'Every room is best. We're going to be so happy. You've already been asked to a Pony Club Barn Dance.'

'I wouldn't be seen dead,' said Perdita scornfully. No-one who'd bopped the night away with Jesus and the Carlisle twins would lower herself to a Pony Club hop. 'When can we get my pony?'

'Well, I rang the twins as you suggested. They're in Argentina, but their groom put me on to a man outside Rutminster, who's got a bay mare. If you like her, subject to a vet's certificate, you should be able to have her right away, although Daddy may think you should wait till Christmas Day.'

'That's stupid. Christmas isn't for ten days. I could be schooling or even hunting her by then. How much are you prepared to pay?'

'I can't see Daddy going much above 500.'

'You won't get a three-legged donkey for that,' snapped Perdita, stubbing out her cigarette and lighting another one.

'The move's been dreadfully expensive,' began Daisy hopefully. 'Perhaps if your report's good '

'Don't be fatuous. Daddy doesn't give a s.h.i.t about my reports! Now if it were Violet or Eddie '

'That's not true,' protested Daisy, knowing it was. 'When's Granny Macleod arriving?'

'Twenty-third,' said Daisy gloomily.

'That's all we need. Now she's a widow, she'll be more ghastly and self-obsessed than ever.'

Daisy knew she ought to reprove Perdita, but she had never got on with her mother-in-law herself and was dreading having her for Christmas. Bridget Macleod, in her turn, had never forgiven her daughter-in-law for having what she referred to as 'a past'.

Nearly sixteen years ago, when she was only seventeen, Daisy had become pregnant while she was at art college. Her parents were so appalled when they learned the circ.u.mstances in which the baby was conceived that they threw Daisy out. Eventually Daisy gave birth to a daughter, and called her Perdita - 'the lost one' - because she knew she couldn't afford to keep her. In utter despair, while going through the legal process of adoption, Daisy had met a trainee barrister, Hamish Macleod. Hamish was one of those stolid young men who grew a beard and had a flickering of social conscience during the sixties, which was firmly doused by the economic gloom of the seventies.

Moved by Daisy's plight, rendered sleepless by her beauty, Hamish asked her to marry him so that she could keep the baby. Daisy had accepted with pa.s.sionate grat.i.tude. Hamish was good-looking and seemed kind; she was sure she could grow to love him - anything to keep Perdita. Hamish's family - particularly his mother, Bridget - were appalled. Scottish, lower-middle cla.s.s, rigidly respectable, they branded Daisy a wh.o.r.e who had blighted their only son's dazzling career at the Bar. They had threatened to black the wedding unless Daisy put on a wedding ring and pretended that she was a young widow whose husband had been killed in a car crash.

Daisy, after fifteen years of marriage, still looked absurdly young. Kind, sympathetic, dreamy, hopelessly disorganized, she had become increasingly insecure, because Hamish, who had now left the Bar and become a successful television producer, never stopped putting her down and complaining about her inept.i.tude as a mother, her lack of domesticity and her lousy dress sense. Subconsciously, he'd never forgiven her for having Perdita illegitimately and hit the roof if she looked at other men at parties. He also ruthlessly discouraged her considerable gifts as a painter, because they reminded him of her rackety art-student past and because he considered there was no money in it.

Nor could he ever forgive Perdita for her strange beauty, her bolshiness and her dazzling athletic ability. Throughout the marriage he had pointedly lavished affection on the two children, Violet and Eddie, now aged thirteen and eight, whom he and Daisy had had subsequently. Less glamorous than Perdita, they were sweeter-tempered and better-adjusted.

Daisy's fatal weakness was a reluctance to hurt anyone. She had tried and tried to screw up the courage to tell Perdita the truth about her birth, but, terrified of the tantrums this would trigger off, she had funked it, feeding her the official line that her father had been killed in a car crash. 'We were so in love, darling, but he never knew I was pregnant.'

Daisy dreaded the day when Perdita might want to know the name of her real father. At least her blinkered obsession with polo and ponies had some advantages. Aware, however, that Hamish didn't love her, Perdita tried to trigger off a response by behaving atrociously. Matters weren't helped by Bridget Macleod's ability to beam simultaneously at Hamish, Violet and Eddie, and freeze out Daisy and Perdita. This reduced Daisy to gibbering sycophancy and Perdita to utter outrageousness.

