watchman.

"Completely legitimate," the cook said, defending the man who had so appreciated his son.

They went back to the hotel the next evening with a completed medical form and a bank draft of eight thousand rupees to cover his processing fee and the cost of the training camp that was to be held in Kathmandu, since it made sense to them all to pay to get a job. The recruiter made out a receipt for the bank draft, checked the medical forms that had been completed free by the bazaar doctor, who had been kind enough to show Biju's blood pressure as being lower than it was, his weight as greater, and she had filled up the inoculations column with dates that would have been the correct time to have inoculations had he had them.

"Have to look perfect or the emba.s.sy people will make trouble and then what will you do?" She knew this because she'd sent her own son off on this journey some years ago. In return for the favor, Biju promised to take a packet of dried churbi churbi cheese to the U.S. and mail it to her son doing a medical residency in Ohio, for the boy had been a boarder in a Darjeeling school and acquired the habit of chewing it as he studied. cheese to the U.S. and mail it to her son doing a medical residency in Ohio, for the boy had been a boarder in a Darjeeling school and acquired the habit of chewing it as he studied.

Two weeks later, Biju traveled to Kathmandu by bus for a week of training at the recruiting agency's main office.

Kathmandu was a carved wooden city of temples and palaces, caught in a disintegrating tangle of modern concrete that stretched into the dust and climbed into the sky.

He looked in vain for the mountains; Mt. Everest-where was it? He traversed along flat main roads into a knot of medieval pa.s.sages full of the sounds of long ago, a street of metal workers, a street of potters melding clay, straw, sand, with their bare feet; rats in a Ganesh temple eating sweets. At one point a crooked shutter etched with stars opened and a face from a fairy tale looked out, pure among the muck, but when he looked back the young girl was gone; a wrinkled old crone had taken her place to talk to another old crone on her way with a puja puja tray of offerings; and then he was back out among the blocks of concrete, scooters, and buses. A billboard was painted with an underwear advertis.e.m.e.nt showing a giant, bulging underwear placket; across the bulge was a black crisscross. "No Pickpocket," it warned. Some laughing foreigners were having their picture taken in front of it. Down a lane, around a corner, behind a cinema, there was a small butcher's shop, with a row of yellow chicken feet in a decorative fringe over the door. A man stood outside, his hands dripping with meat juices over a basin of water tinged rust with blood, and the number inscribed on the side of the door matched the address Biju had in his pocket: 223 A block, ground floor, behind Pun Cinema House. tray of offerings; and then he was back out among the blocks of concrete, scooters, and buses. A billboard was painted with an underwear advertis.e.m.e.nt showing a giant, bulging underwear placket; across the bulge was a black crisscross. "No Pickpocket," it warned. Some laughing foreigners were having their picture taken in front of it. Down a lane, around a corner, behind a cinema, there was a small butcher's shop, with a row of yellow chicken feet in a decorative fringe over the door. A man stood outside, his hands dripping with meat juices over a basin of water tinged rust with blood, and the number inscribed on the side of the door matched the address Biju had in his pocket: 223 A block, ground floor, behind Pun Cinema House.

"Another one!" the man in front shouted to the back room. Several other men were there wrestling with an unwilling goat that had caught sight of a fellow grazer's heart lying discarded on the floor.

"You've been cheated," the butcher laughed. "So many people have been asking to go the USA."

The men trussed up the goat and came out grinning, all with b.l.o.o.d.y vests. "Ah, idiot. Who goes and gives money like that? Where do you come from? What do you think the world is made of? Criminals! Criminals! Go file a report at the police station. Not that they will do anything...."

Before the butcher slit the goat's throat, Biju could hear him working up his disdain, yelling "b.i.t.c.h, wh.o.r.e, c.u.n.t, sali," "b.i.t.c.h, wh.o.r.e, c.u.n.t, sali," at her, dragging her forward then, and killing her. at her, dragging her forward then, and killing her.

You have to swear at a creature to be able to destroy it.

As Biju stood dazed outside, wondering what to do, they skinned her, slung her upside down to drain.

