Marnie checked the rearview mirror again, making sure no one was following her. She'd slept very little last night. Her head was full of thoughts and desperate plans, but she'd had to wait until this morning to follow through on any of them.

It was early, 6:00 a.m., and the traffic was light enough that spotting a tail shouldn't be too difficult. She wasn't as concerned about Bret or Tony Bogart as she was the sheriff's office. The arraignment had been held yesterday afternoon, but evidently they still didn't know she wasn't Alison. She'd thought those fingerprint records were all computerized and could be accessed within minutes.

It was hard to imagine what was causing the delay, but she had to act before they did. It was crucial that she get to the Springdale Convalescent Home before the police, or anyone else, got to her.

She may have located her grandmother.

Having had no luck locating Josephine Hazelton, Marnie had started over, this time using her grandmother's maiden name, Clark. It was a fairly common name, and Marnie had located a Josephine Clark on the second call. She couldn't be sure it was the right one, but that's where she was headed now, praying that she could find the place. According to the directions she'd been given, it was a half hour inland, in a little town called Billingsly.

Marnie had never had a driver's license of her own, but Gramma Jo had let her drive their old station wagon into town, and Marnie had never been stopped. Now, she was using Alison's license, of course, but Andrew had insisted she take driving lessons in Long Island before he'd let her out on the road. Marnie could remember begging Gramma Jo to let her get a license when she turned sixteen, but something had always come up, and Gramma Jo had never gotten around to taking her for the test. For some reason, she hadn't wanted her to have that license, but Marnie had never figured out why.

Marnie found the door to room 220B wide-open, but she couldn't see beyond the short hallway. "Hello?" She spoke softly, not wanting to startle anyone, especially her grandmother, if this was her room.

No one answered, but Marnie couldn't leave without making sure. When she got beyond the hallway she was stopped by the sight of a silver-haired woman sitting at the window. She seemed to be absorbed by the hummingbirds visiting a hanging feeder.

Her grandmother didn't have silver hair, but something prompted Marnie to speak anyway. "Josephine Hazelton?"

The woman turned, and Marnie was startled to see her grandmother's iridescent blue eyes and rounded features. "Who is it?" she asked. "Come out of the shadows where I can see you."

Marnie was almost afraid to move into the room. She hadn't expected it to be Gramma Jo. Her hair had always been long and naturally curly. She'd worn it tied back, and she'd been graying for years, but now she'd gone almost white.

Marnie wondered if her disappearance could have caused it. She didn't know how to explain what had happened, but she'd decided to confess everything-and hope to be forgiven. Maybe she should hope to be believed.

"It's me." That was all Marnie managed to say as she walked into the room and hesitated by the bed, wondering if she would see any sign of recognition now that she was standing in natural light from the window.

"You?" Josephine Hazelton peered at Marnie, fear in her expression. "What are you doing here?" Her eyes were so piercingly focused that Marnie could feel their heat. She had been recognized, but did her grandmother think she was looking at Alison or Marnie?

"You get out of here," Josephine whispered. "You have no business coming to this place."

"Please, let me tell you who I-"

"Get out!"

Marnie reached for her throat, for the ring that she'd worn every day since her grandmother had assured her it was good luck. The ring was gone. Andrew still had it. But the need to touch it was a reflex-and one that Gramma Jo well knew.

The older woman saw the gesture and fell silent. Her brow furrowed and within moments her fierce expression began to crumble. Her hands came to her mouth, prayerlike, and slowly, agonizingly, her eyes filled with tears.

She shook her head. "No, it can't be. Marnie? What's happened to you?"

"God, so much."

She studied Marnie's dark hair, her eyes and her anguished smile, and then pressed her fists to her chest. This was her child. Her shoulders sagged. "Come here," she said. "Come to me."

Marnie crossed the small room and dropped to her knees beside her grandmother's chair. "I'm sorry. I couldn't tell you I was alive. I couldn't tell anyone."

She took Gramma Jo's hand, fighting to keep her voice under control as she went back through the events of the last six months. She started with Butch's attack, sharing everything she could remember about that afternoon and what had happened afterward, including the way Andrew found her on the rocks, their arrangement, and the real reason they were in Mirage Bay. It was difficult, and she had to stop at times because silence seemed the only way to deal with the emotions that welled up, but her grandmother listened with a calm acceptance that felt like more than Marnie deserved.

As Marnie told her about all the surgeries and her long recovery, she had the strangest feeling that Gramma Jo already knew about what she was describing. "Had you heard that I was alive?" she asked.

