The swell was running a trifle higher now, I thought, and rocking us; but the sloop felt as steady under my feet as any floor. The faint rusding returned, perhaps minutely louder, and this time I knew it for what it was-or rather, for what it had been: the sound my father made turning over the pages of his ledger while I swept the floor of his shop. Day was done, palaestra was over, and the shop was about to close. Time to enter the sales, so many few of this and many fewer of that, which would have to be reordered at the end of the month or perhaps at the end of the year. Time to tote up the bits in the cash box and calculate that the total would not quite cover the cost of dinner tonight for Horn (who was helping around the shop so very unwillingly), the rest of the sprats, and the wife.

I spoke aloud to no one, saying, "Time to close," and went aft to where the pages of Silk's book were turning themselves, page after water-spotted page, upon one of the chests, in the faintest possible breeze.

Time to close.

So it was, and I thought about that then, I believe for the first time ever. My boyhood was over and done with long ago, and my young manhood was behind me. I had married because it had seemed natural for Nettle and me to marry as we had planned from childhood. We would not willingly separate as long as we both lived, no matter how much distance might separate us; and if she should die before me, I would not marry again. Life and chance had given us three sons; we would have liked a daughter as well, a daughter certainly, or even two; but it was too late for that now, perhaps. Or if not too late, it would be when I returned from the Long Sun Whorl.

Time to close, to tote up accounts.

That, as I realized sitting alone upon the quiet sea, had been the chief reason I had so readily accepted the task those five people had come to persuade me to undertake. How surprised they had been! They had brought food, tents, and trunks full of clothing, expecting to spend a week or more on Lizard; but in my books Silk was an account that had never been closed, one so large that it dwarfed all others. At fifteen, I had thought him the greatest of great men. At thirty-five, only a little taller, thick-bodied and nearly bald, I thought him a great man still.

I closed the book, and secured it in the cubby under the foredeck.

He would meet us at the lander, he had said, if he could; he had not met us there. Latecomers such as Blazingstar had reported that he was still calde when they had left Viron; but even their information was years out of date. There had been Trivigaunti troopers in the tunnels, and it seemed probable to me then (I mean then, on the sloop) that they had captured him when he had tried to rejoin us. If so, it seemed likely that Generalissimo Siyuf would soon have restored him as calde, subject to her orders. That would account for the latecomer's reports, and in that case he might be governing Viron still, with every decision he made dictated by some cruel and arrogant Trivigaunti general.

Yet there were half a dozen other possibilities. No more settlers had reached us from Old Viron for years now, and Silk might have died aboard a lander that had failed to reach either whorl; everyone knew that not all the landers that left the Whorl Whorl landed safely on Blue or Green. landed safely on Blue or Green.

Equally, he might have been killed on Siyuf's orders at a later date, or been deposed by her or some other Trivigaunti; in which case he might be living in exile.

With or without Hyacinth, he might have boarded a lander that took him to Green, and if he had he was presumably dead. Equally, he might have landed on some part of Blue remote from us. (This still seems possible to me, as I wrote when I began this straggling history.) Before they left Lizard, I had brought up the possibility with Marrow and the rest, and they had agreed that it could not be discounted entirely. Here I am in a part of Blue a very considerable distance from New Viron, and hear nothing of Silk; but that means nothing. If he were a hundred leagues east of Gaon and me-or on Shadelow-it would explain everything.

I may find him yet. Perseverance and prayer! All is not lost until I give up the search.

Very busy the last few days, busy until I was at length forced to put off all the others who desired to speak with me or desired to do it again, telling them that I required rest and prayer (which was true enough) and that my subordinates would hear their protestations, weigh their proofs, and decide matters. And telling my subordinates in turn that I trusted their judgment (which is not entirely false) and would support their decisions as long as they played no favorites and took no bribes.

Having said all that, and made it clear that I meant it, I retreated to this pleasant room and shut and barred the door. Here I sit, surrounded by a reverent hush, having prayed and read this rambling account of the beginning of my adventures through, and prayed again. All with intervals of pacing up and down, slamming my fist into my palm, and providing food and fresh water against the return of the pet who is no longer on his perch.

