Then he crawled back the way he had come, frantically searching for the large tablet that had pinned Meredith. He hadn't heard her screaming for some time-either because she hadn't been, or because he'd been too busy to listen. By now there were many broad plates of granite scattered in the quarry; it was difficult to remember exactly where she had been. He crested a small rise of stone and saw Meredith's arm.

"Meredith!" he called, and she shook herself awake.

"Lucy?"

"Is fine. She's out."

She could not see it, but her leg was bent back at a grotesque angle from her body. The large slab that had her pinned at the thigh was twice as wide as Ross, and as thick as his arm. To free her, he would need a smaller rock to make a lever, lift the slab, and drag Meredith away before the makeshift jack collapsed. Then he would have to immobilize her leg enough to carry her on his back across the rubble, like he had done with Lucy. "Go get help, Ross," Meredith said, crying.

"I am am help." He searched for something-anything-that might help him budge the rock. "I'm going to try to lift this." help." He searched for something-anything-that might help him budge the rock. "I'm going to try to lift this."

She was shivering, a combination of pain and panic. "Go back."

Ross tried to get his weight underneath the rock, but it wouldn't move. In the distance a sounding horn blared, the warning of another round of explosions. He looked around frantically, trying to locate the dynamite or blasting cap. His eyes landed on Meredith, and the truth that stretched between them.

He couldn't help her.

He leaned down and brushed her hair out of her eyes. "Shh," he whispered, and a charge shuddered somewhere to the left.

"Ross, go. Please." She began to cry harder. "I need to know that you got out of here safe."

He forced a crooked smile onto his face. "How many times do I have to tell you? I can't die."

She reached for his hand, and the small movement unsettled the rocks beneath them. Ross lost his footing, going down hard on one knee beside Meredith's head. At the same time, they both noticed the small red tube about three feet beyond them.

Ross leaped over the rock that pinned Meredith and reached the stick of dynamite. He grabbed it in his fist and started running, sprinting on serrated granite, on broken stone, deeper into the quarry. Nothing mattered in that moment except getting as far away from Meredith as possible before the computers lit it off.

The charge swelled in his palm. In the instant before he let go of it, before an explosion hotter than a hundred suns razed the very spot where he stood, Ross had one moment where everything was crystal clear. He had saved Meredith, he had saved everyone. Maybe now, he had even made up for the rest of his life. The force of the blast knocked him head over heels and his skull struck hard against a ragged rock. And just as he considered that he might finally have found something worth living for, Ross discovered that he was not invincible after all.

By the time Eli and Shelby arrived, the first ambulances had already left. The quarry was crawling with uniformed policemen borrowed from other towns, who were roping off the site. Another detective was interviewing the owners of Angel Quarry, who had arrived hastily, in the company of their corporate lawyer. No one knew where Az Thompson-the night watchman-had gone; his absence made him the easiest scapegoat for blame.

Eli hurried over to a paramedic. "The kids. Where are the kids?"

"They're all right. Cuts, bruises. The ambulance already went off to the hospital."

He felt Shelby sag beside him, and he put his arm around her to keep her upright. Leaning close, he murmured words into her ear, comments that made no sense at all but were meant to give her a lifeline to hold onto.

"Can we go?" Shelby said. "Now? To the hospital?"

But before he could answer, a commotion at the guardrail drew his attention. Three rescue workers gently lifted a stretcher over the edge. Strapped onto it, battered and b.l.o.o.d.y, was Meredith.

"Oh my G.o.d," Shelby breathed, as she watched an unconscious Meredith being loaded into a waiting ambulance. Shelby seemed to notice, for the first time, Ross's car. Shelby grabbed a paramedic by the jacket. "Where's my brother. Where Where is my brother?" When the man didn't answer, she refused to let go. "Ross Wakeman," she demanded. "He's here somewhere." is my brother?" When the man didn't answer, she refused to let go. "Ross Wakeman," she demanded. "He's here somewhere."

A silence fell. No one would answer her, and that was response enough. "No," Shelby cried, falling to her knees, as Eli's arms came around her. "No!"

"He's at the hospital," Eli said firmly. Then he turned to one of the EMTs. "Right?"

"Yeah, he's at the hospital."

"See?" Eli helped Shelby stand, and carefully walked her to the truck. "We'll go and find Ethan. And Ross."

"Okay." Shelby nodded through her tears. "Okay."

Eli closed the door. The paramedic touched his shoulder as he walked around to the driver's side. "Uh, Detective. About that guy . . ."

"He's at the hospital," Eli repeated.

"Yeah, but that was only a formality," the paramedic said. "He was dead before we even got to him."

Ross was driving, and Aimee was in the pa.s.senger seat. "Denmark," he said.

