They all looked at Shaman. "Something is dead in there?" the policeman asked.

Shaman found he couldn't answer.

"He told me he hid a woman in there," Brooke said.

Shaman found his voice. "No," he said, but the policeman had taken the key from Mrs. Hammond and unlocked the door.

Inside, Brooke started to look under the bed, but the policeman saw the pillow and the bedding and went directly to open the drawer. "A dog," he said. "All cut up, like."

"Not a woman?" Brooke said. He looked at Shaman. "You said a b.i.t.c.h."

"You said a b.i.t.c.h. I said catulam," Shaman told him. "Dog, feminine gender."

"I don't suppose, sir," the policeman said, "that there is anything else dead and hidden here? On your honor, now?"

"No," Shaman said. Mrs. Hammond looked at him but didn't say a word. She hurried out and down the stairs, and at once they heard the front door open and slam.

The policeman sighed. "She'll be going straight to her husband's office. I expect that is where we should go too."

Shaman nodded and followed him out past Brooke, whose eyes were regretful above the handkerchief held against his mouth and nose.

"Vale," Shaman said.

He was evicted. Less than three weeks remained of the semester, and Professor Gardner allowed him to sleep on a cot in his garden shed. Shaman spaded the garden and planted thirty-two feet of potatoes out of appreciation. A snake that lived under some pots gave him a start, but when he ascertained that it was a only a small milk snake, they got on well.

He received excellent grades, but he was given a sealed letter to deliver to his father. When he reached home, he sat in the study and waited while his father read it. Shaman pretty much knew what it said. Dean Hammond had told him he'd earned two years of college credits but was suspended for a year, to allow him to mature sufficiently to fit into an academic community. When he returned, he would have to find other lodging.

His father finished reading the letter and regarded him. "Did you learn anything from this little adventure?"

"Yes, Pa," he said. "A dog is surprisingly similar to a human being, inside. The heart is much smaller, of course, less than half the size, but it looked very much like the human hearts I've seen you remove and weigh. The same mahogany color."

"Not quite mahogany ..."

"Well ... reddish."

"Yes, reddish."

"The lungs and intestinal tract are similar too. But not the spleen. Instead of being round and compact, the spleen was like a big tongue, a foot long, two inches wide, an inch thick.

"The aorta was ruptured. That's what killed her. I guess she hemorrhaged most of her blood. A whole lot was pooled in the cavity."

His father regarded him.

"I took notes. If you'd be interested in reading them."

"I would be very interested," his father said thoughtfully.

43.

THE APPLICANT.

At night Shaman lay in the bed with the rope springs that needed tightening, staring at walls so familiar that from the variations of the sunrise light on them he could tell the season of the year. His father had suggested that he spend the time of his suspension at home. "Now that you've learned some physiology, you can be more useful to me when I do an autopsy. And you're an extra pair of steady hands on a house call. In between," Rob J. said, "you can help with the farm."

Soon it seemed as if Shaman never had left at all. But for the first time in his life, the silence that enwrapped him was acutely lonely.

That year, with the bodies of suicides and derelicts and kinless indigents as his textbooks, he learned the art of dissection. In the homes of the ill and the injured, he prepared instruments and dressings and watched how his father rose to meet the demands of each new situation. He knew his father was watching him too, and he worked hard at staying alert, learning the names of the instruments and splints and dressings so he could have them ready even before Rob J. asked for them.

One morning when they'd stopped the buggy by the river woods to relieve their bladders, he told his father he intended to study medicine instead of going back to Knox College when his year of suspension was over.

"The h.e.l.l," Rob J. said, and Shaman felt the sour lurch of disappointment, because he could see in the face before him that nothing had altered his father's mind.

"Don't you understand, boy? I'm trying to save you from hurt. It's clear you have a real talent for science. Finish college, and I'll pay for the best graduate education you can find, anywhere in the world. You can teach, do research. I believe you have it in you to do great things."

Shaman shook his head. "I don't mind hurting. Once you tied my hands and wouldn't give me food until I used my voice. You were trying to make me the best I could be, not protecting me from pain."

Rob J. sighed and then nodded. "Very well. If your mind's made up to try medicine, you can apprentice with me."

But Shaman shook his head. "You'd be doing your deaf son a charity. Trying to make something of value out of inferior goods, against your better judgment."

"Shaman ..." his father said heavily.

"I intend to study the way you did, at a medical school."

"That's an especially bad idea. I don't imagine a good school will take you. All kinds of shoddy medical schools are springing up everywhere, and they'll accept you. They accept anyone with funds. But it would be a sad mistake to try to learn medicine at one of those places."

"I don't intend to." Shaman asked his father to give him a list of the best medical schools within decent traveling distance of the Mississippi Valley.

Rob J. went to his study as soon as they got home and made out the list, handing it over before supper, as if wanting to erase the subject from his mind. Shaman put fresh oil in the lamp and sat at the small table in his room until well past midnight, writing letters. He took pains to make it clear that the applicant was a deaf man, not wishing any unpleasant surprises.

