Jean-Paul was not amused. His face clouded but he made no complaint. "Bon," he said briskly. "If that is what you want."

"I do," she replied. "It's not all creative."

"So I see."

"You'll get very fit."

"I'm already fit." He spat the words, flashing his eyes at her angrily from under his eyelashes. "I'm going to light the bonfire. I was wondering whether the children are home. They might like to help me."

"I'm going to pick them up now. They'd love to help."

"Good. I will wait."

"Have a cup of tea in the kitchen. You've worked hard all day. Have a rest."

He shook his head. "No. I have a few more loads to take to the fire."

"I'll send the children up with marshmallows."

"Marshmallows?"

"You don't know what they are?" He shook his head. "Then it will be a surprise. They'll love showing you." His features softened. She smiled at him, but he did not return the smile.

She drove to school, debating her actions, justifying the jobs she had made Jean-Paul do with Hector. He wasn't here on holiday. It wasn't meant to be a picnic. What did he expect? At least the weather was good. If he was sulky in sunshine, what in G.o.d's name was he going to be like in rain and snow? She consoled herself that he would soon be gone. He wouldn't last until winter. She'd never know what he was like in snow and he would never see the wonder of her garden in summer.

The children were thrilled at the prospect of showing Jean-Paul how to roast marshmallows. Poppy waved a picture of a sunflower in front of her face. "Darling, not while I'm driving. I don't care whether you're Gauguin or Matisse. Let's get home alive, shall we?"

The boys compared stickers they had swapped in the playground. "Robert told me that we can write to Asterix and they'll send us a whole box of stickers," said Angus.

"A whole box?" replied Archie breathlessly, looking down at his handful of Esso tigers.

Ava listened to them in amus.e.m.e.nt. This week stickers, last week conkers, next week something else.

Back at home they ran to the vegetable garden where Hector and Jean-Paul were standing in front of an enormous mountain of leaves and cardboard boxes. The sky had clouded over and it was getting cold. Ava followed with the bag of marshmallows.

"I want to show him!" cried Poppy, skipping up to her mother. "Please, can I!"

Ava opened the packet and handed her daughter a pink marshmallow and stick. "All right, but let me help you," she said, taking her hand.

Jean-Paul had regained his color. He no longer looked angry. He watched the boys take a handful of marshmallows each and give one to him.

"You have to put it on a stick," said Archie importantly. "Otherwise you'll burn your fingers."

"Thank you," said Jean-Paul. "I would not want to burn my fingers."

"I burned my finger once," volunteered Angus, holding it up. "But Mummy put a bandage on it and it got better."

"Your mother is very clever," said Jean-Paul seriously.

"Watch!" Poppy shouted, holding her marshmallow in a bright yellow flame until it caught a little flame of its own. "See!" she hissed excitedly, standing stone still as if she held a poisonous snake on the end of her stick.

"Right, you can take it out now," said Ava.

"Blow, Mummy!" Ava brought it to her mouth and blew. It had melted into a sticky sugary ball. "Can I eat it now?" she asked. Ava tested it on her lips, blew again, then handed it to her daughter. Poppy pulled it off and popped the marshmallow into her mouth. She smiled in delight. "Yummy!" she exclaimed.

"Have a go," Ava said to Jean-Paul. "Consider this your initiation into the garden. If you pa.s.s this, you can be a member of our club, can't he, Hector?"

Hector nodded. He leaned on his pitchfork, watching the children contentedly.

Jean-Paul held his marshmallow over the fire while the boys shouted instructions at him. The Frenchman indulged them, doing as he was told, asking questions to make them feel important. Ava noticed how sweet he was with the children and how much they enjoyed having him around, especially the boys. He was someone new to show off to. Inside him there was a boyishness they were drawn to.

The marshmallow event drew them all together. The sun went down behind the garden wall, setting the tops of the trees ablaze with a bright golden light. The sky darkened, the air grew moist, the wind turned cold. But they were hot in front of the fire. The mountain diminished into a low mound of embers, glowing like molten copper each time a gust of wind swept over them. They ate all the marshmallows.

Then Jean-Paul suggested they play a game. "If this is my initiation into your club, then you have to be initiated into mine," he said seriously.

Ava watched in astonishment as he began to dance around the fire making whooping noises with his hand over his mouth. His unb.u.t.toned shirt blew about his body illuminating his skin in the firelight. He lifted his feet and jumped about, pretending to be a Red Indian. The children joined in, following Jean-Paul closely, copying his erratic movements, their small figures casting eerie shadows on the garden wall. Ava roared with laughter, and even Hector smiled, revealing small yellow teeth and gaping black holes where there were none. Inspired by the exhibition, Ava clapped her hands, wishing she had a drum so she could join in.