His second attempt at America was a simple, straightforward application for a tourist visa.

A man from his village had made fifteen tries and recently, on the sixteenth, he got the visa.

"Never give up," he'd advised the boys in the village, "at some point your lucky day will come."

"Is this the Amriken emba.s.sy?" Biju asked a watchman outside the formidable exterior.

"Amreeka nehi, bephkuph. This is U.S. emba.s.sy!" This is U.S. emba.s.sy!"

He walked on: "Where is the Amriken emba.s.sy?"

"It is there." The man pointed back at the same building.

"That is U.S."

"It is the same thing," said the man impatiently. "Better get it straight before you get on the plane, bhai." bhai."

Outside, a crowd of shabby people had been camping, it appeared, for days on end. Whole families that had traveled from distant villages, eating food packed and brought with them; some individuals with no shoes, some with cracked plastic ones; all smelling already of the ancient sweat of a never-ending journey. Once you got inside, it was air-conditioned and you could wait in rows of orange bucket chairs that shook if anyone along the length began to bop their knees up and down.

First name: Balwinder Last name: Singh Other names: What would those be??

Pet names, someone said, and trustfully they wrote: "Guddu, Dumpy, Plumpy, Cherry, Ruby, Pinky, Chicky, Micky, Vicky, d.i.c.ky, Sunny, Bunny, Honey, Lucky...."

After thinking a bit, Biju wrote "Baba."

"Demand draft? Demand draft?" said the touts going by in the auto rickshaws. "Pa.s.sport photo chahiye? chahiye? Pa.s.sport photo? Campa Cola Pa.s.sport photo? Campa Cola chahiye, chahiye, Campa Cola?" Campa Cola?"

Sometimes every single paper the applicants brought with them was fake: birth certificates, vaccination records from doctors, offers of monetary support. There was a lovely place you could go, clerks by the hundreds sitting cross-legged before typewriters, ready to help with stamps and the correct legal language for every conceivable requirement....

"How do you find so much money?" Someone in the line was worried he would be refused for the small size of his bank account.

"Ooph, you cannot show so little," laughed another, looking over his shoulder with frank appraisal. "Don't you know how to do it?" you cannot show so little," laughed another, looking over his shoulder with frank appraisal. "Don't you know how to do it?"

"How?"

"My whole family," he explained, "uncles from all over, DubaiNew ZealandSingapore, wired money into my cousin's account in Tulsa, the bank printed the statement, my cousin sent a notarized letter of support, and then he sent the money back to where it had come from. How else can you find enough to please them!"

An announcement was made from the invisible loudspeaker: "Will all visa applicants line up at window number seven to collect a number for visa processing."

"What what, what did they say?" Biju, like half the room, didn't understand, but he saw from the ones who did, who were running, pleased to be given a head start, what they should do. Stink and spit and scream and charge; they jumped toward the window, tried to splat themselves against it hard enough that they would just stick and not sc.r.a.pe off; young men mowing through, tossing aside toothless grannies, trampling babies underfoot. This was no place for manners and this is how the line was formed: wolf-faced single men first, men with families second, women on their own and Biju, and last, the decrepit. Biggest pusher, first place; how self-contented and smiling he was; he dusted himself off, presenting himself with the exquisite manners of a cat. I'm civilized, sir, ready for the U.S., I'm civilized, mam. Biju noticed that his eyes, so alive to the foreigners, looked back at his own countrymen and women, immediately glazed over, and went dead.

Some would be chosen, others refused, and there was no question of fair or not. What would make the decision? It was a whim; it was not liking your face, forty-five degrees centigrade outside and impatience with all Indians, therefore; or perhaps merely the fact that you were in line after a yes, so you were likely to be the no. He trembled to think of what might make these people unsympathetic. Presumably, though, they would start off kind and relaxed, and then, faced with all the fools and annoying people, with their lies and crazy stories, and their desire to stay barely concealed under fervent promises to return, they would respond with an indiscriminate machine-gun-fire of NO NO!NO!NO!NO!NO!

