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Sons of the North: The Warlord's Wife Part 28

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There once was a little girl who had a very hard time learning to read and an even harder time learning to write. She had fallen into the cracks of busy parents and an ill-funded school system. She grew up feeling stupid and used her untapped imagination to talk her way into the next grade every year.

It's hard to shake off the feeling the label "stupid" gives a girl. Even well into adulthood, with hard-earned, tangible successes to show for herself, that little girl always thought of herself as dumb.

No one in my life did more for me in overcoming this ingrained feeling than four strangers.

I will always be grateful and would like to give thanks to: Jacki G. Your kind words of encouragement and invaluable online beta help changed my life, literally. You gave me confidence and planted a literary dream in me that I never would have dreamed for myself.

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I thank the Pilates Goddess Karen, who arranged a chance introduction with a successful new author by the name Coreene Callahan.

Thank you, Coreene, for the long talks in the Pilates studio parking lot and coffee shops. Over the last few years, every one of your suggestions and tips has paid off.

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Available June 2015 from InterMix Higher and higher the breeze carried the fluttering, yellow creature. Shading his eyes, Lothair watched, waited, until an upward gust sent the butterfly over the gray stone wall. A linked crown of iron thorns garnished the top of the outer walls. Fearlessly, the beautiful creature came to rest on the point of a razor sharp spike.

Lothair stood with his arms folded as he stared up, contemplating the enormity of Tronscar's keep. The soft, natural beauty of flora and fauna contrasted with the manmade designs, all of which seemed to be designed to glorify steel and weaponry-the tangible representation of Tronscar's lust for war, power, and blood. Lady Katia was hidden somewhere deep inside those thick layers of stone and iron. At this very moment, she might be looking down on him out of the colored glass windows of one of the high chambers.

Lothair looked away. Life would be simpler if she did not already possess a corner of his mind, if she wasn't so captivating. He continued to count the spikes on the west parapet wall. The more he tried to push her out of his thoughts, the more she dug in. She smiled for everyone, for everything, all the time. Lothair could now easily read the differences in all her smiles. For her young female companions, she had smirks and endless giggles that filled the halls and yards with constant female chattering and laughter. For the servant that brought her the bread, she smiled genuinely. For the duke, his own unworthy father, who kept trying to engage her in conversation in Saxon, she forged a grimace-smile.

After Lothair had been seated next to her for a few meals, the jarl seemed to take notice of her smiling in the young swordsman's direction. They were seated apart after that. Her father had apparently also noticed that she smiled differently for different people.

By the end of the weeklong visit, Lothair was anxious to leave Tronscar. The iron palace was undeniably impressive. Every square inch was carved with intricate patterns. Brightly polished steel and silver works were inlaid into tools and instruments. The custom in the castles of Deutschland he had visited was for the officers to be offered a place to sleep by the hearth in the main hall, with the lower ranked soldiers housed in the haylofts and outbuildings. Not so in Tronscar. Every man was provided a bed. The secondary barracks offered the visiting envoy bunks, stacked five men high by twenty rows deep. The private chambers given to the noblemen were massive in scale, with beds that had plush mattresses of soft linens, furs, and thick wool. The wooden doorframes were carved with forest creatures in a labyrinth of vines.

To understand the character of the Jarl of Tronscar, a man need not look further than the Great Hall: power and wealth balanced alongside art and function. Nothing in Tronscar was not without thought, purpose and design, with the exception perhaps of the opinionated princess that lived above stairs.

Lothair scratched his head, trying to uproot the flower-scented memory of her hair. The harder he worked to not think of the feisty little imp, the more his head rebelled by tormenting him with the remembrance of her last smile and the last searing touch of her small hand upon his.

Nay, he refused to think of her again. The training yards were what he would commit to memory. Aye, an orderly system where bloodthirsty men worked hard every day to improve their skill in killing one another-that was what was truly impressive about this fortress, and nothing more. One day he would replicate much of the well-organized grounds. He had committed to memory his lengthy discussion with the blacksmiths on how to improve on the strength of Lubeck's steel. He had learned much about the crafting of weaponry, including new methods to smelt and forge iron.

