"It seems so."

The gunslinger knew what was in Eddie's mind before Eddie knew it himself. He saw Eddie make his move before Eddie knew he was moving. He could have turned and broken Eddie's arm in two places before Eddie knew it was happening, but he made no move. He let Eddie snake the revolver from his right holster. It was the first time in his life he had allowed one of his weapons to be taken from him without an offer of that weapon having first been made. Yet he made no move to stop it. He turned and looked at Eddie equably, even mildly.

Eddie's face was livid, strained. His eyes showed starey whites all the way around the irises. He held the heavy revolver in both hands and still the muzzle rambled from side to side, centering, moving off, centering again and then moving off again.

"Open it," he said.

"You're being foolish," the gunslinger said in the same mild voice. "Neither of us has any idea where that door goes. It needn't open on your universe, universe, let alone upon your world. For all either of us know, the Lady of Shadows might have eight eyes and nine arms, like Suvia. Even if it does open on your world, it might be on a time long before you were born or long after you would have died." let alone upon your world. For all either of us know, the Lady of Shadows might have eight eyes and nine arms, like Suvia. Even if it does open on your world, it might be on a time long before you were born or long after you would have died."

Eddie smiled tightly. "Tell you what, Monty: I'm more than willing to trade the rubber chicken and the s.h.i.tty seaside vacation for what's behind Door #2."

"I don't understand y-"

"I know you don't. It doesn't matter. Just open the f.u.c.ker."

The gunslinger shook his head.

They stood in the dawn, the door casting its slanted shadow toward the ebbing sea.

"Open it!" Eddie cried. "I'm going with you! Don't you get it? I'm going Eddie cried. "I'm going with you! Don't you get it? I'm going with with you! That doesn't mean I won't come back. Maybe I will. I mean, you! That doesn't mean I won't come back. Maybe I will. I mean, probably probably I will. I guess I owe you that much. You been square-john with me down the line, don't think I'm not aware of the fact. But while you get whoever this Shadow-Babe is, I'm gonna find the nearest Chicken Delight and pick me up some take-out. I think the Thirty-Piece Family Pak should do for starters." I will. I guess I owe you that much. You been square-john with me down the line, don't think I'm not aware of the fact. But while you get whoever this Shadow-Babe is, I'm gonna find the nearest Chicken Delight and pick me up some take-out. I think the Thirty-Piece Family Pak should do for starters."

"You stay here."

"You think I don't mean it?" Eddie was shrill now, close to the edge. The gunslinger could almost see him looking down into the drifty depths of his own d.a.m.nation. Eddie thumbed back the revolver's ancient hammer. The wind had fallen with the break of the day and the ebb of the tide, and the click of the hammer as Eddie brought it to full c.o.c.k was very clear. "You just try me."

"I think I will," the gunslinger said.

"I'll shoot you!" Eddie screamed. Eddie screamed.

"Ka," the gunslinger replied stolidly, and turned to the door. He was reaching for the k.n.o.b, but his heart was waiting: waiting to see if he would live or die. the gunslinger replied stolidly, and turned to the door. He was reaching for the k.n.o.b, but his heart was waiting: waiting to see if he would live or die.

Ka.

THE LADY OF SHADOWS.

CHAPTER 1.

Detta and Odetta Stripped of jargon, what Adler said was this: the perfect schizophrenic-if there was such a person-would be a man or woman not only unaware of his other persona(e), but one unaware that anything at all was amiss in his or her life.

Adler should have met Detta Walker and Odetta Holmes.

1.

"-last gunslinger," Andrew said.

He had been talking for quite awhile, but Andrew always talked and Odetta usually just let it flow over her mind the way you let warm water flow over your hair and face in the shower. But this did more than catch her attention; it snagged it, as if on a thorn.

"I beg pardon?"

