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The Casual Vacancy Part 53

A week ago, without warning, Tessa had telephoned the Prices, told them that Fats had admitted to having posted the messages under the name The_Ghost_of_Barry_Fairbrother, and offered her deepest apologies for the consequences they had suffered.

"So how did he know I had that computer?" Simon had roared, advancing on Andrew. "How did fucking Fats Wall know I did jobs after hours at the printworks?"

Andrew's only consolation was that if his father had known the truth, he might have ignored Ruth's protests and continued to pummel Andrew until he was unconscious.

Why Fats had decided to pretend he had authored all the posts, Andrew did not know. Perhaps it was Fats' ego at work, his determination to be the mastermind, the most destructive, the baddest of them all. Perhaps he had thought he was doing something noble, taking the fall for both of them. Either way, Fats had caused much more trouble than he knew; he had never realized, thought Andrew, waiting in the hall, what it was like to live with a father like Simon Price, safe in his attic room, with his reasonable, civilized parents.

Andrew could hear the adult Walls talking in quiet voices; they had not closed the kitchen door.

"We need to leave now," Tessa was saying. "He's got a moral obligation and he's going."

"He's had enough punishment," said Cubby's voice.

"I'm not asking him to go as a -"

"Aren't you?" said Cubby sharply. "For God's sake, Tessa. D'you think they'll want him there? You go. Stu can stay here with me."

A minute later Tessa emerged from the kitchen, closing the door firmly behind her.

"Stu isn't coming, Andy," she said, and he could tell that she was furious about it. "I'm sorry about that."

"No problem," he muttered. He was glad. He could not imagine what they had left to talk about. This way he could sit with Gaia.

A little way down Church Row, Samantha Mollinson was standing at her sitting-room window, holding a coffee and watching mourners pass her house on their way to St. Michael and All Saints. When she saw Tessa Wall, and what she thought was Fats, she let out a little gasp.

"Oh my God, he's going," she said out loud, to nobody.

Then she recognized Andrew, turned red, and backed hastily away from the glass.

Samantha was supposed to be working from home. Her laptop lay open behind her on the sofa, but that morning she had put on an old black dress, half wondering whether she would attend Krystal and Robbie Weedon's funeral. She supposed that she had only a few more minutes in which to make up her mind.

She had never spoken a kind word about Krystal Weedon, so surely it would be hypocritical to attend her funeral, purely because she had wept over the account of her death in the Yarvil and District Gazette, and because Krystal's chubby face grinned out of every one of the class photographs that Lexie had brought home from St. Thomas's?

Samantha set down her coffee, hurried to the telephone and rang Miles at work.

"Hello, babe," he said.

(She had held him while he sobbed with relief beside the hospital bed, where Howard lay connected to machines, but alive.) "Hi," she said. "How are you?"

"Not bad. Busy morning. Lovely to hear from you," he said. "Are you all right?"

(They had made love the previous night, and she had not pretended that he was anybody else.) "The funeral's about to start," said Samantha. "People going by..."

She had suppressed what she wanted to say for nearly three weeks, because of Howard, and the hospital, and not wanting to remind Miles of their awful row, but she could not hold it back any longer.

"...Miles, I saw that boy. Robbie Weedon. I saw him, Miles." She was panicky, pleading. "He was in the St. Thomas's playing field when I walked across it that morning."

"In the playing field?"

"He must have been wandering around, while they were - he was all alone," she said, remembering the sight of him, dirty and unkempt. She kept asking herself whether, if he had looked cleaner, she might have been more concerned; whether, on some subliminal level, she had confused his obvious signs of neglect with street-smartness, toughness and resilience. "I thought he'd come in there to play, but there was nobody with him. He was only three and a half, Miles. Why didn't I ask him who he was with?"

"Hey, hey," said Miles, in a "whoa there" voice, and she knew instant relief: he was taking charge, and her eyes pricked with tears. "You're not to blame. You couldn't have known. You probably thought his mother was somewhere out of sight."

(So he did not hate her; he did not think her evil. Samantha had been humbled, lately, by her husband's capacity to forgive.) "I'm not sure I did," she said weakly. "Miles, if I'd spoken to him..."

"He was nowhere near the river when you saw him."

But he was near the road, thought Samantha.

In the last three weeks, a desire to be absorbed in something bigger than herself had grown in Samantha. Day by day she had waited for the strange new need to subside (this is how people go religious, she thought, trying to laugh herself out of it), but it had, if anything, intensified.

"Miles," she said, "you know the council...with your dad - and Parminder Jawanda resigning too - you'll want to co-opt a couple of people, won't you?" She knew all the terminology; she had listened to it for years. "I mean, you won't want another election, after all this?"

"Bloody hell, no."