That evening, Ava was sorry Jean-Paul did not come for dinner. She had seen an unexpected side of him. They had parted in the vegetable garden. She with the children, he alone. She thought of him in the cottage, beside the fire, eating in front of the television then going to bed, and wondered whether he would be lonely. She resolved to lend him her car any time he wanted so he could go into town, and she'd remind Toddy to introduce him to her cousins. He'd appreciate the company of girls his age.

"How did it go today with Jean-Paul?" Phillip asked over dinner. Ava had made a special effort to cook partridges with breadcrumbs, bread sauce and gravy. She had steamed red cabbage to which she had added a little ginger, and had boiled carrots with honey. She had lit a candle on the table and dimmed the lights. Phillip opened a bottle of Bordeaux and poured two gla.s.ses. "Was he helpful?"

Ava smiled contentedly. "He was. In fact, he was a pleasure to have around. We roasted marshmallows in the bonfire and they all danced around it like Red Indians."

"Not Hector, I hope. Wouldn't do his heart any good at all."

"Certainly not! Jean-Paul led the children. It was very funny. Poppy following as best she could, the boys thinking they were incredibly clever, kicking their legs out and spinning around. No wonder they're quiet upstairs, I should imagine they're exhausted!"

"Was he any good in the garden?"

"He helped Hector. I didn't see much of him all day. I think he was pretty p.i.s.sed off he had to rake leaves, but it's not all about planting roses."

"He'll get used to it. He'll reap the rewards of his labor in spring."

"If he's still here."

The next few days she saw little of Jean-Paul. He worked with Hector while she busied herself in the borders. She asked him for dinner, but he refused, claiming he was having dinner at the pub. She dared not ask who with. It was none of her business. She wandered around the garden, trying to work out how she was going to plant her cottage garden, trying to imagine it, but nothing came. Perhaps the project was simply too ambitious. She should concentrate on the wild garden around the hollow tree instead. On Wednesday, when he had declined her third invitation for dinner, she realized she was being unfair. He had come to help her, she couldn't send him off to work with Hector all day. That wasn't keeping her side of the bargain. He had proved he was willing to work hard.

It was late. The sun had set, the sky was a deep navy studded with stars and there was a misty moon. She walked across the field towards the river. She wasn't going to apologize, but she was going to ask his advice on the cottage garden. Perhaps he did have ideas. She hadn't given him a chance.

The bridge looked silver in the moonlight, straddling the river that trickled gently in the silence. She loved the night. It was like being wrapped in velvet. Her spirits rose as she approached the cottage and she walked with a bounce in her step. The lights were on, the smell of smoke scenting the damp air with nostalgia. She stood a moment gazing at the little house, lit up as if by spotlight, enjoying the romance of it. Then she knocked on the door.

Jean-Paul's face blanched with surprise when he saw her. She wore a T-shirt under her purple dungarees and seemed not to feel the cold. He shivered as the wind swept into the hall. "Come in," he said, standing aside. She took off her boots and walked into the sitting room. There was a fire in the grate, a box of paints and gla.s.s of murky water on the coffee table. Jean-Michel Jarre resounded from the tape recorder. She hadn't imagined he could paint.

He didn't offer her a drink, but stood in the doorway waiting for her to speak. She walked over to the fire. "I've come to ask your advice," she said, suddenly losing confidence. He had bathed, his hair was still wet. His blue shirt, the sleeves rolled up, hung over his Levis.

"Advice?" He looked unconvinced. "Why would you want to do that? You clearly don't think I have anything to offer."

"That is not true," she protested.

"Oh come on, Ava!" he exclaimed, striding into the room and flopping onto the sofa. He put his hands behind his head and stretched out his legs. "You've sent me off with Hector. How do you know what I can do and what I can't do?"

"I don't," she conceded. "Let's be honest, shall we? You coming here was not my idea. It was Phillip's. I didn't want you. I didn't need any help. I'm more than capable of doing it on my own."

"Then why are you here asking my advice?"

"Because I am at a loss and perhaps you can help me. You said yourself not to judge people. I judged you. I'm hoping I was wrong."

"How can I help you?"

"The cottage garden."