"Oh, it was just some column in the paper," Andrew said. "I dunno who wrote it. I didn't notice. One of those political fellas. Prob'ly you'd know, Miz Holmes. I loved him, and I cried the night he was elected-"

She smiled, touched in spite of herself. Andrew said his ceaseless chatter was something he couldn't stop, wasn't responsible for, that it was just the Irish in him coming out, and most of it was nothing-cluckings and chirrupings about relatives and friends she would never meet, half-baked political opinions, weird scientific commentary gleaned from any number of weird sources (among other things, Andrew was a firm believer in flying saucers, which he called you-foes you-foes)-but this touched her because she had also cried the night he was elected.

"But I didn't cry when that son of a b.i.t.c.h-pardon my French, Miz Holmes-when that son of a b.i.t.c.h Oswald shot him, and I hadn't cried since, and it's been-what, two months?"

Three months and two days, she thought. she thought.

"Something like that, I guess."

Andrew nodded. "Then I read this column-in The Daily News, The Daily News, it mighta been-yesterday, about how Johnson's probably gonna do a pretty good job, but it won't be the same. The guy said America had seen the pa.s.sage of the world's last gunslinger." it mighta been-yesterday, about how Johnson's probably gonna do a pretty good job, but it won't be the same. The guy said America had seen the pa.s.sage of the world's last gunslinger."

"I don't think John Kennedy was that at all," Odetta said, and if her voice was sharper than the one Andrew was accustomed to hearing (which it must have been, because she saw his eyes give a startled blink in the rear-view mirror, a blink that was more like a wince), it was because she felt herself touched by this, too. It was absurd, but it was also a fact. There was something about that phrase-America has seen the pa.s.sage of the world's last gunslinger-that rang deeply in her mind. It was ugly, it was untrue-John Kennedy had been a peacemaker, not a leather-slapping Billy the Kid type, that was more in the Goldwater line-but it had also for some reason given her gooseb.u.mps.

"Well, the guy said there would be no shortage of shooters in the world," Andrew went on, regarding her nervously in the rear-view mirror. "He mentioned Jack Ruby for one, and Castro, and this fellow in Haiti-"

"Duvalier," she said. "Papa Doc."

"Yeah, him, and Diem-"

"The Diem brothers are dead."

"Well, he said Jack Kennedy was different, that's all. He said he would draw, but only if someone weaker needed him to draw, and only if there was nothing else to do. He said Kennedy was savvy enough to know that sometimes talking don't do no good. He said Kennedy knew if it's foaming at the mouth you have to shoot it."

His eyes continued to regard her apprehensively.

"Besides, it was just some column I read."

The limo was gliding up Fifth Avenue now, headed toward Central Park West, the Cadillac emblem on the end of the hood cutting the frigid February air.

"Yes," Odetta said mildly, and Andrew's eyes relaxed a trifle. "I understand. I don't agree, but I understand."

You are a liar, a voice spoke up in her mind. This was a voice she heard quite often. She had even named it. It was the voice of The Goad. a voice spoke up in her mind. This was a voice she heard quite often. She had even named it. It was the voice of The Goad. You understand perfectly and agree completely. Lie to Andrew if you feel it necessary, but for G.o.d's sake don't lie to yourself, woman. You understand perfectly and agree completely. Lie to Andrew if you feel it necessary, but for G.o.d's sake don't lie to yourself, woman.

Yet part of her protested, horrified. In a world which had become a nuclear powder keg upon which nearly a billion people now sat, it was a mistake-perhaps one of suicidal proportions-to believe there was a difference between good shooters and bad shooters. There were too many shaky hands holding lighters near too many fuses. This was no world for gunslingers. If there had ever been a time for them, it had pa.s.sed.

Hadn't it?

She closed her eyes briefly and rubbed at her temples. She could feel one of her headaches coming on. Sometimes they threatened, like an ominous buildup of thunderheads on a hot summer afternoon, and then blew away... as those ugly summer brews sometimes simply slipped away in one direction or another, to stomp their thunders and lightnings into the ground of some other place.

She thought, however, that this time the storm was going to happen. It would come complete with thunder, lightning, and hail the size of golf-b.a.l.l.s.

The streetlights marching up Fifth Avenue seemed much too bright.

"So how was Oxford, Miz Holmes?" Andrew asked tentatively.

