"I have a fight tonight. Will you check on Mac at some point? We should make sure he doesn't overdo the moonshine."

I bite into the peach and speak with my mouth full, "I was going to anyway." A piece of peach goes flying onto his denim clad knee.

Rudy's face lights up in amusement as he flicks it away. "Nice."

"I could have killed a zombie with that one." We both laugh. I eat in a hurry, and then sit on the bed to check on Mac. With no fever, but flushed from the alcohol, he's not snoring or drooling. No fair I'm sure I'd be crusty with drool by now.

Rudy cuts the stitches with a box cutter, relieving a deep itch. "All done," he says, rubbing to relieve some of the tickle.

"Thanks. The itching is better."

"Just a scab now. I'm going to head to the Trap. See you around?" he asks, sounding hopeful.

"Yeah, you know I can't miss your bad ass in action." He squeezes my hand before standing up. "I'm lucky you found me, you know?" I blurt.

"Me too," he smiles and winks as he walks out. I can't figure him out, and this makes it hard to pinpoint how I feel about him. Sure, we flirt and make each other blush for fun, and I'm fond of him for saving my life, but something about him seems closed off. I need to stay focused on the tasks in front of me. Right now, that means cleaning Mac, but no way am I going to call it a sponge bath.

He's not too bloody we got most of it while taking care of his wound. I begin to carefully clean blood splatters on his neck.

He flinches, "Holy shit...'s cold!" With a voice thick from drunken sleep, he wakes. The vibrant aqua blue of his irises are glassed over, but it makes them twinkle with light. His long lashes blink heavily as he takes in his surroundings. A slow grin spreads across his face, "A sponge bath. Do you need to undress me?" He apparently slept off some the moonshine, though not enough to stop his bravery.

"What if I say yes?"

His eyebrows rise, but his lids remain half closed. "You know how to pique interest. I'd say, have at it," he says, grinning the entire time.

I shake my head. "Just cleaning blood off." I start on his arms and he doesn't resist. The blood under his fingernails he'll need to clean in the shower. "Don't scratch your butt. You have blood under your nails."

He shrugs, "All this blood is probably my own. I didn't increase my zombie count today."

"There weren't that many of them, and those hostiles shot most of them."

"I was too busy watching you."

"No. You were too busy twisting necks." He doesn't look put out with my scorn. "Anyway, I upped my zombie count. Hacking at necks can get messy, I took a shower, myself."

"I know. You smell all flowery."

I smile, "Wild flower soap, and Rudy took the stitches out. They were bothering me."

"Let me see." I bend my head so he can see them. He smoothes my hair with his hand. "Looks good. Yeah, I bet they were itching like crazy." He did the same as Rudy and rubbed it to scratch.

"Thanks for sewing it up. I don't remember, I was...well, you know."

"Yeah, I know. Guido woke me up in the middle of the night to stitch you. There you were, knocked out and drooling." He laughs at the memory. "You woke up briefly muttering crazy things at me."

What I did I say? "I'm sure that was endearing."

"It kind of was all tough looking with dreadlocks, and that big bruise on your face." His eyes blink slowly.

"Like a cavewoman." I reply. "Sorry, I'm keeping you from sleeping. Would you like me to help you to your room?"

His eyes snap open, piercing me with a glassy gaze. "Am I in the way? I mean, I'd rather not move right now."

"No, you're not in the way. I might sleep in your room tonight. Not much room in here." I bite my lip, not knowing what he'll think about that.

"That's okay with me...or Rudy can sleep in there." He grins innocently, but he's dead serious.

"No, I will. Just rest so you can heal quickly. We need you to help us get Julie."

"Yeah, Julie. I bet Rudy is confused about that whole ordeal," he says, looking over my shoulder lost in thought.

"What do you mean?"

"Wouldn't you be? Not knowing if someone is dead or alive?" He searches my face.

"I imagine it would be hard," I say, sounding unsure.

His brows draw together. "You know you can talk to me, right? I'm here." Why would he say something like that? Although, no one has said something like that to me in a long time. Something shifts inside me as I watch the sincerity on his face, confusing me. I smile, and get up on wobbly legs.

"I'm going to go to the Clap Trap for a little bit." He nods, his eyes already drifting closed. I hold my hands together, walking out quickly to keep them from shaking. Shutting the door, I lean against the wall in the corridor, now officially confused and not in control of my emotions. I don't like it, but only because I really do. Today has only proven I might not have much time.

"Hey Suga!Yew missin' yew boy in tha ring." I look up to see Glinda strutting down the hall with a customer in tow. "He's winning, of course. But beat tha hell up."

I sigh. Great. I'm sure Mac isn't in any condition to check him out. "All right, I'll go check on him." An idea comes to me, "Hey, I need a favor. A big favor. It's for Mac." I lean in and whisper. She laughs.

"Yew just full of surprises, ain't yew Suga? I'll trade, for a lesson in hotwirin'. Word got 'round yew makin' lessons for money?" She smirks, and her lips shine rose pink. Her blonde hair curls around her shoulders, blending into her cleavage and cream colored, satin top.

