"What stake have you in this case?" the justice of the peace asked.

"This man," Lindo said, nodding in Appleby's direction, "sold Meena Dee to me in 1762. I have the papers here."

"So you are saying that she belongs to you? You are claiming her for yourself?"

"Mr. Appleby does not own her," Lindo said. "I do."

"Mr. Appleby has already shown his papers," the justice said. "Do you have more recent proof of purchase?"

"Yes. Shall I show it to you?"

"Mr. Lindo, this has been a long day. Just read it out."

"I would prefer-"

"Just read it, Mr. Lindo."

Lindo cleared his throat and removed a paper from his pocket. He unfolded it carefully, scratched his chin, cleared his throat and began to read.

"'Bill of sale between Robinson Appleby of St. Helena Island and Solomon Lindo of Charles Town. Dated February 1, 1762. Terms of sale of Meena, a Guinea wench.' Will that suffice?"

"Read on," the justice said.

"'Solomon Lindo agrees to purchase the said wench Meena for sixty pounds sterling, and-'"

Lindo paused at this point. I could see the paper rustling in his hand.

"We don't have all day, Mr. Lindo. Please go on."

Lindo continued reading: "' . . . and to arrange the sale of Mamadu, son of Meena. Said sale to be effected in Savannah, Georgia, on terms suitable to Robinson Appleby. Proceeds of sale of son to be divided, three quarters to Mr. Appleby and one quarter to Mr. Lindo.'"

Three-quarters of the profits to one man, and one-quarter to the other. I didn't want to poison my own heart with hatred, because I had another little one inside me now. For that baby, I wanted to be as calm as a Bayo villager walking with a bundle on her head. I placed my palm on my own belly and waited for the men to finish talking.

"Was that contract signed and executed?" asked the justice.

"Yes."

"And you call yourselves gentlemen?"

Appleby said nothing. But Lindo raised his hand to speak.

"Sir, I am not proud of the things I did, but I wish to correct the record. Mr. Appleby was determined to sell the baby to one owner and the mother to another. He was obsessed with a desire to punish his slave because she had resisted his authority. I could not persuade him to let me buy the two of them. But, with a substantial sum of money-much more than the usual fee, at the time-I finally persuaded him to sell Meena to me. Even this, he allowed only if I served as a broker for the child. I did my best to place the boy in the hands of a man who was respected as a gentleman. And as for Meena, it is true that I wanted to buy her, and that I planned to make use of her labour. But I also felt it would be better to take her with me than to let her go to a rice plantation in Georgia."

The justice of the peace shook his head. "Mr. Appleby, do you care to reply?"

"I have nothing to say to the Jew," Appleby said.

"Let me see the contract," the justice of the peace said. He accepted it, smoothed the crease in the paper, looked at it carefully, then handed it back and turned to Appleby. "Mr. Appleby, you give white men a bad name. You have one day to leave New York. If at noon tomorrow you are still in this city, I will have you arrested. And if you are not out of this room within thirty seconds, I will arrest you right now for perjury. Now get out."

Appleby passed through the door without looking at Lindo or me.

"Mr. Lindo, you may take your property," the justice said.

"She is free to go," Lindo said.

"You came all this way to manumit your slave?"

"It is a matter of making peace with my past," Lindo said.

"Set this woman loose," the justice told the jailer, "and let her go."

I was released from my shackles by the smiling guard whose daughter I had once taught. He touched my shoulder, then left the room behind the justice of the peace and the court clerk.

Lindo looked at me with a mixture of reverence and shame. "Meena," he said, "may I have a word with you?"

I wasn't ready to receive Lindo's sorrow, or to thank him for giving back what had always been mine. I could see that Solomon Lindo was a better class of man than Robinson Appleby. But he was tainted by the very world in which he lived, and from which he too richly profited. I did not want to hate him, but neither could I forgive him.

Suddenly, a new fear erupted inside me and engulfed my thoughts like flowing lava. What if the baby growing inside my own body had just heard the evilness of these men and all their manoeuvrings?

"Meena," Lindo repeated. "May I-"

"No," I said, "I can't." I grabbed Sam Fraunces's arm and ran from the room.

NO MORE SHIPS LEFT NEW YORK CITY until the final day of the British occupation. On November 30, 1783, I was rowed out to the George III, inspected for the Book of Negroes by men who did not know me, and allowed to leave the Thirteen Colonies. I knew that it would be called the United States. But I refused to speak that name. There was nothing united about a nation that said all men were created equal, but that kept my people in chains.

I had lost my belongings in jail and there would be no husband to meet me in Port Roseway. Annapolis Royal had been my hope, since that was where Chekura's ship was heading, but there was no ship leaving for that location and I was given no choice in the matter. I had my legs, which were still in working order, and my hands, which could still catch babies, and I had the little one growing inside me. I wondered who would catch the baby for me, when its day dawned bright in Nova Scotia.

I hoped it would be Chekura.

Gone missing with my most recent exhalation {Birchtown, 1783} SAILING INTO THE PORT AT THE END OF A NINE-MILE BAY, I felt the snow on my face and a film of ice gathering above my lips, and I saw the granite spilling onto the shores. There were mammoth pines and thick forests, and in this brand-new town, hundreds of people walked about. I had been told that we were sailing to Port Roseway, but the sign on the pier said SHELBURNE.

I paid two prices for taking the last ship carrying Loyalists from New York City: my husband had gone before me, and so had every other free Negro who was allowed to leave with the British. Six other Negroes disembarked from the George III, but they were all enslaved or indentured and were led off by the men who owned them.

Was this the promised land?