"Humid. February or not, it was very humid." She paused, telling herself she wouldn't say the words that were crowding up her throat like bile, that she would swallow them back down. To say them would be needlessly brutal. Andrew's talk of the world's last gunslinger had been just more of the man's endless prattling. But on top of everything else it was just a bit too much and it came out anyway, what she had no business saying. Her voice sounded as calm and as resolute as ever, she supposed, but she was not fooled: she knew a blurt when she heard one. "The bail bondsman came very promptly, of course; he had been notified in advance. They held onto us as long as they could nevertheless, and I held on as long as I I could, but I guess they won that one, because I ended up wetting myself." She saw Andrew's eyes wince away again and she wanted to stop and couldn't stop. "It's what they want to teach you, you see. Partly because it frightens you, I suppose, and a frightened person may not come down to their precious Southland and bother them again. But I think most of them-even the dumb ones and they are by all means not all dumb-know the change will come in the end no matter what they do, and so they take the chance to degrade you while they still can. To teach you you could, but I guess they won that one, because I ended up wetting myself." She saw Andrew's eyes wince away again and she wanted to stop and couldn't stop. "It's what they want to teach you, you see. Partly because it frightens you, I suppose, and a frightened person may not come down to their precious Southland and bother them again. But I think most of them-even the dumb ones and they are by all means not all dumb-know the change will come in the end no matter what they do, and so they take the chance to degrade you while they still can. To teach you you can can be degraded. You can swear before G.o.d, Christ, and the whole company of Saints that you will not, will not, be degraded. You can swear before G.o.d, Christ, and the whole company of Saints that you will not, will not, will not will not soil yourself, but if they hold onto you long enough of course you do. The lesson is that you're just an animal in a cage, no more than that, no better than that. Just an animal in a cage. So I wet myself. I can still smell dried urine and that d.a.m.ned holding cell. They think we are descended from the monkeys, you know. And that's exactly what I smell like to myself right now. soil yourself, but if they hold onto you long enough of course you do. The lesson is that you're just an animal in a cage, no more than that, no better than that. Just an animal in a cage. So I wet myself. I can still smell dried urine and that d.a.m.ned holding cell. They think we are descended from the monkeys, you know. And that's exactly what I smell like to myself right now.

"A monkey."

She saw Andrew's eyes in the rear-view mirror and was sorry for the way his eyes looked. Sometimes your urine wasn't the only thing you couldn't hold.

"I'm sorry, Miz Holmes."

"No," she said, rubbing at her temples again. "I am the one who is sorry. It's been a trying three days, Andrew."

"I should think so, so," he said in a shocked old-maidish voice that made her laugh in spite of herself. But most of her wasn't laughing. She thought she had known what she was getting into, that she had fully antic.i.p.ated how bad it could get. She had been wrong.

A trying three days. Well, that was one way to put it. Another might be that her three days in Oxford, Mississippi had been a short season in h.e.l.l. But there were some things you couldn't say. Some things you would die before saying... unless you were called upon to testify to them before the Throne of G.o.d the Father Almighty, where, she supposed, even the truths that caused the h.e.l.lish thunderstorms in that strange gray jelly between your ears (the scientists said that gray jelly was nerveless, and if Well, that was one way to put it. Another might be that her three days in Oxford, Mississippi had been a short season in h.e.l.l. But there were some things you couldn't say. Some things you would die before saying... unless you were called upon to testify to them before the Throne of G.o.d the Father Almighty, where, she supposed, even the truths that caused the h.e.l.lish thunderstorms in that strange gray jelly between your ears (the scientists said that gray jelly was nerveless, and if that that wasn't a hoot and a half she didn't know what was) must be admitted. wasn't a hoot and a half she didn't know what was) must be admitted.

"I just want to get home and bathe, bathe, bathe, and sleep, sleep, sleep. Then I reckon I will be as right as rain."

