Pressed by her sister's tabloid revelations, Oprah issued a public statement: "It is true that when I was 14 years old I became pregnant. The baby was born prematurely and died shortly after birth. I had hoped this matter could stay private until I was fully able to deal with my own deep emotions and feelings. It saddens me deeply that a publication would pay large sums of money to a drug-dependent, deeply disturbed individual and then publish her remarks. My heart goes out to my half sister." Oprah later told reporters that she had paid for her sister's drug treatment at the Hazelden clinic. "[I told her] I'm going to spend whatever it costs. But if you blow it, you can die a junkie on the street.

And I mean that with all my heart." Oprah did not speak to Patricia for two years after her tabloid revelations, but she generously paid for the education of her sister's two daughters, Alisha and Chrishaunda.

"[That article] was the most painful thing that has ever happened to me. The hurt, the feeling of betrayal was as bad as it gets," said Oprah. "But I kept reminding myself to look for the lesson--and all of a sudden something clicked for the first time. I connected my own s.e.xual promiscuity as a teenager with the s.e.xual abuse I had suffered as a child.

Strange as it many seem, I had never seen the connection between the two before. It took that terrible article in the tabloids to make me realize I was still carrying that guilt around with me. I know that there are other lessons for me to learn, but the first one was that I was not responsible for the abuse and that I had to get rid of the shame I was carrying."

Finally, Oprah invited her sister to her farm in Indiana to try to make amends.

"We spent the whole weekend talking," Patricia said later. "Oprah let me have it. She said I was a letdown, she was disappointed in me and I hadn't turned out the way she'd hoped.

I had no degree, no career, no nothing."

A few years later Oprah again cut off all communication with her sister. "I told her in the last conversation we had that we don't share the same moral code, so there's no reason to pretend in 'sisterhood,' " she told reporters. "I bought her a home and provided her with hundreds of thousands of dollars to get set up, but she said she didn't need to work." Oprah disagreed--strongly. "I think people need to [work]."

Patricia continued to bounce in and out of rehab until 2003 when, at the age of forty-two, she died of an accidental drug overdose. "I had just put her through rehab [again]," Oprah told reporters, "and what happens is, if you've been used to taking a certain amount of a drug and then you go back to taking that same amount after you've been off it for a bit, it's too much."

Oprah had expected to be shunned after her sister's tabloid revelations. "I imagined that every person on the street was going to point their finger at me and scream, 'Pregnant at fourteen, you wicked girl....' No one said a word, though--not strangers, not even people I knew. I was shocked. n.o.body treated me differently."

It's impossible to estimate how many women Oprah helped with the story of her out-of-wedlock pregnancy, but she must have been a beacon to those who had endured similar sadness and shame. Because of her reach and visibility, her words carried weight with her audiences, who saw her as a woman of courage and determination. Having refused to be defeated by her searing childhood, she inspired hope, and women everywhere could look at the success she had made of her life and believe in a similar salvation for themselves. In sharing her own shame, Oprah inevitably touched thousands and helped them release their guilt by showing them they were not alone. In that sense her show became the healing ministry she had always claimed it to be.

The public humiliation she endured during this time seemed to lead to a more empathetic Oprah, one who showed a new sensitivity to the exploitation of some of her "conflict" programs. "The day I felt clearly the worst I've ever felt on television was in 1989, when we were still live and we had the wife, the girlfriend, and the husband, and on the air the husband [unexpectedly] announced to the wife the girlfriend was pregnant.

And the expression on her face...I looked at her and felt horrible for myself and felt horrible for her. So I turned to her and said, 'I'm really sorry you had to be put in this position and you had to hear this on television. This never should have happened.' " Still, Oprah would continue her "conflict" programming for another five years of rocketing ratings.

