Are you by any chance. Willie Sutton?

But how could you have?

You're all over the television.

Right. Sure.

And I've heard the stories. From my grandmother. And my mother. Family legend.

Legend.

A heaviness comes over Sutton, a disappointment so crushing that he wants to lie down on the ice-caked sidewalk.

I'm sorry to bother you, young lady. It was a long shot. I just thought.

How in the world did you find this address?

I have a friend. He has friends. Department of Motor Vehicles. Voter registration. Newspaper subscription records. They can find anyone these days. Was this your grandmother's house?

She bought it years ago. With her second husband.

Second.

We were just having Christmas dinner.

I feel terrible for intruding. I would've called first. I couldn't find a pay phone.

You're not intruding. Would you care to come in? Have a gla.s.s of wine?

No. Thank you. I couldn't impose.

You wouldn't be imposing. My name's Kate, by the way.

Kate. I'm-well you know who I am.

Yes. It's a pleasure. Kind of a trip, actually.

Trip. Yeah. That seems to be the word of the day.

Sutton takes a halting step toward her. More like a lunge. I've come so far, he says.

He scolds himself-what a foolish thing to say. That sinks me. His leg nearly buckles. He grabs it. The pain is suffocating. That s.h.i.t Photographer gave him made the pain disappear, for a while, but now it's back. Worse is the fatigue. All those years lying on a cot, in a cell, doing nothing, he should be rested. Instead he feels the exhaustion of the laborer, the athlete, the soldier. He remembers: he's going to die today. Maybe the moment is now.

I'm sorry kid, he says. I didn't mean to be so dramatic. It's just that there's so much I wanted to say. So many things I never got to say, things I dreamed of saying, and now it's too late. If only someone had told me back when I was your age that you need to say what's in your heart, right away, because once the moment is gone-well, kid, it's gone.

She smiles uncertainly. Her eyes are blue, yes, they are, but this d.a.m.n street is so dark, it's impossible to see if-He wishes he could get closer, have a better look, but he doesn't want to scare her. She's the picture of youth, of innocence, and he's an ancient bank robber roaming the city on Christmas. He almost scares himself.

You know what kid? I'm babbling. I'm an old fool. Thank you for being so kind.

He flips up the fur collar of Reporter's trench coat, waves, starts to walk off.

She calls after him. But-wait.

He stops, turns, sees her coming quickly down the steps.

If there's something you wanted to say, Mr. Sutton. Maybe you can still.

What? Oh. I don't think.

But why not?

No. I just couldn't. No.

She walks toward him, stops thirty feet away. It seems a shame to come so far and then leave without saying what you wanted to say. Like you said. When something is in your heart. And of course I'm curious.

Well. But I don't.

I loved my grandmother very much, Mr. Sutton. And she told me everything. Everything. We had no secrets between us. She always said I was the best listener in the family. And I do love the old stories. I'm sort of the keeper of the family history.

Keeper.

She moves closer. Twenty feet away. She stops. The sidewalk between them glistens, as if paved with crushed diamonds. Besides, she adds, it's Christmas and I just have this funny feeling that my grandmother would want me to-I don't know. Lend an ear? Stand in for her?

You have a voice like hers kid.

I do?

Takes me back.

It does?

Come into the garden, Maud.

Pardon?

Your grandmother had the most beautiful voice I ever heard. Especially when she read one of her favorite poems aloud.

She did, Mr. Sutton, it's true. I hear her in my head all the time. When I'm scared, when I'm in trouble: Take a chance, Kate. Try it, Kate, what have you got to lose? She was so-fearless.

Fearless. That she was. I can still see her, a snowy day in 1919, half of New York City looking for us-she wasn't the least bit afraid. She had more guts than me and Happy combined.

Oh she loved to tell that story.

Did she?

Happy, I gather, was a handsome devil.

Sutton stands up straighter. He heaves a sigh. The thing is, he says. I just wanted.

Yes?

To say.

Uh-huh?

His eyes fill with tears. It's just that I never. What I mean is, I can't. Ah Bess. Bess. Bess. I just miss you so much.

