Chapter 191 - I Have a Good Dad

Translated by Eve

Edited by Serefina

16. I Have a Good Dad

Liang Chengshan stared at Xie He. For a long time, he didnt react.

He had thought that he had already made all necessary mental preparations. But right now, seeing Xie He looking at him with antic.i.p.ation, treating him as Yang Jinhe realized that he hadnt been prepared at all.

He had never expected that this would happen.

Xie He saw that Liang Chengshan wasnt speaking and began to look nervous. He held the older man more tightly and cautiously asked, Dad, why arent you saying anything?

No. Im not your father. Your father was killed by me.

I personally killed him. And then I drove you mad. Im your enemy. A completely irreconcilable enemy.

Liang Chengshan shut his eyes, his heart cold and aching.

ButI cant say that out loud.

Ive already brought you so much pain. How could I bear to see you heartbroken and upset again? How could I bear to see you disappointed?

So Ill give you what you wish.

Ding, the target Liang Chengshans Favourability Value +1. The current Favourability Value is 98.

Liang Chengshan slowly reached out and returned Xie Hes embrace. He said, Dont be afraid. I came to take you home.

Xie He was surprised and overjoyed. But there was still a profound fear and unease in him. C-Can I really go home? I can leave this place?

Liang Chengshan nodded. Yes. Im sorry it took me so long.

Xie He looked at him with a childish admiration in his eyes. Its fine. Im really happy you came.

Liang Chengshan forced himself to smile. He held Xie Hes hand, helping him sit up on the bed. Then lets go home now.

Xie He was really happy. He held Liang Chengshans hand and walked out of the room with him. This time, no one stopped him. He could finally leave here! His dad had come to take him home!

Liang Chengshans secretary saw Xie Hes state and heaved a heavy sigh.

Kenny had been waiting outside. He had smoked several cigarettes. He had been told by Bishop that Xie He had lost it. When he saw Xie He obediently coming out while holding Liang Chengshans hand, he thought that the other had indeed gone crazy, considering how much he used to hate the older man. Otherwise, how could he look at Liang Chengshan without any hostility?

Kenny had also learned to behave himself. He didnt try to make things hard for Xie He. It was none of his business how Boss wanted to dote on him. He just had to fulfill his duty as a bodyguard. Moreover, what was there to bicker about with a pitiful person who had lost his marbles.

He adjusted his mentality and suddenly felt like he could accept it all. He went to respectfully pull the door open for Liang Chengshan.

At this moment, Xie He suddenly asked Liang Chengshan, Dad, is this your car?

Liang Chengshan smiled. Yes. Get in. Well be home soon.

Kennys expression warped. .

Dad

Xie He was even able to call him that. He had really lost it!!!

Liang Chengshan took Xie He back to his manor and softly asked him, Are you hungry?

Xie He rubbed his stomach and nodded.

Liang Chengshan immediately had the servants prepare them a meal. They made all of Xie Hes favourites. When Xie He saw the table full of food and Liang Chengshan sitting in front of him with a gentle, steady smile, tears suddenly started streaming down his face.

Liang Chengshans heart ached. He went over to wrap his arm around Xie He, wiping his face for him. With a soothing tone, he asked, Why are you crying? Are you unhappy?

Xie He sobbed. He said, No, Im just overcome with happiness. Ive been waiting for you all this time. I thought that I wouldnt see you again. Dad, dont leave me again, okay? You barely come home. Youre always away for work. You never have time for me. I really missed you.

I was really scared there all by myself.

Liang Chengshan pressed Xie Hes head against his chest. He didnt let him see the pain in his eyes.

Back then, when Yang Jin had been with them, none of them had known that he had a family. Yang Jin only went home a few times each year. He had left Yang Ling and his mother, who were forced to rely on each other, on their own. This childhad actually lacked paternal love since he had been young. Later on, after Yang Jin was exposed, Liang Chengshan had found him in less than a years time.

Yang Jin had then been killed by him.

Their family hadnt been whole for long before the happiness had endedYang Ling had become an orphan.