On the other hand, it occurred to those who now stood in the front, that at the beginning, fresh and alert, they might be more inclined to check their papers more carefully and find gaps in their arguments.... Or perversely start out by refusing, as if for practice.

There was no way to fathom the minds and hearts of these great Americans, and Biju watched the windows carefully, trying to uncover a pattern he might learn from. Some officers seemed more amiable than others, some scornful, some thorough, some were certain misfortune, turning everyone away empty-handed.

He would have to approach his fate soon enough. He stood there telling himself, Look unafraid as if you have nothing to hide. Be clear and firm when answering questions and look straight into the eyes of the officer to show you are honest. But when you are on the verge of hysteria, so full of anxiety and pent-up violence, you could only appear honest and calm by being dishonest. So, whether honest or dishonest, dishonestly honest-looking, he would have to stand before the bulletproof gla.s.s, still rehearsing answers to the questions he knew were coming up, questions to which he had to have perfectly made-up replies.

"How much money do you have?"

"Can you prove to us you won't stay?"

Biju watched as the words were put forward to others with complete bluntness, with a fixed and unembarra.s.sed eye-odd when asking such rude questions. Standing there, feeling the enormous measure of just how despised he was, he would have to reply in a smart yet humble manner. If he b.u.mbled, tried too hard, seemed too c.o.c.ky, became confused, if they didn't get what they wanted quickly and easily, he would be out. In this room it was a fact accepted by all that Indians were willing to undergo any kind of humiliation to get into the States. You could heap rubbish on their heads and yet they would be begging to come crawling in....

"And what is the purpose of your visit?"

"What should we say, what should we say?" they discussed in the line. "We'll say a hubshi hubshi broke into the shop and killed our sister-in-law and now we have to go to the funeral." broke into the shop and killed our sister-in-law and now we have to go to the funeral."

"Don't say that." An engineering student who was already studying at the University of North Carolina, here for the renewal of his visa, knew this would not sound right.

But he was shouted down. He was unpopular.

"Why not?"

"You are going too far. It's a stereotype. They'll suspect."

But they insisted. It was a fact known to all mankind: "It's black men who do all of this."

"Yes, yes," several others in the line agreed. "Yes, yes." Black people, living like monkeys in the trees, not like us, so civilized....

They were, then, shocked to see the African-American lady behind the counter. (G.o.d, if the Americans accepted them, surely they would welcome Indians with open arms? Won't they be happy to see us!) But... already some ahead were being turned away. Biju's worry grew as he saw a woman begin to shriek and throw herself about in an epilepsy of grief. "These people won't let me go, my daughter has just had a baby, these people won't let me go, I can't even look at my own grandchild, these people.... I am ready to die... they won't even let me see the face of my grandchild...." And the security guards came rushing forward to drag her away down the sanitized corridor rinsed with germ killers.

The man with the hubshi hubshi story of murder-he was sent to the window of the story of murder-he was sent to the window of the hubshi. Hubshi hubshi bandar bandar, hubshi. Hubshi hubshi bandar bandar, trying to do some quick thinking-oh no, normal Indian prejudice would not work here, distaste and rudeness-story falling to pieces in his head. trying to do some quick thinking-oh no, normal Indian prejudice would not work here, distaste and rudeness-story falling to pieces in his head.

"Mexican, say Mexican," hissed someone else.

"Mexican?"

He arrived at the window, retreating under threat, to his best behavior. "Good morning, ma'am." (Better not make that hubshi hubshi angry, yaar-so much he wished to immigrate to the U.S. of A., he could even be polite to black people.) "Yes ma'am, something like this, Mexican-Texican, I don't know exactly," he said to the woman who pinned him with a lepi-dopterist's gaze. (Mexican-Texican??) "I don't know, madam," squirming, "something or the other like this my brother was saying, but he is so upset, you know, don't want to ask all the details." angry, yaar-so much he wished to immigrate to the U.S. of A., he could even be polite to black people.) "Yes ma'am, something like this, Mexican-Texican, I don't know exactly," he said to the woman who pinned him with a lepi-dopterist's gaze. (Mexican-Texican??) "I don't know, madam," squirming, "something or the other like this my brother was saying, but he is so upset, you know, don't want to ask all the details."