Months earlier, the Pulitzer Prize-winning television critic Tom Shales had sounded the first knell against the "talk rot" infecting airwaves and polluting the atmosphere. "Hours and hours are frittered away on shock, schlock and folly," he wrote in The Washington Post. The Washington Post. Consumer advocate Ralph Nader singled out Consumer advocate Ralph Nader singled out The Oprah The Oprah Winfrey Show as the number one polluter. "They get all their ideas from the as the number one polluter. "They get all their ideas from the National National Enquirer, " Nader said. As an example of the shows Shales said Oprah was spoon-feeding " Nader said. As an example of the shows Shales said Oprah was spoon-feeding "b.o.o.b tube b.o.o.bs," he cited a few weeks of her topics: subservient women, paternity fights, infidelity, man-hunting, threesomes, wife beaters, and shopaholics.

Even Erma Bombeck took a soft swipe at Oprah in her syndicated column. "I find myself grabbing for the listing every day to see what will come up next," she wrote.

"Recently Oprah had a panel of men who thought their aunts were their mothers. Where do they find these people? Do individuals with unusual circ.u.mstances write the producers of the show and say: 'Hey, if you ever do something on s.p.a.ceship babies trying to find their mother, I'm living in Chicago and would love to talk about it'? Or does a call go out for 'Women Who Raise Their Husbands as an Only Child,' encouraging them to submit resumes?" The beloved humorist may have thought she was poking gentle fun, but Oprah's producers do maintain a huge computerized retrieval system from on-air solicitations, plus the two to four thousand letters they receive every week, many of which run to several pages of intimate revelations. There are also several separate databases for potential interviewees, guests, and experts on every subject imaginable.

Erma Bombeck did not live long enough to see Oprah's show of April 3, 2008, in which Oprah interviewed a transgender man who became pregnant so he and his wife could raise a child. He explained that he had taken male hormones, had his b.r.e.a.s.t.s removed, and legally changed his gender to male, but he decided not to have his female reproductive organs removed. He subsequently gave birth to a girl. That show provided Oprah with a 45 percent ratings increase over the previous week of shows.

Normally, she shrugged off her critics by citing her huge ratings; only occasionally did she admit to being "galled" by their criticism. "My answer to those who say [my] show is exploitative is that life is exploitative, sensational, bizarre, filled with trash and weird things. Television is where these subjects should be discussed." After all, she added, she didn't do bigots, racists, and sadom.a.s.o.c.h.i.s.ts anymore. "And I'll never do devil-worship again," she said. It would take her a few more years to acknowledge her embarra.s.sing contributions to trash television. At the time, she maintained that her tabloid shows were educational.

But it wasn't all squalor all the time on The Oprah Winfrey Show. The Oprah Winfrey Show. Though never Though never as substantive as Donahue, she still presented a few serious subjects in the late 1980s and early 1990s, including the escalating crisis in American education and declining literacy among the young. (She promoted that show by looking into the camera and asking, "How dumb are we?") She explored drunk driving in a show with offenders and victims who had been catastrophically injured by intoxicated motorists. Later she said if she had a twenty-year-old son who got drunk, got in a car, and killed a pedestrian, she would testify against him in court. "I would put his a.s.s in jail. I would say 'I love you, but your a.s.s is going to jail.' I haven't even lost anybody in this way, but the soft laws on this make me crazy. I think when someone is a drunk driver, he should hang. And since I don't believe in capital punishment, that means you just hang him till he turns blue, then revive him for a while, and then put him back up to hang some more. Then you tie a knot around his privates....I have no tolerance on this issue."

She was one of the first to examine s.e.xual abuse of children by the clergy, and she told the story of AIDS in several different shows, including one about whether networks should run commercials advertising the use of a certain brand of condom as protection against AIDS. Despite those in her audience vehemently opposed to such advertising, Oprah announced that she was handing out free samples of "safe-s.e.x kits"

that included condoms. She even ventured into public service with shows such as "What to Do in an Emergency," demonstrating artificial respiration and the Heimlich maneuver.

She raised more than $1 million in credit-card donations for Hurricane Hugo victims during a show from Charleston, South Carolina. "This is the quickest response from individuals that we have ever seen in a fund-raising effort," said James Krueger of the Red Cross.

