This is R. Got club business. Can't make it. Phone dead. Will call soon.

How is it possible to have such a barrage of emotions knocking me on my a.s.s at one time? I'm so happy he contacted me yet so disappointed that I'm not going to see him.

I type out a message.

Okay. Miss you.

I stare at the words. No, don't put that. I erase the last two words and send it. At least I know for sure so no more looking over my shoulder, hoping to see him.

I put my phone in my clutch and finish, coming out of the stall to wash my hands. I stop abruptly when Griff's wife looks at me in the mirror, her eyes red-rimmed. I've met her a couple of times, but I'm nowhere near friends with her. My nerves pick up just a bit.

Suzie turns to me. "I'm so sorry for your loss." A fresh batch of tears fall from her eyes as she sniffles and moves away from the sink.

"Thank you."

I let Suzie lead this conversation since I don't know what happened to Griff and don't want to say anything wrong.

"I'm sorry I'm such a mess. I haven't heard from Griff for days. He said he was going out on a fishing trip, but I haven't heard from him. I called down to Georgia where he said he was going, and they haven't found him. I'm so scared."

Okay, so he didn't come home. Chances are, he's dead, and good-riddance to him, as well.

"I'm so sorry to hear that."

"You were in Georgia. Did you see him?"

My throat dries, and I feel the room closing in on me. s.h.i.t.

"Georgia is a very big place," I respond, not lying in the least.

Her hand comes out and clutches my arm. "I'm so scared. I ..." Fresh tears coat her eyes, and the pit of my stomach drops for this woman. She loves the a.s.shole, and chances are, she'll never see him again. And I'm okay with that. I'm actually okay that this woman is crying for a man who put his hands on me. What in the h.e.l.l is wrong with me?

She bats away the wetness and blots her face with tissues. "I'm sorry. You have enough on your plate. Griff loved James so much."

You have no idea. "I know he did." I rinse my hands quickly, knowing I have sanitizer in my purse. I need to get out of here. "I have to go find my mom."

"Oh, sure, dear. Thanks for listening."

I haul a.s.s out to my mom. I thank the clock on the wall that tells me this is almost over.

"Mom." I bend down to her ear and whisper, "We need to go." I'm hoping to convey that I'm just done. I've had my fill and need to retreat to somewhere far, far away.

Mom nods and rises from the chair, excusing herself from the table of people I've met yet can't remember their names.

Mom says her good-byes with me next to her, smiling and nodding the entire time. Walking up to James's parents, my stomach starts churning.

"Mearna, darling," James's mother Rose says, the stench of her floral perfume filling the s.p.a.ce. My mother goes willingly into her arms, hugging her back. "I know this probably isn't the time, but we talked to the lawyer. He has a will that James filed, leaving everything he has to you, including his pension."

I grasp my mom's hand, not knowing exactly what that means, but I know it's good.

"He also said that the insurance company is investigating, but the police have already closed, saying it was an accidental fire. You should be able to get the recovery of it."

I want to say, yes, because she owns the house, but maybe his parents don't know that tidbit of information. Therefore, I keep my lips shut. I just want the h.e.l.l out of here.

"I have an appointment tomorrow with the insurance company in hopes of getting things sorted," she says.

"I heard you met your father." Tim, James's father, looks at me. His gaze is expectant.

"Yes," I answer.

"That's awfully nice," Tim says, looking at my mother. "Strange, the timing."

I don't move an inch as my mother squeezes my hand. "Tanner has been asking for quite some time. I am absolutely devastated about James." She plays it off. My mother is officially the s.h.i.t. Yes. The. s.h.i.t.

"Sure you are, honey." Rose pats my mother's arm.

Tim tilts his head, and I meet him stare for stare. It's like he's looking inside of me or something. Go for it. I don't waver a bit, and he is the first to look away. Relief fills me. I have learned from my mother, and I like that a lot.

My mother wastes no time getting us the h.e.l.l out of there.