"No, we cannot give you a visa."

"Why ma'am, please ma'am, I already have bought the ticket ma'am...."

And those who waited for visas who had s.p.a.cious homes, ease-filled lives, jeans, English, driver-driven cars waiting outside to convey them back to shady streets, and cooks missing their naps to wait late with lunch (something light-cheese macaroni...), all this time they had been trying to separate themselves from the vast shabby crowd. By their manner, dress, and accent, they tried to convey to the officials that they were a pre-selected, numerically restricted, perfect-for-foreign-travel group, skilled in the use of knife and fork, no loud burping, no getting up on the toilet seat to squat as many of the village women were doing at just this moment never having seen the sight of such a toilet before, pouring water from on high to clean their bottoms and flooding the floor with bits of soggy s.h.i.t.

"I have been abroad before and I have always returned. You can see from my pa.s.sport." England. Switzerland. America. Even New Zealand. Looking forward, when in New York, to the latest movie, to pizza, to Californian wine, also Chilean-very good, you know, and reasonably priced. If you were lucky already you would be lucky again.

Biju approached his a.s.signed window that framed a clean young man with gla.s.ses. White people looked clean because they were whiter; the darker you were, Biju thought, the dirtier you looked.

"Why are you going?"

"I would like to go as a tourist."

"How do we know you will come back?"

"My family, wife, and son are here. And my shop."

"What shop?"

"Camera shop." Could the man really believe this?

"Where are you going to stay?"

"With my friend in New York. Nandu is his name and here is his address if you would like to see."

"How long?"

"Two weeks, if that is suitable to you." (Oh, please, just a day, a day. That will be enough to serve my purpose....) "Do you have funds to cover your trip?"

He showed a fake bank statement procured by the cook from a corrupt state bank clerk in exchange for two bottles of Black Label.

"Pay at the window around the corner and you can collect your visa after five P.M P.M."

How could this be?

A man he had spoken to, still in the line behind him, called out in a piercing tone: "Were you successful, Biju? Biju, were you successful? Biju? Biju!" Biju? Biju!"In that pa.s.sionate peac.o.c.k cry, Biju felt this man was willing to die for him, but his desperation was for himself, of course.

"Yes, I was successful."

"You are the luckiest boy in the whole world," the man said.

The luckiest boy in the whole world. He walked through a park to luxuriate in the news alone. Raw sewage was being used to water a patch of gra.s.s that was lush and stinking, grinning brilliantly in the dusk. Out of the sewage Biju chased a line of pigs with black watermarks across their bellies, ran after them in jubilation. "Hup hup," he shouted. The crows that had been sitting on the pigs' backs scrambled into indignant flight, having to start up backward. A jogger in a tracksuit stopped to stare, the chauffeur waiting for the jogger and brushing his teeth with a neem twig, meanwhile, also stopped and stared. Biju ran after a cow. "Hup hup." He hopped over the ornamental plants and he jumped on the exercise bars, did pull-ups and push-ups.

The next day, he sent a telegram to his father, "the luckiest boy in the whole wide world," and when it arrived he knew his father would be the happiest father in the world. He didn't know, of course, that Sai, too, would be overjoyed. That when he had visited Kalimpong for that doomed interview with the cruise ship, she had found her heart shaken by the realization that the cook had his own family and thought of them first. If his son were around, he would pay only the most cursory attention to her. She was just the alternative, the one to whom he gave his affection if he could not have Biju, the real thing.

"Yipeee," she had shouted when she heard of his visa. "Hip hip hooray."

In the Gandhi Cafe, a little after three years from the day he'd received his visa, the luckiest boy in the whole world skidded on some rotten spinach in Harish-Harry's kitchen, streaked forward in a slime green track and fell with a loud popping sound. It was his knee. He couldn't get up.

"Can you get a doctor?" he said to Harish-Harry after Saran and Jeev had helped him to his mattress between the vegetables.

"Doctor!! Do you know what is medical expense in this country?!"