"So Colin Wall could fill one seat," she rushed on, "and I was thinking, I've got time - now the business is all online - I could do the other one."

"You?" said Miles, astonished.

"I'd like to get involved," said Samantha.

Krystal Weedon, dead at sixteen, barricaded inside the squalid little house on Foley Road...Samantha had not drunk a glass of wine in two weeks. She thought that she might like to hear the arguments for Bellchapel Addiction Clinic.

The telephone was ringing in number Ten Hope Street. Kay and Gaia were already late leaving for Krystal's funeral. When Gaia asked who was speaking, her lovely face hardened: she seemed much older.

"It's Gavin," she told her mother.

"I didn't call him!" whispered Kay, like a nervous schoolgirl as she took the phone.

"Hi," said Gavin. "How are you?"

"On my way out to a funeral," said Kay, with her eyes locked on her daughter's. "The Weedon children's. So, not fabulous."

"Oh," said Gavin. "Christ, yeah. Sorry. I didn't realize."

He had spotted the familiar surname in a Yarvil and District Gazette headline, and, vaguely interested at last, bought a copy. It had occurred to him that he might have walked close by the place where the teenagers and the boy had been, but he had no actual memory of seeing Robbie Weedon.

Gavin had had an odd couple of weeks. He was missing Barry badly. He did not understand himself: when he should have been mired in misery that Mary had turned him down, all he wanted was a beer with the man whose wife he had hoped to take as his own...

(Muttering aloud as he had walked away from her house, he had said to himself, "That's what you get for trying to steal your best friend's life," and failed to notice the slip of the tongue.) "Listen," he said, "I was wondering whether you fancied a drink later?"

Kay almost laughed.

"Turn you down, did she?"

She handed Gaia the phone to hang up. They hurried out of the house and half jogged to the end of the street and up through the Square. For ten strides, as they passed the Black Canon, Gaia held her mother's hand.

They arrived as the hearses appeared at the top of the road, and hurried into the graveyard while the pallbearers were shuffling out onto the pavement.

("Get away from the window," Colin Wall commanded his son.

But Fats, who had to live henceforth with the knowledge of his own cowardice, moved forward, trying to prove that he could, at least, take this...

The coffins glided past in the big black-windowed cars: the first was bright pink, and the sight robbed him of breath, and the second was tiny and shiny white...

Colin placed himself in front of Fats too late to protect him, but he drew the curtains anyway. In the gloomy, familiar sitting room, where Fats had confessed to his parents that he had exposed his father's illness to the world; where he had confessed to as much as he could think of, in the hope that they would conclude him to be mad and ill; where he had tried to heap upon himself so much blame that they would beat him or stab him or do to him all those things that he knew he deserved, Colin put a hand gently on his son's back and steered him away, towards the sunlit kitchen.) Outside St. Michael and All Saints, the pallbearers were readying themselves to take the coffins up the church path. Dane Tully was among them, with his earring and a self-inked tattoo of a spider's web on his neck, in a heavy black overcoat.

The Jawandas waited with the Bawdens in the shade of the yew tree. Andrew Price hovered near them, and Tessa Wall stood at some distance, pale and stony-faced. The other mourners formed a separate phalanx around the church doors. Some had a pinched and defiant air; others looked resigned and defeated; a few wore cheap black clothes, but most were in jeans or tracksuits, and one girl was sporting a cut-off T-shirt and a belly-ring that caught the sun when she moved. The coffins moved up the path, gleaming in the bright light.

It was Sukhvinder Jawanda who had chosen the bright pink coffin for Krystal, as she was sure she would have wanted. It was Sukhvinder who had done nearly everything; organizing, choosing and persuading. Parminder kept looking sideways at her daughter, and finding excuses to touch her: brushing her hair out of her eyes, smoothing her collar.

Just as Robbie had come out of the river purified and regretted by Pagford, so Sukhvinder Jawanda, who had risked her life to try and save the boy, had emerged a heroine. From the article about her in the Yarvil and District Gazette to Maureen Lowe's loud proclamations that she was recommending the girl for a special police award to the speech her headmistress made about her from the lectern in assembly, Sukhvinder knew, for the first time, what it was to eclipse her brother and sister.

She had hated every minute of it. At night, she felt again the dead boy's weight in her arms, dragging her towards the deep; she remembered the temptation to let go and save herself, and asked herself how long she would have resisted it. The deep scar on her leg itched and ached, whether moving or stationary. The news of Krystal Weedon's death had had such an alarming effect on her that her parents had arranged a counselor, but she had not cut herself once since being pulled from the river; her near drowning seemed to have purged her of the need.

Then, on her first day back at school, with Fats Wall still absent, and admiring stares following her down the corridors, she had heard the rumor that Terri Weedon had no money to bury her children; that there would be no stone marker, and the cheapest coffins.