Dark thoughts about her mother-in-law's impending visit occupied Daisy until darkness fell, by which time they had reached the village of Appleford where several cottages in the High Street already sported holly rings and the village shop window was bright with crackers and Christmas puddings. Brock House lay a quarter of a mile on, its gates flanked by pillars topped by stone badgers. b.u.mping down the pitted drive Daisy reached a fork. To the left, past vast unkept rose bushes and a dovecote, lay farm buildings which had been converted into garages, stables and a tackroom with paddocks behind. To the right, flowerbeds edged with box and a paved terrace led down stone steps to the back of Brock House. s.h.a.ggy with creepers, long and low, with its little lit-up windows, the house had a secretive air. On the far side, beyond a large lawn edged with herbaceous borders, the land dropped sharply into the Appleford Valley, thickly wooded with oaks and larches, and famous for its badger sets.

Inside was chaos. Daisy had made heroic attempts to get straight after moving, but now the children had come home bringing their own brand of mess. Violet and Eddie were in the kitchen, and greeted their elder sister guardedly.

'What's for supper?' asked Eddie, who was circling advertis.e.m.e.nts in Exchange and Mart. Exchange and Mart.

'Chicken ca.s.serole and chocolate mousse to celebrate Perdita's first night home,' said Daisy.

'There was,' said Violet. 'You left the larder door open and Gainsborough got at the chicken. Then he was sick. I cleared it up, and I got some sausages from the village shop.'

Thank G.o.d for Violet, thought Daisy. Violet Macleod had inherited Daisy's sweet nature and round face and Hamish's solid figure, freckles and curly, dark-red hair, which clashed with her high colour when she blushed. Shealso had beautifully turned-down amethyst eyes, which, she pointed out ruefully, matched her plump purple legs. Less bright than Perdita, she did much better at school because she was hard-working and methodical and because she knew you needed straight 'A's to become a vet. Violet spent much of her time sticking up for her father and grandmother and protecting her mother from Perdita's tantrums. She was now combing the recently sick, long-haired ginger tomcat, Gainsborough, who was mewing horribly.

'Stop it,' said Violet firmly. 'You know fur b.a.l.l.s make you sick.'

Eddie, at eight, looked not unlike a bouncer in a nightclub. Slightly dyslexic, hugely entertaining, he was interested in making a fast buck and enjoying himself. He had already found another prep schoolboy across the valley with whom to spend his time. His current ambition was to have a gun for Christmas. Daisy was dragging her feet because she felt Eddie might easily murder his elder sister.

'Give us a f.a.g, Perdita,' said Eddie as Perdita got out a packet of Silk Cut.

'Eddie!' said Violet, shocked. 'You are much too young.' 'Want us to show you round?' asked Eddie.

Unloading the car, listening to the thundering feet and yells of excitement as the children raced along the pa.s.sages, Daisy prayed that in this house they would at last be a really happy family.

'The stables are fantastic,' said Perdita with rare enthusiasm when she returned twenty minutes later with the others.

When the telephone rang, Daisy answered. From the way their mother stiffened and her voice became nervous and conciliatory, the children knew it was their father. Now she was apologizing for forgetting to get his suit back from the cleaners.

'I'll pick it up first thing in the morning. Perdita's home. Would you like a word?' For a second Perdita's normally dead-pan face was vulnerable and hopeful.

'Well, you'll see her later. Oh, I see, you must be frantic. See you tomorrow night then. He's not coming home,' explained Daisy, putting down the receiver.

'Because he knows I'm back,' said Perdita flatly.

'Nonsense,' bl.u.s.tered Daisy. 'He sent tons of love.' All three children knew she was lying.

'He's only got love for Eddie,' sneered Perdita, 'and not-so-shrinking Violet. Can I have a vodka and tonic? I am fifteen now.'

'Oh, all right,' said Daisy. Anything to keep the peace.

9.

'Dark, dark, dark,' wailed Daisy a week later. 'The Hoover's gone phut, the washing machine's broken down, Hamish says the place is a tip, and the kitchen brush has alopecia.'

'I'm off.' Perdita, dressed for hunting in boots, skin-tight breeches and a dark blue coat, went straight to the housekeeping jar.

'What are you doing?' asked Daisy.

'I need money for the cap.'

'You took a tenner yesterday.'

'I'll pay you back out of my Christmas present money,' said Perdita, rushing off towards the stables.

'Where's my dark green sweater?' bellowed Hamish from upstairs. 'There are two b.u.t.tons missing off my blazer and why the h.e.l.l isn't there any loo paper?'

