Chapter 203 - No Love, No Pain

Translated by Eve

Edited by Serefina

11. No Love, No Pain

Lu Ting dragged Xie He out without a word. He shoved him into the pa.s.senger seat of the car, fastened the others seatbelt and then drove them back to the hotel. He then pulled Xie He upstairs by the arm.

Xie Hes eyebrows were furrowed. He asked coldly, What are you doing?

Lu Ting didnt respond. His eyes were glued onto the man in front of him. He stared at Xie Hes thin lips as they opened and closed. He listened as Xie He spat out cold words. Lu Ting suddenly didnt want to hear them anymore.In any case, he wouldnt hear what he wanted to hear from Xie Hes lips anyways.

He grabbed Xie Hes shoulder and pushed the other against the door. He lowered his head and kissed Xie He hard, almost like he wasnt kissing but biting the other instead!

The faint taste of blood came from their intertwined lips and teeth. However, Lu Ting didnt stop. His kiss became even more fierce.Yes, this was what he wanted to do! He wanted to kiss Xie He, hold him, and trap him in his arms. He wanted to make sure Xie He wouldnt be able to go anywhere else!

Every day, he had to watch as Xie He dated other people. He had to watch as Xie He pursued other people.He had to pretend like he didnt care. But in reality, he had already gone mad from the pain and jealousy.

Lu Ting didnt care about Xie Hes resistance. He pressed down on the other firmly and kissed the other with all his strength!

Like this, he robbed the other of his breath.

Xie He was kissed until he was panting. A long time later, he sucked in a deep breath and narrowed his eyes. In a chilly voice, he said, Let go of me!

For the first time, Lu Ting didnt let go as Xie He demanded. There was restrained pain in Lu Tings pitch-black eyes. He pushed Xie He straight into the room and spoke in a low, raspy voice. Pack your things. We should head back.

He had already ordered Henry to book them return tickets.

Xie He fixed his dishevelled clothing. He scowled. Im not going back.

Youre not going back? Lu Ting looked at Xie He and let out a derisive laugh, fist clenching tightly. Youve already seen her. It wouldnt be good to stay here and destroy her family, would it?

I dont intend to ruin her family. Xie He said blandly, I just want to be friends.

Lu Ting snorted, Just friends?

Xie Hes eyes bored into Lu Tings. A while later, he smiled mockingly. Well, even if I have other intentions, who I love, who I pursue, who I likenone of that has anything to do with you.

Lu Tings knuckles turned white from how hard he squeezed his fists. Faint cracking could be heard. Thats rightfrom the moment he had decided to leave, he had lost the right to meddle with Xie Hes affairs. Their relations.h.i.+p had ended a long time ago.

All his hard work that came afterit had all just been his wishful thinking.

Howevernow that he was really in this situation, he had discovered that he couldnt go through with it.He couldnt ignore it. He couldnt be so magnanimous.

When Xie He had gotten together with Yu Shu, Xie He had also told him that this had nothing to do with him. If Lu Ting could let go, he would have let go back then. But he hadnt been able to do that.

He also had a selfish side to him. He wasnt unselfish or worthy of admiration at all.

He didnt want to suppress his feelings anymore.

Lu Ting pressed his lips into a tight line. He stood there firmly, not giving way. He spoke very clearly, If you have nothing to pack, well leave right now. The tickets have already been bought.

Xie He suddenly raised a brow and asked, Why do I have to go back? Is it so hard for you to see me with Ruan Xiaoxuan? Arent you fine as long as Im happy? I feel really happy with her. Shouldnt you be happy for me?

Lu Ting punched the wall, his eyes blood red. Im. Not. Happy.

He knew that he wasnt in a good state right now. He tried his best to control himself, to not hurt Xie He. He would rather die than hurt Xie He or see him upsetk2026;.However, he really couldnt watch Xie He fall in love with someone else. That was the only thing he could hold onto.

Xie He looked shocked. He said, Youre not happy? Havent you been pretending to not like me all this time? Im doing what you wanted, ah. You can relax. I wont fall in love with you. I can fall in love with anyone but I wont fall in love with you.So you dont have to worry or fear that I will love you. If I fall in love with Ruan Xiaoxuan, wont you feel more rea.s.sured? Isnt this a good thing?

Im acting as you wished. But now youre saying that youre not happy. Xie Hes tone cooled down and his eyes turned frosty. Didnt you come back to ensure that I wouldnt fall for you? You just dont want to suffer so much. You dont want me to fall in love with me, but youre also acting like you love me for your own sake. Arent you tired?

Even if youre not tired, Im tired.

My time is precious. I dont have any time to play this love game with you.

When Lu Ting heard this, the strength drained from his body. His lips parted but no sound came out.

His ridiculous intentionshad already been seen through since a long time ago.

But thats only to be expected. He had been so obvious.