I stepped off the pier and walked about town, looking everywhere for Chekura. Maybe he had found out where the last ships from New York had sailed. Maybe he had come for me to place his hand on my growing belly and greet the child we had made. But I saw no familiar faces. Most of the people were white, and they walked past as if I didn't exist.

A white woman in a cap and a long coat approached me on Water Street.

"Is this Port Roseway?" I asked. She walked right by without stopping to look at me.

Nova Scotia was colder than Charles Town, and even colder than New York.

In that moment, I buried my thoughts of Chekura and set about finding a place to sleep and food to sustain the little person growing inside me.

Inside the Merchant's Coffee House, I asked for information about lodgings and work. A big man took me by the arm and pulled me to the door. "We don't serve niggers," he said.

"I'm not asking to be served," I said. "All I want-"

"Move along," he said. "Birchtown is the place for your kind."

Outside, standing again on Water Street, I looked left and right, wondering where I could get help. I had not thought about where to sleep or eat when I was first brought to St. Helena, Charles Town or even to New York. Here, I had nothing and knew no one to ask for assistance. But I had chosen freedom, with all its insecurities, and nothing in the world would make me turn away from it.

Something with the weight of a June bug struck me on the back of the head. But the December snow was swirling in the wind, so it was too cold for insects. I turned-and was struck again, twice in the face. I caught something on my cheek and held it in my palm. It was a peanut. And then I heard laughter. Two white men in the ragged remains of the British Redcoats were passing a bottle back and forth. When I stared at them directly, they stopped pitching peanuts in my direction, but spat, one after the other.

Two doors down, I passed under a sign for the shelburne crier and opened the door. A short white man was arranging letters on a metal stick.

"Morning," he said, eyes fixed on his labours.

"And good morning to you," I said.

He looked up immediately and gave me a little smile. "I thought I detected an accent from a place much warmer than this."

It occurred to me then that nobody in the world had my exact accent, because nobody had lived with the same people in villages, towns and cities on two continents. I liked having my accent, whatever it was, and wanted to keep it.

"Is this Port Roseway?" I asked.

"Shelburne," he said. "Are you just off the boat?" He didn't seem to mind that I was black and unknown to him.

"Yes. But I thought we were sailing to Port Roseway."

"You did. Recently, the name changed to Shelburne."

"Those letters," I said, nodding at his work. "They're all upside down. Looks like a child tried to write them and got them wrong."

"You have a sharp eye. The letters are made to go in that way, but when the machine is done, the words come out properly. Except for the mistakes."

"I can catch mistakes. Do you need any help?"

He smiled. "I could use help of all kinds, but I can't pay you anything. Where on earth did you learn to read?"

"Long story," I said.

"I have time," he said. "Some people will give you the cold shoulder in Shelburne, but I believe in treating each person on his merits. Can I offer you some tea?"

A gust of cold wind battered the door. "Thank you, but I can't stay long. I'm looking for shelter and must find work."

His name was Theo McArdle, and I drank his sweetened tea with gratitude. He offered to let me return to proofread the first impressions that came off his printer, in exchange for biscuits, tea, free newspapers and whatever information he could share with me. And a helpful detail came with that first tea, even before I had done any work for him: free Negroes mostly lived in Birchtown, three miles around the bay, and I could find out more at the Land Registry Office. I thanked Theo McArdle for the tea and promised I would be back.

The only person in the Land Registry Office was an old Negro sitting on a stool near a sign that said out for tea. His cheeks were pitted with scars from the pox, and he wore spectacles with only the frames-no glass. One of his eyes was milky, but the other was clear. In a hand that was creased and thick and thrice the size of mine, he held a white cane made of knotted birch. With this cane, he tapped my foot gently.

"Won't you say hello to a broken-down old man?" he said.

"You're not so old," I said.

His lips turned up in a smile. "That's mighty Christian of you. Call out another phrase or two, so this lame and blind man can hear your voice again."

"Is this where they distribute land?" I said.

"That depends."

"On what?"

He leaned forward and took my hand in his palm, which was dried and cracked. It was the widest palm I had ever seen.

"On a whole mess of things," he said. "Have you come in from New York?"

"I have."

"And are you of African persuasion?" he said.

"I am persuaded," I said with a smile.

The man guffawed. "I like a sense of humour in a woman."

"I've got a little person to worry about, so I'll be in better humour when we find a warm place to sleep," I said.

"I didn't hear anyone come in with you."

"The little one is growing inside me."

"Hallelujah, sister," he said. "Don't fritter away your morning. You don't have time to waste. The man you want isn't here and wouldn't help you if he was. But you're in luck, sister, because I am Moses Wilkinson. Some folks call me Preacher Man, but most just call me Daddy Moses. Have you been saved?"

"That depends," I said.

"On what?" he said, grinning.

"Do you know where I can stay?"

"I surely do," he said. "You've come to the right man."

"Then I have been saved, Daddy Moses."

I spoke with the preacher until a strong young man came by, said "I'm back, Daddy Moses," and picked him up like a baby in his arms.

"Grab my stool," Daddy Moses called out to me.

I picked it up and followed the two of them outside. The young man set Daddy Moses down on a two-wheeled cart.

"You can come along, but you'll have to walk," Daddy Moses said.

The young man hitched himself to the front of the cart and began pulling Daddy Moses. I walked beside the preacher as he bumped forward.

"Are we going to Birchtown?" I asked.

"Heard of it, did you?" Daddy Moses said. "It's three miles that way, in the dog's ass of the harbour."

Along the way, he explained that slaves and indentured servants stayed in town with the white Loyalists who owned them. But if you were coloured and on your own bottom, he said, Birchtown was where you belonged. Nova Scotia had more land than God could sneeze at, Daddy Moses said, but hardly any of it was being parcelled out to black folks.