n.o.body's Secret.

Michaela MacColl.

To Rowan, who prefers more crows in her murders.

I 'm n.o.body! Who are you?

Are you n.o.body too?

CHAPTER 1.

Emily lay perfectly still, hidden in the tall gra.s.s, her eyes closed tight. A chain of wildflowers lay wilted around her neck. But no matter how quiet she was, the bee would not land on her nose. Emily, she told herself sternly, bees are special. You can't expect the first one to accept your invitation.

The bee thrummed. A delicate brush of wings tickled her cheek. Pollen drifted into Emily's nose. She sneezed. She didn't need to open her eyes to know that her quarry had flitted away.

The crunch of nearby footsteps made her sigh. Had her mother sent Vinnie to fetch her already? In Mother's view, to play truant from housekeeping was a terrible crime. Especially on laundry day. But this was the first day Emily had felt well enough to wander; she wasn't going home yet. She willed herself to become as invisible as the blur of hummingbirds' wings.

The footsteps came closer. A shadow came between her and the sun. Someone was standing over her. She squeezed her eyes closed even tighter and thought only of the bees.

"A young lady lying hidden among the wildflowers. . . . How unexpected."

Emily's eyes flew open. A young man towered over her. Hastily, she sat up, craning her neck to see him. His silhouette was rimmed with sunlight and his fair hair glistened like strands of fine silk. Her sun-warmed skin suddenly felt chill.

"h.e.l.lo," she answered warily, glancing toward the stand of white pines that stood between her and home. Then she took a closer look at his fine clothing and her confidence returned. From the high polish on his black shoes and the gold watch peeking from the left pocket of his vest, she could tell he was from a city, perhaps Boston or even New York. He couldn't be more than twenty-twenty-two at the oldest. Harmless, she thought. "Are you a student at the college?"

The college on the hill dominated Amherst's landscape as well as the rhythms of the d.i.c.kinson family. Emily's grandfather was one of the founders of Amherst College, and her father was its treasurer.

"I'm no scholar," he said, grimacing. "I've never had any interest in a formal education."

"I'm eager to go to Mount Holyoke Seminary next year." She looked at him curiously, unable to fathom not wanting to learn everything about everything. "I've never met anyone who didn't want to go to school."

"I've been too busy living." He shrugged. "What could I learn in college that I couldn't learn traveling the world?

The world! Rather than let her envy show on her face, Emily's glance traveled from his well-trimmed hair to his shined shoes. "The civilized parts, I presume."

"I'm off to California as soon as I've finished my business here," he said.

Emily couldn't imagine the courage it would take to go to the wilds of California. "You'll need more rugged clothes if you are going West," she pointed out, gesturing to his tailored coat.

He burst out laughing, but it was a good laugh, not high-pitched and not too hearty.

"May I a.s.sist you?" He offered his hand. After a brief hesitation, she put her hand in his. He easily pulled her off the ground. She was small and he was very tall. Her hand lingered on his and for just a moment she could feel the roughness of his skin.

"Your hands prove you aren't a student," she said. "Amherst students rarely work hard enough to callus their hands."

"You're the local expert on college students?" he teased.

"I know all of them," she sighed. "My father is . . . connected with the College."

To her pleasure, the stranger didn't seem interested in her father. As if it were of no importance, he asked, "What were you doing down there, anyway?"

She paused, considering his intelligent eyes. Finally, she told the bald truth without explanation: "Hoping a bee would land on my nose."

He nodded, as though that made all the sense in the world. The silence lengthened while Emily waited for the inevitable question. Finally she said, "You aren't going to ask me why?"

He pursed his lips. "I suspect you want to know what it feels like."

His easy understanding was like a blow to the body. She nodded, speechless.

"But aren't you afraid of being stung?" he asked.

"I don't know. It hasn't happened yet." She paused. "But I'm sure it will be excruciating."

His forehead crinkled and his mouth twisted to stop a smile. "And that's a good thing?

"It's a new experience. If you are sequestered at home, as I am, new experiences are to be savored."