"That's very sad, Jolly," her mother had said that evening, as the family sat eating dinner together under the wall of family photographs. Her tone was as gentle as the policewoman's had been; there was no snap in Parminder's voice anymore when she spoke to her daughter.

"I want to try and get people to give money," said Sukhvinder.

Parminder and Vikram glanced at each other across the kitchen table. Both were instinctively opposed to the idea of asking people in Pagford to donate to such a cause, but neither of them said so. They were a little afraid, now that they had seen her forearms, of upsetting Sukhvinder, and the shadow of the as-yet-unknown counselor seemed to be hovering over all their interactions.

"And," Sukhvinder went on, with a feverish energy like Parminder's own, "I think the funeral service should be here, at St. Michael's. Like Mr. Fairbrother's. Krys used to go to all the services here when we were at St. Thomas's. I bet she was never in another church in her life."

The light of God shines from every soul, thought Parminder, and to Vikram's surprise she said abruptly, "Yes, all right. We'll have to see what we can do."

The bulk of the expense had been met by the Jawandas and the Walls, but Kay Bawden, Samantha Mollison and a couple of the mothers of girls on the rowing team had donated money too. Sukhvinder then insisted on going into the Fields in person, to explain to Terri what they had done, and why; all about the rowing team, and why Krystal and Robbie should have a service at St. Michael's.

Parminder had been exceptionally worried about Sukhvinder going into the Fields, let alone that filthy house, by herself, but Sukhvinder had known that it would be all right. The Weedons and the Tullys knew that she had tried to save Robbie's life. Dane Tully had stopped grunting at her in English, and had stopped his mates from doing it too.

Terri agreed to everything that Sukhvinder suggested. She was emaciated, dirty, monosyllabic and entirely passive. Sukhvinder had been frightened of her, with her pockmarked arms and her missing teeth; it was like talking to a corpse.

Inside the church, the mourners divided cleanly, with the people from the Fields taking the left-hand pews, and those from Pagford, the right. Shane and Cheryl Tully marched Terri along between them to the front row; Terri, in a coat two sizes too large, seemed scarcely aware of where she was.

The coffins lay side by side on biers at the front of the church. A bronze chrysanthemum oar lay on Krystal's, and a white chrysanthemum teddy bear on Robbie's.

Kay Bawden remembered Robbie's bedroom, with its few grimy plastic toys, and her fingers trembled on the order of service. Naturally, there was to be an inquiry at work, because the local paper was clamoring for one, and had written a front-page piece suggesting that the small boy had been left in the care of a pair of junkies and that his death could have been avoided, if only he had been removed to safety by negligent social workers. Mattie had been signed off with stress again, and Kay's handling of the case review was being assessed. Kay wondered what effect it would have on her chances of getting another job in London, when every local authority was cutting numbers of social workers, and how Gaia would react if they had to stay in Pagford...she had not dared discuss it with her yet.

Andrew glanced sideways at Gaia and they exchanged small smiles. Up in Hilltop House, Ruth was already sorting things for the move. Andrew could tell that his mother hoped, in her perennially optimistic way, that by sacrificing their house and the beauty of the hills, they would be rewarded with a rebirth. Wedded forever to an idea of Simon that took no account of his rages or his crookedness, she was hoping that these would be left behind, like boxes forgotten in the move...But at least, Andrew thought, he would be one step nearer London when they went, and he had Gaia's assurance that she had been too drunk to know what she was doing with Fats, and perhaps she might invite him and Sukhvinder back to her house for coffee after the funeral was over...

Gaia, who had never been inside St. Michael's before, was half listening to the vicar's singsong delivery, letting her eyes travel over the high starry ceiling and the jewel-colored windows. There was a prettiness about Pagford that, now she knew that she was leaving, she thought she might quite miss...

Tessa Wall had chosen to sit behind everyone else, on her own. This brought her directly under the calm gaze of St. Michael, whose foot rested eternally on that writhing devil with its horns and tail. Tessa had been in tears ever since her first glimpse of the two glossy coffins and, as much as she tried to stifle them, her soft gurglings were still audible to those near her. She had half expected somebody on the Weedon side of the church to recognize her as Fats' mother and attack her, but nothing had happened.

(Her family life had turned inside out. Colin was furious with her.

"You told him what?"

"He wanted a taste of real life," she had sobbed, "he wanted to see the seamy underside - don't you understand what all that slumming it was about?"

"So you told him that he might be the result of incest, and that I tried to kill myself because he came into the family?"

Years of trying to reconcile them, and it had taken a dead child, and Colin's profound understanding of guilt, to do it. She had heard the two of them talking in Fats' attic room the previous evening, and paused to eavesdrop at the foot of the stairs.