"Why, sure! That's just what you're going to be!" Andrew wanted to apologize for something, and this was as close as he could come. And beyond this he didn't want to risk further conversation. So the two of them rode in unaccustomed silence to the gray Victorian block of apartments on the corner of Fifth and Central Park South, a very exclusive gray Victorian block of apartments, and she supposed that made her a blockbuster, and she knew knew there were people in those poshy-poshy flats who would not speak to her unless they absolutely had to, and she didn't really care. Besides, she was above them, and they there were people in those poshy-poshy flats who would not speak to her unless they absolutely had to, and she didn't really care. Besides, she was above them, and they knew knew she was above them. It had occurred to her on more than one occasion that it must have galled some of them mightily, knowing there was a n.i.g.g.e.r living in the penthouse apartment of this fine staid old building where once the only black hands allowed had been clad in white gloves or perhaps the thin black leather ones of a chauffeur. She hoped it she was above them. It had occurred to her on more than one occasion that it must have galled some of them mightily, knowing there was a n.i.g.g.e.r living in the penthouse apartment of this fine staid old building where once the only black hands allowed had been clad in white gloves or perhaps the thin black leather ones of a chauffeur. She hoped it did did gall them mightily, and scolded herself for being mean, for being gall them mightily, and scolded herself for being mean, for being unchristian, unchristian, but she but she did did wish it, she hadn't been able to stop the p.i.s.s pouring into the crotch of her fine silk imported underwear and she didn't seem to be able to stop this other flood of p.i.s.s, either. It was mean, it was unchristian, and almost as bad-no, wish it, she hadn't been able to stop the p.i.s.s pouring into the crotch of her fine silk imported underwear and she didn't seem to be able to stop this other flood of p.i.s.s, either. It was mean, it was unchristian, and almost as bad-no, worse, worse, at least as far as the Movement was concerned, it was counterproductive. They were going to win the rights they needed to win, and probably this year: Johnson, mindful of the legacy which had been left him by the slain President (and perhaps hoping to put another nail in the coffin of Barry Goldwater), would do more than oversee the pa.s.sage of the Civil Rights Act; if necessary he would at least as far as the Movement was concerned, it was counterproductive. They were going to win the rights they needed to win, and probably this year: Johnson, mindful of the legacy which had been left him by the slain President (and perhaps hoping to put another nail in the coffin of Barry Goldwater), would do more than oversee the pa.s.sage of the Civil Rights Act; if necessary he would ram ram it into law. So it was important to minimize the scarring and the hurt. There was more work to be done. Hate would not help do that work. Hate would, in fact, hinder it. it into law. So it was important to minimize the scarring and the hurt. There was more work to be done. Hate would not help do that work. Hate would, in fact, hinder it.

But sometimes you went on hating just the same.

Oxford Town had taught her that, too.

2.

Detta Walker had absolutely no interest in the Movement and much more modest digs. She lived in the loft of a peeling Greenwich Village apartment building. Odetta didn't know about the loft and Detta didn't know about the penthouse and the only one left who suspected something was not quite right was Andrew Feeny, the chauffeur. He had begun working for Odetta's father when Odetta was fourteen and Detta Walker hardly existed at all.

Sometimes Odetta disappeared. These disappearances might be a matter of hours or of days. Last summer she had disappeared for three weeks and Andrew had been ready to call the police when Odetta called him him one evening and asked him to bring the car around at ten the next day-she planned to do some shopping, she said. one evening and asked him to bring the car around at ten the next day-she planned to do some shopping, she said.

It trembled on his lips to cry out Miz Holmes! Where have you been? Miz Holmes! Where have you been? But he had asked this before and had received only puzzled stares But he had asked this before and had received only puzzled stares-truly puzzled stares, he was sure-in return. puzzled stares, he was sure-in return. Right here, Right here, she would say. she would say. Why, right here, Andrew-you've been driving me two or three places every day, haven't you? You aren't starting to go a little mushy in the head, are you? Why, right here, Andrew-you've been driving me two or three places every day, haven't you? You aren't starting to go a little mushy in the head, are you? Then she would laugh and if she was feeling especially good (as she often seemed to feel after her disappearances), she would pinch his cheek. Then she would laugh and if she was feeling especially good (as she often seemed to feel after her disappearances), she would pinch his cheek.