I SHUT THE DOOR to the apartment and plop my purse on the floor along with my keys.

"Bad day?" my mother asks.

I move to the couch and lie down a bit dramatically, but that's how I feel at the moment: p.i.s.sed, hurt, alone, slapped in the face ... I can go on.

"Went to see Anderson. He replaced me at the shop and no longer needs my services, or so he says." I lost my job, even though I used some of my vacation time. "He said that, since I didn't call him to tell him what was going on, he just replaced me."

"Did you tell him that James died?" Mom asks, coming to sit in the chair next to the couch.

"Yep. He said he was sorry, but that was it. He hired this blonde bimbo with t.i.ts so huge she needs two bras to hold them up. And get this, she calls him sir. What the h.e.l.l is that about?" I grind out and Mom chuckles. "This isn't funny. I have no money!"

"Sweetheart, calm down. First of all, we have plenty of money. The insurance payoff is on its way, and I have plenty to hold us over. Second, if she is calling him sir in that sense, be happy that you're not her." She laughs more.

She's right. I've read enough books and watched enough movies to know where she is going with this. Still, I loved that job. It was an awesome place to work at.

"I got a call from your father while you were gone."

Five days, and all I've gotten from Rhys was a text, short and clipped. He never called like he said he was going to, and I for sure wasn't going to call him. Screw that. All right, I'm probably being a little overdramatic, but it's better this way. He's splitting off, and it's for the best. Nowhere in his text did he say he was on his way here. As a matter of fact, he said he couldn't make it due to club business, so I know that must be more important. Then again, like Princess said, all club business is more important. I shouldn't resent that, yet I do. It gave Rhys the perfect escape.

The fact that my father called my mother is a bit baffling, though.

"I didn't know you two were talking."

"We talk quite a bit."

So, Dagger can call my mother and talk, but Rhys can't call me. A lead weight hangs in my gut. What if the reason he hasn't is because he's seeing other women? Since the arrangement is over, he decided he needed s.e.x from others. The lead rolls in my stomach as bile starts to rise in my throat. He can't be, and if he is, I don't want to know about it.

"Really?"

"Their business took a little longer, but he said he'll be here in a couple of days."

I chew my bottom lip, wanting to ask if Rhys is coming, wanting to know if he already forgot about me. I don't, though. I hardly ever speak to my mother about him. It's like, if I don't talk about it, then it's not real.

"Then what?" I ask.

"Sweetheart, we need to decide if we want to say here or move down to Sumner."

I focus on her and gape. "You want to move there?"

"I don't have much up here besides you."

"I'll have to think about it." After all, if things are truly done with Rhys, I sure as h.e.l.l don't want to live in the same area as him or see him around my father. I know me, and that would be too much for me to bear. "And what is going on with you and Dagger? He has a woman, you know."

My mother's eyes shut as if the pain is too much to take. I understand her. The thought of the man you care about being with another is too much.

"I know. I'm not sure about anything at the moment." She shifts in the chair and lays her head back, looking at the ceiling.

Times like these, I wish I could read my mother's thoughts. h.e.l.l, I wish my thoughts were more understandable.

"YOU CALL MY daughter yet?" Dagger asks as we stop for food on our journey back to Sumner.

f.u.c.king Ralphie. This trip shouldn't have taken this long but the catch to the deal was pickups, several of them throughout the US on the way. Stupid f.u.c.ker. At least now the debt is settled. He just needs to hold up his end of this deal.

"I'll get to it," I tell him, taking a bite of the nasty-a.s.s burger, needing something in my stomach.

"I'm going back for Mearna," Dagger tells me.

"Are you?"

"f.u.c.k, yes. That's my woman," he says with absolute confidence. I'm glad he knows what the h.e.l.l he wants. "When Mearna comes, Tanner's coming, too."

"Good," I tell him, taking another bite and washing it down with a soda.