"...you can put that - that thing that Mum suggested out of your head completely," Colin was saying gruffly. "You've got no physical or mental abnormalities, have you? Well then...don't worry about it anymore. But your counselor will help you with all of this...") Tessa gurgled and snorted into her sodden tissue, and thought how little she had done for Krystal, dead on the bathroom floor...it would have been a relief if St. Michael had stepped down from his glowing window and enacted judgment on them all, decreeing exactly how much fault was hers, for the deaths, for the broken lives, for the mess...A fidgeting young Tully boy on the other side of the aisle hopped out of his pew, and a tattooed woman reached out a powerful arm, grabbed him and pulled him back. Tessa's sobs were punctuated by a little gasp of surprise. She was sure that she had recognized her own lost watch on the thick wrist.

Sukhvinder, who was listening to Tessa's sobs, felt sorry for her, but did not dare turn around. Parminder was furious with Tessa. There had been no way for Sukhvinder to explain the scars on her arms without mentioning Fats Wall. She had begged her mother not to call the Walls, but then Tessa had telephoned Parminder to tell them that Fats had taken full responsibility for The_Ghost_of_ Barry_Fairbrother's posts on the council website, and Parminder had been so vitriolic on the telephone that they had not spoken since.

It had been such a strange thing for Fats to do, to take the blame for her post too; Sukhvinder thought of it almost as an apology. He had always seemed to read her mind: did he know that she had attacked her own mother? Sukhvinder wondered whether she would be able to confess the truth to this new counselor in whom her parents seemed to place so much faith, and whether she would ever be able to tell the newly kind and contrite Parminder...

She was trying to follow the service, but it was not helping her in the way that she had hoped. She was glad about the chrysanthemum oar and the teddy bear, which Lauren's mum had made; she was glad that Gaia and Andy had come, and the girls from the rowing team, but she wished that the Fairbrother twins had not refused.

("It'd upset Mum," Siobhan had told Sukhvinder. "See, she thinks Dad spent too much time on Krystal."

"Oh," said Sukhvinder, taken aback.

"And," said Niamh, "Mum doesn't like the idea that she'll have to see Krystal's grave every time we visit Dad's. They'll probably be really near each other."

Sukhvinder thought these objections small and mean, but it seemed sacrilegious to apply such terms to Mrs. Fairbrother. The twins walked away, wrapped up in each other as they always were these days, and treating Sukhvinder with coolness for her defection to the outsider, Gaia Bawden.) Sukhvinder kept waiting for somebody to stand up and talk about who Krystal really was, and what she had done in her life, the way that Niamh and Siobhan's uncle had done for Mr. Fairbrother, but apart from the vicar's brief reference to "tragically short lives" and "local family with deep roots in Pagford," he seemed determined to skirt the facts.

So Sukhvinder focused her thoughts on the day that their crew had competed in the regional finals. Mr. Fairbrother had driven them in the minibus to face the girls from St. Anne's. The canal ran right through the private school's grounds, and it had been decided that they were to change in the St. Anne's sports hall, and start the race there.

"Unsporting, course it is," Mr. Fairbrother had told them on the way. "Home-ground advantage. I tried to get it changed, but they wouldn't. Just don't be intimidated, all right?"

"I ain' fuck -"

"Krys -"

"I ain' scared."

But when they turned into the grounds, Sukhvinder was scared. Long stretches of soft green lawn, and a big symmetrical golden-stoned building with spires and a hundred windows: she had never seen anything like it, except on picture postcards.

"It's like Buckingham Palace!" Lauren shrieked from the back, and Krystal's mouth had formed a round O; she had been as unaffected as a child sometimes.

All of their parents, and Krystal's great-grandmother, were waiting at the finishing line, wherever that was. Sukhvinder was sure that she was not the only one who felt small, scared and inferior as they approached the entrance of the beautiful building.

A woman in academic dress came swooping out to greet Mr. Fairbrother, in his tracksuit.

"You must be Winterdown!"

"Course 'e's not, does 'e look like a fuckin' buildin'?" said Krystal loudly.

They were sure that the teacher from St. Anne's had heard, and Mr. Fairbrother turned and tried to scowl at Krystal, but they could tell that he thought it was funny, really. The whole team started to giggle, and they were still snorting and cackling when Mr. Fairbrother saw them off at the entrance to the changing rooms.

"Stretch!" he shouted after them.

The team from St. Anne's was inside with their own coach. The two sets of girls eyed each other across the benches. Sukhvinder was struck by the other team's hair. All of them wore it long, natural and shiny: they could have starred in shampoo adverts. On their own team, Siobhan and Niamh had bobs, Lauren's hair was short; Krystal always wore hers in a tight, high ponytail, and Sukhvinder's was rough, thick and unruly as a horse's mane.