The horse called Bess, the former Monica Grenville, had been skinny and halt after carrying Rob J. halfway across the continent, but now she was plump and pleasant in her workless old age. But for poor blind Vicky, the horse that had been bought as Bess's replacement, the world had turned bad. Late in the fall Rob J. rode home one afternoon and saw Vicky trembling in the pasture. Her head drooped, her skinny legs were slightly splayed, and she was as oblivious of her surroundings as any human who had ever pa.s.sed, addled and weak, into sick old age.

Next morning he went to Geiger's and asked Jay if he had a supply of morphine.

"How much do you want?"

"Enough to kill a horse," Rob J. said.

He led Vicky out into the middle of the pasture and fed her two carrots and an apple. He injected the drug into her right jugular vein, talking to her softly and stroking her neck while she chomped the last sweet meal. Almost at once she sank to her knees and rolled over. Rob J. stayed there until she was gone, then sighed and told his sons to take care of her, and went off to make his calls.

Shaman and Alex started digging right next to her back. It took them a long time, because the hole had to be deep and wide. When it was ready, they stood and looked at the horse. "Odd, the way her incisors angle out like that," Shaman said.

"It's the way horses show their age, in the teeth," Alex said.

"I can remember when her teeth were as straight as yours or mine.... She was a good old girl."

"She farted a lot," Alex said, and they both smiled. Still, after they tipped her into the hole, they shoveled the dirt in quickly, unable to look at her. They were sweating despite the cool day. Alex led Shaman into the barn and showed him where Alden had hidden whiskey under some sacking, and he took a long pull from the jug and Shaman took a little one.

"I've got to get out of here," Alex said.

"Thought you liked working the farm."

"... Can't get along with Pa."

Shaman hesitated. "He cares about us, Alex."

"Sure, he does. He's been good to me. But ... I have questions about my natural father. n.o.body answers them, and I go out and raise some more h.e.l.l because it makes me feel like a sure-enough b.a.s.t.a.r.d."

It hurt Shaman. "You've got a ma and a pa. And a brother," he said sharply. "That should be enough for anybody who isn't a d.a.m.n fool."

"Old Shaman, always there with the common sense." He flashed his grin. "Tell you what, let's you and me just ... go away. To Californ-i-ay. There must be some gold left out there. We can have a high old time, get rich, come back, and buy the d.a.m.n town from Nick Holden."

It was an appealing prospect, to be footloose with Alex, and the offer was more than half-serious. "Got me some other plans, Bigger. And don't you go running off, because if you weren't here, who'd shovel the sheep s.h.i.t?"

Alex smacked into him, bore him to the ground. Whooping and grunting, each of them strained for a wrestling hold. Alden's jug went flying, to empty gurgling and unheeded as they rolled over and over on the hay-littered barn floor. Alex was hardened by continuous labor, and strong, but Shaman was larger and stronger, and soon he had his brother in a headlock. After a while it occurred to him that Alex was trying to say something, and he held his left arm around Alex's neck while his right hand pulled his brother's head back to see his face.

"Give up, and I'll let you go," Alex managed to croak, and Shaman collapsed back into the hay, laughing.

Alex crawled to the toppled jug and looked at it mournfully. "Alden will be fit to be tied."

"Tell him I drank it."

"Naw. Who'd believe a thing like that?" Alex said, putting the jug to his lips and salvaging the last drops.

That fall it rained a lot, well into the season when usually there was snow. The rains fell in hard silver sheets, but intermittently, with several days of grace between storms, so that the rivers became giants that roared with fast water but kept to their banks. In the pasture the dirt on Vicky's grave, which had been mounded high, settled until soon it was impossible to locate.

Rob J. bought a rawboned gray gelding for Sarah. They called him Boss, though when Sarah was in the saddle it was she who did the bossing.

Rob J. said he'd keep his eyes open for a likely horse for Alex. Alex was properly grateful because he wasn't strong on thrift to begin with, and whatever money he could put by was earmarked for the purchase of a breech-loading hunting rifle.

"Seems like I'm forever looking for a horse," Rob J. said, but he didn't suggest he'd look for a horse for Shaman.

The mail sack came to Holden's Crossing from Rock Island every Tuesday and Friday forenoon. Starting around Christmastime Shaman began to antic.i.p.ate each mail delivery, but it wasn't until the third week in February that the first letters came. That Tuesday he received two short, almost curt letters of rejection, one from the Medical College of Wisconsin and the other from the Medical Department of the University of Louisiana. On Friday another letter informed him his training and background appeared to be excellent, but "the Rush Medical College of Chicago has no facilities for persons who are deaf."

Facilities? Did they think he needed to be caged?

His father knew the letters had arrived, and he understood from Shaman's controlled demeanor that they'd been refusals. Shaman would have hated it if Rob J. had treated him gingerly or with sympathy, but that didn't happen. The rejections smarted; no other letters appeared for the next seven weeks, and that was all right with him.