Lothair found such topics endlessly interesting, but the problem was she found such topics endlessly interesting too, and had been a continual presence at his side, ruining the experience. She was part of every one of his memories from Tronscar and he knew not yet how to extract her from his mind, yet he must quickly find a way.

Lothair needed time and distance from Katia's distracting smiles. He prided himself on being disciplined and she was clearly sent to test him. He resolved to think of his little sister as much as possible, asking himself what he would want a twenty-year-old soldier to do in Margery's presence. Over and over he would lecture himself, repeating all of the reasons why Katia's smiles and soft, sweet-natured laughs had no effect on him and never would. She was simply a training tool to help him become the most focused warrior possible.

Lothair needed a hard ride to clear his head. He marched faster toward the stables to borrow a horse.

"Lothair!" Lars, a fellow warrior who had grown up in a neighboring village, walked towards him from across the cobblestone yard. "Going to try and ride off some steam, brother?"

"Something like that," he said. Lothair took a second look at Lars, whose usual mangy flop of black curls was now freshly clean and tied back with a thong. Lothair knew his friend only bathed for two reasons: either to soothe his mother's temper or to impress a maid.

"What have you done?" he asked. He knew that look. Lars was an impulsive lout-some poor Norrland maid would be mourning his loss by morrow's dawn.

"Nothing." Lars lied poorly. "Can I borrow a few coin?"

Lothair sighed, knowing he would probably regret what he was about to do, but also knowing he could never abandon a mate in need. "Do not make me regret this. You know the instruction from the duke, 'no Norrland brawling and no maidens bawling'."

"A mate of the highest order." Lars rubbed his hands together in anticipation.

Lothair retrieved his purse, unloaded a fair share to his friend, and wished him luck.

The lower bailey was unusually quiet for a change. Most of the men were probably stealing a midday slumber, trying to sleep off the drink from the night before, and the servants and squires would no doubt be packing up for the coming departure. The envoy, along with a large Norrland escort, would be riding out at first light. Lothair was wishing it were already tomorrow.

Lothair arrived at the stables, where the stable master told him that the barracks horses could not be spared. The only beast not spoken for was a massive warhorse at the end of the stable that he warned Lothair to borrow at his own risk. Apparently, the black stallion was known for taking a pound of flesh from each man who dared ride him.

Lothair approached the horse slowly, from a diagonal angle, with his head slightly bowed. He avoided making eye contact and allowed the brute to get a scent and sense of him before tentatively leaning his arms across the top of the half door that penned the creature in.

The height and breath of the horse were impressive. He snorted and stomped a curious greeting to Lothair. After a few quiet moments, a black nose pushed against Lothair's arm. He slowly reached for the bridle and rubbed the beast's nose. "Big, grand fella like you won't bite me, will you?" he whispered in Saxon.

Lothair slowly slipped into the enclosure, which he suspected was reserved to keep the troublesome beast from picking fights with the gentler stock. He offered an apple and was rewarded with a soft nudge to his shoulder for more. "You are a beauty, aren't you?" He stroked down the horse's front quarter, hopefully building enough trust that he could venture a ride without spooking the fine creature.

"I couldn't agree with you more," Katia said softly. She had appeared in the closed stall without a sound.

"How did you get in here?" He twisted, looking around the high-walled pen. The gate was still latched. She must have scaled the sidewall without him noticing.

"His name is Thunder. Did you know I was the first to ride him?" she said, smiling at Lothair. "The Mogador tribe that held him beat him and he could not look at a man without a desire to take a chunk out of his shoulder, but I saw through his ill-temper and loved him straight away." Thunder stomped his front hoof, jerked his head up, and let out a loud high-pitched neigh of agreement. Katia laughed and stroked the horse, calming him back down.

"You should not be here," he whispered, looking over the half wall. "Your father would not approve of you alone with a strange man in a closed stall."

She kept smiling at him, the wrong kind of smile. The kind of smile that told him she was happy and truly excited about something.

"You are not a strange man. You are Lothair, my . . . friend." She bit her lip and stepped closer to him.

"I am four years older than you." He raised his hand in warning and stepped back.

"I know. You also have a sister named Margery and your first love will always be the sea." She raised her brow in a challenge.

"Who told you that?" Someone had betrayed his confidence.