"The subjects for discussion change over the years," she said in 1989. "It used to be better s.e.x and the perfect o.r.g.a.s.m. Then it was diet. The trend for the nineties is family and nurturing." To that end she presented shows such as "How to Have a Happy Step Family," "The Family Dinner Experiment," "In Search of Missing Children," and "How to Find Loved Ones," in which she showed viewers how to track down long-lost relatives.

Her most effective shows continued to be those that touched her own life and explored the personal issues she was coping with at the time, including her continual struggle with weight, the damage of s.e.xual molestation, and the ravages of racism. She took her audience inside the life of an obese person by introducing twenty-five-year-old Stacey Halprin, who weighed 550 pounds the first time she was on the show. Stacey returned after losing 300 pounds following gastric bypa.s.s surgery and came back again after losing another 60 pounds to get an Oprah makeover, which also became one of the show's most popular staples.

In her 1989 show t.i.tled "Date Rape," Oprah said, "I know it will have liberated a lot of women who have been raped and never called it that. A major survey showed that eighty-seven percent of high-school boys believe they have the right to force a woman to have s.e.x if they have spent money on a date--and forty-seven percent of girls agreed. It's amazing to me that women buy into that att.i.tude."

On Martin Luther King, Jr.'s birthday in 1992 she announced that she would present shows throughout the year devoted to "Racism in America": "Racism in the Neighborhood"

"I Hate Your Interracial Relationship"

"j.a.panese Americans: The New Racism"

"Are We All Racist?"

"The Rodney King Verdict I and II"

"My Parent Is a Racist"

"An Experiment in Racism"

"Too Little, Too Late: Native Americans Speak Out"

"I Refuse to Date My Own Race"

"Unsolved Hate Crimes"

"White Men Who Fear Black Men"

She took her cameras to South Central Los Angeles in the wake of the riots that followed the acquittal of the white police officers who had beaten Rodney King, an African American. b.l.o.o.d.y chaos erupted after the 1992 verdict, with the violent deaths of fifty-four people in one of the most deadly riots in U.S. history. South LA ignited into an inferno of 4,000 fires damaging 1,100 buildings, causing 2,382 injuries, and resulting in 13,212 arrests. That evening, television viewers watched in horror as Reginald Denny, a white man, was dragged from his truck and beaten by a black mob. President George Herbert Walker Bush finally sent in federal troops to restore order.

With the best of intentions, Oprah a.s.sembled a multiracial audience of whites, Asians, blacks, and Hispanics for her first taping in Los Angeles, but she ended up with a show of shrill militants, which prompted Howard Rosenberg to write in the Los Angeles Los Angeles Times that she was "overmatched in this withering onslaught of anger and outrage, that she was "overmatched in this withering onslaught of anger and outrage, watching helplessly as her studio full of warring multicultural guests screamed sound bites at each other." One black woman justified the riots by saying, "We had to do something to get Oprah into LA to get people talking." Rosenberg nearly despaired. "If this is talking," he wrote, "bring back shouting."

Despite the critics, Oprah maintained her position as the country's number one talk show host among a growing field of compet.i.tors. Her program's popularity and the intense loyalty of her female viewers made her the most influential voice in daytime television, and her made-for-television movies and specials had extended her audience, but she still wanted to engrave her presence in prime time. So, for her next network special, she and her executive producer, Debra DiMaio, cast their lines for a prize catch and managed to reel in Michael Jackson, the self-styled "King of Pop, Rock, and Soul,"

who was then the subject of international curiosity. He had not done a live interview in fourteen years, but because it was Oprah offering ninety minutes of prime-time television, and possibly because his record sales had dropped along with his popularity, he agreed to sit down with her at his Neverland ranch in Santa Ynez, California. Oprah promised not to ask him if he was gay, but she said she wanted to give him a chance to address the bizarre rumors about him bleaching his skin, sleeping in a hyperbaric chamber, and having serial plastic surgeries.

In addition, she asked: "Were your brothers jealous of you when you started getting all the attention?"