She thought for a moment. "Kyrgyzstan."

He couldn't take his eyes off her, as if he had not seen her in ages, although he knew this could not possibly be true . . . they never spent more than seventy-two hours apart, and that only when Aimee was pulling the graveyard shift at the hospital. Ross found himself cutting glances away from the road to look at the curve of her jaw, the color of her eyes, the spot where her French braid fell against her back. "New York," he murmured.

Aimee rolled her eyes. "Oh, come on, Ross, another K K?"

"You have fifteen years of education; you can play a round of Geography."

"Kalamazoo, then."

He grinned and looked out the windshield. The car was moving quickly, and it was pouring outside, but he could swear that he'd seen someone he recognized walking along the edge of the highway-his old kindergarten teacher. She was wearing a yellow jumper Ross still recalled and her hair was in tight white pincurls. He looked again in the rearview mirror, but she was gone. "Oshkosh," Ross replied.

Aimee crossed her legs on the seat. She had taken off her shoes-she never liked to travel with shoes on. "Heaven."

"Heaven isn't a place."

"Of course it is," Aimee argued.

Ross raised a brow. "And you know this for a fact." He looked into his side mirror and nearly swerved: behind him on the opposite side of the road was his mother. She was wearing a sweater with little pearls around the top, one he remembered because as a child he'd sit in her lap and roll them between his fingers. She smiled at him, and waved.

His mother had been dead since 1996. His kindergarten teacher had been dead even longer than that. And Kyrgyzstan had still been in the U.S.S.R. when Aimee had died.

Heaven isn't a place.

Suddenly they curved around a bend and saw a tractor-trailer coming at them, in their lane. "Ross!" Aimee cried out, and he jerked the steering wheel to the left, into the oncoming lane, noticing too late that a tiny car that had been hidden by the bulk of the truck was speeding toward them.

There was gla.s.s exploding inward, and the horrible screech of tires on a wet road, and the sudden, shocking impact of steel striking steel. Ross found himself sprawled outside the overturned car. The tractor-trailer had wobbled off to the side of the road with its driver thrown onto the horn so that the wail would not let up. Ross ratcheted open the pa.s.senger door, reached inside, and unbuckled Aimee.

Her shoulder was cut and blood stained her shirt, but her face, it was heart-shaped and smooth-skinned and stunning. Her French braid had unraveled, the impact loosening whatever she'd used to secure the bottom. It fanned over her chest like a silk shawl. "Aimee," he murmured. "G.o.d."

He sat down and pulled her into his lap, crying as the full force of his memories. .h.i.t him in the gut. He brushed her hair away from her face, as the rain matted it together. "I won't let you go. I won't leave."

Aimee blinked at him. "Ross," she said, looking past his shoulder. "You have have to." to."

In all of these years he had not recalled those words, that directive from Aimee that freed him from the blame of not being by her side when she died. He closed his arms more tightly around her and bent forward, but suddenly there was someone standing behind him, trying to get him to stand up just as hard as he was trying to stay.

He turned, furious, and found himself staring at Lia.

With Aimee in his arms, and Lia behind him, Ross went absolutely still. This was h.e.l.l, a nightmare played out in his mind. Both women needed him; each held a half of his heart. Which one do I go to? Which one do I go to? he thought, he thought, And which one do I lose? And which one do I lose?

Lia tugged him upright, toward the other pa.s.senger car that had crashed and now lay sideways against a highway barrier. Ross tried to break away from her, to get back to Aimee, certain that this was a test, the one thing he had to get right.

But by then he couldn't even see Aimee, because the other car was between them. Frustrated, Ross tore away from Lia's firm hold and yanked open the door of the totaled green Honda. A body lay crumpled into a heap behind the steering wheel, canted onto its side. Ross smelled gas; he knew the vehicle was going to blow at any minute.

He fumbled for the seat belt, which was stuck. "Aimee," he yelled over his shoulder. "I'm coming. You hang on." Another push of the b.u.t.ton, and this time it sprang free. Ross reached in at an awkward angle with both hands and hauled the unconscious driver from the wreckage. He dragged the body a distance away, to the lip of the woods. There was a burst of light and heat, and the car torched into flame.

A fleet of sirens approached, a spray of water from a fire hose showered the car. As a paramedic ran up, Ross grabbed him. "There's a woman at the other car who needs help," he cried.

"Someone's already taking care of her." The EMT knelt down beside Ross. "What's this one's name?"

Ross did not know; it was a stranger. He glanced down at the body before him illuminated by the blaze, as he had done nine years ago. Just like then, there was a gash across the driver's hairline, and blood covering her face and her black dress. But this time, he saw her face-really saw her face- and everything was different. saw her face- and everything was different. My G.o.d My G.o.d. "Her name," Ross said hoa.r.s.ely, "is Meredith."

