"I could have just been imagining it, not seeing a vision from the future." She thought she'd grabbed a great explanation, but as the words came out of her mouth she realized neither scenario worked out well for her. Because she shouldn't have been thinking about him in that way at all.

"You don't have to imagine, you know."

She swallowed hard at the look in his eyes. "Dylan," she said, not sure what else she wanted to say. Should she tell him to stop, to let go, or to pull her closer, to kiss her like he'd kissed her in her vision?

Dylan didn't give her a chance to decide, his mouth descending on hers with passion and purpose. The real thing was so much better than her dream. She opened her mouth to his, their tongues tangling in a dance of heat and desire. The spark that had been smoldering since their first meeting burst into a full blaze as she went fully into his arms. She slipped her hands under his shirt. She wanted to touch him, to taste him, to strip off his clothes. There was nothing else in her mind but him, and she relished the pure focus of her thoughts.

She banished the rolling edges of reason trying to make their way back into her brain, the tiny voice saying this wasn't the right place or the right time. It felt right, dammit. It felt like what she'd been waiting for her whole life. She wanted him. He wanted her.

So why was he pulling away? This wasn't how it was supposed to go.

"Catherine, God, we have to stop." Dylan forced her from him, his chest heaving with rough, ragged breaths.

She stared at him in shock, still dazed from his kiss, unable to comprehend why they were no longer touching.

Dylan dug his hands into his pockets. "We can't do this now."

His words seeped slowly into her brain. Embarrassment came with the realization that she'd completely lost her mind a moment earlier. Of course they couldn't do this now. Erica was missing. Someone was setting Dylan up for murder. What on earth had she been thinking?

She hadn't been thinking. That was the problem. She'd thrown herself at him and made a huge fool of herself. "You're right. I'm sorry."

"Don't apologize, Catherine, and get that damn look off your face. I wanted you, too."

"But you remembered where we were, and I didn't. I got lost in the dream."

"It wasn't a dream. It was real. And it's going to happen between us." He drew in a deep breath. "But not here. Not now."

"No," she agreed. She took a step back. She needed space, air. She needed a new brain. Having sex with Dylan was not on the agenda; nor should it be, not now, not ever, despite the promise he'd just made. He was too much for her. She'd get lost in him, and she'd never find her way out. She tucked her hair behind her ears and shifted her feet. "We should go."

"This isn't over," he said.

"Yes, it is, Dylan. That was a moment of temporary insanity. I won't let it happen again."

"You won't be able to resist, Catherine." He gave her a wicked smile. "Let's just say I had a vision, too."

She was still trying to think of a good reply when Dylan brushed past her. After a moment she followed him into the living room, her heart finally settling into a more normal rhythm, although she was still warm and flushed. She'd never had dream sex in the middle of the day while standing in a man's bedroom, and it disturbed her that she was so connected to Dylan that she could lose track of herself and her surroundings so easily. If Dylan hadn't stopped, she certainly wouldn't have.

Of course, if he'd kept going she'd be feeling calm and satisfied instead of restless and on edge. It thoroughly annoyed her that Dylan was already moving on to the next task, as if what had happened between them were no big deal.

"I found my keys," Dylan said. He stood next to the phone, holding up his key ring. "These were on the floor. I didn't see them when we first came in. I guess that's how Erica got in here. She must have taken them out of my pocket last night when she got my room key. I just wonder why she came. What did she want? What did she think she would find in my apartment? Or was it just a place for her to hide?"

Catherine drew in a deep breath and slowly let it out, forcing her mind back to the situation at hand. "She wouldn't have planned to hide here for long. She would have known the police would eventually get around to searching this place."

"So perhaps she just wanted to make it clear that she was here." He glanced around the room again. "I don't see anything of hers, nothing that she obviously planted, although I haven't gone through every drawer and closet."

"She might not have had time. She left in a hurry. I think we should go, too."

"Let me grab some clothes in case I can't get back here for a while." Dylan moved into the bedroom, returning a few minutes later with a packed sports bag.

"So where are we headed?" she asked as they left his apartment and walked down the stairs. She was relieved to be out of Dylan's house. She didn't want to think any more about what had almost happened between them. She needed to concentrate on what they needed to do to find Erica and get Dylan out of the trouble he was in.

"My grandmother's house," he replied, surprising her.

"Are you serious? We can't go to a family home."

"Relax. It's the perfect place. My grandmother doesn't share my last name. She remarried about ten years ago, and she took her second husband's name. The house belonged to him, so it would take some in-depth investigating to tie her house to me. She also has a car that we can use, since we should probably get yours out of sight."

"This is your grandmother who's in the rest home?" she asked, feeling better about his plan.

"That's right. She has a small house in the Sunset District that no one is using. I have a key, as I occasionally go over there and make sure the cleaning service and gardeners are keeping up with everything."

"What happened to your grandmother's husband?"

"He died about three years ago."

"Are you close to her?"