"Did your father beat you?"

"Are you a virgin?"

"Why do you always grab your crotch?"

"Do you go out, do you date?"

"Who do you date?"

"Have you ever been in love? We'd like to know whether or not there is a possibility that you are going to marry one day and have children?"

Sixteen years later, after Michael Jackson died in 2009, Oprah played part of that interview. She said that she did not believe him when he told her that he had had only two plastic surgeries. She also seemed dubious about his claim of vitiligo, the disorder that he said bleached his skin.

During the interview, the smoke detectors went off at Neverland and the screeching noise forced Oprah to break for an unplanned commercial. Later, Diane Dimond, one of Jackson's biographers, speculated that Jackson had planned the interruption to disrupt Oprah's personal questions. Bob Jones, Jackson's publicist from 1987 to 2002, who had coined the term "King of Pop," recalled the interruption as a way for Jackson to bring on Elizabeth Taylor as a surprise.

"He had Liz there to trump Oprah's questions, and also because he knew that Liz would add to the ratings....Liz should've been there, considering all the jewels Michael gave her over the years. That was a very expensive friendship, let me tell you."

Taylor told Oprah--who irritated the star by continuing to call her Liz instead of Elizabeth--that Michael was "the least weird man I have ever known," in addition to being "highly intelligent, shrewd, intuitive, understanding, sympathetic, generous." Years later Oprah said she did not think their friendship weird because they shared the same experiences of being child stars with abusive fathers.

During his 1993 interview, Michael Jackson looked "Off the Wall," Oprah wasn't "Bad," and it never got "Dangerous," but for ninety million viewers in the United States and one hundred million around the world, the interview was a pop culture "Thriller."

Jackson defended his preoccupation with children as compensation for his lost childhood and the urge to surround himself with unconditional love. "I find a thing I never had through them," he said. Ten years later he would give an interview to British TV that led to his prosecution for child molestation, but he was found not guilty on all charges. He admitted to Oprah that he had a lifelong crush on Diana Ross, whom he seemed to resemble, and he claimed to be in love with Brooke Shields.

"Michael just BS'd Oprah about not being gay," said Bob Jones, who was on the set during the interview. "Michael was a much bigger star than Oprah at that time--he was once the biggest black performer in the world--but that interview served both of them quite well. The one person Michael really wanted to be a.s.sociated with was not Oprah but Princess Diana, and we did everything possible to get him an introduction, but the princess would not return his calls....Finally we did the Prince's Trust [a charity event]

and Michael met her, at Wembley Stadium in London, but she didn't say much to him beyond h.e.l.lo."

Oprah's special on Michael Jackson was the highest-rated non-Super Bowl entertainment event in almost a decade, exceeding everyone's expectations, including those of sponsors. ABC reported that the show was one of the most watched entertainment programs in television history, and the fourth-highest-ranked entertainment show since 1960, behind only the finale of M*A*S*H M*A*S*H (February 1983), the "Who Shot (February 1983), the "Who Shot J.R.?" episode of Dallas Dallas (November 1980), and (November 1980), and The Day After The Day After (November 1983). (November 1983). Time Time said, "Part grand Oprah, part soap Oprah, the Winfrey show was at the very least great TV: live, reckless, emotionally naked." Life Life concurred: "Oprah delivered the goods and concurred: "Oprah delivered the goods and accomplished the near-impossible: She brought Peter Pan down to earth." At last Oprah had won her place in prime time. "My finest hour in television," she said.

Fourteen.

FOR MANY years, the American Booksellers a.s.sociation held its annual convention over the Memorial Day weekend, and in 1993, ABA, as it was called then, was a baccha.n.a.l. More than twenty-five thousand retailers, publishers, agents, and authors flew to Miami for four days and nights of buying, selling, and celebrating at splashy parties with author-celebrities such as William Styron, Maya Angelou, and Ken Follett, as well as celebrity authors such as Ann-Margret, Rush Limbaugh, and Dr. Ruth.