"Ah." He sat forward, put his elbows on his knees and rubbed his chin thoughtfully. Ava felt a surge of relief. Her white flag had been accepted. "The cottage garden," he repeated.

"Yes," she said. "I've tried, but I can't picture it."

"As it happens, I have had some thoughts."

"You have?" He reached over the arm of the sofa and pulled out a large ring-bound block of artists' paper.

"I didn't know you painted."

"I have painted something for you," he said.

He placed the book on her knee. She gazed at it, speechless with admiration. There, in vibrant colors and bold, confident strokes, was a picture of her cottage garden. A gra.s.sy path snaked across it, bordered on both sides by flowers and shrubs, glistening on a bright summer's day. In the middle was the mountain ash, encircled by a pretty round bench in French gray. It was perfect. She could not have dreamed a more beautiful garden.

XI.

The melancholy cry of a lone gull hovering on the wind.

Hartington House, 2005.

It was then that I realized M. F. wasn't so very different from me. We were two artistic people, yearning to create something beautiful.

Miranda's eyes stung with tears. Folded in half and stuck to the page was the picture of the cottage garden. The colors were as vibrant as the day they had been painted. She ran her fingers across the paper, over pink roses and white lilies, and imagined the dawning of love. For a moment she felt a wave of melancholy at the emptiness in her own heart. But it came and went before she allowed herself to a.n.a.lyze it. If she filled her days with her work and the practical ch.o.r.es of running the house she wouldn't feel the ache, like stuffing a hole with cardboard. She focused all her attention on the picture. That bench was still circling the mountain ash. She wondered whether they had sat there, creating the gardens together, their affection growing with each plant they sowed. Suddenly she was gripped with enthusiasm. Perhaps Jean-Paul could resurrect that garden, breathe life back into it and she could live awhile, vicariously.

Although there were no names in the sc.r.a.pbook she a.s.sumed the book belonged to the previous owner, Mrs. Lightly. Little was written about the physical aspects of M. F. Much was written about his nature: one moment smiling and joyous, the next sullen and petulant. A creative young man, swathed in frustration. She wondered why Mrs. Lightly had left the book in the cottage. As it was weighted with so much significance, it was unlikely that she would forget it. Or perhaps she felt the affair was best left in the past. Miranda could imagine the old woman chuckling at the absurdity of her girlish crush and leaving the book behind deliberately.

It wasn't written as a love story, with a beginning, middle and end, but as a series of memories. Miranda wanted to submerge herself in them and take her time. She flicked through the pages, pausing occasionally to dwell on pressed leaves and flowers and the sentences written beside them in Mrs. Lightly's pretty looped writing. She was aware that she was meant to be getting the cottage ready for Jean-Paul. She didn't have the time to linger over someone else's love affair. However, the book was compelling, like a whole world compressed into a hundred pages. The love story held such allure. She knew if she allowed herself to read on, she would lose herself completely. She closed the book reluctantly. There were things to be done in the house. Mrs. Underwood was coming at midday to discuss the details of her employment. Mr. Underwood required direction. She had to find out who the local builders were, not to mention the domestic ch.o.r.es she had to undertake until she found a housekeeper to do them for her. She left the cottage with the sc.r.a.pbook tucked under her arm, a spring in her step.

As she made her way up the field towards the house she saw Mrs. Underwood's car on the gravel. Ranger was c.o.c.king his leg on one of the tires while Mrs. Underwood waited on the step, arms crossed over the b.u.t.tress of her expansive bosom, her face sagging in repose.

"h.e.l.lo!" Miranda shouted, quickening her pace. "I'm so sorry, I've been delayed. Got to sort out that cottage for the gardener." She checked herself, remembering the woman's husband. "The landscape gardener." Mrs. Underwood nodded. "I haven't seen Mr. Underwood yet, I a.s.sume he's in the garden."

"Oh aye, keeping himself busy, I should imagine. Hard to keep that man down." Miranda unlocked the door. Mrs. Underwood sighed. "Sign of the times. In my day, no one locked their doors. We were in and out of each other's houses all day long. It's not like it was."

"Well, you didn't have microwaves and e-mail, mobile phones and satellite telly, did you? So, it's not all bad."

Mrs. Underwood looked appalled. "What do you need all that rubbish for? They don't save time, just give you more time to fill up. Everyone's running around like headless chickens. In my day we all had time for a chat." Miranda thought it best not to argue. People like Mrs. Underwood were content to sit in the past and lament the wicked ways of the modern world.