I am stunned to find this account as worthless as it is. It tells me nothing about myself (or Nettle, or the boys, or even Patera Silk) that I did not know already. It contains no plans for returning home, the very thing I should be thinking about most intently. Yet under these circumstances what plans can there be?

I must free myself from these handsome, generous, feckless people upon some pretense, and somehow procure a swift horse. Conceivably some other beast, although I would think a horse would be best. I must escape with cards enough-or the new rectangles of gold we use for cards sometimes here-to enable me to buy a small but seaworthy vessel when I reach the coast. After that, it will be in the hands of the Outsider and the weather gods of Blue-of the monstrous goddess whom Seawrack called the Mother, perhaps.

There is my plan, then. Under these circumstances, how can I plan anything more? The terrible aspect is that these people need someone like me very badly, and I am in a sense responsible for my own abduction.

As well as for them. They have made me their ruler, in name and very nearly in fact, and I have accepted the office. I, who have only a single wife for whom I long, now have no less than fifteen more-all young enough to be my daughters. Fifteen graceful and charming girls whom I sometimes permit as a very special favor to sing and play for me while I sit dreaming of home.

No, not of Old Viron, though I have been calling Old Viron "home" all my life. Dreaming of the house of logs at the foot of the Tor we built when we were young, of the napping tent of scraped and greased greenbuck skins upon the beach, and of eager, explanations of papermaking made to Nettle and-sometimes-to the wind. Dreaming of Lizard, the rushing water and thumping hammers of my mill, the measured clanking of the big gear, the crawl of the laden wire cloth, and the golden glory of the Short Sun sinking into the sea beyond a Tail Bay crammed with prime softwood.

Once I planned to print our paper as well as make it. But I have written about that. What would be or could be the use of setting it down again?

-3-

THE SIBYL AND THE SORCERESS.

The Marrow I had known as a boy had been portly in the best sense, a fat man whose bulk promised strength and gave him a certain air of command. He was no longer steady on his legs, and limped along (as Silk once had) with the help of a stick; his face was lined, and such hair as remained to him was white. Yet I could tell him quite truthfully that he had scarcely changed since we had fought the Trivigauntis in the tunnels together. He was fat still, though somewhat less energetic than he had once been; and the air of command had become a settled fact.

He was the same man.

"I don't need to talk to you," he said. "I know you, Horn, and know you'll do your best. That's all I need to know. But maybe you need to talk to me. If there's anything I can tell you, I will. If there's anything you need, I'll supply it if I can, or get somebody to."

I told him that I had come largely to buy provisions and get directions, that I had wanted to leave most of the food we had with my family; and I reminded him that he had promised to try to locate someone who had been to Pajarocu and could provide firsthand information regarding the best routes.

"Food's no problem." He waved it away. "I'll give you a barrel of apples, some dried stuff, cornmeal, and leavening powder." He paused, looking thoughtful. "A ham, too. A case of wine and a cask of pickled pork."

I doubted that I would need that much, and I told him so.

"Better to have it and not need it than need it and not have it. How was the voyage down?"

I shrugged. "I lost my harpoon."

"I'll get you another one, but it may take a day or two."

With thoughts of the leatherskin still fresh in my mind, I asked whether he could lend me a slug gun, adding that I could not afford to buy one.

His bushy eyebrows rose. "Not a needier? You had one in the old days. Still got it?"

I shook my head.

"I'll get you one." He leaned back, sucking his teeth. "It may take longer, I don't know. If worst comes to worst, I'll give you mine. I doubt that I'll ever need it again."

"I'd prefer a slug gun. I've heard that someone here is making them now, and making cartridges for them."

He rose with the help of his stick, saying, "I've got a couple in the next room. I'll show them to you."

It was a far larger house than ours, though not, I believe, so solidly built. The room to which he led me held cabinets, several well-made chairs, and a big table covered with papers. I bent to look at them.

He saw me, and picked up a sheet. "Your stuff. Just about all of it is. The traders have it sometimes, mostly off a lander if you ask me. They're surprised to find out we're making our own here in New Viron." He chuckled. "We means you, this time. I tell them we can make slug guns and mean Gyrfalcon, and we can make paper and mean you." means you, this time. I tell them we can make slug guns and mean Gyrfalcon, and we can make paper and mean you."

