Blurred images came to my mind from the night that I decided to commit suicide. I remember that night my uncle had guests, they were luxury family who came to talk with my uncle about farming land. They had daughter who was bigger than me she had big gray eyes and black hair with calm voice.. I cover my face with my hands. I push my mind to remember more. I remember I heard something that I shouldn't heard,but what was that about.

I lye in bed "what f*cking situation, why I can't remember, maybe I over worked today so I can't remember, but there must be something.." I closed my eye and suddenly I saw something from my past, I opened my eyes in shocked and glare at ceiling and murmured with myself " they were talking about black market... And... Gambling " so he might really be someone from mafia group. Oh, d.a.m.n it.

Stay calm, stay calm there must be more potential ideas, its so weird that he be member of mafia group. What if she is one of mafia and trying to trick him and use his money for there dirty work and kill him during there body relation then spare his organ to sell them. How creepy?! How a girl can do that.. I go to washroom and washed my face what the h.e.l.l is going on this house? I should understand it in some way, I should make him speak about this subject but how I suppose to ask him! My sight turned black for minutes I grab the edge of washbasin for getting back my balance. I should focus on my study, too. This year is my first year of being in university I should get good grade. I came out of washroom, I changed my clothes and started to studying my lesson for tomorrow.

I opened literature book and started to reading some poem and memorising them. I don't know how much time went when the door of my room shoots and opened, I jumped and look at door and shouted "wtf?.. What the h.e.l.l is wrong with you,? Why you opened door like that?" he stared to walk toward me.

"at least you can knocked before come into my room n.o.body tell you personal room is private area of women, Are you listening? what is wrong..." Did he drink some thing? I ran to my bed for getting my knife that I hide under my pillow. While I reach to my bed his voice stop me "I'm sorry miss Rostami, I didn't want to scare you, I'm just..." I looked at him over my shoulder. He was standing right behind me. I turned to face him and said "well, continue..you was talking, why did you stop?"

He was glaring at me like he never see me, what the heck? I looked at myself. My hair was untied and I changed into blouse without sleeve and pants that was up to my knees, I feel my cheek blus.h.i.+ng, no way. I shouted" get your eyes off me, or I'm gonna make you blind for the rest of your life" I put my guard up for attacking. He raised his hand in surrender and with mischievous smile said "peace miss Rostami. I just wanted to thank you for your work and food, it was better than my expectation. And now you can go and clean there my guest left ." he turned back and walked toward the door and before going out he stopped, this time his voice was gentle and soft" again, excuse me for interrupting during your study and for not knocking. " Did he apologise right now!!!

He left the room and closed the door behind him.

I dropped myself on the floor. d.a.m.n it, what was wrong with him at first walking in my side like drunken man, then glaring at me, next talking evily and thanks me for my work and at the end talking gently and apologising. How many face one man could have in shorter than five minutes? Scary? Mystery?! Dangerous!?

I stand up and changed my clothes. I headed to back yard for cleaning there.