It was Liang Chengshan who had turned him into an orphan.

He had personally stolen from him the beautiful life he meant to have.

Liang Chengshan patted Xie Hes back softly and slowly said, I wont leave you again. Not unless Im dead.

When Xie He heard this, his tears turned into laughter. Mn.

Liang Chengshan covered up the suffering and sadness in his eyes. He was as gentle and warm as always. Eat quickly now. After you finish, rest early. Youve gotten thinner.

Xie He didnt eat well at the psychiatric hospital. He felt very at ease, seeing the table full of his favourites and his father by his side. He ate very happily.

After Xie He finished eating, Liang Chengshan had a change of clothes prepared for him and had him wash up. Xie He had still been wearing his wrinkly hospital gown. Xie He finished was.h.i.+ng up very quickly but wasnt willing to sleep by himself. He was insistent on sleeping with Liang Chengshan.

Liang Chengshan could only nod. So that Xie He would sleep soundly, Liang Chengshan held him in his arms.

Xie He slept very well in Liang Chengshans embrace. There was a small smile hanging on his lips and his face was thoroughly relaxed. There was an unprecedented calm and tranquility in him. He was like a child without any worries.

Liang Chengshans gaze bore into Xie Hes face. This was the person he loved so dearly.

He was currently lying in his arms peacefully, relying on him and trusting him in body and soul. But it was only because he had gone insane.

There was a chasm between them that couldnt be crossed, preventing them from ever being together. If he were to force it, all he would get is a pile of shattered fragments. He loved the other so much but he had destroyed him in the end.

This had been like a puzzle that couldnt be solved. His choices were to give up, or to destroy his beloved.

Right now, I finally know the answer to this problem.

If I had known what would have happened, I would have chosen to let go of you sooner. As long as youre doing well, even if youre not mine, that wouldnt have mattered.

Liang Chengshan lowered his head, pressing his lips against Xie Hes forehead. His intense eyes were filled with a sea of love, but there was also sorrow mixed in that couldnt be dispelled.

I killed your fatherso I will accept Heavens punishment. I will love you in place of your father.

I will do everything I can to make it up for you. I will give back everything I stole from you.

This is the punishment I deserve.

Xie He was lying on a soft, comfortable, fresh-scented bed and wrapped in a warm, wide embrace. It was completely different from that ice-cold room.When he woke up, he discovered that Liang Chengshan was still with him.

It was noon of the second day. Liang Chengshan hadnt had the heart to wake Xie He up. So, he held the other all this time, with one of his arms being used by Xie He as a pillow. He hadnt moved an inch the entire night. His arm had already lost all feeling, but there was no pain on Liang Chengshans face. He smiled gently at Xie He, Youre up.

Xie He s.h.i.+fted, sitting up in bed. His eyes were full of happiness as he looked at Liang Chengshan. Yes, Dad.

Liang Chengshan saw that Xie He intended to get up. He also s.h.i.+fted. However, his right arm was still very stiff, so he couldnt move it for the time being. He could only rub Xie Hes head with his other hand. Go get changed. Its time to eat.

Xie He didnt notice Liang Chengshans discomfort at all. He got up joyfully and went to get changed.

Liang Chengshan slowly got out of bed. When he raised his arm to put on his coat, his brows furrowed in pain. However, the pained look quickly eased and he went to take Xie He out.

Xie He was very dependent on Liang Chengshan. His eyes were constantly on him. Even when they were eating, he would occasionally look at Liang Chengshan. It was like he was afraid that Liang Chengshan would disappear in a moment of inattention.

Liang Chengshan smiled helplessly. Dont worry, Im here.

Xie He was a little embarra.s.sed. He lowered his head. Im scared youll suddenly disappear. It was like that in the past. You would always come home all of a sudden but would have to leave again soon after.Youd leave Mom and me at home.

Liang Chengshan looked heartbroken. Im sorry.

Xie He seemed to have suddenly thought of something. He asked Liang Chengshan, Dad, whered Mom go? I havent seen her in a long time. Where is she?

