Chapter 45 - This Beast!

Translated by Eve

Edited by Kara

10. This Beast!

The others body was full of the marks that hed left. That exquisite and fine facewas a rare beautyit was enough to turn any self-restraint he had into a joke!

Deng Jingwens Adams apple bobbed, and his eyes darkened even further. This was his boy, so it was only natural that he could only like himhe could only belong to him.

Deng Jingwen fell silent for a while and suddenly said, I hope that you can change your ident.i.ty and stay by my side.

The boy seemed to realize something, and alarm immediately flooded his eyes. He only wanted to be his son! He parted his lips to plead, Sir, Ill be very obedient. Please dont throw me away. He hugged Deng Jingwens neck. For the first time, he kissed the other out of his own volition

Deng Jingwen was not a person who was easy to sway. It was just that in that moment, his heart softened for some unfathomable reason as he gazed into the boys wet, black eyes. It was to the extent that this was the first time that he didnt treat the other with callousness and even wanted to.

Perhaps he could give him some time to adjust.

Ding. The target Deng Jingwens Favourability Value+2. The current Favourability Value is 82.

After that, Xie He did not leave the house for three days. In the end, Deng Jingwen did not mention the matter of formally announcing his ident.i.ty again. Nevertheless, Xie He knew that this was only temporary. For someone like Deng Jingwen, it was already not an easy task to make him defer a decision. To completely change his mind, the current Favourability Value was not enough.

444I dont really understand, ah. Cant you openly be together after announcing your ident.i.ty to the public? Isnt it advantageous for you to establish your relations.h.i.+p? +_+

Xie HeBaby, you need to know that if you love someone as cold-blooded as Deng Jingwen more than he loves you, when the novelty fades, all that awaits you is to be thrown away. Youll be considered a little toy lover who can be abandoned at any time. The status of a unique and unrivalled son is obviously much more advantageous.

444Since its like thatwhy did you provoke him, ne? If it wasnt because of what you did, he wouldnt have thought to publicly announce your ident.i.ty.

Xie HeThis isnt the same. :)

444_(:)_

Xie HeAt the start, when he expelled me from the family, he didnt announce it not because he cared about this son of his, but because he hadnt cared about what ident.i.ty I was using to stay by his side. A toy only needs to be obedient. His ident.i.ty is insignificant. Meanwhile, he wants to announce my ident.i.ty now, because he has begun to mind what ident.i.ty I use to stay besides him. He cares about what our relations.h.i.+p looks like to outsidersthis is a good thing. It means that in his eyes, Im not just a toy. He wants more.

Xie HeWhen a man starts wanting to stake a claim on your heart, when he begins to care about the relations.h.i.+p between the two of you, that means hes begun to fall for you.

444A Favourability Value of 82. According to common sense, this can indeed be cla.s.sified as love! \()/

Xie HeBaby, you cant calculate love like this.

Xie HeThe threshold for love is different for every person. For Deng Jingwen, this isnt love. At most, love is just sprouting. However, I can turn this into love. I have the upper hand in this relations.h.i.+p. I can make him demand love from me repeatedly only to have it incessantly end up in failure. Men always submerge themselves in their defeat. The more he cant have me, the more hell want me. Besides, its so much cooler calling him Dad :)

444The last sentence was the real reason, right? _(:)_

Because it was the first time Xie He took the initiative to be intimate, Deng Jingwens ruthless side exploded. He went a little too far; Xie He was unable to get out of bed for a few days after.

Regardless, Xie He did not show any unhappiness or fight him over this. Instead, he became even more well-behaved and lovable than before. When he saw Deng Jingwen return, he struggled to right himself on the bed and smiled with his pale face, Dad, youre back.

Deng Jingwens expression changed, but he still didnt correct the boy. Although it was very piercing to the ear, what the boy called him didnt matter. What really mattered was making the boy understand deep down inside that he wasnt his father. For this, threats and torment werent enough on their own.

Clearly, he was just a spineless, integrity-less, good-for-nothing idiot. However, he had a hard-to-believe perseverance in calling him Dad. This made even Deng Jingwen unable to remain indifferent.