Xie He saw Lu Tings expression and a faint sneer appeared on his lips. Since theres no way we could ever be together, lets not waste each others time. I wont love you so you dont have to appear in front of me again. After all, Ive never been one to waste time on meaningless things.

After saying this, he headed towards the door.

Just as Xie He was about to bypa.s.s Lu Ting, Lu Ting reached out to grab Xie Hes wrist. There was intense sorrow in his eyes. A long time later, a low, hoa.r.s.e voice came out from his throat. I want you to love me.I want you to stay.

When he said this, he felt like he was giving up. A self-deprecating smile appeared on his lips.

This was what he really wanted.He wanted Xie He to love him back.

More than anyone else, he wanted Xie Hes love.

But he didnt dare ask for it. He hadnt dared to ask for it thirteen years ago. Thirteen years later, he still didnt have the courage to ask for it. It was obviously what he wanted and yearned for the mostbut he didnt dare ask for it.

Xie He paused. The smile on his face disappeared. He looked at Lu Ting seriously. Arent you afraid that Ill die? That Ill lose?

Lu Tings expression warped in pain. He said, I want you to win. I want you to livebut I also want you to love me.

Xie Hes lips curled up. Youre really a contradictory fellow.

Lu Ting shut his eyes. Thats righthe was really a contradictory person. However, he didnt want to lie to himself anymore. He didnt want to pretend that he didnt want this persons love. He didnt want to keep pretending like he didnt care.He wanted Xie He so much he thought that hed soon go insane.

All his life, wasnt what he wanted most Xie Hes love?

No one knew how much he had suffered, when he had chosen to leave Xie He back then. He had had no choice but to push away the person he loved the most.

If he had to watch Xie He fall in love with someone else, he would rather give up. It would be enough.As long as Xie He was willing to love him, he could give up everything else.

Because, when you die, I will accompany you. We will never part again.

Lu Ting stared at Xie He, intense pain and love swirling in his eyes. Dont leave. I cant lose you.

Xie He returned the gaze. He seemed to be lost in thought for a moment. He then quietly said, So you wanted me to love you.

Ive always known this, but its the first time Ive heard you say it out loud.Its the first time youve stopped trying to avoid it, the first time youve stopped trying to hide it. Its the first time youve met your biggest fear head on and told me your feelings and told me what you wanted.

Many, many people have told Xie He that they loved him. All of the capturing hosts had said that they loved him. All the people he had attracted had said that they loved him. There were too many people who loved himto the point where I love you now meant nothing to Xie He. These words had stopped affecting him since long ago.

To Xie He, love was nothing but an annoying game he couldnt end. Because he knew that none of it was real. It was just a contest of acting abilities. It was just a manipulation of emotions.

To Xie He, love was a cheap thing that could be thrown away.

However, he hadnt forgottenthat among the one hundred hosts, only one person had never said that he loved Xie He.

That person had only silently accompanied and cared for Xie He. He had never said those three words, right up until he left. He had never said that he loved Xie He.

Even after meeting again after so longthis man still hadnt said that he loved him.

It wasnt because Lu Ting didnt love him. Rather, it was because Lu Ting loved him too much. That was why he never said it out loud.

Xie He had known this since a long, long time ago. The only person who had never said I love you was the only person who truly loved him. This person loved him unconditionally. He didnt ask for anything back. He didnt ask for Xie Hes love in return.

And now, he finally got to hear this person say I love you.Although his words were clumsy, although the location was not magnificent, and although his expression was that of painalthough it couldnt be compared to the other capturing hostswhen Xie He heard those three words, his heart that had long since stopped beating began to throb.

Even though you never said it, Ive always knownthat you love me.

Xie He suddenly turned around and placed a soft kiss on Lu Tings lips.

Lu Ting stared at Xie Hes face that had closed in all of a sudden. His pupils constricted. He seemed to be in shock. This abrupt turn of the situation had left him dumbfounded. He had thought Xie He would deride him with disdain.

His body was stiff. He just stood there, letting Xie He kiss him. Everything was like a dream. He was afraid that if he moved, this beautiful dream would break.

Xie He kissed Lu Ting and then whispered in the others ear with a smile in his voice. Are you no longer scared?

Lu Ting was really nervous. He slowly raised his hand and gently pressed his palm against Xie Hes face, as if the other was the most precious treasure in the world. He gazed into the others eyes.

Afraid? He was afraid.This was the person he was most scared of losing.

But his yearning for this person overcame his fear. He wanted himhe didnt want to lose him.

Lu Ting pushed Xie He onto the bed and kissed him. It was gentle but full of love. He caressed Xie Hes body and stopped repressing his affection and desire. He made love to his beloved without any qualms, just like any other ordinary man.

Unbridled, he gave his love to this person, regardless of the binds that held them.

Lu Ting held Xie He tightly. He couldnt bear to let go. After going through those h.e.l.lish centuries, he was finally able to have such a blissful moment. He felt that if he were to die right now, he wouldnt have any regrets.