Liang Chengshans gaze grew distant as he recalled that woman. He had only seen Ji Ling once. That time, she hadnt hesitated to jump in front of Yang Jin and die under his gun. She had been an innocent, courageous woman.

Yang Lings mother had also been killed by him.

Liang Chengshan felt his heart throb in pain. It felt like his blood was being drained from his veins. He slowly spoke in a low voice, She went travelling. She wont be back for a while.

Xie He looked dejected. Mom doesnt want us? Why did she go away for so long?

Liang Chengshan looked at him. Of course not. Shes only gone for a little while. She would never throw you away.

Xie He took in Liang Chengshans earnest and firm expression and was finally convinced. He flashed a radiant smile. Mn, Mom loves me the most! I also think that shed never throw me away! Ill wait for her to come back!

Liang Chengshan nodded. Good.

After saying this, he didnt dare meet Xie Hes eyes. He could only turn his face away so that the other wouldnt see the pain in his eyes.

Im sorry. The person youre waiting for will never come back.

Liang Chengshan had gone to great pains to take Xie He out of the psychiatric hospital. He could see that Xie Hes state wasnt very stable, so he didnt leave the house for several days. He spent all his time with Xie He inside the manor. He cared for him and cherished him as if he really was the others father.

When one loved someone enough, one would no longer care about how one was spending time with them. As long as Xie He was happy, Liang Chengshan was willing to continue like this forever, pretending to be the others father.

He was willing to give Xie He anything he wanted.

His formidable self-control that he was immensely proud of, as well as his shrewdness, allowed him to conceal his pain. He would only let Xie He see the sides of him that Xie He wanted to see.

He would bear the weight of his ugly, rotten sins by himself.

Another couple of days pa.s.sed. Liang Chengshan had some business to attend to and had no choice but to leave the house. He hesitated before asking Xie He, I have to go out for a bit today but will be back soon. Are you okay staying home on your own?

Xie He really didnt want to. But he knew that his father had to go to work, and that he couldnt spend all his time at home with him. Therefore, he nodded.

Liang Chengshan didnt feel a.s.sured. He ordered the servants and the bodyguards repeatedly to take good care of Xie He before leaving.

As soon as Liang Chengshan left, Xie Hes smile fell from his face. He became quiet and reticent. He sat on the sofa in the lounge with no intentions of going anywhere else.

The butler cautiously asked, Young master, do you want to watch TV? Or take a walk in the garden?

Xie He shook his head silently.

Xie HeIts definitely better with Uncle Liang. My quality of life here is so much higher here. Honestly speaking, the psychiatric hospital really isnt somewhere people can live. Its not easy for me with what I have to do for the sake of Favourability points. Smile.JPG

444NodNodNod.GIFIt had been really terrible there. It had been really hard to give Host

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special treatment there in secret. He was watched all day long. It was just barely better than the little black room.

Xie HeUncle Liang has really good situational awareness. Hes actually good at being a dad. This just shows that sometimes, when someone doesnt do something well, it doesnt necessarily mean that they cant do it, they just dont want to do it. If he was willing to treat Liang Ze even a tenth of how well he treats me, Liang Ze wouldnt have blackened. Truly a pitiful child. Tut tut.

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Xie HeAlthough hes really pitiful, I cant let him go because I want those experience points. Keep a look out for news of Liang Ze, Baby.

444(v) Mn!

Xie HeIm really pleased with Dad Edition Uncle Liang. But if we continue like this, the Favourability Value wont rise. Its about time to give him a little surprise. Smile.JPG

444Im shaking._(:)_

Xie He waited at home in silence. His ears were p.r.i.c.ked, trying to listen for any sounds of movement from the other side of the door. Finally, he heard those familiar footsteps. A smile immediately bloomed on his face and he jumped off of the sofa, das.h.i.+ng to the front door. Because he was too much in a hurry, he tripped and fell onto the floor. His knees stung but he didnt care. He continued to run outside and charged straight into Liang Chengshans arms.