Ding, the target Deng Jingwens Favourability Value+2. The current Favourability Value is 84.

Deng Jingwen walked over and pulled the boy into his arms, Ill take you down to eat.

The boy nestled in his embrace happily, saying, Dad is really good.

Deng Jingwens hands around the boy tightened slightly. His gaze was rather complicated. The boys smile and tone would sometimes create an illusion that even affected himk2014;as if he really was treating the boy well. On the contrary, reality was not sok2026;he had never treated the boy very well. Before, he had never treated him wholeheartedly. Now, he was even more cruel and unfeeling. Whatk2026;made the boy always think that Deng Jingwen was treating him well? Deng Jingwen didnt understand.

He sat the boy on his lap and then used a spoon to feed him.

From start to end, the boy was very lovable and obedient. Deng Jingwens expression softened greatly. He recalled how, in the past, the boy used to hate being intimate with him in front of other people, even at home. When they left the house, he didnt want to be held. Now, however, he was so well-behaved.

It seemed that as long as he made him afraid, he would be thoroughly dependent and subservient to him.

Another few days pa.s.sed. Xie He had recovered more or less. He also no longer mentioned going to school, let alone leave the house even once. Every day, he would guard the door, waiting for Deng Jingwen to return like a little puppy instead. His cautious and prudent appearance made it seem like he thought if he made even the slightest mistake or if he was absent-minded for even a moment, he would be thrown away.

No matter what Deng Jingwen asked for, he would comply. He would even incessantly repeat that the one he liked best was Dad.

Deng Jingwen thought,

This child isnt actually that dumb

. He knew what methods to use to make his heart soft, how to make it so that he wouldnt publicize his current ident.i.ty. Actually, perhaps his methods were really a bit effective.

This morning, Deng Jingwen once again did Xie He until his legs went soft and then told him, You should go to cla.s.s.

Xie He revealed a questioning gaze and spoke nervously, W-why.?

The corner of Deng Jingwens lips rose, Didnt you want to learn so as to not make me lose face?

Xie He heard Deng Jingwen mention his lie, and his body froze in an instant. He suddenly wrapped himself around Deng Jingwens waist and rubbed his head intimately against the others chest, Daddy, I just want to be with you. I dont want to go to school.

Hehhes also learned how to act spoiled. Deng Jingwen smiled coldly. He carried the boy off of the bed and dressed him before saying, Dont be afraid. Im just letting you attend your cla.s.ses, thats all.

Xie He gazed at him imploringly, Dad.

Deng Jingwen remained unmoved. He personally drove him to the campus gates.

Deng Jingwen pinched Xie Hes chin and kissed him, voice glacial and unquestionable, Go, ba. Ill come get you when your cla.s.ses are over.

The boy needed to be clear on who he belonged to. He had to know the price he would pay for womanizing. If he dared to make the same mistake again, he would not let him off easily.

Xie He knew that he could not change Deng Jingwens mind, so he got out of the car, face drained of all blood.

Xie He slowly walked into his cla.s.sroom and directly sat in the last row. He then laid his head on his desk.

Throughout the cla.s.s, quite a number of people came to talk to Xie He, but he was disinclined to pay any attention to them. With much difficulty, it was only when cla.s.s started that it was finally quiet. The last few days, he was continuously played with by Deng Jingwen, so he wasnt too lively right now. Moreover, in order to show that he already knew his mistake and would not do it again, he obviously needed to keep a distance between himself and these flowers!

After cla.s.s, he was surrounded by girls.

Zhuo Zhuo, whats wrong? Why wont you talk to us?

Xiao Zhuo, you dont look good. Are you sick?

Xie He pursed his lips, expression twitchy, Im fine. Make way!

Although his att.i.tude was bad, his voice was weak and hoa.r.s.e like a little animal that was puffing up its fur in anger, making other people unable to get angry.

In fact, this only made the girls more concerned about him. Each and every one of them began to say that they wanted to take Xie He to the infirmary.

Xie He glared, I said Im fine! You guys are annoying!