F. Juniper Smugg had been a resident for exactly twenty-seven days at Fletcher Allen Hospital in Burlington. He was doing a rotation in emergency medicine, but he really wanted dermatology or plastic surgery, something that wasn't a life-or-death specialty where he could go into private practice and not have to deal with all the surprises of a county medical center. Still, he was perfectly willing to pay his dues, which was why he didn't mind taking the body down to the morgue. It beat what they'd been doing to the guy when he arrived- shocking him and intubating him when any premed could have told you he was dead as a doornail upon arrival.

He was alone in the elevator. He pushed the b.u.t.ton, waited till the doors closed, and turned to the mirrored wall so that he could watch himself rock out as he sang Smash Mouth vocals. He'd just gotten to the chorus of "All-Star" when a hand grabbed his arm.

The dead man on the stretcher sat up. "Shut the h.e.l.l up," he said huskily.

When the doors opened into the morgue, the dead man was standing, and the medical resident was slumped over the narrow stretcher. "Can someone help me?" Ross asked the shocked staff. "This guy's out cold."

Once Az Thompson's body washed up on the sh.o.r.e of Lake Champlain, it was readied for burial within twenty-four hours, in keeping with native traditions. Winks Champigny, acting as a spokesperson for the Abenaki, recommended laying Az Thompson's remains to rest on the newly acquired property at the junction of Otter Creek Pa.s.s and Montgomery Road. He was interred facing east, on his side, to better see the sunrise.

In the months that followed, a seasonless garden that had never been planted would bloom around the grave-blackberries that did not dry up in winter, calla lilies that kept their heads above the snow line, holly and ivy that thrived in July. The site became a trysting spot for lovers, who valued its privacy and the scent of roses even in December, and who would come to catch sight of the black-haired boy and the blond girl often spied chasing each other through the wildflowers, feeding each other berries until their lips and fingers were stained red as blood.

Eli almost didn't come home that night. It was a h.e.l.l of paperwork and arbitration with the owners of the quarry, and all he wanted was to collapse next to Shelby and not wake up for the next millennium.

Except that he wasn't sure if Shelby was ready to see him, or anyone right now.

He had held her while she cried at the hospital, until she hiked up her chin and said she needed to go home to make arrangements. For the funeral, Eli presumed, but he'd felt her putting up that wall and refusing to let anyone take care of her, and it annoyed the h.e.l.l out of him. He was going to shower and head over there, whether she liked it or not.

He went to set his key in the door and realized it was open. As it swung forward, he mustered his defenses, ready for anything. But there was no thief in his kitchen. Just Shelby, her hands buried in a bowl of flour.

"I broke in," she said, her voice shaking. "To a cop's house."

Eli wrapped her close, kissed the top of her head. "I'm sorry. I'm so G.o.dd.a.m.n sorry."

She was crying, and when she wiped her face with her finger she left a white streak behind. "I couldn't be at my house. I couldn't make any calls to . . . to funeral homes. Reporters, they kept calling, and I couldn't even listen to their messages. The doctors at the hospital gave Ethan and Lucy something to make them sleep, so I gave it to them here and put them in your bed. I made soup. And bread. The phone rang once, but I didn't . . . I fed the dog for you."

She was making no sense whatsoever, and yet Eli understood every word that came out of her mouth. He rocked her in his embrace and imagined her small white handprints on the back of his suit jacket, as ghostly as the ones that had risen in the mirror at the old Pike place. Shelby wiped her nose on his shirt. "I'll go if you want."

"Don't," he whispered. "Ever."

Meredith looked nothing like Lia. Ross didn't know how he had ever even seen a resemblance, now. Her eyes were set farther apart, her hair was a completely different texture. Her skin, it looked to be as soft, but he did not want to touch her to find out, in case he'd disturb her sleep.

She was in traction. Her leg had been pinned and hoisted and set. Her bloodstream was pumped full of painkillers. Ross had been allowed into her room only because no one at the hospital seemed prepared to deny a man who had been dead just hours earlier.

He had tried to find Shelby first, or Ethan, but they had been released. Lucy had gone with them. Yet when Ross tried to call her house, there had been no answer, and the message machine had been turned off. He would have called Eli, but he could not seem to remember his home phone number, if he'd ever known it in the first place. The neurologist who had examined Ross after his head contusions had been st.i.tched up said his memory might be like that-full of gaps and spots that might or might not come back. For example, he had no recollection of what he'd been doing before he found Meredith frantically searching for the kids at Shelby's. He could not remember how he'd gotten the fine white spiderweb scars on his wrists.

