.Chapter 2871

2871 Im a lunatic

Jack had never been so clear-headed when he realized that he was not afraid of mu Yuans death. Instead, he was afraid of what mu Yuans death brought to him. When they separated back then, there were still many misunderstandings.

If they didnt meet again in this life, he would live under the same blue sky with him. Knowing that he was well was his second best wish, but what death brought him was the regret of their lives.

These thoughts kept pestering him and made him feel guilty, regretful, and disgusted. Gradually, it reached a dead end. He thought that he was afraid of mu Yuans death.

Last night, when he was standing in front of the window, he suddenly thought it through.

He was afraid that it was not mu Yuans death.

Be it him or mu Yuan, they were all soldiers. The moment they put on their military uniforms, they were prepared to sacrifice themselves for the country, especially when they were at the front line. If they were not careful, they would be killed.

He had once thought that the best ending in his life would be a brilliant sacrifice for the country.

He thought that mu Yuan probably had the same wish.

Who wouldnt want to live if they could?

However, if they died, they had to die without any regrets. They had to look up to the heavens and bow down to the earth without any shame. This was their ending.

Their love was ranked at the back of many things, and he could no longer manage each others love. He didnt want the only person he loved to die with regrets and misunderstandings.

Even if he was going to die, he wanted to let mu Yuan know that he loved him the most in this life. We loved each other and once held hands. He did not regret loving you, and he was also unwilling to hurt you.

We did not come to this world in vain. If mu Yuan dies at the bottom of the sea, he will never be able to forgive himself.

His illness originated from this.

Bard had treated him for so long, and the things that he had thought through and never let go of, he had actually thought it through last night without a teacher.

Jack, is it worth it? Bei Sen asked,if you like men, I have many people around me who I can introduce to you. Of course Im not saying that Lieutenant Colonel mu Yuan isnt good. I think that Lieutenant Colonel mu Yuan is quite good Its just

No matter how good he is, hes not one of us! Reyman said,the color of our military uniforms is different. How can we fall in love?

Ruilin was like a quail, not saying a word. He felt that If feelings could be controlled, it would not be love anymore. This was a private matter, and there was nothing to persuade him about. He did not treat mu Yuan as a lifelong enemy like Lehmann.

Theres no such thing as being worth it! Jack laughed.Even if our country rotted into a pile of mud, you would still be willing to sacrifice yourself to protect it. It doesnt matter if its worth it or not. Its fine as long as Im willing.

Its hard to buy my willingness with money.

I dont think Lieutenant Colonel mu Yuan loves you that much. Reyman said unhappily,back then, we broke up and didnt look back. Youve found so many excuses to communicate with him, but he just avoided meeting you and didnt take you seriously at all. He didnt leave now because he wanted to cure you. When you recover, hell leave.

Leyman! Bayson angrily rebuked.

Jack was still sick, so wasnt saying this to agitate him?

Its fine, Jacks footsteps did not stop. He ran forward slowly.I know. Thats why some time ago, I was stubborn and refused to accept treatment. I wanted to tie him up. To be honest, I had crueler ideas and many Crazy and vicious ideas. Every idea made me want to try it out. I couldnt wait, so he would never leave me.

For example, if hes sick, his internal organs are all injured. As long as he doesnt recuperate well, itll be very uncomfortable when it rains and the weather changes. As long as I do something, Xiao Yuan wont be able to dream of going to the frontlines for the rest of his life. These old injuries wont be fatal, so he wont suspect anything. His injuries are so serious that its normal for him to not recuperate well. Its also normal for him to have some sequelae. He cant blame me. When I went to buy crabs and lobsters, I did it on purpose. I bought too much

I know that Xiao Yuan cant resist temptation. The doctor said that those things will make his wounds inflamed and his internal injuries will not recover. If he gets exposed to more wind, his body will be crippled. Its fine to eat a little, but its troublesome to eat too much. He cant eat cold food at all, so I did that I was angry when I saw him secretly eating a crab, but I was also secretly happy.

I was so close to crippling him. That night, he had a low fever and his wound was inflamed, but he didnt wake up. I applied medicine for him and listened to him cursing James in his nightmare, and then He shouted my name! Jacks eyes turned red. At that moment, he was overwhelmed with regret. He said that he wanted to see me before he died. At that moment, I wanted to kill myself.