Daisy sighed. Hamish had come back exhausted after a week's filming last night to watch one of his programmes - a doc.u.mentary on road haulage. Daisy hadn't helped matters by falling asleep because it was so boring. The moment the final credits went up, Hamish's mother was on the telephone telling him how wonderful it had been. When no-one else rang, Hamish, who was pathological about his beauty sleep, retired to bed. The telephone then started up again, but instead of being congratulations from Jeremy Isaacs and Alasdair Milne, it was friends of the children, catching up on gossip and wondering what life in the country was like, until Hamish was screaming with irritation.

Now he was downstairs bellyaching because Perdita had whipped the last of the housekeeping money. 'I told you to always keep a float. I don't know them well enough in the village shop to ask them to cash a cheque. What time's Peter Pan?' Peter Pan?'

'Oh, Christ,' said Daisy hysterically. 'I'd forgotten all about Peter Pan. Peter Pan. I can't go. I've got to get everything ready for your mother tomorrow, and do all the cooking, and shopping, and buy the stocking presents, and I haven't wrapped any of the other presents, and I've got to stay in for the washing-machine man. We haven't got any clean sheets.' I can't go. I've got to get everything ready for your mother tomorrow, and do all the cooking, and shopping, and buy the stocking presents, and I haven't wrapped any of the other presents, and I've got to stay in for the washing-machine man. We haven't got any clean sheets.'

Hamish looked at her pityingly. 'I can't understand why you can't treat Christmas like any other weekend. I suppose you've got your period coming.'

'I've got your b.l.o.o.d.y mother coming,' muttered Daisy into the sink.

'Wendy can do the shopping,' said Hamish loftily, 'and 'and the stocking presents. Give me the list.' the stocking presents. Give me the list.'

'But she must be frantic,' protested Daisy. Wendy was Hamish's PA, who seemed to work for him twenty-four hours a day.

'It's always the busiest people who find the time,' said Hamish sanctimoniously. 'Wendy can take the children to Peter Pan. Peter Pan. I'll bring them and the shopping home afterwards. I hope,' he added ominously, 'you're going to get things shipshape for Mother. She's had a very stressful year and needs a rest.' I'll bring them and the shopping home afterwards. I hope,' he added ominously, 'you're going to get things shipshape for Mother. She's had a very stressful year and needs a rest.'

In the past, on hearing Hamish's car draw up outside, Daisy had been known to take mugs out of the dish washer and frantically start washing them up in the sink, so much did Hamish hate to see her inactive. He was a successful film producer because he was good at keeping costs down, finicky about detail, and had brilliant empathy with his leading ladies who found him attractive because, to use one of his favourite phrases, he 'targeted' on them. Hamish, in fact, looked rather like an Old Testament prophet who regretted shaving off his beard for a bet. Copper-beech red hair rippling to his collar, a wide n.o.ble forehead, smouldering hazel 'eyes beneath jutting black brows, and a fine, hooked nose with flaring nostrils lapsed into a petulant mouth and a receding chin. Hamish also loved the sound of his own voice, which reminded him of brown burns tumbling over mossy rocks in the Highlands. Having muscular hips and good legs, he also wore a kilt on every possible occasion.

He was now, however, soberly dressed in grey flannels, and applying a clothes brush to the small of his blazered back, as he grumbled about cat hair. The moment he'd borne Eddie, Violet and the shopping list off to work, Daisy felt guilty about making such a scene. With the pressure off, she started reading the Daily Mail. Daily Mail.

'I believe it is possible,' a young American girl was quoted as saying, 'to have a caring, supportive husband, cherishing children, and a high octane career.'

I have none of these things, thought Daisy, I only want to paint.

Later that evening she and Violet decorated the house. Violet organized a bucket of earth and red crpe paper for the tree, and Daisy was comforted by the rituals of hanging up the same plastic angel with both legs firmly stuck together and the tinsel with split ends and the coloured b.a.l.l.s which had lost their hooks, and had to be tucked into the branches until they fell prey to Gainsborough.

In the alcove by the front door they set up the crib, which had been in the Macleod family for generations. There had nearly been a divorce the year Daisy painted the plain wooden figures, putting Mary in powder blue and Joseph in a rather ritzy orange.

'Did you enjoy Peter Pan?' Peter Pan?' asked Daisy, as she arranged straw from the stables in Baby Jesus's manger. asked Daisy, as she arranged straw from the stables in Baby Jesus's manger.