Liang Chengshan wrapped his arms around Xie He and scolded him lovingly. What are you running so quickly for? Be careful not to fall.

Xie He hugged him. Ive been waiting for you. I missed you so much.

Liang Chengshan shut his eyes. Every time he heard Xie He say things like this, he couldnt help but think of when Xie He had ben in his right mind.That gaze full of hatred constantly reminded him that none of this was real.

Every sliver of this beautiful illusion was evidence of his sins.

Liang Chengshan carried Xie He to the sofa. He said, You hurt your knee.

Xie He only seemed to notice it now. He felt his knees sting.

Liang Chengshans heart ached. He went to get some cotton swabs and rubbing alcohol. He then rolled Xie Hes pants up gently, revealing the others injured knees. There was a bit of blood oozing from the wound.

Xie He looked down. When he saw the bloodhis face paled and his breathing turned frantic. His eyes closed and he fainted!

Liang Chengshan hadnt yet treated Xie Hes wounds when he saw Xie He suddenly faint. His expression changed at once. He immediately had his butler call for a doctor.

He paced back and forth anxiously, waiting in the living room.

The doctor arrived very quickly. He examined Xie He carefully and then asked Liang Chengshan about what had happened. Not knowing whether to laugh or cry, he said, Hes fine. He just fainted at the sight of blood.

Liang Chengshan didnt feel relieved. His expression sunk slightly, as if he didnt believe the doctor. He fainted because he saw blood?

The doctor nodded. Yes.

Liang Chengshan was silent for a while before he nodded. I understand.

The doctor treated Xie Hes knees before leaving.

Only then did Liang Chengshan come over to Xie Hes side. He held the other gently and gazed at Xie Hes pale face. Fainting at the sight of blood? How was that possible? He hadnt forgotten that Xie He used to be his most efficient subordinate. He had been coldhearted, killing people without blinking an eye. He had been so determined when attempting to a.s.sa.s.sinate Liang Chengshan too. How could a sharp, dangerous being like this, who was always treading the line between life and death, faint at the sight of blood?

He caressed Xie Hes cheek. Pain acc.u.mulated in his eyes. He had made the person he loved most become like this.

Xie He woke up, consciousness murky. He found himself in bed. Liang Chengshan still held him, but the gaze the other used to look at him was more profound than before, as if there was some kind of indescribable, heavy sorrow in those eyes.

Xie He didnt understand. He pressed closely against Liang Chengshan, his voice trembling. Im really scared.

Liang Chengshan stroked him softly. Dont be afraid.

Xie He calmed down under Liang Chengshans ministrations. He finally smiled. Luckily Dads here. I dont have to think of anything or fear anything if Dads protecting me. I like my life right now.

Liang Chengshan nodded and earnestly stressed, I will always protect you.

He said this very calmly, but no one knew just how much pain he felt inside.

YesXie He wanted a peaceful life like this. If he had had parental love and a complete family, he would not have been controlled by his hatred from a young age. He would be living a blissful, serene life right now.

He wouldnt have had to see bloodshed. He wouldnt have had to kill. If they had a choice, who would be willing to walk along the blade of a knife and be faced with danger with every step of the way? Who wouldnt want to lead a peaceful, stable life?

The damage Liang Chengshan had inflicted on Xie He had not started when he had imprisoned him. It had begun much, much earlier.

If it werent for him, Xie He wouldnt have had to learn how to kill people. He wouldnt have had to conceal his ident.i.ty and infiltrate his organization. He wouldnt have had to do all those things he hadnt wanted to do. He wouldnt have had to discard his conscience. He wouldnt have had to force himself to become a cold-blooded, ruthless person.

He wasnt that type of person. He had been a very good child. But it had been Liang Chengshan that had pushed him onto the road of revenge.

Liang Chengshan held Xie He tightly.

What should I do to help you get better? Or should I let you continue on like this, let you forget about all that pain?

I dont know what to do. This is the first time I dont know what to do.

Regardless of whether I go forward or back, a bottomless pit awaits me.