What he did recall was Lia's face, something he would have died to see again-and had had, apparently. He could conjure her, and Aimee, as if they were close enough to stand two feet in front of him. Ross knew that he could have stayed back there-wherever that had been, exactly. But even more than he had wanted to hold Aimee in his arms, to follow Lia wherever she led him . . . he wanted to be with his sister. His nephew. Maybe Meredith.

Ross had spent so many years searching for something, he'd never realized that what you found might not be as important as the act of trying to find it. A life wasn't defined by the moment you died, but all the others you'd spent living.

As he watched, a tear tracked down Meredith's cheek. Her eyes opened just a crack, and she focused on Ross. "Lucy," she whispered.

"She's fine."

As her surroundings dovetailed into her memories, Meredith startled. She cried out at the pain in her leg and the touch of Ross's hands to settle her. "You're a ghost."

He smiled at that. "Not anymore."

"The dynamite-it exploded in your hand. I saw you," she said. And then added, more softly: "They told me . . . you'd died." She tried to struggle upright again, and as she jogged her leg, her eyes rolled back in agony.

"Stay still." He stared at her face, at the hairline scar he'd never noticed. "You broke the leg you broke before in your car accident. In six places. The fibula and tibia were crushed; they operated and put a pin in." Ross a.s.sumed that Meredith would think the doctors had told him of her condition, but she surprised him with her acuity.

"I never told you," she said warily, "that I was in a car accident."

He sat down on the edge of the bed. "You were driving a green Honda and wearing a black dress," Ross said quietly. You cut yourself . . . here." He touched the spot on her forehead. "They never found your shoes."

"You're not going to tell me you're psychic, too," Meredith said weakly.

"No," Ross replied. "I'm going to tell you I was there."

He stared at her, unblinking, until the part of memory buried so deep it's never more than a flicker fanned a flame, until her eyes widened just a fraction. "Twice," she said, her voice groggy, as she reached for his hand. Her lids drifted shut. "Superman."

He waited until Meredith's breathing evened out, and then his fingers tightened around hers. "Maybe," he conceded.

Ethan swung his legs on the bench outside the hospital, waiting for Lucy to get caught. She was walking in the drizzling rain along the top edge of a five-foot brick wall behind the range of vision of a security guard. When she reached the end she did a little hop, like one of those gymnastics wizards on a balance beam, and then leaped off to land behind the guard and scare ten years off the poor guy's life.

He whipped around, and Lucy gave him that sweet Shirley Temple smile that cleared her every time.

In the past month, she'd become a daredevil. She was forever climbing onto roofs and hanging her head out of the windows of moving cars and renting the biggest chain-saw gore-fests from the video store. Ethan knew it was his fault; he'd created a monster. The shrink that they both had to go to, for something called post-traumatic-stress-disorder therapy, said it was a reaction to a near death experience. Ethan, of course, knew better.

He pulled down the sleeves of his long-sleeved shirt and tugged the brim of his baseball cap lower. He didn't feel like a mutant in front of the hospital, because other people came and went with all kinds of tubes and bags attached. Besides, he wasn't even the biggest freak in his household anymore. That honor belonged to Uncle Ross, who had been declared clinically dead and lived to tell about it.

He was fine, or so he'd told everyone from Oprah to Larry King to the Reverend Billy Graham, via a live feed to his hospital room. He was being released today after a month's observation-not for his sake, really, but for all the doctors who came to poke at him and try to figure out what had made him come back to life. Meredith was being released too. His mom and Eli had gone inside to wheel them out.

Ethan had visited his uncle a bunch of times while he was in the hospital. He'd coached him to the point where he could almost win one poker hand out of five. And he'd spent a lot of time just talking to him, because even if Ethan didn't want to let himself get his hopes up, you couldn't help but wonder if that kind of luck was a once-in-a-lifetime thing, or something that might be pa.s.sed down to, say, other generations.

The last time he'd come to visit, his uncle had let him eat all the green Jell-O and noodle soup, and had brought him to Meredith's room. She told Ethan that even though his DNA couldn't repair itself, some scientist in New York had invented a cream that could repair the DNA damage already done. And people in her own lab were working on gene replacement therapy, which might cure XP permanently.

Who was Ethan to say a miracle couldn't strike twice? It ran in the family, after all.

"Hey, check that out." Lucy dug an elbow into his side and pointed. "That's weird."

It was a double rainbow, one tucked beneath the bend of the other. But you could only see the left half of it, curving to the midpoint of the sky before melting into muddy blue.

The right side of the rainbow wasn't missing, Ethan knew, even if he and Lucy couldn't see it. It wasn't wishful thinking, or magic, but a simple law of nature. After all, once you know that part of something exists, it stands to reason that the rest of it is somewhere out there, too.