"No, I knew nothing," the elderly woman said. "They told me you'd jumped from the cliffs after you killed Butch. I think they were trying to get me to admit that I'd seen you kill him. I told them the truth. I wasn't home. I was down at the flea market. I also told them that Butch deserved to die for making your life so miserable."

Marnie was reluctant to talk about what had happened in the last forty-eight hours, but she had little choice. Gramma Jo might be the only one who could help her now. But just as she feared, her grandmother reacted with horror when she told her about LaDonna's murder and how the police had charged Marnie with two counts of homicide.

It took Marnie some time to convince her that she would be all right. She had a plan. It could only be used as a last resort, but at least it was a plan.

"What will you do?" Gramma Jo asked. "They can't try you for your own murder."

"They can unless I prove who I am. Marnie Hazelton doesn't exist, except for school records that prove nothing. There's no birth certificate, no social security number, no driver's license, no fingerprints on file, no paper trail of any kind."

Gramma Jo's nod was tentative.

"They fingerprinted me yesterday," Marnie said, "but apparently they still haven't figured out that my fingerprints and Alison's don't match."

"What about Butch's murder? Won't you be charged with that if they find out who you are?"

"Yes, probably, but if it comes to that, I'll say I was defending myself. Everyone knows how he stalked me."

Outside, the gray sky had grown dark. A storm was brewing, and the lack of light cast a pall over the small room. As Marnie got up to turn on a table lamp, she heard breakfast being announced over the PA system.

"Would you like me to walk with you to breakfast?" she asked. She took a moment to look around the room, which was sparsely furnished with a bed, a television and a chair. It was more like a hotel room than a place where someone could make a life. And it was nothing like her grandmother's ramshackle cottage where the two of them had lived such a crazy, and often wonderful, patchwork quilt existence.

Concern for her grandmother washed over Marnie. "What are you doing here? Are you ill?"

"No, I'm fine. I blacked out at home one day, and when I went to the doctor he said my blood pressure was too high. I was getting forgetful and confused, couldn't remember to take my meds. I needed some help is all, and this seemed like a good place."

"So you came here on your own? Found it and arranged it? What are you doing with the cottage? LaDonna told me you asked her to keep an eye on it."

Gramma drew in a breath. "Marnie, never mind that right now. You came here to tell me what really happened, and to unburden yourself. And now I need to do the same."

Something in her grandmother's tone caused Marnie's heart to hesitate. "Why would you need to unburden yourself? You haven't done anything."

"Please do your old grandmother a favor," the other woman said, "and remember that you kept a secret from me that broke my heart. I've thought about you every day since you disappeared, and prayed that you were all right."

"I'm not likely to forget it. I hate what I had to do...but why are you asking that of me?"

"Because I am about to tell you a terrible secret, one that's much worse than yours, and I pray to God you can understand and forgive me. Human beings aren't noble, Marnie. We compromise, we do what we have to, and then we live with the guilt. And if we're any good at all, we spend the rest of our lives trying to make up for what we did."

"What did you do?" Marnie asked.

Gramma Jo looked out the window again. "You know that I've always worked with natural medicines. Years ago, before you came to me, I created a herbal brew that could bring on a woman's period."

"You mean if she was late?"

"Technically, it was more like a morning-after pill. It had to be taken before a period was missed. Anyway, word got out, and I had women flocking to me. I was nervous about the safety issues, but these women were all so desperate that I couldn't refuse them."

"So you sold them this brew?"

Marnie had become aware that her grandmother was worrying the button on her cuff, as if trying to get it fastened. But it already was buttoned, and Marnie wanted to plead with her to stop.

"No, I gave it away," Gramma Jo said. "No one had any problems, but I worried that harm might come of it, so I stopped. I quit altogether-and then I had a woman show up at my door, crying and hysterical, saying she'd made a terrible mistake. She was married, but she'd had a fling with some drifter. She offered to pay me any amount of money to give her a dose of the brew."

The button came undone. Marnie reached over and stilled Gramma Jo's frantic fingers. "Let me," she said.

"I didn't take her money," Gramma said, "but I gave her what she wanted, and that was my terrible mistake. She'd lied to me. She was already pregnant, three months along. She came back the next day bleeding and in severe pain, but there was nothing I could do for her. We both thought she'd miscarried, but months later, she discovered she was still pregnant."

Marnie felt an icy draft, but it had nothing to do with the stormy day. It was dread.

"She came back to me and begged me to raise the baby. Me! A crazy old woman." Gramma shook her head, silvery hair flying from the loose bun she wore. "She said her husband would leave her and take her children away. It sounded bizarre to me, but she was distraught, and the more she talked the more I came to believe her.