The aloof Ren Huihui, who sat in the front row, looked at Xie He and couldnt endure it. For once, she stood up and advised him, If you dont feel well, you should go get examined.

Xie He looked at Ren Huihui. She was the female G.o.ddess who Deng Zhuo had once chased for so long but never attained. Right now, it was the first time she took the initiative to show concern for him, so he should feel moved. Furthermore, Xie He was also a gentleman to beautiful ladies. However, when he thought about Deng Jingwens snitches who were currently monitoring him, he could only stiffen his expression and say, Scram.

Ren Huihui was stupefied. Soon after, her eyes turned red, and she immediately left the cla.s.s!

The surroundings fell quietfor a moment, no one went to persuade Xie He again. Xie He even scolded Ren Huihui. It was evident that he really didnt want anyone elses concern.

After all, they were only cla.s.smates. Theyd already expressed their kindly intentions. The others glanced at Xie He and then returned to their seats, not bothering with him anymore.

Xie He laid his head on his desk again, closing his eyes to sleep.

Xie HeBaby, remember to tell me when Ning Qi comes. :)

444: OK! ()/

The next two cla.s.ses pa.s.sed by peacefully. Xie He did not leave his seat even once. In the end, he really did fall asleep. When he awoke, the bell signalling the end of cla.s.s had just sounded. His arm had already become numb.

Xie HeAi, sleeping like this isnt comfortable at all. I miss Dads big bed.

444Hold on for a bit longer? Its about time to leave school.

Xie HeIf Dads as cold and unfeeling as this, he cant blame his baby for having an illicit affair. :)

444

444Oh, Ning Qi has just come over.He had been so triggered by Xie He saying baby that he had nearly forgotten about official matters. _(:)_Baby is very alarmed, OK?

Xie He squinted his eyes upon hearing this. He very quickly returned to character. Now that he mentioned it, he really did miss Ning Qi, this youngster. He liked the gentle and considerate type!

Ning Qi had not been at ease at all this whole time. Since the other day, Deng Zhuo had disappeared. All of his calls to Deng Zhuo had been declined, and he was even blacklisted in the end. He was blocked outside of the Deng Familys estate every time he went looking for Deng Zhuo, so he could only endure it and wait. However, what made him the most ill-at-ease was that he could not find out who the man who forced Deng Zhuo was. Deng Jingwen clearly protected the boy very well. With this reasoning, this shouldnt have happened.

In any case, the most inconceivable thing did indeed happen.

Ning Qi secretly loved Deng Zhuo. Actually, even Deng Zhuo didnt know just how many people knew that Ning Qi liked him. Therefore, when Deng Zhuo finally reappeared at school again, people very quickly came to inform him of this news.

At once, Ning Qi went to quietly wait outside of Deng Zhuos cla.s.sroom.

He really missed the boy. However, since everything that had happened, he discovered that they had gradually grown apart. He could not silently watch and accompany him like before. Now, even meeting just once was so difficult. When he thought that he might even lose the ability to see the boy at all one dayNing Qis eyebrows furrowed tightly. He felt depressed.

When the bell sounded, the other students all left one by one. At the very end, only the boy was left in the cla.s.sroom. His head was laid on the desk. It seemed like he was asleep.

Ning Qi wore a helpless expression and walked over with quiet steps.

The boy was still the same. Even in cla.s.s, he could sleep without a care. It was just that when he approached, he discovered that things were not so. The boy looked like he was sleeping, but his shoulders were trembling slightly. He was awake.

Ning Qi looked worried and called out softly, Xiao Zhuo?

The boy didnt move as if he didnt hear him.

Ning Qi felt anxious. He reached out to lift the boys head. He could then see that the boys face was red, his eyes teary.

Whats wrong? Are you sick?! Ill take you to the hospital! Ning Qi immediately reached out to carry the boy.

Xie He suddenly lifted his hand and slapped Ning Qis hand away. He shouted, Dont touch me! If Deng Jingwen discovered that he and Ning Qi were togetherhe didnt know what kind of punishment hed face after going back!

He glared at Ning Qi, I dont need your concern. I want to go home!

