"Goodbye, Crystal." He spoke in a distant tone to my mother.

She didn't respond. North looked at me, reaching out to hand me the picture of me and my mother beside the campfire.

"You take care, Liv."

I nodded. I pushed the photo into my pocket, where the medallion was safely tucked away. Other people came out to say goodbye, but my mother didn't let me linger. Within fifteen minutes we were on the road. I sat hunched against the passenger door, my arms tight around myself.

"You tried to sleep with him last night, didn't you?" My question came out bitter and sharp. It was the only weapon I had. "And he rejected you."

"Shut up, Liv."

I could almost see it-Crystal standing at the doorway of North's bedroom, all soft blond hair and creamy skin, her robe lowered just enough to show a hint of cleavage. But North hadn't wanted her. Or if he had, not like that, not her sexuality, cold as a diamond beneath her beauty. Her humiliation must still be scorching her from the inside out.

Because everyone wanted my mother.

"You'd never be good enough for him," I said. "He turned you out like the whore you are, didn't he?"

She reached across the seat and slapped my face. I pressed my hand to my cheek. Tears stung my eyes. I knew then that I would leave my mother.

I will not be like you, I thought. I will never be like you.

CHAPTER ELEVEN.

Olivia an I come in?" my mother asks.

Her question breaks me from my shock. "What... what are you doing here?"

"I wanted to see you." She stands, running her hands over her thighs. "It's been a while."

"Yes, it has."

We look at each other for a second before Crystal picks up two bags on the bottom step. My hand shakes as I dig into my pocket for my keys and pass her on the stairs. I unlock the door and push it open, stepping aside to let her enter before me. She smells like lavender. Her favorite scent.

She drops her bag and a square, leather case on the floor, casting a glance around the apartment.

"Cute," she remarks. "Looks like a place you'd see in a magazine. How to make the most of a small space."

I follow her to the living room. I can't stop staring at her, some part of my brain registering the changes wrought by the past three years.

Her pale skin is uncreased by age, and she looks thinner, her pronounced cheekbones emphasizing her blue eyes framed by incredibly thick lashes. Her long hair is the color of wheat, streaked with red in the light, falling in waves around her shoulders. She's wearing jeans and a loose, floral-print blouse beneath a cream-colored leather jacket.

She's beautiful. She's always been beautiful. Slender like a dancer. Small-breasted, lithe. Though I'm a couple of inches shorter than she is, I'm heavier, curvier. Bigger.

Crystal is looking at me as if she's assessing me the way I am her.

"It's good to see you, Liv."

"Thanks."

"Where were you?" she asks.

"Working." I go into the kitchen and start to make a pot of coffee just to have something to do. "Where did you get in from?"

"Indianapolis." She follows me and leans against the doorjamb. "I was visiting some friends."

"You're still making jewelry?"

"Yes. I go to art fairs when I can but my car is on its last legs. I need to get it fixed soon." She glances around the kitchen. "So where's your husband?"

"He's..." Shit. I have no idea how to explain that Dean is staying in a hotel without sounding like we're having marital problems. "He's working too."

He's also coming over in close to an hour.

"He'll be here soon." I turn on the coffeepot. "Help yourself to whatever you want from the fridge. I'm going to take a shower."

I go into the bedroom and strip out of my clothes. Not even the hot spray of the shower eases the apprehension tensing my shoulders. I'd had tonight's outfit all planned, but I can't go out with Dean and leave my mother here alone. And certainly he can't come in and have the evening we'd both been hoping for.

I pull on a pair of jeans and a fleece shirt before returning to the living room.

Crystal is sitting on the sofa, rummaging through her bag. She takes an elastic band and winds her hair up into a long ponytail. Her movements are graceful and unconsciously elegant. Exactly the way I remember.

As a girl, I would watch in silence as my mother brushed and arranged her hair. Then when she'd leave, I would do the same thing with my own hair, looking in the mirror as I tried to copy her movements.

"So how long do you think you'll be in town?" I ask, attempting to keep my voice casual.

"A few days," she says. "Can I crash on your sofa?"

Crash on your sofa. Sometimes she'd ask a man that question when she was looking for a place to stay, but far more often than not, she didn't have to ask because they just invited her. And she didn't crash on their sofas... she always ended up in their beds.

"No," I tell her. "There's really not enough room here, as you pointed out."

"I don't take up much space." She eyes me with a touch of offense. "After all this time, you're seriously not going to let me stay?"

"Crystal, Dean lives here too. There's not enough room for the three of us." I don't think there's enough room in Mirror Lake for the three of us.

Dean and Crystal have only met once-for about an hour when we were living in LA. I'd heard from Aunt Stella that Crystal was staying in Riverside, so I contacted her to tell her I was married and ask if we could see her.

We met at a diner in Riverside for lunch. Though Dean already had an intense dislike for Crystal from the things I'd told him, he'd made an effort to be polite. Crystal was faintly hostile, annoyed that I hadn't told her I was getting married, and then defensive when I'd said I hadn't known where she was.

All in all, it hadn't gone well. Since then, Dean has not given a damn where Crystal is or what she's doing, as long as she stays far away from me.