"Somewhat. She's a good woman. Although it's hard to believe she and my father actually share the same blood. She's generous to a fault. He's a selfish bastard. Her one flaw was that she couldn't see my father for what he was, so I couldn't tell her what he did to me. I tried a few times, but she always turned it around. I guess she couldn't go down that road."

Catherine nodded. A lot of people looked away when it came to abuse. No one wanted to see it or admit that someone they knew could do something so horrible. And despite Dylan's casual manner now, it must have hurt him when he realized that no one was coming to his rescue. At least he'd had his brother.

Dylan stopped the car at a red light and glanced over at her. "On another note, are you hungry?"

Her stomach immediately rumbled in response.

"Now that you mention it, I'm starving. Breakfast was a long time ago."

"There's a very good Italian restaurant not far from my grandmother's house, Antonio's. We can pick something up on our way in."

"That sounds good. What are you going to do about your job, Dylan?"

"I don't have to be at work until Monday. If we haven't found Erica by then I'll take a sick day. I'm just hoping the newsroom doesn't pick up on this story."

"Lake Tahoe is a long way from here."

"Yes, but the prime suspect in the disappearance of a San Francisco woman in Tahoe is KTSF's lead reporter. How's that for a sound bite?"

"Very good. I'm just glad you kept me out of it."

He shot her a pointed look. "I'll try, Catherine, but I can't promise that you'll stay out of it. Before this is through you could very well be an accessory to murder-or worse."

"I don't want to know what 'worse' is," she said.

"But you already do, don't you?"

She hadn't seen a vision, but her gut told her that Erica might not be the only person who was supposed to end up dead.

A half hour later Catherine was distracted from her negative thoughts by their arrival at Dylan's grand-mother's house. Set on the corner, the light blue structure shared sidewalls with its neighbor. The house was located about a half mile from the beach, and Catherine could smell the salty sea air as they got out of the car.

There was an ominous feeling to the sky now. The sun had set, and a heavy mist thickened the air. Catherine felt as if the whole world were closing in on them, the trap tightening with each passing moment. She tried to tell herself that she was being paranoid, letting her imagination get away from her, but the shiver that raised the hairs on the back of her neck was almost never wrong. Something bad was going to happen. She just didn't know when.

Once they were inside the house, Dylan flipped on a small lamp on a table next to the door. "We'll eat in the kitchen," he said. "It's at the back of the house, and it won't be as obvious that anyone is here, although the neighbors are elderly and probably wouldn't notice if there was a party going on."

Dylan's grandmother's house smelled like potpourri, a little bit sweet and kind of sad, Catherine thought as she entered the kitchen. She set the bags of food they'd picked up from Antonio's on a rectangular oak table in the middle of the room. The kitchen was dated, the white cabinets scratched and yellowed, the tile worn, the appliances from a decade ago. The house seemed a little lonely without its owner. "How long has it been since your grandmother lived here?"

"Almost a year. I don't think she'll ever be back. Alzheimer's has her in its grip."

"I'm surprised you've kept the house going, the electricity, the water, the gardener. That must take some money."

"Not that much. My father has power of attorney, and quite frankly, I think he's too busy to care about this place. He's just going to leave things as they are until she dies. He rarely even visits her anymore." Dylan paused. "If you want to eat, go ahead. I'm going to put your car in the garage and move my grandmother's car out to the street."

"Do you want me to help?"

"No, I'll take care of it."

After Dylan left, Catherine set the two foil containers on the table, as well as the bread and butter and packets of Parmesan cheese and hot peppers, but she didn't bother to open them. She felt an intense desire to explore the house. Not sure where the need came from, she decided not to question her instincts but to just follow them.

Moving quietly through the first floor, she peeked into the living and dining rooms. Both were small but impeccably neat, with antique furniture, and lacy doilies on the end tables. A den on the first floor was filled with books and dark furniture: probably a room that had once belonged to the man of the house.

Heading upstairs she discovered two bedrooms and a bath. She entered the master bedroom and turned on the small lamp by the bed, inhaling the lingering scent of lavender that still hung in the air. Across the foot of the bed a floral quilt paid tribute to his grandmother's obvious love of flowers, which were featured in many of the wall hangings as well as the wallpaper trim.

Catherine paused by the bedside table, perusing the family photographs on display. The one that made her heart skip a beat was of two boys and a man. It was Dylan, Jake, and their father, she realized. Dylan was thin and gangly, not really a boy, not yet a man. He was probably about thirteen in the photo. The man standing in the middle was dressed in a navy blue suit, his face austere, his hand on Jake's shoulder. Dylan stood a foot apart from Jake and his father, as if he didn't think he belonged in the photograph. His expression was somber, almost pleading.

Something inside of her wanted to touch that lonely little boy, take him into her arms, tell him he'd never stand alone again. But she couldn't go back in time, and the man Dylan had become would never admit to being that vulnerable child. She understood his need to be strong now, to take back his life from the bully who had stolen too many years already. But she suspected that his emotional barriers also prevented him from letting anyone in, even someone who might care about him. He wasn't a man who could trust anyone or anything. He certainly didn't trust her-another reason she should not open up her body or her heart to him. Unlike Dylan she'd never been able to lock the emotions away, and they still tormented her.