"She'd managed to hide her pregnancy until quite late, and then she'd gone into seclusion somewhere. Her family thought she was traveling in Europe, something to do with a charity art auction, I think. No one knew about the pregnancy, and she didn't intend to go home until after the baby was born."

"What did you do?"

"I let her stay and I assisted her through the delivery. The baby was born alive and healthy, but-"

Marnie wanted to stop her. She had some preternatural sense of what was coming.

Gramma voice's was raw with regret, pain. "The baby was born with deformities, and the woman-the mother-she couldn't handle it."

"Deformities," Marnie echoed. "Of course, the herbal brew." She touched the curve of her throat where the birthmark had been, and a vivid picture of her own contorted face screened through her mind. The lopsided features and misaligned teeth. She'd looked like a monster.

"Who chose the name Marnie?" she asked.

"The mother did. If there was any significance to the name I don't know what it was."

"Who was she, my mother?"

"Julia Fairmont."

"What?" Marnie's voice went high with disbelief. Shock buzzed through her, stinging shock. This was the last thing she'd expected to hear. She was related to Julia? No, not just related, but her daughter? Marnie Hazelton was the product of a fling with a drifter and an attempted abortion. What a sickening twist of fate. She didn't know whether to hate Julia or to pity her.

No, she did know. She hated her.

Still, she had to ask. "Did she ever come and see me? Did you hear from her?"

"She sent a check every month, and thank God. It was the only way we got by."

"Good of her," Marnie said bitterly. That was the least the bitch could have done, and she couldn't have sent very much, given how they lived.

"And she's paying for this place," Gramma Jo said.

"Hush money."

"Yes, probably. But you're in trouble now, Marnie, and Julia Fairmont has the money and the contacts to help you."

"I don't want her help, not now."

"Marnie, if there's a record of your birth, Julia will have it. I wrote something up for her with height, weight, all the details I could think of. She may have destroyed it, but you should find out. Talk to her, tell her everything."

"Gramma Jo, couldn't you tell the court who I am? You raised me."

"Of course, but I can't prove anything, and they have no reason to believe me. I'm not your birth mother, and I'm not Julia Fairmont. You need her help, and she owes you that much."

Marnie nodded, but she wanted nothing from Julia. She wasn't sure she could even look at the woman who'd done something so reckless and then refused to take responsibility. She'd disposed of Marnie like trash.

Marnie didn't say anything, because she didn't want to upset her grandmother, but she knew exactly what she was going to do.

30.

As Marnie drove up to Sea Clouds she saw the van of a local television station parked outside the gates on the far side of the entrance. There was a second van and an SUV that looked as if they were media-related as well.

Some of the people milling about appeared to be part of the television crew, and Marnie recognized the statuesque chestnut-blond female reporter from the local news. The rest had cameras with impressive zoom lenses, and some looked suspiciously like tabloid reporters.

Did Mirage Bay have paparazzi?

Either something newsworthy had just happened at Sea Clouds, or word of Alison Fairmont Villard's murder charges was bigger news than Marnie could possibly have imagined. There'd been TV crews at the courthouse when she left yesterday, and she'd wondered how they could possibly have known about the arraignment. Someone had to have tipped them off, possibly Bogart, although she didn't know how that would help the case against her.

Marnie pressed the remote button, and the crowd spotted her as the gates opened. Several men rushed toward her, trying to cut her off. It was difficult not to hit anyone, but she had no intention of being trapped. One man came close enough to kick her fender as she veered away from him and sped through the gates. Her heart did a painful slam-thud.

Jerk. What was that all about?

She wheeled around the side to the wall of garages rather than park in the portico, where she would be exposed to the photographers. The gates closed automatically, but she couldn't see if they'd shut quickly enough to keep the reporters out. Fortunately, the garage was secure, and she made sure the door was down before she got out of the car.

A moment later, she rushed into the kitchen, where Rebecca was busy preparing lunch. "Where's Julia?"

Rebecca glanced over her shoulder, her hands in a colander full of the spring greens she was rinsing for salads. "You mean your mother? She's upstairs in her bedroom, getting ready to go out. Alison? Is something wrong?"

"The barbarians are at the gate," Marnie called back.

Julia was standing in front of the bedroom mirrors when she burst into her room unannounced.

"What's going on outside?" Marnie asked. "There are TV crews."

"There you are, darling. Come here." Julia, nonplussed, held out her hand to Marnie, who didn't take it.

"Did you hear me?"

"Of course." Julia's eyes were glittery, her voice brittle. "Now, come here. I think we should have our picture taken together, don't you? A mother-daughter portrait? We haven't done that since you were little. Shame on us!"