"Very good, Miz Holmes," he had said. "Ten it is."

That scary time she had been gone for three weeks, Andrew had put down the phone, closed his eyes, and said a quick prayer to the Blessed Virgin for Miz Holmes's safe return. Then he had rung Howard, the doorman at her building.

"What time did she come in?"

"Just about twenty minutes ago," Howard said.

"Who brought her?"

"Dunno. You know how it is. Different car every time. Sometimes they park around the block and I don't see 'em at all, don't even know she's back until I hear the buzzer and look out and see it's her." Howard paused, then added: "She's got one h.e.l.l of a bruise on her cheek."

Howard had been right. It sure had been one h.e.l.l of a bruise, and now it was getting better. Andrew didn't like to think what it might have looked like when it was fresh. Miz Holmes appeared promptly at ten the next morning, wearing a silk sundress with spaghetti-thin straps (this had been late July), and by then the bruise had started to yellow. She had made only a perfunctory effort to cover it with make-up, as if knowing that too much effort to cover it would only draw further attention to it.

"How did you get that, that, Miz Holmes?" he asked. Miz Holmes?" he asked.

She laughed merrily. "You know me, Andrew-clumsy as ever. My hand slipped on the grab-handle while I was getting out of the tub yesterday-I was in a hurry to catch the national news. I fell and banged the side of my face." She gauged his his face. "You're getting ready to start blithering about doctors and examinations, aren't you? Don't bother answering; after all these years I can read you like a book. I won't go, so you needn't bother asking. I'm just as fine as paint. Onward, Andrew! I intend to buy half of Saks, all of Gimbels, and eat everything at Four Seasons in between." face. "You're getting ready to start blithering about doctors and examinations, aren't you? Don't bother answering; after all these years I can read you like a book. I won't go, so you needn't bother asking. I'm just as fine as paint. Onward, Andrew! I intend to buy half of Saks, all of Gimbels, and eat everything at Four Seasons in between."

"Yes, Miz Holmes," he had said, and smiled. It was a forced smile, and forcing it was not easy. That bruise wasn't a day day old; it was a week old, at least... and he knew better, anyway, didn't he? He had called her every night at seven o'clock for the last week, because if there was one time when you could catch Miz Holmes in her place, it was when the old; it was a week old, at least... and he knew better, anyway, didn't he? He had called her every night at seven o'clock for the last week, because if there was one time when you could catch Miz Holmes in her place, it was when the Huntley-Brinkley Report Huntley-Brinkley Report came on. A regular junkie for her news was Miz Holmes. He had done it every night, that was, except last night. Then he had gone over and wheedled the pa.s.skey from Howard. A conviction had been growing on him steadily that she had had just the sort of accident she had described... only instead of getting a bruise or a broken bone, she had died, died alone, and was lying up there dead right now. He had let himself in, heart thumping, feeling like a cat in a dark room criss-crossed with piano wires. Only there had been nothing to be nervous about. There was a b.u.t.ter-dish on the kitchen counter, and although the b.u.t.ter had been covered it had been out long enough to be growing a good crop of mould. He got there at ten minutes of seven and had left by five after. In the course of his quick examination of the apartment, he had glanced into the bathroom. The tub had been dry, the towels neatly-even austerely-arrayed, the room's many grab-handles polished to a bright steel gleam that was unspotted with water. came on. A regular junkie for her news was Miz Holmes. He had done it every night, that was, except last night. Then he had gone over and wheedled the pa.s.skey from Howard. A conviction had been growing on him steadily that she had had just the sort of accident she had described... only instead of getting a bruise or a broken bone, she had died, died alone, and was lying up there dead right now. He had let himself in, heart thumping, feeling like a cat in a dark room criss-crossed with piano wires. Only there had been nothing to be nervous about. There was a b.u.t.ter-dish on the kitchen counter, and although the b.u.t.ter had been covered it had been out long enough to be growing a good crop of mould. He got there at ten minutes of seven and had left by five after. In the course of his quick examination of the apartment, he had glanced into the bathroom. The tub had been dry, the towels neatly-even austerely-arrayed, the room's many grab-handles polished to a bright steel gleam that was unspotted with water.