"You did, mostly, don't you remember? Last night sitting around the bonfire with Tosha and Lars . . . you did drink quite a lot of my uncle Hk's brew."

"What did I say?" He swallowed hard, trying not to panic or turn red in front of her. He honestly had no memory of the night before.

She giggled at him in her soft, calculated way. "Just your sister's name and the sea part. I figured out your age the first night you were here." She leaned against the wall, not looking like she was going to leave any time soon. "I saw you fight this morning. Your competition was weak. I think he may have still been drunk." She giggled.

"What did I say about the sea?" He closed his eyes, trying to remember.

"Nothing really, just that you are never going to wed anything but your ship. I was relieved to know that there will always be at least one ship out patrolling for pirates, keeping us all safe." She dropped her smile and became suddenly more serious. "Truly, Lothair, I think you should tell my father about your passion. I know you think he is just like the rest of them, bent on power and wealth, but I swear he is not. He cares more about one average tradesmen then he does a castle of dignitaries. The lives of his merchants and craftsmen are as dear to him as any of his noble relations. He wants wealth and power, yes, but it is to better protect and serve his people of Norrland. I guarantee that if you ask him for a commission to sail one of his ships in order to protect the Baltic traders, he would be the first to sign on."

"Katia." Her name caught in his throat. It sounded too intimate. "I never said your father was not a righteous man. He has a fair reputation. Still, his father did not, and there are thousands of his countrymen that do not. This is the land of Viking bloodlines. I wouldn't expect your father to put up steel against his own."

"That is where you are wrong." Her eyes sparkled with trust and eagerness. "If trade ships are under attack, he will want to do the right thing."

"Supporting the duke's peace and trade agreement is the first step." Lothair could not help but grin down at her bright face, flushed pink from her innocent enthusiasm. He knew of few maidens, certainly none in Saxony, who took an interest in world politics. But the jarl's daughter was no typical maiden, was she? Her delicate form contradicted her strength and her sharp tongue was masked beneath virtuous femininity. If she hasn't been born female, he guessed he would have been able to classify her among his closest friends. Nevertheless, she was a beautiful young maiden and their paths were set-they could never be friends. Both his father and her father would surely flog him within an inch of his life for even imagining a friendship with the innocent princess.

Katia's heart pulsed in her throat. Her body hummed with anticipation, as it always did in Lothair's company. He was so close to her, yet so far away. She longed to reach out and trace her finger down the bridge of his long, straight nose, or run her fingers through his silky looking hair. She stared unashamedly into his lovely green eyes, and heat rose up from her chest and spread across her cheeks.

Blushing was becoming a common occurrence lately, and her pale skin highlighted the insuppressible reaction. Katia had given up dwelling on it. She swallowed the tumultuous emotions welling inside, biting her lip to help keep them locked in. She was having a difficult time remembering what they were talking about. She should say something smart and well thought out, but couldn't think of anything. He was staring at her and so her mind went blank as she stared back, memorizing the small jagged scar that curved down into his brow. It was the most perfect and interesting brow she had ever seen.

He raised his hand and gently brushed back her hair. His hand came to rest on the nape of her neck. He cradled her jaw, carefully tipping it up, and his face turned moved towards hers.

Bless every star in heaven! her mind shouted. He is going to kiss me! At last. Praise be to all his angels of mercy!

They had come so close to kissing last night at the bonfire, not that he knew that, but this moment was much better. For a start, neither one of them was drunk, and they both would remember this perfect moment forever and always. She closed her eyes, leaned in and felt the radiating warmth from his skin. His lips would be pressing into hers any moment. Hers were dry so she quickly licked them. He was so close, the whisper of his breath mixed with hers. She was ready and waiting-and waiting. Why was he dithering? She cracked her eye open to check.

Lothair was motionless, stiff and silent, not retreating but not advancing. He seemed stuck, staring at her mouth.

She sucked in the heady mix of his warmth and cedary scent. It was all the fuel she needed to do what must be done. Before he could retract the small ground she had gained, she closed her eyes again, leaped up on her tiptoes, and pressed her lips to his.

Score! First point goes to Katia! She could hear shouts of triumph from the backbenches of her mind. As her heart took its victory lap, her mind struggled to register every sensation that she was feeling.

