Clarabella held my hand as my puffy eyes burned. I was done crying. For some reason my heart was hurting. Sure I cried after my breakups but I've never felt this sort of feeling. It was as if half of me was just ripped off of me. It hurts. All I want to do is go into a dark corner and melt into it. My thoughts turned fuzzy as memories of what had occurred replayed in my mind. I had never seen Baron act in such a way. I understand jealousy but this was far from that. It's like his heart was breaking right in front of me. I didn't even do something that bad. I'm doing all of this for him! I could have easily walked into town and turned him in yet I haven't. Doesn't he understand that j also care about him?

I sighed. This s.h.i.+t was so confusing. This is why I had stopped dating for the last two years in my previous life. I was sick of the awkward feelings, the expectations, and the pain. All of it was sugarcoated with nice words, gifts, and kisses. I clenched my fists. If you actually care about me f.u.c.ker you would have trusted me. You would have understood that I was doing this for a reason. If I truly loved John would I have stayed by your side for the whole f.u.c.king night nursing you back to health?

I should have let the fever consume you. My fists shook as tears of frustration fell down my cheeks. Ugh! Everything is confusing me! Were all of his smiles and words of endearment fake? What importance do they carry if he can't even go through with his promises?

I sobered up and wiped my tears. What kind of relations.h.i.+p do we have anyways? It certainly wasn't that of a girlfriend-boyfriend. Or even a friends.h.i.+p. It was a relations.h.i.+p built on enchantment. I was enchanted by his self while he was enchanted by me. It was as if we were trying to push the image of an ideal partner on the other. We wanted to love each other yet we didn't even prepare the basics to a relations.h.i.+p.

Trust and patience. The two of us are stubborn, impatient and skeptical of others. I sighed. Maybe it wasn't meant to be from the start. Relations.h.i.+ps that start with a one night stand aren't considered real after all. It's as if we were looking for a person to share our burden. Someone who wouldn't question the other but instead manage to understand them without explaining.

How pathetic. The whole affair is pathetic. How I'm acting right now when I have a chance to s.h.i.+ne in two days is pathetic. I pushed back the covers and wiped my tears on my arm. I don't need this sappy s.h.i.+t right now. I turned to look at the concerned Jacia, Clarabella and Daniella. Jacia didn't even try to tease me this time. I smiled at them and said.

"Okay girls lets get moving, we have a trip to go on soon!"

Daniella sighed and said.

"Mila. If you're in pain it's okay to tell us."

Clarabella nodded and added.

"Yes Mila! Don't try to shoulder everything by yourself."

Jacia lit a cigarette and puffed before she slapped me across the face. I held my stinging right cheek. Jacia then slapped me on the left cheek. Daniella and Clarabella opened their mouths but Jacia glared at them before turning to me. My cheeks stung like a b.i.t.c.h.

"Mila. As your friend I have hit you twice for two reasons. The first hit was a lesson. You have made a stupid mistake due to your inability to listen to others and understand their feelings. Baron loves you yet due to how you've been toying with his feelings. Recently he has grown insecure in the relations.h.i.+p as the initial speck of trust you had for each other was lost. The second slap that I gave you was a wake up call. Get the f.u.c.k up b.i.t.c.h. If you have risked something as important as love for this f.u.c.king trip then follow through. Don't stop your plans over some little incident."

I stared at Jacia. At times like these I'm reminded of how amazing she is. Jacia puffed it a cloud of smoke before continuing.

"Mila. The reason why I joined your crew isn't because you saved me. I couldn't give a rat's a.s.s to that fact. I joined your crew because of the fighting spirit I saw in you. Even in times like when Baron's s.h.i.+p sank you were selfless and did some great quick thinking to save the crew as your priority of a captain. I will tell you this as your s.h.i.+p mate and as your friend. Grow some b.a.l.l.s and act mike the captain you are. A captain stays calm even in a storm. A captain makes the right decision even when there is no hope. A captain is willing to sink with his/her s.h.i.+p to take responsibility for their mistake. I want you to acknowledge your mistakes in your relations.h.i.+p with Baron and learn from them. We are still young. Life is as uncertain as the seas out there. The next second I could suddenly fall and die for an unknown cause. But no. I don't want to die after living a life which I have not chosen for myself. So now I will ask you Mila."

Jacia got in her knee as she looked at me intensely.

"Will you wither and run from your obligation or will you take my hand and become my captain?"

I smiled and took Jacia's warm hand. She smiled as she coughed from the cigarette. I whispered.

"I will become your captain. Thank you Jacia."

I stood up as Clarabella threw a coat, blouse, slacks, and boots on my bed. As I dressed I only thought of one thing. I will make it to the Bermuda Triangle and get the treasure without turning Baron in. After the expedition I will make amends with him and act like a better counterpart to the relations.h.i.+p. Okay. I walked out of the door with Jacia, Daniella, and Clarabella in tow. Now I have to go meet that f.u.c.ker John. I smirked. That idiot might actually prove useful.

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Thank you for reading my luvs❤️Please stay safe??