Do I want Tanner? f.u.c.k, yes, but I gotta be straight. Never in my forty-something years have I ever had only one woman for any period of time. While her p.u.s.s.y is the best I've ever had, I'm not sure I have enough confidence in myself to stick to only hers. I've never had to. Tanner told me flat-out she wasn't that type, but for her, I want to try. f.u.c.king h.e.l.l.

"I'll head up with ya."

"You sure about that?" he questions.

I know he's right. My d.i.c.k has seen so many p.u.s.s.ies and mouths in its time. For Tanner, though, I will do my d.a.m.nedest.

On a couple of our stops, I had the opportunity to get f.u.c.ked and sucked by road bunnies, and I turned them down, each one of them. That was a f.u.c.king first. I've never turned down free p.u.s.s.y, but I did because of Tanner, because it's her mouth I want wrapped around my c.o.c.k. Yeah, I'll definitely try.

"Yep, let's get the f.u.c.k out of here," I tell him as the brothers grab their bikes, and we ride off.

"f.u.c.kING HATE THAT my girl lives here," Dagger says, climbing up the stairs. I agree.

"Let's just get them home." And I'll see what happens from there.

Dagger pounds on the door, and a beat later, it opens just a touch. Tanner's emerald eyes peek around the door and focus on Dagger. The door flies open as she wraps her arms around him with some kind of screech thing that I may need to replace my ear drum for.

"You're here!" she says as Mearna comes to the door.

"Yep, brought someone with me."

Tanner stills and looks around her father. Her eyes well up with tears when she sees me. Well, h.e.l.l, isn't that something? I can say that, throughout my entire life, I've never had a woman cry because she was happy to see me.

Dagger steps into the apartment just as Tanner flings herself at me, wrapping her arms and legs around me securely. I cup her a.s.s, holding her up, the heat of her p.u.s.s.y hitting me hard. I haven't f.u.c.ked since the last time I saw her, and I f.u.c.king need it badly.

Her lips collide with mine as her tears. .h.i.t my face in droplets. She really didn't think I would come, did she? I can't blame her, though. With all the s.h.i.t that Princess filled her with, I'm surprised her lips are attached to mine. Still, I greedily take everything she's giving me.

"You want to come in?" Mearna says from the side of us as she looks around outside. I don't give a s.h.i.t who's f.u.c.king looking. There's no way I'm detaching from these lips.

I continue to kiss her, carrying her directly to the bedroom and kicking the door shut with my boot. I take her hard and fast, leaving us both breathless.

"I LIKE THESE." I bounce one of Tanner's curls in my hand.

She's lying naked, sprawled out on top of me, her heat keeping me warm against the coolness of her apartment.

"I was having one of those girl days," she says as if I know what in the h.e.l.l a girl day is. Whatever. She looks f.u.c.king gorgeous.

"Didn't think I'd come?" I ask, needing to get it out there and over with.

"Not really. You're not that guy, Rhys. I thought you'd be done with me."

My gut feels heavy as I pull her lips to mine. "No, not done. We're just getting started. Come move to Sumner." Her eyes widen. "I'm not perfect by a long shot, but I want you."

I'm not giving this s.h.i.t up.

Can't.

Won't.

"How do I know that we'll last? And for how long? A day, a week? This is a huge change for me."

The instant her words. .h.i.t my brain, I know what I need to do. I need to only be with her. It's new, different, but f.u.c.k, I don't want anyone else.

"I know we'll work. There's no other woman for me. It's only you, Sprite."

She smiles, and I get closer, brushing my lips against hers.

"Only you," I whisper.

"Okay," she whispers back, and I feel like I've won the f.u.c.king lottery.

PACKING THE WOMEN up wasn't a hard task. Mearna already had most of her things together from her travels down to Sumner. She agreed right away when Tanner and I came out to talk. She and Dagger were in an embrace that made Tanner still in my arms, no doubt in shock. She was able to pull herself together, though.

Tanner only had a few things she wanted, and by the next day, we were on our way to Sumner, following behind them.