She took it as a good sign that Lothair did not push her away. His mouth softened. With their lips pressed together, he raised his hand to her face and stroked her cheek with the tips of his fingers, igniting a fire with each light touch.

Suddenly, they were moving, and her back was pressed into the wall. His hips pushed into her belly softly and his lips moved with more urgency. She was desperate for more. More of what, she didn't fully understand-just more. It was all so wonderfully exciting, and she was ravenously hungry for a sensation for which she had no name. She clawed her hands into the fabric of his tunic but it wasn't enough.

He clasped her face between both of his large hands and pressed harder onto her mouth, prying apart her lips and thrusting his tongue into her mouth. Her startled cry was swallowed up by his powerful mouth, which was devouring hers in a fierce, primal motion. He groaned, sending a shiver to her toes and her knees went to water. His kiss became more eager, twisting her head to partake from the other side of her mouth. She pulled herself into him more, wanting more, feeling more of everything but not feeling enough of something . . . something was missing. She pressed her hips into his thigh.

Katia thought her body would burst into flames with the growing sensation of rapturous excitement. A bellyache had started, spreading lower, making her feel strange, urging her to wiggle her hips more. His lips never stopped devouring hers, tasting her with insatiable hunger.

Without warning, he jerked her head up, shoving her face away, and bumping her head it into the wall.

Her mouth hung open, instantly cold and throbbing. He was staring at her, his chest rising and falling as if he was fresh from the sparring ring. He looked angry, his brows pinched together in pain and frustration. Something had gone terribly wrong. Tosha had told her she should practice kissing on some stable lad before trying it with a boy that mattered. Perhaps Tosha had been right, and Katia had just spoiled her chance with Lothair by not knowing how to kiss properly.

"You are too young," Lothair said in a low, raspy tone. "You are the jarl's daughter. I do not want a wife."

"Who said anything about a wife?" She blinked rapidly, trying to catch her breath and figure out what she had done wrong.

"You're no more than a child." He closed his eyes and jammed his fingers into his hair, looking up to the rafters of the stable. He looked like he wanted to pull his own hair out by the roots.

"I am not a child! And you want me. You like me. I can tell you do by the way you look at me." Her fingers tingled. They were cold and longed to reach out and touch the radiating heat of his chest.

"What would you know? You're naught but an innocent," he said with mounting anger. Katia was defenseless to this blow. He was saying something that was actually considered an honorable truth by all, so why did it pierce her heart so keenly? Her eyes stung and the embarrassing urge to cry swept over her. He must have seen this and more because he quietly said, "Flickas like you believe in love. It is a stupid notion, love. It is not real. Only lust is real. This," he pointed his finger back and forth between them, "this is lust. This is not lasting. It soon fades. Trust me." His face softened, and he appeared somewhat regretful for his harsh tone. He kept the distance between them, but reached out to her, smoothing her hair behind her ear. "I say this not to be cruel. You should learn this lesson while you are still young. It will save you a lot of wasted time later. Especially when your father takes you back to the king's court to put you on the market. Beware and heed my words, Katia."

Katia was dizzy from his rapidly changing demeanor, but she understood he was confused and probably a bit nervous. Boys tended to act angry when it was truly fear they were feeling.

"You're just a little scared, is all," she said. "I completely understand. I used to be repelled by the thought of wanting a beau. You'll change your mind. I did."

His fingertip rubbed gently behind her ear as he carefully secured her hair in place. She was breathless from his small touch, but continued. "I once swore I would never wed, but I now confess, I am warming to the idea. Being a wife isn't as bad of a notion as I once thought it to be."

Shaking his head, he took a step back. "Go then. Go wed some Norwegian or Danish prince and bear him lots of little princes and princesses."

"I don't want to wed a prince." She frowned with at the revolting notion. "I don't want to wed just anyone." Being a wife had never appealed to her but . . . she wanted him, and she wanted him to want her. She wanted him to look at her and change his mind and want a wife. A heavy rock landed in the pit of her stomach. She knew that if he were to wed any other maid, Katia would hate that lucky girl with a violent passion.