'It was fun,' said Violet. 'I'd forgotten Captain Hook went to Eton. Daddy loved it too.'

'Daddy came with you?' said Daisy in amazement.

'Wendy got an extra ticket,' explained Violet, standing on a chair to tie mistletoe to the hall light. 'He gets on awfully well with Wendy. They're always laughing.'

That's nice, thought Daisy wistfully. Hamish seldom laughed at home.

'The lost boys reminded me of Perdita,' said Violet.

Life would be so peaceful, thought Daisy, if it were just her and Violet. Now they were alone, she could tell Violet how wonderful her report was.

Daisy also felt guilty that Perdita's new pony had cost 1,500. A beautiful bay mare called Fresco, she had arrived with a saddle and a pound note tucked into her bridle for luck, which Perdita had nailed to the tackroom wall.

But that was only the beginning. Fresco's trousseau of rugs, so new they practically stood up by themselves, and headcollars and body brushes and curry combs, not to mention feed, had cost a fortune. At least Perdita was blissful. Having established an instant rapport with the pony, she was totally organized and reliable about looking after her. It was such a relief having her in a good mood and out of the house, hunting and exploring the countryside, particularly near Ricky France-Lynch's land, but Daisy still felt she ought to buy better presents for the other two children.

Hamish had violently discouraged Daisy against taking any interest in money, on the grounds that she was too stupid to understand it. But she had felt mildly alarmed when he told her they were only going to rent Brock House, because he had invested almost the entire proceeds from the London house in a co-production with the Americans. The resulting movie, he a.s.sured her, would be such a sure-fire hit he'd recoup his original stake five times over and be able to buy Brock House or something far grander in a year or two. The spare cash left over gave Daisy the illusion that for once they were flush. She must find something more exciting for Violet than that Laura Ashley dress. Suddenly she had a brainwave.

At least Bridget coming made her tidy up, thought Daisy the following day, as she plumped the cushions in the drawing room and used eight fire-lighters and all yesterday's Mail Mail and and Telegraph Telegraph to light the logs Hamish had grudgingly chopped that morning. And at least they weren't going to Bridget's for Christmas. With a shiver, Daisy remembered the year when baby Eddie and Violet, and particularly Perdita, had trodden Lindt kittens into Bridget's carpet and sacked her ultra-tidy house more effectively than any Hun or Visigoth. to light the logs Hamish had grudgingly chopped that morning. And at least they weren't going to Bridget's for Christmas. With a shiver, Daisy remembered the year when baby Eddie and Violet, and particularly Perdita, had trodden Lindt kittens into Bridget's carpet and sacked her ultra-tidy house more effectively than any Hun or Visigoth.

Going into the garden to pick some pinched pink roses and winter jasmine for Bridget's bedroom, Daisy breathed in the sweet, just freezing air, the acrid smell of bonfires and leaves moulding into the cocoa-brown earth.

The red had gone out of the woods now; they were uniformly dun and donkey brown, with the traveller's joy glittering silken over the tops of the trees in the setting sun.

In a fringe of beeches across the valley, rooks grumbled like waves sc.r.a.ping on shingle.

It was so beautiful. If only only she could paint, but Hamish would be driving Biddy, as his mother was nicknamed, down from the airport now. I must try to be efficient and nice to her and forget about painting until she leaves, Daisy told herself firmly. I must be grateful for the millionth time to Hamish for saving me from solitary evenings in peeling bedsitters with one bar on the fire, and a forty-watt bulb and no money. And look at Perdita whom Hamish had enabled to live in this glorious house and hunt this wonderful pony. Every Macleod had a silver lining. she could paint, but Hamish would be driving Biddy, as his mother was nicknamed, down from the airport now. I must try to be efficient and nice to her and forget about painting until she leaves, Daisy told herself firmly. I must be grateful for the millionth time to Hamish for saving me from solitary evenings in peeling bedsitters with one bar on the fire, and a forty-watt bulb and no money. And look at Perdita whom Hamish had enabled to live in this glorious house and hunt this wonderful pony. Every Macleod had a silver lining.

As always, she felt even guiltier when Hamish came through the door with his mother, such a frail little person with tears in her eyes who smelt of Tweed cologne and brought home-made fudge and shortbread and a bottle of whisky for Hamish.