But no one attracted more attention or applause than thirty-nine-year-old Oprah Winfrey, who was poised to publish her autobiography, which was expected to be the biggestselling book in publishing history.

She was lionized by her publisher on Sat.u.r.day evening of that weekend, at one of the most elaborate and expensive parties Alfred A. Knopf, the most prestigious publishing company in the book business, had ever thrown for an author. The exterior of Miami's International Palace was lit in purple as an homage to Oprah's favorite color and her first movie. Within the skysc.r.a.per, tables groaned with platters of shrimp the size of iPods for the eighteen hundred guests who swarmed around silver chafing dishes br.i.m.m.i.n.g with pasta, haunches of prime rib, and strips of sizzling sirloin. Tuxedoed waiters raced back and forth with trays of crystal flutes bubbling with champagne for booksellers more accustomed to cheap wine in paper cups.

Wearing a bright aqua suit, a once-again-thin Oprah arrived on Stedman's arm and was introduced by the chairman of the board of Random House, Inc. She charmed everyone by saying she was so excited about her book that she wished she could get on The Oprah Winfrey Show to promote it. Although she had not yet started Oprah's Book to promote it. Although she had not yet started Oprah's Book Club, everyone knew what she could do for books she liked. Just two weeks earlier, she had taken her cameras to Iowa to do a segment on The Bridges of Madison County. The Bridges of Madison County. The The weeper was already a bestseller, but Oprah's show triggered an additional demand for 350,000 copies.

So it was understandable that as the featured speaker at the book and author breakfast the next morning, she would be received like Cleopatra on her barge for all of Rome to honor. The crowd was wall-to-wall and the applause was deafening as she approached the microphone. She began by saying that she thought everyone should sit down and write a book about themselves. "You can save yourself a huge therapy bill,"

she said. "For me, working on this book the past year and a half has been like ten years of therapy. I've learned so much about myself." She heaped praise on her collaborator, Joan Barthel, and quickly a.s.sured everyone that she had not written a celebrity kiss-and-tell. "I haven't done that much anyway, and besides, the people I did it with, you don't know 'em, so...you don't have to worry about that," she said to peals of laughter.

Turning on all of her telegenic charm, Oprah dazzled the booksellers with her often-told anecdotes--which, to those who had never seen her show, seemed fresh and spontaneous. She talked about growing up as "a poor little ole nappy-headed colored chile" who wanted to be Diana Ross "or just somebody supreme"; how she had to hide in a closet with a flashlight to read because her family made fun of her for being "an old bookworm" and accused her of "trying to be more than everybody else" because she loved books. She talked about her weight, how her bosses in Baltimore tried to make her over, and how she ended up bald. "You know you've got a struggle on your hands when you're black and fat and bald in America, and and you're a woman on television," she said. you're a woman on television," she said.

Rocking with hilarity, the crowd clapped until their hands hurt.

"It doesn't matter how victimized any of us have been, we're all responsible for our lives," Oprah said. "This is a book about taking responsibility for the victories in your own life. Mine has been a wondrous amazing life. I grew up with feelings of not being loved, and that's why I feel so blessed to speak to 20 million viewers everyday who write...to tell me that they love me." She said she was going to bring people into bookstores who had never before been in them, words that fell on the a.s.sembled booksellers like manna from heaven. The idea of an adoring audience of twenty million potential book buyers made them giddy with antic.i.p.ation. She concluded by adding high purpose to potential profit: "My goal is to uplift, encourage and empower people," she said. "I make no bones about wanting to really make a difference in the world, and I hope Oprah: An Autobiography will do just that." will do just that."

Dizzy with delight, the booksellers jumped up to give her a standing ovation, shaking the coffee cups with reverberations from their applause. Here was an author who was going to lift every bookstore in the country and sprinkle gold dust on an entire industry. Publication was set for September 20, 1993; Knopf had announced a staggeringly large first printing of 750,000 copies; the Doubleday Book Club and the Literary Guild planned a direct mailing to five million homes; and, best of all, Oprah had promised to visit a different city every week in a thirty-city promotional tour from the fall of 1993 through the spring of 1994. Robert Wietrak, the director of merchandising for Barnes & n.o.ble, was beside himself. "This will be the biggest book we've ever sold," he said.