Rob J. had read the notes Shaman had made while dissecting the dog, and he found them promising, if unsophisticated. He suggested that his own files might teach Shaman about anatomical records, and Shaman studied them whenever he had time to spare. Thus it was by accident that he came upon the autopsy report on Makwa-ikwa. He felt strange as he read it, knowing that while the terrible things described in the report were happening, he'd been a little boy, asleep in the woods only a short distance away.

"She was raped! I knew she was murdered, but-"

"Raped and sodomized. It's not the kind of thing you tell a child," his father said.

That was true, certainly.

He read the report again and again, mesmerized.

Eleven stab wounds, running in irregular line from the jugular notch down the sternum to a position approximately two centimeters inferior to the xiphoid process.

Triangular wounds, .947 to .952 centimeters in width. Three of them reaching the heart, .887 centimeters, .799 centimeters, .803 centimeters.

"Why do the wounds have different widths?"

"It means the weapon was pointed, becoming progressively wider down the blade. The more force to the thrust, the wider the wound."

"Do you think they'll ever get whoever did this?"

"No, I don't," his father said. "There were three of them, most likely. For a long time I had people looking hard and wide for an Ellwood R. Patterson. But there isn't a trace of him. Probably it was a false name. There was a man with him named Cough. I've never run across or even heard of a man of that name. And a young fellow with a port-wine stain on his face, and a limp. I used to tense up anytime I saw someone with a facial stain or a gimpy leg. But always, either they'd have the mark or the limp. Never both.

"The authorities never cared to find them, and now ..." He shrugged. "Too much time has pa.s.sed, too many years." Shaman recognized sadness in his father's voice, but he saw that most of the anger and pa.s.sion long since had been burned away.

One day in April, as Shaman and his father were riding past the Catholic convent, Rob J. turned Trude into the lane and Shaman followed on Boss.

Inside the convent house, Shaman noted that several of the nuns greeted his father by name and didn't appear surprised to see him. His father introduced him to Mother Miriam Ferocia, who appeared to be the leader. She seated them, his father in a great leather throne and Shaman in a straight wooden chair beneath a wall crucifix from which hung a sad-eyed wooden Jesus, and one of the other nuns served them with good coffee and hot bread.

"I'll have to bring the boy again," his father told the mother superior. "Usually I don't get bread with my coffee." Shaman realized Rob J. was a man of surprising parts, and that probably he never would understand his father.

Shaman had seen nuns nursing his father's patients from time to time, always in pairs. Rob J. and the nun talked briefly about several cases, but soon they turned to politics, and it was obvious that the visit was a social one. Rob J. glanced at the crucifix. "Ralph Waldo Emerson is quoted in the Chicago Tribune as saying that John Brown made his gallows as glorious as a cross," he said.

Miriam Ferocia observed that Brown, an abolitionist zealot who'd been hanged for seizing a United States armory in western Virginia, was fast becoming a martyr in the eyes of those who opposed slavery. "Yet slavery isn't the real cause of the trouble between the regions. It is economics. The South sells its cotton and sugar to England and Europe, and buys manufactured goods from those places instead of from the industrial North. The South has decided it has no need for the rest of the United States of America. Despite Mr. Lincoln's speeches against slavery, that is the sore that festers."

"I don't know economics," Shaman said thoughtfully. "I was to study it this year if I had returned to college."

When the nun asked why he hadn't returned, his father revealed he was suspended for dissecting a dog.

"Oh, dear! And was it dead at the time?" she asked.

a.s.sured that it was, she nodded. "Ja, that is all right, then. I never studied economics either. But it is in my blood. My father started life as a carpenter who repaired hay wagons. Now he owns a wagon works in Frankfurt and a carriage factory in Munchen." She smiled. "My father's name is Brotknecht. It means breadmaker, because in the Middle Ages my family were bakers. Yet in Baden, where I was a novice, there was a baker named Wagenknecht!"

"What was your name before you became a nun?" Shaman asked. He saw her hesitation and his father's frown and realized the question was rude, but Miriam Ferocia answered him. "When I was of the world, I was Andrea." She rose from her chair and went to a shelf to take down a book. "It may interest you to borrow this," she said. "It is by David Ricardo, an English economist."

Shaman stayed up late that night and read the book. Some of it was hard to understand, but he saw that Ricardo argued for free trade among the nations, which was what the South was insisting upon.

When finally he fell asleep, he witnessed Christ on the cross. As he dreamed, he saw the long aquiline nose become shorter and broader. The skin darkened and reddened, the hair turned black. Female b.r.e.a.s.t.s developed, dark-dugged, marked by runic signs. The stigmata appeared. In his sleep, without counting, Shaman knew there were eleven wounds, and as he watched, blood welled to trickle down the body and drip from Makwa's feet.

44.