Lights from the concrete ceiling hang crooked but-- Poised horizontal on glittering parallels the dingy cylinders packed with a warm glow--inviting entry-- pull against the hour. But brakes can hold a fixed posture till-- The whistle!

Not twoeight. Not twofour. Two!

Gliding windows. Colored cooks sweating in a small kitchen. Taillights--

In time: twofour!

In time: twoeight!

--rivers are tunneled: trestles cross oozy swampland: wheels repeating the same gesture remain relatively stationary: rails forever parallel return on themselves infinitely.

The dance is sure.

ROMANCE MODERNE

Tracks of rain and light linger in the spongy greens of a nature whose flickering mountain--bulging nearer, ebbing back into the sun hollowing itself away to hold a lake,-- or brown stream rising and falling at the roadside, turning about, churning itself white, drawing green in over it,--plunging gla.s.sy funnels fall-- And--the other world-- the windshield a blunt barrier: Talk to me. Sh! they would hear us.

--the backs of their heads facing us-- The stream continues its motion of a hound running over rough ground.

Trees vanish--reappear--vanish: detached dance of gnomes--as a talk dodging remarks, glows and fades.

--The unseen power of words-- And now that a few of the moves are clear the first desire is to fling oneself out at the side into the other dance, to other music.

Peer Gynt. Rip Van Winkle. Diana.

If I were young I would try a new alignment-- alight nimbly from the car, Good-bye!-- Childhood companions linked two and two criss-cross: four, three, two, one.

Back into self, tentacles withdrawn.

Feel about in warm self-flesh.

Since childhood, since childhood!

Childhood is a toad in the garden, a happy toad. All toads are happy and belong in gardens. A toad to Diana!

Lean forward. Punch the steersman behind the ear. Twirl the wheel!

Over the edge! Screams! Crash!

The end. I sit above my head-- a little removed--or a thin wash of rain on the roadway --I am never afraid when he is driving,-- interposes new direction, rides us sidewise, unforseen into the ditch! All threads cut!

Death! Black. The end. The very end--

I would sit separate weighing a small red handful: the dirt of these parts, sliding mists sheeting the alders against the touch of fingers creeping to mine. All stuff of the blind emotions.

But--stirred, the eye seizes for the first time--The eye awake!-- anything, a dirt bank with green stars of scrawny weed flattened upon it under a weight of air--For the first time!-- or a yawning depth: Big!

Swim around in it, through it-- all directions and find vitreous seawater stuff-- G.o.d how I love you!--or, as I say, a plunge into the ditch. The end. I sit examining my red handful. Balancing --this--in and out--agh.

Love you? It's a fire in the blood, w.i.l.l.y-nilly!

It's the sun coming up in the morning.

Ha, but it's the grey moon too, already up in the morning. You are slow.

Men are not friends where it concerns a woman? Fighters. Playfellows.

White round thighs! Youth! Sighs--!

It's the fillip of novelty. It's--

Mountains. Elephants humping along against the sky--indifferent to light withdrawing its tattered shreds, worn out with embraces. It's the fillip of novelty. It's a fire in the blood.

Oh get a flannel shirt, white flannel or pongee. You'd look so well!

I married you because I liked your nose.

I wanted you! I wanted you in spite of all they'd say--

Rain and light, mountain and rain, rain and river. Will you love me always?

--A car overturned and two crushed bodies under it.--Always! Always!

And the white moon already up.

White. Clean. All the colors.

A good head, backed by the eye--awake!

backed by the emotions--blind-- River and mountain, light and rain--or rain, rock, light, trees--divided: rain-light counter rocks-trees or trees counter rain-light-rocks or--

Myriads of counter processions crossing and recrossing, regaining the advantage, buying here, selling there --You are sold cheap everywhere in town!-- lingering, touching fingers, withdrawing gathering forces into blares, hummocks, peaks and rivers--river meeting rock --I wish that you were lying there dead and I sitting here beside you.-- It's the grey moon--over and over.

It's the clay of these parts.

THE DESOLATE FIELD

Vast and grey, the sky is a simulacrum to all but him whose days are vast and grey, and-- In the tall, dried gra.s.ses a goat stirs with nozzle searching the ground.

--my head is in the air but who am I...?

And amazed my heart leaps at the thought of love vast and grey yearning silently over me.

WILLOW POEM

It is a willow when summer is over, a willow by the river from which no leaf has fallen nor bitten by the sun turned orange or crimson.

The leaves cling and grow paler, swing and grow paler over the swirling waters of the river as if loath to let go, they are so cool, so drunk with the swirl of the wind and of the river-- oblivious to winter, the last to let go and fall into the water and on the ground.

APPROACH OF WINTER

The half stripped trees struck by a wind together, bending all, the leaves flutter drily and refuse to let go or driven like hail stream bitterly out to one side and fall where the salvias, hard carmine,-- like no leaf that ever was-- edge the bare garden.

JANUARY

Again I reply to the triple winds running chromatic fifths of derision outside my window: Play louder.

You will not succeed. I am bound more to my sentences the more you batter at me to follow you.

And the wind, as before, fingers perfectly its derisive music.