Hearing the tsunami of praise pouring out of ABA, where Oprah had generated waves of rapture, reporters began calling Knopf, wanting to know more about her book.

On June 9, 1993, fifteen weeks before publication, Erroll McDonald, Oprah's editor, told The New York Times, "Given that the media feeds off Oprah to a great degree, we don't "Given that the media feeds off Oprah to a great degree, we don't want people to cannibalize the book before it comes out." He need not have worried.

Six days later Oprah called her publisher. "This is the hardest call I've ever had to make...but...I have to withdraw my book....We can't publish now....I have to postpone it."

After several anguished calls back and forth, the publisher pleading for Oprah to change her mind and Oprah apologizing profusely, at one point even offering to repay Knopf for the ABA party in her honor, she officially canceled publication with a statement that crushed booksellers: "I am in the heart of the learning curve. I feel there are important discoveries yet to be made."

The next day's headlines reflected the scale of the story that became national news: "Oprah's Book Delay Leaves World Guessing" ( USA Today USA Today) "Rumors Still Swirl as Oprah Stays Silent" ( Los Angeles Sentinel Los Angeles Sentinel) "More Lessons to Learn Before Oprah Tells All" ( New York Times New York Times) "Oprah Pulls Plug on Autobiography" ( Newsday Newsday) "Oprah Wanted Book to Be More Than Recitation" ( Chicago Sun-Times Chicago Sun-Times) Not surprisingly, the tabloid Star Star was the most explicit: "Why Oprah's Banning was the most explicit: "Why Oprah's Banning Her s.e.xy Tell-All Book."

Legally, Oprah could back away from her commitment to Knopf because she had not signed a standard contract, simply a nonbinding letter of agreement saying she would forgo an advance against royalties, but that she and the publisher would split all profits fifty-fifty. Customarily, authors receive an advance, and when the advance is earned out by book sales, they receive a percentage of the price of each book sold as a royalty.

Oprah's copublishing arrangement with Knopf was extraordinary, and considering the early orders, was guaranteed to be phenomenally profitable for both author and publisher.

The people at Knopf, where the book was now being called Noprah, Noprah, tried to put the best tried to put the best face on what industry a.n.a.lysts estimated to be a $20 million loss.

"She felt she needed to put in more work," Erroll McDonald told reporters. "I think that the book, as it is, is very powerful and revealing, but I'm not its author."

The head of Knopf's public relations and publicity department, William T.

Loverd, tried to soft-pedal the knockout punch. "She felt this was not the best job she could do," he said. "There was not enough of her in it. The book is only postponed."

Arlene Friedman, editor in chief of Doubleday Book Club, said, "We felt it was the book that every woman would want to read."

"The book is extremely strong and honest," said Sonny Mehta, the president and editor in chief of Knopf. "[But] it is her book, and we will of course abide by her wishes.

We look forward to resuming work on the project when she is ready." And that, as Yiddish comics say, would be a year from Shavuos, the Jewish holiday that never comes.

Oprah's publicist was besieged by calls from reporters about the sudden cancellation, and she danced as fast as she could trying to interpret for them "the heart of the learning curve."

"Oprah felt it was premature [to publish] because she has a lot of positive things going on in her life right now that she would want to include in the book, like her marriage to Stedman and her recent weight loss from working out," said Colleen Raleigh.

She explained that since Oprah's engagement she had been working with her chef and her trainer to try to lose eighty-five pounds by her fortieth birthday, and she was making excellent progress, but that didn't carry weight with reporters, who pushed for the real reason Oprah had canceled her book, asking if it was because of Stedman.

"No, no...Their relationship had nothing to do with it," said Raleigh. "It couldn't be stronger."