"Perhaps you'll be lucky," he said. "I have a relation who keeps bees. He doesn't even notice the beestings."

"I'm very sensitive to natural poisons," Emily a.s.sured him. "Of all the girls in my botany cla.s.s, I reacted most to poison oak. So if I'm stung, it's bound to be painful. But I still hope a bee will visit."

"You've picked a good spot," he said, "with all these wildflowers about."

"So far the bees have decided my nose is not the place for them." She picked a long blade of gra.s.s from her braid of red hair and smoothed her dark cotton skirt. It was short, showing several inches above her ankle. Her mother scolded her daily to wear longer dresses that were appropriate to her fifteen years. Emily usually chose the shorter dress that permitted free movement, but today she wished she had listened to her mother.

"Lavender is a favorite for bees." He looked around and spied a purple bush. He pulled a sprig from it and handed it to her. "Try this."

She secreted his offering in her pocket. "And whom do I have the pleasure of thanking for my gift?

He started to introduce himself, then seemed to think better of it. "I'm n.o.body important." He grinned, revealing a mouth of straight teeth. "Who are you?"

Emily paused. She was the eldest daughter of one of the town fathers and everyone knew her name. But this stranger didn't.

How dreary to be somebody all the time, she thought. Feeling very mischievous, she said, "I'm n.o.body too."

"h.e.l.lo, Miss n.o.body," he said with an inclination of his head. "Do you live around here?"

She nodded. "Just beyond that stand of white pines." Harmless as he might appear, it wouldn't hurt for him to know that her home and family were close.

"It's a pleasing spot. Amherst always was a pretty town."

"You aren't from around here." It wasn't a question.

"I've visited Amherst before," he said, "but I don't belong anywhere." The gleam in his eye forbade her to pity him. After a moment, he asked, "How old are you?"

"Almost sixteen," she said.

"So fifteen," he said, but in such a genial way Emily didn't take offense. "And why aren't you in school, if it's so important? Are you playing truant?"

"I go to Amherst Academy. It's just up the road off the Common, but we're between terms right now."

"And you're free to frolic with the bees? No ch.o.r.es at home calling out for you to do?"

She couldn't meet his eyes.

"I don't blame you, Miss n.o.body," he said. "I ran away from home to be free from what was expected of me."

"I'll go home soon," she said. "But only when the washing is finished!"

"Much better to make friends with bees." He looked around thoughtfully. "But if you're fifteen-excuse me, almost sixteen-you're old enough to know that if you really want to attract a bee, you need to be sweeter."

Emily felt a hint of a blush on her cheeks. "My family is always complaining of my p.r.i.c.kly disposition," she agreed.

"I'm sure that's not true." He bowed gallantly. "I meant you must taste of summer. That's what a bee wants. Close your eyes."

Emily pursed her lips, considering him and his odd request. His open visage rea.s.sured her, and with hardly any reluctance she did as he asked.

"Oh!" she said, stepping back in surprise. He had dabbed her nose with a sticky substance. She opened her eyes and saw that he held a chunk of oozing honeycomb in his right hand.

"This will summon every bee in the township." His eyebrows lifted, almost daring her to take offense.

"We'll have to see, won't we, Mr. n.o.body?" Emily crossed her eyes to catch a glimpse of her nose.

"I'll leave you to it," he said. "I must be going now."

"To California?

"Soon. First I have to take care of some family business." His genial mood disappeared like a shadow at high noon. He folded his honeycomb back in the handkerchief. She noticed a monogram with a bold "JW" embroidered with black silk thread. "Some unpleasant accounts need to be settled."

"Sometimes we have to endure unpleasantness to do the right thing," Emily agreed, recalling more than one such occasion. "It's often inconvenient."

"Unavoidable, in this case." His voice had an edge belied by his gentle manner. "But unpleasantness is the last thing a pretty girl like you should worry about."

Emily's forthright nature couldn't allow such an untruth to stand. "I'm not pretty," she said, matter-of-factly, as if it did not bother her at all. "I'm the plain sister."

"How refreshing to meet such modesty, but I think it's misplaced."