Ning Qi was much more mature in his thinking than the boy. It was obvious that something had recently happened considering the att.i.tude the boy used against him and the grievances in the boys red eyes just now. How could he let him leave like this?

Ning Qi saw that Xie Hes body was weak and slowly said, My dorm is nearby. How about you take a rest there, OK?

Xie He turned his head away, I want to go home. You, stay away from me! After saying this, he headed out. However, he suddenly stumbled on the steps. Fortunately, Ning Qi had a hold on him, so he didnt fall.

Ning Qi sighed and steadily supported Xie He, You cant go home by yourself like this. Rest for a while at my place first.

As he said this, he supported Xie He to his dorm in an unquestionable manner. He then directly locked the door.

Xie He could not free himself from Ning Qis grip, so he could only be brought back to the dorms by him. However, when he thought that Deng Jingwen would soon come get him and that he might see him and Ning Qi togetherhe said in a panic, I said, Im fine. I want to go home! As he said this, he thought about running out.

Ning Qi did not speak. He went and hugged the boy, patting him on the back soothingly. He then pulled his clothes off!

Xie He did not expect Ning Qi to do this. At once, he began to struggle, voice full of fright, What are you doing?!

Ning Qi looked at the boys body, eyes practically glowing with rage. His guess had come truethe boy he treated as a precious treasure, who he had always carefully protected in the palm of his hand, had unexpectedly been ruthlessly played with again by some other man.

He used all of his power to stay calm. He would not lose the last strands of his rationality again!

Xie He bit his lips and did not make a sound. His eyes were full of tears.

Ning Qi said, Is this why you dont dare come near me? Because that person will punish you, right?

Xie He sobbed, I said that its none of your business. Let go of me!

Ning Qi stared at the fl.u.s.tered boy. His heart had nearly been squeezed into a ball. Pain, pity, and anger mixed together. His hand clenched tightly into a fist. He could not bear to say even a single harsh word to the boy. In these few, short months, he had already been tormented to this state.

That fearful and panicked expression, the suppressed sobbingat this moment, he was shaking in his arms. He was no longer as brash and as willful as he used to be. He would never see that dazzling smile in those beautiful eyes ever again. All that was left was a cautious carefulness. Even though he had been treated so cruelly, he didnt dare to go against them. He would only silently bear it.

Ning Qi sucked in a deep breath and spoke slowly, I asked you who it was last time. You werent willing to tell me. Can you tell me now? Let me help you, OK?

The boy didnt make a sound.

A long time later, Ning Qi gently raised the boys face and saw that he had been silently shedding tears.

The boy fixed his eyes on him. His eyelashes were stained with his tears. He choked, Why do you want to help me, ne.?

Ning Qi said, Because I like you.

The boy suddenly laughed, laughing hysterically as he sobbed, Like, ah.

So, this was what to like someone meant. Ning Qi liked him, so he treated him gently and worried about him. Its because he liked him that he wanted to help him, that he was unwilling to let him feel hurt or sad, much less ever hurt or force him.

Everythingwas because he liked him.

Xie He actually wasnt that dumb. He already knew more or less what liking someone really looked like. However, he still deceived himself. Dad treated him like this because he liked him. Because he liked him, he wanted to do those sorts of things to him.

It was just that, faced with Ning Qis gentleness, he suddenly couldnt deceive himself any longer.

Liking someone didnt look like this. If he actually liked him, he wouldnt hurt him without any misgivings. If he actually liked him, he wouldnt make him suffer like this. If he actually liked him, he would not treat him like a toy to be played with. Everything Dad did, not one of them was done because he actually liked himIt was only a merciless possession. And, Xie He was just unwilling to admit that.

He didnt want to admit that the father he respected and loved the mostthe man he called Dad for eighteen yearsactually didnt like him in the least.

That was why he treated him so cruelly.

He was afraid that when he admitted this, he would no longer be able to hold on.

Eve: Greatly antic.i.p.ating gong abuse. Please~ Also, please make Ning Qi our first sweet supporting gong~

Kara: Im not ready for the gong abuse

my fragile heart cant take this

DZ just wanted a loving father!!! Cant we go back to the somewhat lighthearted beginning? ()