Despite Raleigh's best efforts, every news story on the book's cancellation carried the suggestion that Oprah's fiance was aghast at what she had written about her past s.e.x life, and pointed out that the couple had been officially engaged for seven months but still had not set a wedding date. Erroll McDonald tried to dismiss the idea that Oprah had derailed her book because of Stedman's objections. "That suggests that Oprah is at the mercy of what others say," he said, "that she's not capable of making up her own mind."

But even he did not know what had really happened.

More confusing were the conflicting stories Oprah told about whether or not she and Stedman had ever set a wedding date. In October 1993 she told Ebony: Ebony: We had decided it was going to be this fall. I had made an appointment with Oscar de la Renta. I was going to consult with the almanac on what week the leaves would be the best color and all that stuff. And then this whole book thing erupted. So we're going to resume talking about it, I guess.

The next month (November 1993), she told Chicago Chicago magazine: magazine: We are still getting married. But we did not set a date. Never. Let me say it again: We...did...not...set...a date. So how can we put it off? That was a notion concocted out of thin air by the press. It has nothing to do with the truth of Stedman and me....But we will do it [get married]. Does that answer your question? This impression that we've broken up and gotten back together and broken up again, it is absolutely, categorically not true.

Not true. It's a media-created story. Let me say again, it is not true...we have never broken up. Not once.

That same month (November 1993) a writer from McCall's McCall's interviewed her and interviewed her and noticed the books sitting on her desk: Martha Stewart's Weddings, Weddings, Eleanor Munro's Eleanor Munro's Wedding Readings, and a paperback t.i.tled and a paperback t.i.tled Wedding Planner. Wedding Planner. Yet Oprah said, "I have Yet Oprah said, "I have never set a date for the wedding. It's because of the tabloids that there's a public perception the wedding has been on and off. I am in no hurry to get married. I dislike this notion of a desperate woman who wants to get married."

Four months later (February 1994) she told Ladies' Home Journal: Ladies' Home Journal: There was a time in my life when I needed marriage to validate myself. But now I'm very content with what my relationship gives me....I'm very sorry I ever mentioned Stedman's name to the press. This whole wedding thing might not be such a big issue, if I had never mentioned it.

Then in Vogue (October 1998) she said: (October 1998) she said: We were supposed to get married September 8, 1993. Because that was my father's wedding day. My book, the big autobiography thing, was supposed to come out on September 12 and Stedman said, "All of that's gonna get confused. You can't do both at the same time. So we should postpone the wedding." So I said, "OK, fine. We'll postpone it." And I will tell you, it has never been discussed again. It is not even an issue.

The relationship works.

Perhaps her most telling comment was to the Daily Mail Daily Mail (February 2006): (February 2006): He proposed about ten years ago, so I called a little gathering of a few friends and I was trembling. Gayle said, "That's just cold feet." I said, "This is not just cold feet; it's two feet in an ice bucket." At the time we'd been together almost a decade. We'd chosen the date and my autobiography was supposed to be coming out two days after the wedding. Stedman said he did not approve of the book because telling the truth about my life would embarra.s.s my family, and why would I want to do that?

While Stedman was aware of Oprah's traumatic childhood and the s.e.xual molestation she had endured, her teenage pregnancy, her promiscuity, her disastrous affair with the married man in Baltimore, and even her past drug use, he was not prepared for the jolt of seeing it all laid out so starkly on the page. He objected to her naming the men in her family who had s.e.xually abused her, and he was especially disturbed by the harsh way she had written about her mother.

For years Oprah had been telling viewers and interviewers that her mother had abandoned her shortly after she was born. "I was not wanted," she had said. "I was born in shame." Only after her collaborator, Joan Barthel, did some preliminary research did Oprah realize that her mother had been with her in Kosciusko for the first four and a half years of her life before leaving her in the care of her own mother, Hattie Mae Lee, to go "up North" to find a better-paying job. Yet in her autobiography, Oprah blamed her mother for the s.e.xual molestation that befell her after she moved to Milwaukee, and Stedman objected. "Your mother doesn't need to read that she was not there for you," he said.