He would never let go again or leave. He would stay until the moment he died.

Lu Ting kissed Xie He pa.s.sionately. He was still a bit nervous. He had been a bit too excited just now because he had restrained himself for so long. Therefore, he had been a bit rough. He didnt know if Xie He would be angry.

At this moment, he suddenly heard the system notification that hadnt sounded for a long time.

Ding, the target Xie Hes Favourability Value +40. The current Favourability Value is 0.

Lu Ting

666I told you that itd be fine. You just have to work hard to please him and hell give you Favourability points for sure.This was the conclusion 666 had come up with after watching for twelve worlds!

Lu Ting

666On the up side, even though youre pretty useless right now, at least you can be a human vibrator? This is your only value as a member of society and the meaning of your existence.

Lu TingShut up.

Xie He snuggled up against him lazily, his eyes half-mast. There was a smile that wasnt quite a genuine smile in his eyes. Not bad.

Lu Tings expression was very complicated.

How could he not know that he had been played by now? Xie He hadnt fallen in love with the female lead at all, had he? How could someone like Xie He fall in love at first sight? It was because he had believed in the laws of fate too much that he had lost control of himself and ended up tricked.

Xie He beamed at Lu Ting. What deal did you make with Lord G.o.d?

When Lu Ting heard this, he fell silent. Hesitation flashed through his eyes but in the end, he still replied. First, we have to talk about the rules that govern Lord G.o.ds behaviour.

I told you before, in Lord G.o.ds eyes, everything is reduced to energy. The first rule it abides by is to take back as much energy as possible. Therefore, I had hypothesized that I could use this as a loophole.

Xie Hes lips curled up. It is able to take back the energy of this world and also create worlds with that same energy. It can take back energy from objects and also create anything in the system store with that same energy.

Lu Ting nodded. I also realized that. I knew that I only had this one chance. As long as I could make Lord G.o.d believe that it would be able to get a better deal by letting me come, compared to directly erasing your world, the contract could be established.

A typical E-ranked world takes about two to three hundred thousand experience points to form. Hosts can only obtain less than a tenth of that. The rest of it is taken back by Lord G.o.d. Furthermore, if Lord G.o.d wants to destroy a world by force, it would have to spend double that amount. Therefore, its not a very cost-effective plan.

As such, I worked hard to acc.u.mulate experience points and waited until Lord G.o.d had no choice but to act against you. I raised this transaction to Lord G.o.d. I told it that I was willing to pay the cost for constructing the worlds. Lord G.o.d wouldnt have to spend a single experience point. It only had to arrange everything and control the overall situation.If you lost, it could take back your world, as well as the experience points I spent. If I lost, you would only obtain less than a tenth of the experience points I spent and Lord G.o.d could take back everything else. Not only would it be able to eliminate a threat, it would also profit.

Lu Ting paused and then continued, Furthermore, there was a very important key factor. The power you hold is different from the experience points you use. As the protagonist of this world and a person who has defeated a hundred hosts, the energy you have obtained from this world is very potent. However, you cant use this power. Its a.s.similated into the world, so you cant use it to strike a deal with Lord G.o.d.If you want to exchange experience points for items, you have to be bound to a system. Its only with a system that you can get what you want from Lord G.o.d.

Xie He nodded. Lord G.o.d is so miserly. That fifty percent discount on the escape medicine wasnt from it, was it?

Lu Ting was a bit embarra.s.sed but still nodded. I paid for that.

Actually, not only did Lu Ting give up all the experience points he had, he had also been worried that an issue would crop up halfway and that Lord G.o.d would sense his real intentions.Therefore, he had established the strictest soul contract with Lord G.o.d. Lord G.o.d could not go against the terms of the contract before the game ended.

Indeed, Lord G.o.d had sensed a problem. However, Lord G.o.d could not kill them due to the contracts restriction. That was why it had only sealed Lu Tings memories and forced him to follow his mission more strictly.

He had been able to use a loophole against Lord G.o.d. Lord G.o.d could also work against him without violating the rules.

Lu Ting wrapped his arms around Xie He and looked at him with a fawning expression. Lets go back, okay?

Although Xie He didnt like Ruan Xiaoxuan, Lu Ting still didnt want to stay here.He didnt want to see Xie He and Ruan Xiaoxuan together ever again!

Xie He laughed. You get jealous so easily yet still try to pretend to be so magnanimous.

Lu Ting: .

Xie He flipped over and pressed down against Lu Tings body. He bent down to Lu Tings ears and chuckled. Since youve been so honest, Ill let you in on a little secret.

Do you know why Ive never fallen for anyone? Thats because.

I will never love someone who will leave me.

Eve: Ahh ahh ahh. I love Lu Tings little fit of jealousy. And then Xie Hes softening when he heard Lu Ting tell him he loved him. And that soft kiss. Im soooooooft.

sere: uwu the fluffy after all the pain is so nice, for once