He handed me the sheet and took out a key. "We can do a couple of other things that mean a lot more. We can make a paper mill, and make a lathe and a milling machine for metal that are good enough to let us copy a slug gun. But I don't tell them that. We want sales, not competitors."

I protested that he made no profit when I sold my paper.

He smiled. "Sometimes you sell it to me."

"Yes, and I'm extremely grateful to you. You're a good customer."

"Then I sell it to them, some of it. I don't make anything when Gyrfalcon sells his slug guns either, or not directly. But it brings money here, and sooner or later I get my share. So do others. You did your own woodworking, didn't you, building your mill?"

I had, and said so.

"What about the metal stuff? Did you do that, too?"

"Others made those for us. They had to extend us credit, but we repaid them some time ago."

The key turned in the lock, and the door of a cabinet swung open. "Then you could make the paper Gyrfalcon and his workmen used when they drew out the parts for this slug gun. One hand scratches the other, Horn."

"I thought you said they copied the parts of a slug gun someone brought from home."

"Oh, they did. But it's better to measure once and draw it up than to keep on measuring. I won't ask you to tell me which of these was made back in the old place and which here. You could do it pretty easily, and so could any other man who had his wits about him. I want you to take them both in your hands, though. Look them over, and tell me if you think one ought to shoot better than the other, and why."

I did, opening the action of each first to assure myself that it was unloaded. "The new one's a little stiff," I said. "The old one's smoother and a fraction lighter. But I don't see why they shouldn't shoot equally well."

"They do. They're both mine, and I'll consider it an honor to give either one to you, if you want it." Marrow paused, his face grave. "The town ought to pay you. We can't, or not nearly enough to make you want to go for the money. The question is, is New Viron going to be richer in a few years, or poorer? And I don't know. But that's all it is, not the rubbish about morals and so forth that the old Prolocutor goes on about. We need Silk for the same reason we need better corn, and we're asking you to bring him here to us for nothing."

I picked up the newly made slug gun, and told Marrow that I would need a sling of some kind for it.

"Aren't you going to argue it with me? Your Calde Silk would have, if you ask me."

"No," I told him. "If the parents are poor enough, the children starve. That would be enough for Silk, and it's enough for me."

"Well, you've the right of it. If they're poor enough, the parents do, too. That boy of yours would tell me people can hunt, but you think about filling every belly here, year in and year out, by hunting. They'd have to scatter out, and when they were, every family'd have to hunt for itself. No more paper and no more books, no carpentry because they'd be moving camp every few days and tables and so on's too heavy to carry. Pretty soon they wouldn't even have pack saddles."

I said it would not matter, since those who owned horses or mules would eat them after a year or two, and he nodded gloomily and dropped into a chair. "You like that gun?"

"Yes. Very much."

"It's yours. Take it out to your boat when you go back. Take that green box on the bottom shelf, too. It's cartridges from a lander and never been opened. Our new ones work, but they're not as good."

I said that I would prefer new cartridges nevertheless, and he indicated a wooden box that held fifty. I told him about the paper I had on the sloop, and offered it to him to offset-in part, at least-the cost of the slug gun and the food he had promised me.

He shook his head. "I'm giving you the gun and the rest of it. The cartridges and harpoon, and the apples and wine and the other stuff. It's the least I can do. But if you'll let me have that paper, I'll give whatever I get for it to your wife. Would you like me to do that? Or I can hold the money for you, until you get back."

"Give it to Nettle, please. I left her with little enough, and she and Sinew are going to have to buy rags and more wood soon."

He regarded me from under his brows. "You took your own boat, too, when I was going to let you have one of mine."

"Sinew will build a new one, I'm sure. He'll have to, and I believe it will be good that he has something to do besides run our mill, something he can watch grow under his hands. That will be important, at first particularly."

"You're deeper than you look. Your book shows it."

I said that I hoped I was deep enough, and asked whether he had found anyone who had actually been to Pajarocu.