He knew the accident she had described had not happened.

But Andrew had not believed she was lying, either. She had believed believed what she had told him. what she had told him.

He looked in the rear-view mirror again and saw her rubbing her temples lightly with the tips of her fingers. He didn't like it. He had seen her do that too many times before one of her disappearances.

3.

Andrew left the motor running so she could have the benefit of the heater, then went around to the trunk. He looked at her two suitcases with another wince. They looked as if petulant men with small minds and large bodies had kicked them relentlessly back and forth, damaging the bags in a way they did not quite dare damage Miz Holmes herself-the way they might have damaged him, him, for instance, if he had been there. It wasn't just that she was a woman; she was a n.i.g.g.e.r, an uppity northern n.i.g.g.e.r messing where she had no business messing, and they probably figured a woman like that deserved just what she got. Thing was, she was also a for instance, if he had been there. It wasn't just that she was a woman; she was a n.i.g.g.e.r, an uppity northern n.i.g.g.e.r messing where she had no business messing, and they probably figured a woman like that deserved just what she got. Thing was, she was also a rich rich n.i.g.g.e.r. Thing was, she was almost as well-known to the American public as Medgar Evers or Martin Luther King. Thing was, she'd gotten her rich n.i.g.g.e.r face on the cover of n.i.g.g.e.r. Thing was, she was almost as well-known to the American public as Medgar Evers or Martin Luther King. Thing was, she'd gotten her rich n.i.g.g.e.r face on the cover of Time Time magazine and it was a little harder to get away with sticking someone like that in the 'toolies and then saying magazine and it was a little harder to get away with sticking someone like that in the 'toolies and then saying What? No sir, boss, we sho dint see n.o.body looked like that down here, did we, boys? What? No sir, boss, we sho dint see n.o.body looked like that down here, did we, boys? Thing was, it was a little harder to work yourself up to hurting a woman who was the only heir to Holmes Dental Industries when there were twelve Holmes plants in the sunny South, one of them just one county over from Oxford Town, Oxford Town. Thing was, it was a little harder to work yourself up to hurting a woman who was the only heir to Holmes Dental Industries when there were twelve Holmes plants in the sunny South, one of them just one county over from Oxford Town, Oxford Town.

So they'd done to her suitcases what they didn't dare do to her.

He looked at these mute indications of her stay in Oxford Town with shame and fury and love, emotions as mute as the scars on the luggage that had gone away looking smart and had come back looking dumb and thumped. He looked, temporarily unable to move, and his breath puffed out on the frosty air.

Howard was coming out to help, but Andrew paused a moment longer before grasping the handles of the cases. Who are you, Miz Holmes? Who are you really? Where do you go sometimes, and what do you do that seems so bad that you have to make up a false history of the missing hours or days even to yourself? Who are you, Miz Holmes? Who are you really? Where do you go sometimes, and what do you do that seems so bad that you have to make up a false history of the missing hours or days even to yourself? And he thought something else in the moment before Howard arrived, something weirdly apt: And he thought something else in the moment before Howard arrived, something weirdly apt: Where's the rest of you? Where's the rest of you?

You want to quit thinking like that. If anyone around here was going to do any thinking like that it would be Miz Holmes, but she doesn't and so you don't need to, either.

Andrew lifted the bags out of the trunk and handed them to Howard, who asked in a low voice: "Is she all right?"

"I think so," Andrew replied, also pitching his voice low. "Just tired is all. Tired all the way down to her roots."

Howard nodded, took the battered suitcases, and started back inside. He paused only long enough to tip his cap to Odetta Holmes-who was almost invisible behind the smoked gla.s.s windows-in a soft and respectful salute.

When he was gone, Andrew took out the collapsed stainless steel scaffolding at the bottom of the trunk and began to unfold it. It was a wheelchair.

Since August 19th, 1959, some five and a half years before, the part of Odetta Holmes from the knees down had been as missing as those blank hours and days.