Xie He stayed at home with his mind at ease. He was a very good child who was never fussy. In the beginning, he stuck to Liang Chengshan. But later on, he seemed to develop new hobbies. He began to take up drawing.

He drew at the level of an elementary school-aged child, likely a reflection of his mental age. But regardless of what he drew, Liang Chengshan would always encourage him and praise him gently.

This made Xie He very happy.

Xie He practiced for some time. One day, when Liang Chengshan came back from work, he watched as Xie He happily handed todays drawing to him, as if presenting a treasure.

He had drawn three peoplethere was a little child holding the hands of the adults on either side of him. Xie He pointed to the people in his drawing and said, This is Dad, this is Mom, and this is me. Is my drawing pretty?

Liang Chengshan felt his heart clench. He quietly said, Very pretty.

Xie He was ecstatic. But his mood dampened right after. He said, Why hasnt Mom come home yet. When will she come home?

Liang Chengshan didnt have an answer for this. He could only say, Shell be home really soon.

Xie He was still in low spirits. He had waited for so long. Dad always said that she would be back really soonbut Mom had never come back.

After dinner, Liang Chengshan held Xie He as they lied in bed. With a gentle voice, he said, Sleep early.

Xie He didnt sleep. His bright eyes were opened wide. He stared at Liang Chengshan and then suddenly kissed Liang Chengshan on the lips.

Liang Chengshan was startled. There was the cool scent of the person he loved on his lips. It intoxicated him. But he hadnt forgotten that Xie He still thought that he was Yang Jin right now. This wasnt right.

He pulled Xie He away from him, his expression rather stern. What are you doing?

Xie He looked helpless. He had never seen Liang Chengshan look so stern. He timidly said, Are you angry?

Liang Chengshan sucked in a deep breath. You shouldnt do that.

Xie He looked like he didnt understand what was happening. He subconsciously felt like Liang Chengshan would like this. He felt puzzled. Dont you like me kissing you? I thought you would like it.

Pain emerged in Liang Chengshans eyes. He does like itbut he couldnt accept Xie He doing this right now. It would only cause him more pain.

Because the current Xie Hethought he was Yang Jin.

Xie Hes eyes turned watery and he spoke in an aggrieved tone. I just want to make you happy. I dont know what I can do for you. I just knew that this was supposed to make you happy. Dad, bring Mom home for me, please?

Bring Mom home for me. Ill be good. Ill make you happy. I really miss Mom.

As Liang Chengshan heard Xie He speak, he felt his heart tear into millions of pieces.

He couldnt do it. He wasnt omnipotent.He couldnt bring back the dead. He couldnt help the person he loved return to normal.

He couldnt give Xie He a normal life. He couldnt give him back his deceased parents.

He could never make up for the harm he had caused.

Liang Chengshan suddenly hugged Xie He tightly, subduing the others uneasy struggles. He held him tightly. This was the only wayhe could ascertain that the person in his arms was still warm.

The person he loved still lived, just like he had wanted. But to live like thishe might be better off dead.

Xie He watched as Liang Chengshan hugged him tightly like this, not responding to his questions. He didnt dare move. He felt like there was something off about Liang Chengshans emotions. However, he quickly fell asleep, held in this warm embrace. It was just that Liang Chengshan still hadnt promised to bring his mother back.

Liang Chengshan felt the breath of the young man in his arms even out. He rested his chin on the top of the others hand, his hold tightening slowly. He was shaking slightly.

He didnt move for a long time. He then slowly craned his head down and placed a yearning, affectionate kiss against Xie Hes hair. He then spoke with a quiet, hoa.r.s.e voice.

If you get betterIll let you kill me yourself.

So get better, okay?

Ding, the target Liang Chengshans Favourability Value +1. The current Favourability Value is 99.

sere: oofie right in the feelz. You deserved it u t.u.r.d

Eve: This world will wrap up in the next chapter. Then, we start the final world and finally get to meet ML. This is it guys~ The moment weve all been waiting for is coming~