It had been four years since she'd let herself care about a man, and that man had left her-just like all the others. She was too different, too crazy, too hot, too cold. She'd heard her flaws recited over and over again, until she'd almost started to believe her bad press. But once he'd left she'd realized that she was happier without him. She had her animals for company, and it wasn't the worst thing to live alone in a beautiful cottage on the beach. She had her art, her classes, some friends, good neighbors, people who liked her from afar.

She smiled to herself at that thought. People always liked her from a distance. But when they got closer they realized she was just too much for them. No one could handle her visions or her nightmares or the screams she suddenly let loose in the middle of the night. The truth was that she'd been damaged a long time ago, and no one ever wanted someone who was broken. They wanted perfect, pretty, easy, uncomplicated, and she'd never been any of those things.

"What are you doing?" Dylan asked, startling her.

She set the photograph on the table. "Just looking around," she said, feeling suddenly guilty.

"It's okay. You can look," he said.

"I'm intruding on your grandmother's privacy," she said, knowing it wasn't really his grandmother's life she was interested in, but his.

"My grandmother doesn't know what's going on in the world, much less her own house. Even if she did, she wouldn't care. She didn't have anything to hide."

Catherine wondered if that was true. "Everyone has secrets, Dylan. Some people just hide them better than others."

He gave her a long look. "Are you picking up on something in particular?"

"Just the feeling that we're supposed to be here. That there's something we need to find."

"What could there possibly be in this house that has anything to do with Erica?"

She couldn't explain. "I don't know. Maybe it's something that has to do with you."

Dylan shook his head, letting out a sigh of exasperation. "I'm too tired and hungry to figure that out right now. Let's eat."

"I'll be down in a minute." She was reluctant to leave. She moved over to the desk by the window, aware that Dylan had not left the room. He was watching her. She put her hand on top of the desk, then trailed her fingers down to the second drawer. She opened it and pulled out a photo album.

"Stop," Dylan said abruptly. "You don't need to take a trip down my memory lane."

"I don't, but I think you do."

"Catherine-"

"Dylan, you said you were going to try to trust me." She set the album on the desk and opened it. Most of the early photos were probably of Dylan's grandmother, her generation of family, but as the pages turned the family aged. And suddenly she came to a wedding photograph of a young couple-the same man who was in the photo with Dylan, his father. The man's arm was around his beautiful, blushing bride, a woman who shared Dylan's features, had his brown hair, his golden brown eyes.

She turned to Dylan. She knew he could see the photograph from where he stood in the doorway, his hands on his hips, his features hard and unyielding, unforgiving. "This is your mother, isn't it?"

He didn't move a muscle, and for a moment she didn't think he would speak.

Finally he said, "I didn't realize a picture of her still existed. My father got rid of all the ones in our house the day she left."

"Do you want it?"

"No. I don't need a picture of a woman who left me behind." He put up a hand as she started to speak. "Leave it alone, Catherine. My mother is not part of this."

Catherine's hand grazed the photograph as she started to close the album. A surge of heat swept through her.

A woman cried, her heart breaking in two. Her tears fell in big drops on the sandy wood deck. A pair of child's sandals lay nearby, along with a red bucket and an orange shovel. The porch swing creaked with each sad, painful arc. In the distance the tide came in, bringing with it more regret.

Things would never be the same. She couldn't go back. She couldn't change what had happened. And no one would ever forgive her.

Catherine shut the book and slipped it back into the desk drawer, her heart beating in double time. She must be so tuned in to Dylan that she could feel anyone connected to him, including his long-lost mother. She was almost positive that his mother was the woman she'd seen in her head-maybe not seen, but felt. There had been so much pain in her soul she'd barely been able to breathe. What on earth had happened to destroy what had begun so happily in the wedding photo?

Turning, she caught Dylan staring at her. There was a battle going on in his eyes. He wanted to know, and yet he didn't. In the end he left, shutting the door behind him, as if he could somehow put a solid barrier between himself and his past. But that was just an illusion. Someday the past would catch up to him, no matter how far he ran.

When she left the room she found Dylan standing in the middle of the hallway. She'd thought he'd be downstairs by now.

"Why did you look in the desk?" he demanded. "Why that drawer? That photo album? That page?"

"I just had a feeling I should."

"My mother is not connected to any of this."

"She's connected to you, and so am I."

He shook his head, anger in his eyes. "I'm not going down that road right now, Catherine. I have enough on my plate. Maybe I'll look for her someday, but not today. She's been gone for twenty-three years. She can stay gone a little longer. From now on my mother is off-limits."

The lingering sound of his mother's sobs filled Catherine's mind. She didn't know if the crying was from years ago or from a more recent period. But one thing she knew for sure was that Dylan's mother had not been happy. She'd suffered for something. Her heart had been broken.

"Damn you," Dylan swore. "Stop thinking about her. I can see it in your face."