"Yeah, well, got to make a living. I'll make the trade." She claps her hands and I follow her to her room.

I make my way toward the Clap Trap. Out in the cold, several kids throw rocks at putrids on the other side of the fence. A woman comes out to scold them, and they scurry in her direction.

Inside, people crowd near the ring. I get close enough just in time to see Rudy round a kick to a guy bigger than him in every way. Big guy falls backward, and Rudy takes the opportunity to punch him in the eye. The crowd flinches at the meaty smack. Rudy stands over him, his chest heaving, and wipes his arm across his face, smearing blood. Rudy's hair obstructs his face. The guy with a bloody mess of a face does not move from his position on the floor. The crowd cheers Rudy on as the DJ says, "Rudy takes it again!" Rudy bends down, scooping up his bandana with bloody knuckles.

The party immediately starts hopping. Music blasts as the DJ starts spinning a remix of "Smack My Bitch Up." Bodies gyrate on the dance floor, along with the famished bound here and there, writhing in their bonds. Someone smacks a female zombie as they walk by, apparently taking the songs advice, and they laugh obscenely. Her face jerks back around, quickly snapping her teeth. She squirms as her small droopy breasts move from the motion. He pinches a nipple while walking away, drawing out her boob like a cone. As always, the strobe lights make them look like an unnatural, macabre work of art. Just when I think he will rip the nipple off, he lets go. It droops lower than the other one now. I guess dead skin loses its elasticity. I shudder from the scene. Some people are sick. It figures they would be the ones who would survive an apocalypse.

I spot Reece and Bunyan walking up to Rudy, who's already found a spot at the bar. The closer I get, the more prominent Rudy's injuries appear. His right eye is almost swollen completely shut. I wince as he takes shots of moonshine from people congratulating him. Blood crusts his nose and spilt bottom lip. Hair brushes the top of his shoulders as he ties his dark green bandana on his head. Sporting only jeans and boots, his shirtless chest gleams with sweat, emphasizing his patch of chest hair.

"You should put ice on that," I tell him in his ear. He turns with smile, lighting up the room.

"Hey Darlin'!" he slurs.

I snort out a laugh, "Not feeling any pain, are you?"

He keeps grinning, "Nope." Gesturing to Reece, he says, "Reece wants to give some gun 101." I glance at Reece, and he holds up his drink in a salute and tosses it down his throat.

A table full of people catches my attention. The table hadn't been there before, and it seems out of place. The people play a card game, and though I'm not close enough to see what game, I can tell they play for money. Hmm. It gives me another idea.

"We'll start tomorrow if you want." Reece catches my attention again.

I nod, remembering his ability to hide a sawed-off shot gun on his person. I perk up, "You'll have to let me start with the sawed off shotgun." Reece and Bunyan laugh at my excitement.

"Only when you can use chopsticks, grasshopper." Reece chuckles, shaking his head, and the beads on his goatee clack together. "It's got a kick, little lady. You'll have to ease into that one."

I deflate. It'll be a gun for sure. I need to keep unpleasant things in the past. "Can't wait. I have some things to do in the morning, but I'll meet you at the marketplace," Reece says.

"Well, I better get back." I wave, but Rudy grabs my wrist.

"Want to dance?" His one eye swirls with color and light. I swallow, and my hands get clammy. I'm about to answer when several people begin screaming. Looking toward the source, the screams sound from the outside door Glinda and I had first used.

"Famished!" Someone shouts as the door shakes off the hinges. I go to grab my crossbow, and realize I left it in the room. My new circumstances have made me way too comfortable. Several of Guido's guys head in separate directions. The men moving toward the door attempt to calm everyone. The zombies haven't gotten in yet. The music cuts, making the shots outside even louder.

The DJ speaks on the loudspeaker, "Famished season is here, Folks!" The DJ says in an exaggerated southern accent as he spins an easy jingle and starts to sing, "Do what you gotta do, but don't boo hoo, you know they after you, for food they gotta chew, we'll git 'em before they git through!" The crowd sings with the DJ's insane jingle. Now practically screaming, "No hidin' under the bed, they easy to kill, 'cause they already dead!"

I glance about looking for Rudy, but he's no longer here. Running down the hall toward the door, I escape inside the courtyard. Once outside, I spot gunmen lined up along the fence, the same fence where the children played moments before, shooting. Reece and Bunyan are both part of the action, but no sign of Rudy. No less than fifty famished scuffle outside the fence.

Their faces snarl and mash with crusty, bloodied chins. Dead fingers grasp at the fence, ripping at it even after their hands are wet, bloody, stumps. All taken care of quickly.

A man yells at everyone, telling them not to panic famished season's here.

I shiver. Yes, it's cold out. This is a community, and therefore a big target. I miss my bunker now, more than ever. I want to leave, but shake it off, with a promise to keep, but I'm not going anywhere unarmed, again.