I look at the clock. My stomach is tight.

"I'll help you find a hotel room, if you want," I tell her as I go to the door. "But you can't stay here."

I step onto the landing and close the door behind me before going downstairs. Not five minutes later, Dean crosses the street toward the building and opens the foyer door. Warmth fills his expression when he sees me, but his smile fades as he recognizes something is wrong.

"What?" he asks.

I grab his arm and lead him outside, where I know my mother can't overhear us. My heart seizes with nervousness. I take a breath before speaking.

"Dean, my mother is here."

"What?" His eyes flash, his body stiffening with that protective instinct I know so well. "When did she arrive?"

"A couple of hours ago."

"What's she doing here?"

"She said she wanted to see me."

"Sure, after all these years, she wants to see you."

My stomach roils at the irritated tone in his voice. And, unexpectedly, I experience a surge of hurt at the implication that my mother does not, in fact, want to see me.

"Where is she?" Dean asks.

"Upstairs."

He reaches for the door. I grab his arm.

"Dean, don't."

"I want to talk to her." He yanks his arm from my grip and pulls open the door.

"No!" The word comes out like a bullet, surprising both of us.

He stops and turns to face me. I reach for his arm again. My heart is racing.

"I can handle it," I tell him. "She asked to stay here, but I told her she couldn't."

"Damned right she can't," he snaps. "How much money does she want to get the hell out of town?"

"She... she hasn't asked for any money."

"She will." His expression is set hard, all the warmth from just minutes ago dissolved into anger. "Give her whatever she wants, then tell her to go."

"Dean." I can't untangle the emotions spinning through me... lingering shock and confusion that my mother is here, and frustration that my husband is issuing dictates about what I should do.

"I can handle this myself," I say, my own voice hardening. "She's my mother. I don't need you to tell me what to do."

Irritation darkens his eyes. "Find a hotel room for her. I'll pay for it, since I doubt she can afford it. I don't want her near you."

"Dean! Stop it." Though I understand the root of his anger-God knows I've felt the same thing toward my mother over the years-I'm overcome by the need to keep him out of it, to prove to both him and myself that I can handle it.

I have a sudden flashback to the times I've witnessed Dean's rage toward people he views as a threat-his brother, Tyler Wilkes-and how everything leading up to those encounters and their aftermath almost broke us apart.

Fear stabs through me. Somehow, I manage to get myself between Dean and the door. I put my hands on his chest to keep him from pushing past me.

"Look, I'm going back upstairs," I tell him. "You go back to the hotel. It's getting late, so she might stay for one night, but that's it. I promise, I'll find a place for her to stay tomorrow."

His jaw clenches. "I'm coming home tomorrow."

Of course he is. He's going to swoop down and spread his eagle wings around me, even if I don't want to hide behind them anymore.

I'm struck by an unpleasant sense that how we both approach this new situation is critical. I curl my fingers into the lapels of Dean's coat and yank him toward me.

"Dean." My voice is stern and unwavering. "Look at me."

He does. His eyes are still glittering with anger and determination, his mouth compressed into a line. I use all my strength to give him a hard shake.

"Stop it," I snap. "Just stop it. I'm not a child anymore, and she can't hurt me the way she once did. Have you forgotten that I walked away from her when I was thirteen years old? I did that by myself. And you sure as hell are not coming home just because she's here, just so you can stand guard."

I take a breath and shake him again. "When you come home, professor, you're coming home for me, for us. You're coming home because you're back for good, and because home is where you belong. You are not coming home because you're angry and need to control everything. You are not coming home to shield me from a woman I've barely seen in sixteen years."

I push on his chest to make him step away. "Now you go back to the hotel and cool off. I'm going to go upstairs and talk to my mother. Don't you dare call me until tomorrow. In fact, just wait until I call you. Do you understand me?"

For a few seconds, he doesn't respond, doesn't even react aside from staring at me with that set expression. Finally, though, he nods. His jaw tightens at the same time, but it's a definite nod.

"Good." I move back toward the door. "Go. I'll talk to you tomorrow."

I wait until he turns and walks away, his stride long and rapid. Only when he disappears around the corner do I go back upstairs. A memory pushes at me of last December when I'd let Kelsey deal with an enraged Dean instead of doing it myself.

Not this time.

My heart is pounding hard as I go back into the apartment. Crystal is still in the living room, leafing through a magazine. She glances up.

"Was that your husband?"

"Yes. He had to leave again."

"He's not sleeping here?"

"No." I suddenly wonder why I even care what Crystal thinks of my relationship with Dean. I don't owe her any explanations. I don't owe her anything. "Actually, he's staying in a hotel down the street for a few days."

"Oh." She frowns, clearly coming to the obvious, though mistaken, conclusion. "So, what's the problem with me staying here then?"

"I don't think it's a good idea," I tell her. "That's the problem."

The problem is also that I'm pretty sure Dean was right when he said Crystal doesn't have the money for a hotel room.

I won't let Dean pay for one either, and I'm not too enthused about the idea of using my money, which is earmarked for the cafe. But I will if I have to.