Another item to add to his list of good qualities; he thought she was pretty. She crinkled her nose, wishing it wasn't dotted with freckles. "That's very kind of you, but I think you flatter me."

"Better to flatter than to wound. That's always been my maxim." He pulled out his pocket watch, a gold affair with a "W" engraved on its back. His face displayed his consternation. "It's getting late. Good luck with your bee hunting."

"Thank you," she said. "Have a good day, Mr. n.o.body."

"And you, Miss n.o.body!" With a wave, he turned and strode away, disappearing into the hazy sunshine. Staring after him, she dabbed at her nose with a fingertip and licked it. The honey was full of clover, honeysuckle, and green apples, made by bees with discriminating taste. The hive must be nearby for the honey to be so fresh. Emily wished she had asked Mr. n.o.body where to find it.

She lay down in the gra.s.s, arranging her body straight and comfortable. Mr. n.o.body's honey was indeed the missing catalyst for her experiment. Only moments later, a large bee landed on her nose. Eyes closed, Emily concentrated on every detail. The vibration of the buzzing tickled her nostrils. She felt certain she could count each one of the bee's six legs. Its fur smelled of flowers. And all the while, her body quivered, wanting to flee before the sting.

Some keep the Sabbath going to church; I keep it, staying at home

CHAPTER 2.

Rain streamed down the windows. Translucent trails marked their pa.s.sing like prison bars. A comfortable prison to be sure, Emily had to admit, with soft chairs arranged for conversation and needlework and books close at hand.

She arranged the sprig of lavender just so in the center of the flower press and screwed down the gla.s.s plate to flatten the flower. When it was ready, she would put it in her most private of notebooks.

Emily already knew what she would write in memory of her meeting with the mysterious Mr. n.o.body: There is a flower that Bees prefer.

She didn't know which words would follow yet, but doubtless they would come to her.

With a sigh, she leaned her forehead against the windowpane, straining to make out the graveyard on the far side of the garden. On the whole, the d.i.c.kinsons were very fond of their home on North Pleasant Street with its ample rooms, wide-planked floors, and large, light-filled kitchen, but only Emily counted the graveyard as one of the house's a.s.sets. She enjoyed walking up the gentle rise to commune with its inhabitants, who were all but forgotten except for the names on tombstones, eroded by wind and weather. One of her favorite places to sit and think was at the spring-fed pond at the edge of their property that adjoined the cemetery. But not in the pouring rain, and not with Mother so suspicious.

"Emily Elizabeth d.i.c.kinson, stop staring out the window. You aren't going anywhere-not after you abandoned your sister yesterday!" Her mother was wrapped in quilts. Mrs. d.i.c.kinson half-closed her eyes, trying to ward off one of her devastating headaches.

"Mama, it's all right," protested Vinnie from her position in the armchair next to the small fire, a purring tomcat on her lap and G.o.dey's Lady's Book, her favorite fashion magazine, in her hand. As Emily had hinted to Mr. n.o.body, Vinnie was the pretty sister, full of health and blessed with an easy disposition. Almost three years younger than Emily, she was already more popular at school. Her chestnut hair was thick and lush. Mrs. d.i.c.kinson had only recently let her begin to grow it out. "I didn't mind doing Emily's share."

Emily snorted. Vinnie had indeed minded, and had told Emily so in no uncertain terms the night before in their shared bedroom. But the d.i.c.kinson children always honored their alliance against their parents, much to the dismay of their mother.

"Nevertheless, it was unfair of Emily," Mrs. d.i.c.kinson continued. "Today she has to make up for it. Have you finished dusting?"

"Yes, Mother." Emily hastily retrieved the discarded dust cloth and rubbed at the window sash without conviction.

"And you've polished the tables?"

"Yes, Mother," Emily said. Under her breath she whispered, "All the pestilence is swept away."

"Very well." Mrs. d.i.c.kinson was holding the Hampshire Gazette, the family's preferred local paper. "I see your father's business card is prominently displayed on the front page."

Emily came to look over her shoulder.