"It happened here. Your responsibility."

"My responsibility!" Harish-Harry stood over Biju, enraged. "You "You slip in the kitchen. If you slip on the road, then who would you ask, slip in the kitchen. If you slip on the road, then who would you ask, hm?" hm?" He had given this boy the wrong impression. He had been too kind and Biju had misunderstood those nights of holding his boss's divided soul in his lap, gluing it together with Harish-Harry's favorite axioms. "I take you in. I hire you with no papers, treat you like my own son and now this is how you repay me! Living here rent-free. In India would they pay you? What right do you have? Is it my fault you don't even clean the floor? YOU should have to pay ME for not cleaning, living like a pig. Am I telling YOU to live like a pig?" He had given this boy the wrong impression. He had been too kind and Biju had misunderstood those nights of holding his boss's divided soul in his lap, gluing it together with Harish-Harry's favorite axioms. "I take you in. I hire you with no papers, treat you like my own son and now this is how you repay me! Living here rent-free. In India would they pay you? What right do you have? Is it my fault you don't even clean the floor? YOU should have to pay ME for not cleaning, living like a pig. Am I telling YOU to live like a pig?"

"Biju's throbbing knee made him brave, reduced him to animal directness. He glared at Harish-Harry, the pretence was gone; in this moment of physical pain, his own feelings were strained clear.

"Without us living like pigs," said Biju, "what business would you have? This is how you make your money, paying us nothing because you know we can't do anything, making us work day and night because we are illegal. Why don't you sponsor us for our green cards?"

Volcanic explosion.

"How can I sponsor you?! If I sponsor you you I have to sponsor I have to sponsor Rishi, Rishi, and if I sponsor and if I sponsor Rishi, Rishi, then I have to sponsor then I have to sponsor Saran, Saran, and if and if him him then then Jeev, Jeev, and then and then Mr. Lalkaka Mr. Lalkaka will come and say, but I have been here for longest, I am the most distinguished, and I should be first in line. How can I make an exception? I have to go to the INS and say that no American citizen can do the job. I have to prove it. I have to prove I advertised it. They will look into my restaurant. They will study and ask questions. And the way they have it, it's the owner who gets put in jail for hiring illegal staff. If you are not happy, then go right now. Go find someone to sponsor you. Know how easily I can replace you? will come and say, but I have been here for longest, I am the most distinguished, and I should be first in line. How can I make an exception? I have to go to the INS and say that no American citizen can do the job. I have to prove it. I have to prove I advertised it. They will look into my restaurant. They will study and ask questions. And the way they have it, it's the owner who gets put in jail for hiring illegal staff. If you are not happy, then go right now. Go find someone to sponsor you. Know how easily I can replace you? Know how lucky you are!!! Know how lucky you are!!! You think there aren't thousands of people in this city looking for a job? I can replace you like this," he snapped his fingers, "I'll snap my fingers and in one second hundreds of people will appear. You think there aren't thousands of people in this city looking for a job? I can replace you like this," he snapped his fingers, "I'll snap my fingers and in one second hundreds of people will appear. Get out of my face!" Get out of my face!"

But since Biju couldn't walk, it was Harish-Harry who had to leave. He went back up and then he came back down, because his temper had changed in a flash-it was always like that with him, a thunder squall that moved on fast.

"Look," he said more kindly, "when have I treated you badly? I am not a bad man, am I? Why are you attacking me? As it is, I stick out my neck for you, Biju, tell me, how much more can you ask? These risky things I cannot do." He counted out fifty dollars from his wallet. "Here. Why not take some rest? You can help cutting the vegetables while lying down and if you are not better, go home. Doctors are very cheap and good in India. Get the best medical attention and later on you can always return."

A modest geometry of morning light lay on the floor, a small rhombus falling through the grate. "Naaty boy," Harish-Harry waggled his finger like a joke. The geometrical shape began to leak light, became shifty, exited slithering up the walls.

Return.

Come back.

Somebody in one of the kitchens of Biju's past had said: "It could not be so hard or there would not be so many of you here."