Checking back at the room, Rudy's not here either. Mac's still sleeping, his moonshine jar is by the bed now, having gotten it himself. I pick it up and take a gulp of the harsh stuff.

"Hey Sunshine!" His voice cuts through the silence, causing me to jump and slosh moonshine out of the jar. Tension fills my body as I look at him.

"Sunshine?" My voice cracks as I ask. How does he know that? Turns out, he doesn't.

"Yeah, you light up a room," he gestures with his arm. Ignoring the weird feeling because I had the same thought about Rudy moments ago, I smile back.

"I haven't heard that in a while," I add. His eyebrows furrow together. "Sunshine is my middle name." Sticking out my hand, I say, "Kansas City Sunshine Moore. Nice to meet you." He shakes it, trying to hold back a smile. "You can laugh, I don't care."

"Nah, I like it. It's different." I don't bother telling him that only my dad called me Sunshine. I like hearing it again.

"Well, I did bring you something to light up the room," I say, and toss him my rolled up trade from Glinda.

Catching it, he says, "Surprise, surprise."

"Pain management, for the hole in your ass and all." After I toss him a lighter, he turns onto his side, and fires away.

"A bunch a famished attacked a few minutes ago."

"I heard the shots. I figured it would start happening soon. It's normal in the cold."

"It makes me want to leave, though."

He passes me the joint, "Why? They keep it under control."

I puff, and hesitate. "I lived by myself for four years so I wouldn't attract zombies. It worked except for a loner every now and then."

He stares at me. "By yourself?"

I want to be truthful with him, and feel ready to confide in someone. "Um, yeah. My dad was paranoid. We prepared for all types of disaster emergencies. He started an underground bunker underneath our house. I finished it, and lived there for four years. I came across some people in the woods one day not long ago, and helped them. I was happy to have company, but they turned out to be fallacious." I force a laugh. "But they did pique my interest in what was happening in the outside world. They liked my place, so they tried kicking me out of it, held me at gunpoint, and implied they would eat me. So, I set my family home on fire and left." I take a big hit, and pass it back to him. Mac is quiet and studies me. I don't know if he wants me to keep talking or what, but the silence stretches out.

"But, you're sane," he finally says.

"What?"

"If you were by yourself for that long, wouldn't that have a major effect on a person's mental capabilities?"

I shrug, not knowing. He makes a good point.

"That explains why you look at everything as if it were brand new. Hermit." He tries to make light, elbowing me before running his tongue on the inside of his bottom lip in thought. "They wanted you to leave because of low count of zombies?"

It takes a minute to process that he means Harley, Nadine, Bridget, and Kale. I make a mental note to lay off all substances from now on.

I tell him my story. Not all of it not Malachi just about my mom and dad. Not in great detail, but Mac prompts me to talk about those days. It makes me respect him more. It also makes me want to tell him more.

I talk about my neighbor Jim and about our secluded neighborhood, my routines, and how I had lived it all comes tumbling out of my mouth. How Harley, Nadine, Bridget, and Kale were ultimately a bad mistake, but one I don't regret. Expressing my lack of knowledge of the zombies adapting so well makes me flinch. I tell him everything that had happened with Kale, and how he made me realize that I didn't want to hide anymore. That Kale told me about the zombies hoarding food, and how I wanted to find answers, and about Rudy saving my life more than once. It feels good.

After it all comes out I sit there, and let out a big breath.

By this time the joint has run out, and I'm super stoned. I look at him and giggle.

"Kan, I don't know what to say "

I interrupt, "You don't have to say anything, I know how fucked up it is, but it feels good to get it out." I shrug, and I'm glad I am stoned, because I know I would be feeling grief and guilt right now otherwise.

"You're incredible. You've never told anyone this?" I smile at the compliment, and shake my head.

"I told Rudy about my parents. At the time, I was still coming to terms with not being by myself, and trying to trust him. I didn't share anything else. Not that it's come up, but he's never asked. When I first got here, seeing all these people, I was shocked by what was going on, and how they acted and interacted with zombies." I tell him seriously. He stares at me in a completely different way. "I didn't want you to think differently of me."

He shakes his head, "No way. A person would have to be really strong willed to do what you did. Even at your age. How old were you?"

"I was twenty when the outbreak happened. I owe it all to my dad. I was the only one that listened to him, really. At first I was just humoring him. Then came to the conclusion that the stuff he was trying to teach me might come in handy. I was just hiding away from it all, really."

"Nah, it was smart. Some nasty stuff went down for a while." He swallows, remembering something I can't see. Snapping out of it, he turns his flirty grin my way. "You sure you've been by yourself?"

"Why would I lie about that?" I lightly punch him in the shoulder.

He flinches, "I feel stiff." I raise my eyebrows at him. He thinks about it for a minute, "I mean my shoulders. Probably because I've been laying around."

"Which one is it? Turn on your belly, and I'll try to work it out."

He smiles, "Both." Turning onto his stomach, I straddle his lower back, careful of his wound. I massage his neck and gradually work out to his shoulders.