How could I have turned her into such a monster, thought Daisy as she put on the kettle. There was a clatter of hooves outside and Perdita appeared at the back door.

'I suppose there's no hope the Glasgow shuttle crashed with no survivors?' she asked.

'Hush, she's arrived,' said Daisy. 'You must try and be nice to Granny, and for G.o.d's sake, tidy your room when you've sorted out Fresco. Daddy's bound to show her round the house. Did you have a good day?'

'Brilliant, we got three foxes. I got a brush.' Perdita's face was muddy, but her pale cheeks were for once flushed with colour and her dark eyes sparkled like jet.

'Rupert Campbell-Black was out. Christ, he's good-looking. He gave me several swigs of brandy, and Billy Lloyd-Foxe too; he's really nice and gave me two f.a.gs, and they both said it wouldn't hurt Fresco to hunt her and play polo. Hunting was the best way to get used to a young horse, and Rupert told me he was going to have one more crack at the World Championships next year, and then give up show-jumping. And Drew Benedict was there, and the twins. They're off to Palm Beach just after Christmas, but we're going to get together in the spring holidays, and Fresco jumped a bullfinch at least six foot high, and that journalist Beattie Johnson came to the meet. She said she was getting material for an in-depthinterview with Ricky. Rupert p.i.s.sed her up and said he was only interested in in-depth intercourse. Of course she was only digging up dirt. Evidently Ricky's taken Will's death terribly hard, and that b.i.t.c.h Chessie b.u.g.g.e.red off with all the France-Lynch jewellery, and when you think how rich Bart is. It's all right, I'm coming, sweetheart,' she turned back to Fresco. 'I can't tell you how much I like living in Rutshire. Rupert and Billy gave us a lift home in their lorry. We really must get a trailer.'

Not at the moment,' said Daisy, coming out to give Fresco a piece of carrot.

'Where's the newly-wid now?' asked Perdita.

'She's upstairs,' Daisy giggled. 'You mustn't be naughty. It must be awful being widowed.'

'Bet she's knocked out. She can't have loved Grandpa, the way she bossed him around. The poor old sod must be having the best Christmas ever, first time he's rested in peace for forty years.'

By the time Biddy Macleod had expressed joy and amazement at the increased growth and splendour of Violet and Eddie, and at Hamish's taste in putting up pictures (none of them Daisy's) and arranging the furniture, although Aunt Madge's chest of drawers in the spare room could do with a 'guid' polish, and come downstairs having unpacked -I'm not happy till I get straight' - and how it was late for tea at five, although flying made one work up a thirst, and what a nice young fellow had insisted on carrying her hand luggage at the airport, Daisy had decided Biddy was an absolute monster again.

And she didn't look remotely frail any more - just a bossy old bag with mean little eyes like burnt currants, a tight white perm and a disapproving mouth like a puckered-up dog's b.u.m. She doesn't mind being widowed at all, thought Daisy. It leaves her free to indulge her real pa.s.sion: Hamish.

The first black Daisy put up was to forget Biddy had lemon in her tea.

'Trust Hamish to remember,' said Biddy, smiling mistily. Chuntering, Daisy belted back to the kitchen, but got distracted. Through the clematis and winter jasmine which framed the hall window, she could see the red afterglow of the sunset, blackly striped by a poplar copse. I must remember it just like that, she thought, it wouldn't be a cliche with the picture frame of creeper.

'Mummy!' called Violet. 'You were getting Granny some lemon. Mummy was looking out of the window,' she explained to her grandmother and Hamish. 'She finds things so beautiful sometimes she forgets what she's doing.'

Hamish's and Biddy's eyes met.

'I must get that creeper cut back, it's ruining the brickwork,' said Hamish.

'I got seventy-five Christmas cards,' Biddy was boasting as Daisy came back having sc.r.a.ped the mould off a wizened slice of lemon. 'I'd prefer it black,' Biddy said pointedly.

'Can't you remember anything?' snapped Hamish, glaring at Daisy.

'As long as it's wet and warm,' said Biddy with a martyred sigh. 'I was saying I got seventy-five Christmas cards. So many people wrote saying such nice things about your father, Hamish, I brought them with me.'

'We didn't get many this year,' said Hamish petulantly. 'Daisy was so late in sending out the change of address cards.'

As Daisy was clearing away the tea things and Biddy had been poured a wee gla.s.s of sherry, Hamish suddenly went to the gramophone and put on a record that had just reached Number One in the charts.