Silence. He waits. In the distance an ambulance wails. Then it pa.s.ses and silence descends again. He can't see anything through his tears, but he knows he's miscalculated, misread the situation. Ashamed, he bows his head, slumps forward.

Then: I miss you too, Willie.

He stops breathing. He takes a half step, sideways, like a stagger.

Bess, he says. Ah Christ. I know I've lived a sorry life. But not for the reasons people think. The crimes, the prison time, all that stuff isn't what I regret. My deepest regret is that you and I-that we never.

I told my granddaughter so many times that I hoped you'd-move on.

You certainly did. You got married.

Yes.

I died that day.

I know.

Watching you walk down that aisle.

I was so-startled-to see you there. That's another story I told my granddaughter many times.

If only we'd gotten married right away, Bess. Like we planned.

Like we. If only we'd gotten married? I'm not sure I understand.

Being with you, those few days, on the run, that was the high point of my life, Bess.

But, I'm sorry, I'm just not following. I was going to-that is, my grandmother, she was going to marry Happy. She was eloping with Happy.

Everything would be different if that sheriff hadn't barged in.

Okay, now, I heard about the sheriff, but I know my grandmother said he barged in while she and Happy- No one would have gotten hurt.

Who got hurt?

That guard from Eastern State. All that blood running down his face.

Oh dear.

And Eddie. And Margaret.

Who?

And Arnie Schuster.

Schuster. Yes. They were just talking about him on the- I admit I thought he was a Judas. But you know who's the real Judas? The lover who spurns you. Judas was a lover after all. Before ratting out Jesus, what did he do? He gave Jesus a kiss. That's why you're the real Judas, Bess, and that's why you're to blame for everything.

Maybe this was a bad idea.

I BLAME YOU, BESS.

Sutton's voice chokes. He puts his hands on his knees, leans over, sobbing.

Bad idea, she says. Definitely.

I'm sorry, Bess. I didn't mean that. It's just been-a really really long day. I love you, Bess. And I always will. It's cost me everything, absolutely everything, but maybe it's not love if it doesn't cost us everything. I love you, and I always will, and that-that is what I came here to say.

He straightens, puts a trembling hand over his eyes.

Um. Okay. Gosh, Mr. Sut- Sutton drops his hand, looks at her, pleading.

Right, she says-Willie. I told my granddaughter, many times, that you were very special to me. Very dear. Those were my exact words. Very. Dear. I'll always be grateful to you for coming to see me on Coney Island when I was in trouble with my first husband-remember?

Sutton nods.

I told my granddaughter: You were always so sweet, Willie. So devoted. So loyal. The way you'd look at me, saucer-eyed, it was touching. But I was with Happy. I was in love with Happy, desperately in love. I wanted to marry him. My father wouldn't allow it, of course, because Happy was so poor and we were both so young, and then one night, at Finn McCool's, Happy got the idea that we should elope. Happy asked you to help us break into my father's office, because you and Eddie had been doing things like that for a while. Remember? Of course I knew it was hard on you, being a third wheel. I knew you'd give anything to trade places with Happy. You told me as much several times. But I told you that we just weren't meant to be. Didn't I? For so many reasons, Willie, we just weren't meant to be. Surely you remember me telling you that, Willie.

Sutton looks up the street. He doesn't answer.

Willie?

People tell us all kinds of things in this life, Bess.

He reaches into his breast pocket. He doesn't know what for. The envelope? A cigarette? A gun? Force of habit? There's nothing there.

If I could just hear you say it once more I could move on.

It?

What I wouldn't give.

I don't.

Oh Willie.

Excuse me?

The thing you always said. Oh Willie. No one ever said it like you. I thought if I could hear it one more time, I could stop running. I could maybe-I don't know. Find some happiness of my own. Before the end. But. Like you said. It wasn't meant to be.

He waves, turns, walks a few steps. His head is swimming, he feels faint. He might hit the sidewalk face-first. He surely won't make it to the Polara. But then he hears something. He stops, looks back. Oh, she says, as if starting to sing the national anthem. Oh-Willie.