"Not yet, but there's a new trader in the harbor every few days. You want to wait?"

"For a day or two, at least. I think it would be worth that to have firsthand information."

"Want to see their letter again? There's nothing there to tell where it is, not to me, anyhow. But you might see something there I missed, and you hardly looked at it back on your island."

"I own only the southern part, the southern third or so. No, I don't want to read it again, or at least not now. Can you have somebody copy the entire thing for me, in a clearer hand? I'd like to have a copy to take with me."

"No trouble. My clerk can do it." Again, he looked at me narrowly. "Why does my clerk bother you?"

"It shouldn't."

"I know that. What I want to know is why it does."

"When we were in the tunnels and on the lander, and for years after we landed, I thought..." Words failed me, and I turned away.

"You figured we'd all be free and independent here? Like you?"

Reluctantly, I nodded.

"You got a farm, you and your girl. Your wife. You couldn't make a go of it. Couldn't raise enough to feed yourselves, even."

This is too painful. There is pain enough in the whorl already, should I inflict more on myself?

On Green, I met a man who could not see the inhumi. They were there, but his mind would not accept them. You might say that his sight recoiled in horror from them. In just the same way, my own interior sight refuses to focus upon matters I find agonizing. In Ermine's I dreamed that I had killed Silk. Is it possible that I actually tried once, firing Nettle's needier at him when he disappeared into the mist? Or that I did not really give him mine?

(I should have told Sinew that the needier I was leaving with him had been his mother's. It was the one she had taken from General Saba and given to me outside the entrance to the tunnels, and I have never seen a better one. Later, of course, I did.) More pain, but this I must put down. For my own sake, I intend to make it as brief as possible-just a paragraph or two, if I can.

When I returned to the sloop, I found that I had been robbed, my cargo chests broken into and my paper gone, with much cordage and a few other things that I had brought from Lizard.

Before I had left to go to Marrow's, I had asked the owner of the boat tied up beside mine, a man I had attended palaestra with, to watch the sloop for me. He had promised he would. Now I went to speak to him. He could not meet my eyes, and I knew that it was he himself who had robbed me. I fought him and beat him, but I did not get my paper back.

After that, bruised and bleeding, I sought help from Gyrfalcon, Blazingstar, and Eschar, but received none. Eschar was away on one of his boats. Gyrfalcon and Blazingstar were both too busy to see me.

Or so I was told by their clerks.

I received a little help from Calf, who swore that it was all he could give, and none at all from my other brothers; in the end I had to go back to Marrow, explain the situation, and beg to borrow three cards. He agreed, took my bond for the amount plus eight percent, then tore it up as I watched. I owe him a great deal more than the three cards and this too-brief acknowledgment.

When I had refitted I put out, sailing south along the coast, looking for something that had been described to me as a rock with a haystack on it.

While I had talked with Marrow before I was robbed, I had considered how I could learn something that His Cognizance had been unwilling to tell me when we had conferred the day I made port. Eventually I realized that Marrow was more than acute enough to see through any sleight of mine; the only course open to me was to ask him outright, which I did.

"The girl's still alive," he said, stroking his chin, "but I haven't seen or heard tell of the old sibyl in quite a time."

"Neither have I," I told him, "but I should have. She was here in town, and I was out on Lizard, mostly, and it always seemed possible I would run across her someday when I brought paper to the market." Full of self-recriminations I added, "I suppose I imagined that she would live forever, that she would always be here if I wanted her."

Marrow nodded. "Boys think like that."

"You're right. Mine do, at least. When you're so young that things have changed very little during your lifetime, you suppose that they never will. It's entirely natural, but it is a bad mistake and wrong even in the moral sense more often than not."

I waited for his comment, but he made none.

"So now... Well, I'm going to look for Silk, and he's far away if he's alive at all. And it seems even more wrong for me to leave without having seen Maggie. She's no longer a sibyl, by the way."

"Yes, she is." Marrow was almost apologetic. "Our Prolocutor's made her one again."

"He didn't tell me that." (In point of fact, he had flatly refused to tell me anything about her.) "Did you know I talked to him?"