The truth of her feelings for Lothair wanted to rush out of her like steam from the kettle. She may not get another chance to be alone with him. She loved him, or at least she thought she did. This must be what love felt like. She summoned all her courage and looked up. "But if I have to wed, if I must one day be attached to a man, I want to wed someone that matters. Someone that wants to make a difference."

"No. Don't look to me," he said flatly, pointing his angry finger at her. "Go find someone else to set your scheming smiles upon. I'm never taking a wife. Wives are for politicians. I want none of it. No responsibilities, no one to hold me back, no one depending on me."

"I do not wish to hold any one back. I don't need looking after by any man and especially not by a husband." He had kissed her with his tongue-he may have said he didn't want a wife, but that did not erase the fact that his tongue had been inside her mouth, proof that he did want her, or at the very least, his body wanted her, in a wifely kind of way. "Don't you see, Lothair? This is exactly why you would be perfect for me."

Lothair glared down at the troublesome, beautiful girl. "Not perfect. Nowhere even close to perfect. I am a bastard, Kat. My life is a lie." He blurted out the truth with the intention of scaring her away. It was dangerous to spill the duke's secrets but he had no other choice. Katia was the most stubborn and determined girl he had ever met. He took in a sharp breath and prepared to do battle with her. He would need to wound her if necessary, though he already knew he would hate himself for it the moment it was done. He had let this . . . attachment go too far. "I need no other burdens to weigh me down." There, he'd said it. She'd shrink away and find someone else to smile at now.

"So, you are the duke's son instead of his nephew. Who cares?" She shrugged.

"Who told you?" he shouted. Thunder snorted and neighed, agitated by the aggression directed at his mistress.

She shushed the beast and said softly, "Tis obvious to anyone that observes the duke looking at you. His pride and love for you can be seen across a crowded room."

"Hmph," he snorted. That could't be true. His father only ever looked at him to find fault. Someone must have said something.

"Did you know that some of my favorite people are bastards?" Katia continued. "The jarl's brother, my favorite uncle Hk, is a bastard. Five different guardsmen claim Tosha as their daughter, so strictly speaking, that makes her a bastard and she is my dearest friend. I have a half-brother in Lyyski, whom I'm very fond of. He's also a bastard, and, for the first half of my life, some people in Turku called me a bastard, so . . ." She smiled again. This was a new smile, one he had not yet recorded to memory. The corner of her lip twisted up and her eyes sparked with a new flame." . . . I think I was destined to kiss one. Don't you think?"

"No." He wiped any emotion off his face and worked to hold onto his resolve. "I think you need to go up to the fortress."

"Pff . . . fine," she said, her temper slipping through her flirtatious grin. "Be that way . . . for now." Her lips curled into one of her consolation smiles. "I'll just wait for you to change your mind. I hope you don't keep me waiting too long though. I would like to get going and have some adventures of my own-see the world, do important things. But, that's fine. I will wait for you to be ready and change your mind."

"I won't change my mind. Do not wait for me. I won't be back."

"Alright, Lothair. No need to shout and upset Thunder. I heard you." She tried to grin but the expression washed away too quickly. "I know you want me," she whispered. "Perhaps you want to be the one to woo me? I know some boys are like that. Want to be the hunter instead of the hunted." She flipped her manner again and winked at him. "No worries. We shall play the game by your rules and see who wins out in the end. We both know who landed the first point in this round."

Popping up high on her toes, she threw her arms around his neck.

She kissed him with bruising force, pulling away with a gasp, "That would be my second. You are shockingly slow with your defense, Lothair." She giggled softly and tugged a hair ribbon from her sleeve. "Throw it away or keep it. I really don't care." Bouncing away with a skip in her step, she froze mid-step. Turning back around with a warning glare, she added, "Just don't give it to another girl."

She winked at him and Lothair groaned, fully aware of his lack of defense. She was slaying him with her soft smiles, her sweet scent and fluttering eyelashes. If she kissed him again, he would be wed before the farewell feast.

He looked down at the rose-colored silk ribbon. He had no clue how to respond. He scanned the inside of the pen and found the mighty horse alone, snorting at him with impatience.

Had it all just been a tormenting dream?

Sandra Lake lives with her husband and sons in Quebec, Canada.

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