Miranda hid the sc.r.a.pbook in her study, then took Mrs. Underwood into the kitchen to discuss wages and hours. She noticed Mr. Underwood had filled the log baskets and lit the fires while she had been out. The air smelled of burning wood. Mrs. Underwood commented on it proudly. "Mrs. Lightly always had the fires lit. Not that she ever felt the cold. Oh no, Mrs. Lightly wore short sleeves even in snow and I never saw her shiver." Now Miranda's curiosity had been aroused, she wanted to know more about the woman in the sc.r.a.pbook.

"Let's have a cup of tea, Mrs. Underwood," she suggested, pulling out a stool. "What will you have? Earl Grey?"

"Allow me, Miranda."

"You sit down, Mrs. Underwood."

"I insist. I can't sit like a pudding being waited on by my employer. It's not right." She took the kettle from Miranda and held it under the tap. "Besides, I've got to get to know the kitchen. It's changed since Mrs. Lightly was here."

Miranda sat on the stool. "What was Mrs. Lightly like?" she asked. "I've heard all about her beautiful gardens, but nothing about her."

Mrs. Underwood paused a moment. "She was an original. G.o.d broke the mold when He made her. Mr. Lightly was very English. Tall as a tree, with a big friendly smile. Everyone liked Mr. Lightly. He was the sort of man who always had time to talk. Mrs. Lightly, she was an eccentric. She'd come alive like a fire, telling funny stories and entertaining everyone, then she'd suddenly run out of fuel, make her excuses and leave. You always knew when she'd had enough. Those that didn't would find themselves talking to the walls. She'd be out in her garden, alone on that bench, enjoying the silence. She liked to be on her own best of all, though that's not to say she didn't love her children and Mr. Lightly. Besides them, I'd say she liked and tolerated, but she wasn't a sociable person like Mr. Lightly. Mr. Lightly liked having guests in the house. You'd never imagine for a moment that she didn't like entertaining. But she didn't. I could tell. She was happier when she had the house to herself."

"What did she look like?"

Mrs. Underwood plugged the kettle in and took two cups down from the cupboard. "She wasn't beautiful like you, Miranda. She was handsome, I'd say. Her features were so alive, her expression so kind and sensitive that she became beautiful the better you got to know her. Some people are like that, aren't they? Mrs. Lightly wasn't vain. She didn't plaster her face with makeup or do her hair all fancy. It was long and curly. She'd twist it up on the top of her head and stick a pencil through it, then spend all afternoon looking for her pencil." She chuckled again. "She was scatty. The house was full of clutter because she never put anything away. She had a wonderful sense of humor. Everything had a funny side, even the bad times. Though I don't imagine her finding a funny side to Mr. Lightly's sickness. After that I didn't see much of them. They stopped entertaining and withdrew. She looked after him herself." She shook her head, popping two teabags into the pot. "That's love, isn't it? If my old man got sick I'd do the same for him. They drive you up the wall, but you love them. Wouldn't want to be without them."

Miranda instinctively knew not to mention the sc.r.a.pbook. Mrs. Lightly's secret love was probably known only to the two of them. "The cottage," she began carefully. "Who lived there?"

"Oh, I don't know." Mrs. Underwood looked puzzled. "I think it's been a ruin for years."

"It's adorable."

"Mr. Lightly's brother used it as a weekend cottage, but that was before I knew them. I think Mr. Lightly tried to rent it out after his brother moved away. But it's very impractical being in the middle of a field."

"Did you always cook for them?"

"Not in the early days. They had an old cook called Mrs. Marley. She was famous for chocolate walnut cake, but a person can't live on that alone, can they? When Mrs. Marley retired I came to do the odd weekend. They had a lot of literary types down here from London. They'd play charades after dinner, I'd hear them whooping with laughter from the kitchen. Mr. Lightly was a famous writer, you know. I once read his name in the papers. He won all sorts of prizes. He was a very modest man, though."

"What did he write about?"

"Wine. He spent a lot of time researching in France. He'd leave Ava alone in the house for weeks on end while he traveled to vineyards. Their cellar was quite something, I tell you. Full of dusty bottles as old as me!"

"Ah, that would account for all those French books in the cottage."

"Mr. Lightly loved books. His study was full of them. Piled up on the floors and tables, spilling out into the hall. His study was where yours is now. I'm glad to see you've filled them."

"There's nothing more depressing than empty bookcases."

"Mr. Lightly didn't have enough s.p.a.ce. Probably why he had to use the cottage. I've only ever read one book."